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Name: Nishi
Where: New York
Faith: Christian
Sign: Aquarius
CH-S: Fire Dragon
AIM: SelenityHime
ICQ: 21380169
Email: be83398
The Story Thus Far . . .
Currently, I am working full-time as an Attorney in midtown Manhattan, New York City, New York and learning kickboxing and Kung Fu and middle-eastern bellydance, and
working on making a music career!
Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).
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3/31 - 4/18 | 4/19 - 5/10 | 5/13 - 6/22 | 6/22 - 7/29 |
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11/13 - 12/18 |
12/19 - 2/5 |
2/6 - 3/17 |
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4/24 - 6/19 | 6/20 - 8/4 |
8/6 - 9/14 | 9/16 - 11/3 | 11/4 - 12/31 | 1/17 - 5/3 | 5/6 - 7/22 | 7/25 - 10/30 | 10/31 - 12/28 | 1/5 - 4/14 | 4/24 - 9/8 |
Personality Quizzes I Made
The Royalty Quiz
The Woman of Beauty Quiz
Woman of Legend Quiz
Books / Stories
King Arthur and all things Arthurian, Merlin, light and dark; The Crystal Cave, The Dark is Rising series, most anything to do with magic, vampires, werewolves; anything fantasy and romance-like: EMMA, Jane Eyre, Phantom of the Opera, Count of Monte Cristo, The Cask of Amontillado; almost anything Shakespeare wrote; The Harry Potter series; my childhood stories - Sweet Valley High, Twins, Kids, Babysitters Club, Boxcar Children, Bobbsey Twins, RAMONA QUIMBY series; SHERLOCK HOLMES, NANCY DREW; all books dealing with things I love from art, mystery, religion, magic, mythical creatures such as "DA VINCI CODE" and "Interview with the Vampire"
Movies
Emma, Contact, Ever After, Farenheit 9/11, Bowling for Columbine, Legally Blonde 2, Princess Diaries, Sweet Home Alabama, Matrix: Reloaded, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Staw Wars: Episode II, TOMBRAIDER I & II
All-time TV Shows
Three's Company, The Nanny, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, FRIENDS, Relic Hunter, Buffy, Xena, Clarissa Explains it All, OUT OF THIS WORLD, Wings, Mad About You, Simpsons, Married with Children, Carol Burnette Show, Anamorphs, Punky Brewster, Smurfs, Rainbow Brite, and the list could go on forever ;)
Musicals
Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, WICKED
Favorite Drinks
In the summer: starbucks' iced caramel macchaito - decaf and nonfat; lychee, boba/bubble tea/pearl milk tea; thai iced tea; lipton lemon and raspberry iced tea
In the winter: hot chocolate and starbucks' white chocolate mocha non-fat
Fave Alcoholic Drinks
Margaritas, amaretto sours, singapore slings, rum & coke and white wine - pinot
Music to relax to:
The slow version of the sailormoon theme song, the theme for Phantom of the Opera, the theme by Mono from Great Expectations and theme from Romeo and Juliet....so many more.....I can't live w/o music.....
A Fan Of:
I'm more a Democrat so I'm a fan of Bill & Hillary Clinton, Madeline Albright, Margaret Thatcher, Lee Iaccoca
Movie Actresses
Drew Barrymore
Kirsten Dunst
Kate Hudson
Nicole Kidman
Demi Moore
Gwyneth Paltrow
Julia Roberts
Reese Witherspoon
Renee Zellweger
Movie Actors
George Clooney
Johnny Depp
Matthew Goode
Tom Hanks
Ashton Kutcher
Brad Pitt
Keanu Reeves
Adam Sandler
Robin Williams
Magazines etc.:
Vogue
Cosmopolitan
Jane
Shape
Fitness
Allure
Elle
Marie Claire
Archaeology
Mysteries
Foreign Affairs Journals
The Economist
Discover
Astronomy
Sky & Telescope
National Geographic
New York Times
Commondreams.org
In Style
US Weekly
PEOPLE
Reminders:
Salons in NY to try:
Buff Spa at Bergdorf Goodman: 754 5th Ave $$$
Tiffany Nails: 903 Madison $$
Soho Sanctuary: 119 Mercer $$
Maximus Spa - Massage: 15 Mercer $$
Just Calm Down: 32 W. 22nd $$ - get grape gatsby with Essie Bordeaux polish
Ajune Spa: 1294 Third Ave $$
Frederic Fekkai: 15 E. 57th - Mandarin Supreme Pedicure $$
Salons in L.A. to try:
Kathy's Nails: 7967 Melrose $
Salons in Paris:
Mr. Ho: 3 Rue Washington $$
La Bulle Kenzo: 1 rue du Pont Neuf $
Stuff in NY
Nobu - Sushi
TrapezeSchool.com
Things to Buy
HairArt's T3 tourmaline blow-dryer
Skin Ceuticals C + E Antioxidant Treatment $115 or
Renee Rouleau Vitamin C & E Complex $60
Neutrogena Active Breathable Sunblock SPF 30 $10
Whipped Shea Butter Body Cream
Nippits
Boot Shapers
Hollywood Fashion Tape
White Pearl Bra
Bubble Maker
Lilac Round Rug
Voting Related
Vote-Smart.org
Rock The Vote.com
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Thursday, February 9, 2006
7:10 p.m.
Lots to write! I got a great gig for Valentine's Day at Alphabet Lounge! The owner is this cool guy named Babu who helped me get a spot to sing songs! :D Will be spending a lot of time Sunday and Monday rehearsing for this with Gordon & Monique's & Stuart's band SubDominance!
I have PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!! These were taken at BAR89 and a diner for breakfast and at Applebees for birthday dinner and a shot of Rick, Mek and I in chinatown for the festival. I'm wearing the pink furry tiara that Mekha bought me. Shown are all my sisters and my Ricky :)
Miyu-chan the rings ARE gorgeous neh? Thank you for the birthday wishes *BIG HUGS* :) Azure Kaze thank you! :) How was your weekend? how's your week going? Happy Belated Birthday to you! Feb 1st? We're both aquarians ;) Lydz thanks babe! *BIG HUGS* glad to hear China Night went great! :D Of course it did - you were behind it!! :D Darlene thank you SO much - I hope they all come true too! :) *HUGS* Lady awww thank you!!! Ricky is amazing and wonderful :) He knows it too ;) LOL! How're you doing? Sarah Beth addy on my amazon site??? Uh oh....hon if it's not addressed to New Rochelle I'll never get it.......but thank you SO MUCH for thinking of me!!! *BIG HUGS* Marcia thank you!!!! *HUGS* :) How're you doing?? Ebe thanks! Tell Anjali I said thank u too. Lorie I know right? :) Ricky made my birthday perfect. I hope you're well and thank you for your well wishes :) *HUGS* Kayla LOL! We still need to do a duet remember? ;) *HUGS* thank you babe :)
Alright guys I have a ton of things to get done tonight - see ya'll tomorrow :D
- Nishi
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D
Monday, February 6, 2006
10:21 a.m.
I had the BEST birthday wish come true this weekend! RICKY SURPRISED ME ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!! He arrived back from his vacation in India Friday night and when we talked on Friday night, he made it sound like there was no way he could come to NY from L.A. after an international flight - and of course, I was like - well yeah, after a 22+ hour flight he'd be so jetlagged and have to go back to work on Monday.....but, on Saturday morning - my sister Mekha and I had just woken up and were watching MTV and having breakfast when who should ring the doorbell????? There was my baby standing at the front door!!!!!!! I hadn't seen him since New Year's so this was amazing! I gave him the biggest hug and kiss. He brought gifts for all my sisters and my parents too - journals, churidhars, bracelets, and he made me a journal he kept while in India complete with pressed flowers and things from India. It was so gorgeous.
Mili and Nithi (my other 2 sisters) joined Mekha, Ricky and me Saturday night for a bday celebration in the city! We went to Bar89 on 89 Mercer Street where we enjoyed mojitos and peach martinis (SO GOOD) and had fun at the bathrooms which are unisex and are SEE THROUGH until you turn the latch on the bathroom and the doors 'fog up' - it's ingenious and so cool :) My friend James showed up - such a sweetheart. After Bar89, we went to Alphabet Lounge where I wanted to listen to live music - some band was performing and they were pretty good (no lead singer though). I spoke with the owner of the lounge and got his number which I still need to call about arranging for a performance there for myself and my bands I work with.
After Bar89 and Alphabet Lounge, we were thinking of going to Webster Hall to dance it up at the club there but Mili told me her co-workers were having a party at Central Bar right there near the East Village so we went there and turns out their upstairs floor was a lounge/dance floor and we danced to every kind of music there until 1am :) Came back sometime after 2am and crashed asleep - all of us.
Sunday morning, we had homemade breakfasts and after saying bye to Nith and Mil --- Ricky, Mekha and I headed to the city to catch the Lunar New Year celebration in Chinatown! We had SO MUCH FUN!!!!! We bought these popping canisters which when opened pop HUGE amounts of confetti everywhere. We popped firecrackers on the street and shopped for souvenirs - was SUCH A BLAST! :) Afterwards, we went to Ricky's cousin who now lives in the city - her name's Rinky and she lives way downtown and we hung out at her place and had a blast. We came home after 7pm and bought pizza from the store and baked in the oven to watch the SUPERBOWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D What an awesome game! I knew the Steelers would win. We stayed up eating pizza and watching the game and Ricky showed me all his pictures from India and when it was close to 11pm - I got ready for my tradition - within an hour of my birthday I take a hot shower, then write in my journal (hard-cover one) and then at midnight, pray to God while sitting on the floor of my room with the curtains all open wide so I can look up at Him in the heavens with the stars shining down. I prayed for everything I wished and dreamed of and wanted. Ricky and I had candles lit everywhere......it was a beautiful way to ring in my birthday........
Just woke up now - and it's my birthday morning!!! We're going to have breakfast and then I think go hiking in the woods or SOMETHING. And Ricky's flight back is at 6pm so we have to leave for the airport at 4....
I'll put up pics tonight from my party night on Saturday and from our Chinatown fun in the city yesterday.
I'm off to enjoy my birthday - I have my loved ones here with me - it's one of my best bdays EVER :D
- Nishi :)
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Ricky is BACK! :D
Saturday, February 4, 2006
02:01 a.m.
I'm up late tonight - my sister Mekha came home to keep me company this weekend - my birthday weekend - and she bought gifts! A Barnes & Noble giftcard (cause she knows what a bookworm I am ;) LOL!) and a cool numerology bookmark on the #6 cause I'm born on the 6th. It's completely accurate - even talks about how I love art and music and am creative and all this stuff which is dead on target!
We stayed up tonight watching Lindsay Lohan movies I rented through netflix and let me tell u - I LOVE LINDSAY LOHAN!!!! What a fantastic actress & singer! Yes. All you skeptics out there - believe me. Her ability to sing is beautiful. As a singer myself, I know how hard it is to vocalize correctly and hit all the notes strongly and on key...with perfect pitch and dude - she had it! I was cheering her on in my head. I'm a fan! :)
Didn't get together with Jason's band tonight - we've pushed it to next week - lots of work for me to do this weekend music-wise.....need to get press kits out to more places, need to work on a press release and may be working with this producer at this Indian satellite station on a music showcase and commercial - and not to mention do vocals and prepare materials for Jason's and Gordon's bands AND rehearse and review all of their materials.....lots to do - very little time.
My sisters and I are heading to the city tomorrow night to this lounge/bar downtown near NYU for drinks and appetizers and then heading out to the East Village to check out some live music venues because I want to try speaking with the booking agents there and give them my press kit and talk to them about the bands I work with and getting a gig there - plus I *LOVE* listening to live rock bands.
MY RICKY IS BACK TONIGHT!!!!!!!! God how I missed him. His voice....his kisses....even if it WAS over the PHONE ;) All were wonderful! :D He isn't coming tomorrow afterall - even though I thought maybe he was - nope....I heard it in his voice - there was no way - he has to be back at work Monday and with all the traveling back from India and back to L.A. - to fly out then to NY and back to L.A. would be awful on him. I miss him so much though. He had an AMAZING time in India. I can only classify it as one of those 'life-altering' experiences for him - he sounded so happy.....I love him happy :D (For those who don't know - Ricky is my boyfriend of almost 5 years who I am insanely in love with and we picked a date to get married recently :D EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D)
It's after 2am and I need to get up in 8 hours and jog 4 miles and work out good this weekend - I need to get my butt in shape for performances. Hope ya'll are havin a GREAT night!
Tomorrow is PARTY NIGHT FOR ME!!!
- Nishi
P.S. 3-day weekend for me ;) I took my birthday off Monday! But it's going to be spent praying to God and working on music. The one and only thing I want this year - is to make it......to make it.......to finally make my dreams of musical success a reality.
Wednesday, February 1, 2006
10:18 p.m.
I found what I *think* my engagement ring and wedding band will be...... :D Or at least what it will be similar to :D
 This is the setting I want for my engagement ring (or something similar to it) - it's a "Baguette, Round, and Pavé Setting" and the 3 diamond styles I liked were heart, oval and round. The setting itself is $1690. That doesn't include the cost of the center diamond. Click the image to see the full-size rings image.
And below is the matching wedding band I think :) pretty neh? :) Cost: $1808. Wish these rings weren't so expensive. I wonder how much the diamond itself will cost for my engagement ring.
My birthday is coming this Monday, February 6th. I'm going to have a small party at home Saturday night - family is coming and if my hunch is correct - I *think* my Ricky may visit! He said something about a present arriving Saturday before lunch and that it was 'very interactive' and 'had to be signed for so don't go anywhere before lunch' ;) LOL! :):):) I hope he's surprising me for my birthday weekend!! :) I'm taking Monday off from work to rest and enjoy my day! :D
I treated myself to a facial mask tonight after a long hot shower. Used avocado and oatmeal mask - my skin feels super soft and looks amazing now :) Just finished my dinner and it's time for a hot cup of tea and some of my mom's birthday cake!
LegalDiva I responded to ur msg on ur blog :) Kayla LOL! thanks babe! *HUGS* how high heels do u wear? Ebe awww i would love a letter from them! how sweet! and yes if and when another cd is done it'll definitely be up for sale! :) I've got over 100 songs all just waiting for the right time to be recorded and have music arranged - God willing. Azure Kaze thank you! *BIG HUG* I'll link your xanga blog this weekend! :D Flipper wow I haven't seen you in forever! Thank you so much! Nightingale is one of my sister's favorite too! :D How have u been? Marcia LOL! the Roswell Definitive Dreamer Dictionary? That's SO cute! Sarah Beth what'd ur parents think? I hope you got my IM msgs! :)
Alright, time for that tea and cake and my recorded eps of Regis & Kelly - this week is their Weddings for Less week with tons of tips on how to save money while planning and doing your wedding plans. :D
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
06:52 a.m.
so sleepy - I've had maybe 3-4 hours of sleep? was up past 2:30 a.m. working on the lyrics to one of Jason and Alex's compositions and recording it onto my mp3 player and uploading it - i think it has amazing potential and sounds great. Met up with Gordon and his bandmates at this pub near where I work - they were so cool and total sweethearts - turns out their rehearsal studio is right near where I work too! So sleepy - definitely a coffee day. I wish it had snowed like a blizzard today - could so use this day off. After yesterday's long court session, when I got back to work, I had to head back out to serve these papers at firms downtown by Battery Park and the NY Courthouses - with my heels on! ;) LOTS of walking. Didn't get to cool my heels till 5:45 and didn't get home till after 10pm.
Will respond to all msgs when I come home tonight. Have a great day everyone.
- Nishi
Monday, January 30, 2006
01:17 p.m.
that is IT. I am so DONE being a litigator. As an attorney - part of your job is to go to court and argue before judges (litigate the case). I am *wasting* my time and my LIFE arguing with stupid plaintiff's attorneys and idiotic judges. I should be out there making music, performing, writing and LIVING dammitall. Being stuck in a courthouse arguing over things I couldn't care LESS about SUCKS.
I am THROWING myself into my music career. I am going to start making the club rounds this weekend. Going to talk up DJs and club owners and get my cd and music and name OUT THERE.
I want to sing and dance dammit! Not be a lawyer working like this. I am re-motivated and re-energized.
I'm in Chinatown now - court only finished at 12:30 for me today. I need to eat and then head back to the office. See ya'll later tonight.
- Nishi
Happy LUNAR NEW YEAR! YEAR OF THE DOG! :D
Sunday, January 29, 2006
09:27 a.m.
It's a gray, overcast Sunday today. Looks like rain in the forecast. Today is my first TRUE free day! I was going to head into the city today and celebrate the Lunar New Year with friends in Chinatown - they're having a big parade and festival and, of course, have some dim sum! :D But I don't know if that will happen today - too many things to do, both work and music-related.
Friday I spent helping my parents pack and get ready for their trip to Florida - thank goodness Mekha came home (one of my sisters). Saturday morning was spent taking the folks TO the airport and we got stuck in HORRIBLE traffic coming back from JFK and didn't get back till after 1pm. UGH. I was so exhausted but I had to go and run all my errands yesterday so Mekha accompanied me as we went on a search at every major store we could think of that carried arts & crafts supplies because I was determined to get all the supplies I needed to make Ricky's hand-made Valentine's presents. We went to Target, HomeGoods, Liquidators, TJ MAXX, AJ WRight, Bed, Bath & Beyond and finally someone at Bed, Bath & Beyond told us that on Central Ave in Yonkers there were arts & crafts store along the left hand side so we headed on over (even though we'd never been there before) and found a HUGE arts store! :D I got fabric, pearls/beading, flowers, a glue gun, and all these accents :) We didn't get home till sometime after 4pm and after dinner, I began putting everythng together - and it's FINISHED! Hand-Made and BEAUTIFUL!!! I'll take a picture and put it up here so you can see :) I also made a hand-made Valentine complete with petals and my own mini-poems and a song called 'Petals in the Sea' I wrote back in 2003 for Ricky :)
Today, we need to return things I got and I need to finish putting lyrics to the songs Jason & Alex gave me, and then work on a Reply motion to one of my motions I did at work, and THEN tonight Mekha and I are having a movie marathon and pizza night! :D I got 'Herbie Fully Loaded', 'Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen', and 'A Cinderella Story' through Netflix - so it's a 'teen-queen/chick-flick' night ;) LOL!
I just read the sad news that Bob Woodruff - one of the ABC anchors who is part of the 2-team anchor system now at ABC (along with Elizabeth Vargas and set up after the death of Peter Jennings) was seriously injured in Iraq. The 2 take turns reporting from the field. Woodruff was in Israel last week and was to be in Iraq through Tuesday. He was injured while reporting as an embedded journalist. He and his cameraman were traveling with U.S. and Iraqi troops near Taji, about 12 miles north of Baghdad, when an improvised explosive device went off.
I have so much I want to write about current news events but I'll save it for another day. Hope ya'll are having a GREAT weekend :) Suni LOL! :) soooooo true :) *HUGS* Lisa hahahahahaah babe I SO agree! :) I miss Christopher Reeves too. I saw your emails - I'll send you my number. :D Marcia I loved Jason Behr on Roswell - was he gorgeous or what!? :) Azure Kaze a lot of ppl upset about SV too huh? RICKKYYYYYYYY my baby I saw u check our journal SEVERAL TIMES! I MISS YOU! :D Kayla I know. Thank you! *BIG HUGS BACK* :) Sarah Beth I did get a new order from one of your friends! Thank you!! *HUG* I'm so glad ppl like it!!! *BIG HUGS*
- Nishi
Reaction to SMALLVILLE - SPOILERS - WARNING
Thursday, January 26, 2006
11:52 p.m.
oh my god - I HATE SMALLVILLE - I will NEVER, EVER watch that horrible show again. The writers for that show SUCK!!!!!
ARGGHHHHHHHHHH! I haven't been this pissed off at a show since the writers of FRIENDS paired Joey and Rachel together - YUCK! That still makes me want to puke!
Everything was so perfect in that 1st half hour. There were SO MANY ways to prevent anything happening to Lana or Clark's Dad. Clark could've still told Lana and proposed yet warp-speeded to stop the accident AND he could've warp-speeded his dad to the hospital!!!
Seriously - WTF????
Worst show to ever promise a great episode and RUIN EVERYTHING we have look forwarded to.
I'm going to bed. Stupid show. Bring back Roswell. Now THAT was a show I loved.
- Nishi
Thursday, January 26, 2006
07:17 p.m.
I had the MOST annoyingest day of my LIFE. From the stupid guy who wanted formal responses and I couldn't stand up to him so had to ask my colleague to take care of him which I can't believe I didn't have the ability to handle on my own - he was going to 'steam roll' me and I knew it - I'm pathetic!, to the stupid step I tripped on (nothing happened) but in a crowded court room and felt humiliated nonetheless, the 'sympathetic' looks I got when it appeared like I was new to compliance conferences or something - and I'm not!, to not getting a table at Starbucks at Barnes & Noble at Union Square because this bitch who sees me waiting just prances on from the stairs and sees me going for the seat and makes her way there first KNOWING i was going for it - the bitch!, and the $8.40 I paid for lunch, and the stupid cuticles pulling up on my nails and being painful, and the stupid guy at work who wasted my time by coming up to tell me to go see this other guy cause he 'had something for me' and to find out it was all a JOKE because he thought the guy had a crush on me (he does) but I could care LESS!, to the fact that all these men at work PRESUME they can touch me on the arm and be SO personal with me and I HATE IT, to the idiot who sat next to me on the train coming home who had to tell me 'women should carry TWO bags, a big one and a small one' because I had a little difficulty finding my wallet in my crowded bag.
ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
And to top it off, now my dad wants to show me ALLLLLLLLL the possible things that can go wrong with the house when they go off to Florida - has to show me ALL the switches and valves and what nots and I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not in the mood for that!!!
and ya know WHAT!?? My shoulder hurts - I need a massage.
*sob* I want to start this day over again and re-do it.
I see your awesome messages for me in the comment box everybody but I soooo don't have the patience and energy to respond....forgive me? I'll respond tomorrow.
I am going to take a hot shower, make some tea, get some dinner, and watch some damn tv - SMALLVILLE & Beauty & the Geek are one - they should take my mind off everything.
- Nishi
Thursday, January 26, 2006
07:03 a.m.
good morning everyone :) up early today - slept a good 7 hours last night.....my Ricky didn't call again but that's ok - I hope he's having an amazing time on vacation in India. I have court in the Bronx today so need to get ready for it.
My horoscope said something interesting today, "because of a sun-mercury conjunction in my birth-sight, today there would be no further doubts about what it is I desired and what it is I should be doing with my life. From here on in I must focus on my number one aim and not rest until I have reached my goal." Wow. It's very true. Well, my #1 aim is to make it in the music industry - to sing & perform my songs I've written for the world. I got a new tape of songs from Jason day before yesterday and I think I'll sit down tonight and begin putting lyrics to it. He told me he's formed a label.....wanted to know if I would sing one of his songs and go to a recording studio......I'm thinking of asking them to record more of my songs to music and get more on cd.....this may just work. I have so many gorgeous songs - so many I want to get out there and heard.....
Ebenezer thank you so much! So happy Anjali enjoyed it! I got your email too! And I hope you're right - I hope I can make it! :D Sarah Beth you only got the cd YESTERDAY????? I mailed it out WEEKS ago!!! You're in my same STATE! 2-3 Days Priority Mail my foot. But I'm SO HAPPY YOU LOVED IT!!!!!!! :D Kayla you're ONLY 15 minutes AWAY!???? DUDE! You guys should be meeting up at like the mall....I wish Ricky lived 15 minutes away from me instead of in Los Angeles ;) LOL! *HUGS*
It's past 7am now and I have to jump in the shower and get ready. See ya'll tonight :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
09:54 p.m.
HE CALLED! HE CALLED!!! :D :D :D :D :D Last night, at 1 a.m. again he called - this time, I had kept the phone right next to me on my pillow, so when it rang I immediately got it! :D His voice was.......amazing......the conversation was short but sweet. There was so much I was brimming over with to tell him but what could I possibly share with him in 5 minutes? ARGGHHH! I can't WAIT till he comes back.
Only Wednesday and I feel like it's been ages.....
I listened to his audio msgs to me which had the instruction "to be played on Jan. 25th, 2006." It was a beautiful 6 1/2 minute msg of him going through old voicemail I had left him on his cell phone and him responding as if we were having a conversation. :) His voice is rich and beautiful. If I closed my eyes, I almost felt like he was here talking to me. He ended the msg by telling me how much he loved me and that he'd be with me soon.
I wish he'd come visit me after his vacation.
Azure Kaze shhhhhhhhhhhhh :) I deleted ur msg in case he reads it! :D He already visited this site on Tuesday morning :) Kayla where does your sweetheart live? How far away? Tabitha I'll give you a call Sunday or Monday and we'll arrange a day :) Lady *HUG* I hope they go by fast too - thank you for saying that! *BIG HUG*
Today was my mom's birthday! :) We got a birthday cake and ordered in food :D Was a nice day! Have court in the Bronx tomorrow. So sleepy. I don't think Ricky will call tonight. Gosh I miss him.
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
10:25 p.m.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D I was SO HAPPY TODAY! Why? Because my baby tried to call me from India last night and when he couldn't get through to me (well why would I pick up the phone at 2am anyway? ;)) he sent me emails and left msgs for me on this journal :)
He's having an awesome time in India :)
I hope he can call me tonight cause I've been looking forward to it ALL DAY! If he doesn't call I'll be so depressed tomorrow. I called up his cell just to hear his voice and left a long msg for him....which he'll only hear when he gets back here to the States.
I'm lovesick.
I threw myself into work today and accomplished a lot - even walked a total of 5 miles today - I sometimes walk during my lunch hour down to Greenwich Village (3 miles back and forth total) and 2 miles back and forth to Grand Central in the morning and evening - and as I walked down to the Village today I saw the CUTEST BLUE VESPA!!!! So I went and searched and found the VESPA I WOULD LOVE and a look-a-like called RETRO 125cc MODEL SCOOTER and like a MILLION other even cuter/sexier models on this page: ScooterPower.com/. I wish I could try them out and figure out which looks best on me. I love how cute the pink is, but love the sexy blue and black and silver ones too!
 
Kayla LOL! thank you :) what're you doing for V-Day? Sanoj I'm not sure who Rick has down there..... Ricky I hope you callllllllllllllllllll :) *MWAH* and were u SERIOUSLY wearing a MUNDIH??? OH MY GOD. Take a pic??? :D Lorie is this Lasagna Boy you talk about? :) awwwwwww! I went to your journal and saw his pic - you guys make an ADORABLE couple!!!! :) He sounds perfect for you babe :) Tabitha oh my lord - you're moving THAT far upstate? WHY WHY WHY?? There's like...no life up there....other than the mall....or apple picking....pumpkin picking too - oh and it snows - and rains - a LOT. If you're at 55 & Madison we should TOTALLY meet up! Grand Central's at 42nd/Madison about - I can meet you on 53rd/5th Avenue one day after work? Miyu-chan I want ALLL the details of your sordid revenge! :D MUWAHAHAHHA :D
10:30 and I'm going to watch my pre-recorded Regis & Kelly :) See ya'll tomorrow! G'night :)
- Nishi
Monday, January 23, 2006
11:05 p.m.
a dozen red roses - that's what was waiting for me at work when I got back from court today :) Ricky had pre-arranged to have roses delivered to me today. I love you baby! I can't wait for you to come back!
I have my own special surprise for Ricky for Valentine's Day :D I'll tell you guys what it is but I'll need to 'white it out' - so highlight the empty space below to see what I'm doing for Ricky's V-Day :D Ricky, if you're reading this - DON'T because otherwise your VDAY gifts from me will be spoiled!
I placed a Valentine's Day ad in the LA Times - both in print in the newspaper for 4 days and in their online edition too! :D
I am hand-making him rose-scented sachets to place in his drawers
I am making him his own Valentine's Day card - it has velvet lining, lace lining, delicate ribbons, tiny roses, and has layers of these gorgeous intricate/lace-like designed hearts
I am cooking him decorated V-Day cookies and chocolate fudge brownies!
I am hand-making a huge valentine/heart-shaped container (well I'll buy a heart-shaped ceramic or porcelain container) and decorating it all by hand with tiny roses/flowers I plan to glue onto it as well as tiny pearls and other things in which, inside, I'll place all the things I am making him :)
Thinking of buying a beautiful journal and filling its pages with love poems I'll write for him :) That's gonna take a long while too!
Well that's everything! What do you guys think?
I need to head to sleep. See ya'll tomorrow :)
- Nishi
Monday, January 23, 2006
06:57 a.m.
Happy Monday everyone. Or not so happy - it's a rainy/snowy/icy Monday here in New York. I have to go to court in the Bronx in this mess! It's very cold in the 30's out there - better dress warm.
I wish we had today off too - I spent so much of yesterday taking care of my sprained back - it's still sore and hurts.........put a hot water bottle on it last night and took a Motrin. Hope I can do all right at court and work.
This is Day 3 of Ricky being gone in India. He and I began a journal just for him and me (private one) and we would write to e/o on it - it started out as a way for us to jot down places we wanted to take each other to in L.A. & N.Y. but now we fill it with loving msgs to e/o throughout the day. :)
Well I've been writing to him a lot in it.....*sigh* I really miss him :( I love him with all my heart. I can't wait for him to come back.
7am - it's so dark out still. Thin coating of snow on the grass. I like that it's still dark out today - it makes me feel like I'm not rushed....like I can take my time this morning - the world is still sleeping and quiet.....that's how it feels.
Have a great day everyone - see you tonight :)
- Nishi
Sunday, January 22, 2006
08:52 a.m.
Good morning everyone :) You guys have to try this out before the Beta expiration date: SphereXP and SphereXPlorer. The first is a windows desktop replacement that places everything on your desktop in 3-D mode. The second is a browser window that lets you open all pages in 3-D mode within its browser.
The idea is that you are in the center of it all and you can turn the webpage using your right mouse button in a 360 to find a dozen pages you opened. It skews things in different shapes, zooms in and out. There're still LOTS of bugs and problems that make it not ready yet for full use but it has a LOT of potential to be something great! :D
I love technology :)
Speaking of, I've been scouring magazines and online tech sites to find my dream phone. It's so hard hard. Everytime I find one, I learn it's too clunky, large or has low battery life or doesn't have the cool pull-out txt-msging tray I want. This is the closest I could find to what I wanted: the >PPC-6700 UTSTAR Pocket PC.
However, I wish the product below - the PC-Ephone - which is a foreign market product - was available in the U.S. and smaller.
  
This came out in 2001 for $999 and the website through which it was sold no longer works. The PC-EPhone is a PDA-cellphone and it had Windows Explorer 4.0 and all the PDA features you'd find today in every smart-phone offered but the best thing about this was that it came with a pen/stylus that, with bluetooth technology, you could hold up to your ear and make & answer calls and talk (it showed the number too) and the phone itself could be in your pocket or elsewhere and the pen also had numbers on it so you could dial using just that. The phone itself had handwriting recognition, and to make a call using the phone you'd bring up a touch-phone "pad" you could tap the numbers on. Of course, the cell phone integrated to the name and address functionality so you could store thousands of listings. This would have been like the ULTIMATE phone in 2001 and I still think it's the ULTIMATE phone today - all it needs is a camera & video function. It's so unique looking and COOL. I saw it in a person's hand though in an online picture and it looked large. My hands are small compared to that guys and I would want this phone small enought to fit my hands too.
Ah well, back to the search. Until I can find the best cellphone technology has made for me :D
It's Sunday morning and my back still hurts horribly. I ain't going anywhere today. We went to Connecticut to see my sisters and I think the long car ride made my back worse. Saw Mek & Nith and that was great :) Mili and Mek and Nith will all come for my birthday in February (hopefully) - I still need to find a club/bar to have the party at.
Miyu-chan ricky is awesome isn't he? :D *HUGS* how're u babe? I read your blog and laughed out loud! :D Hope ur feeling better now. Darlene the problem isn't a calling card, it's bad phone service where he is and inability to call often because of constant traveling. It's ok - he left me a great care package :) Lydia oh my god! thank god you're ok! stupid snow! *HUGS* Sarah Beth awwww u know I would LOVE TOOOOOOOOOO :D Tabitha hahahaha that's very true!! :D My parents are both 54 now and yet they still look like they're in their late 30's/early 40's.
Ok it's after 9:30 and I've been writing in this journal for an hour! ;) I need to get started on my day. See ya'll later! :D
- Nishi
Friday, January 20, 2006
10:31 p.m.
wow - so MUCH to write - how did I not find the time to update. Wednesday was the day of the collossal winds. Wednesday morning in NY we experienced 60 m.p.h. winds - the kind that actually almost PICKED me up and swept me and other people down a couple feet while we waited on the train station platform to go to NYC. That morning, because of the dangerous winds, trees fell over onto the MetroNorth tracks and caused all MetroNorth train service in and out of the city to be suspended. I had court in Brooklyn that morning and didn't wind up making it there till almost 12noon! Needless to say - I missed all my case calls on the calendar but found the supervisor and took care of finding out what happened on the cases. Miraculously, it all worked out.
Because I stayed up so late on Tuesday night, I went to bed super early on Wednesday (think 9pm!) and woke up super refreshed on Thursday - after court in the Bronx, went to serve an Order to Show Cause in the financial district of Manhattan and picked up the latest issues of PC WORLD and a ton of other computer magazines because I'm thinking of finally buying a laptop. Yes - me, Miss Loves Technology, doesn't own a laptop because I do all my web designing and computer-related activities in the comfort and privacy of my home - there was never a need for a laptop cause I was always home and I hated the idea of carrying a heavt latop and case all over the place when I did everything at home anyway.
However, now that I'm always out and about at court (and spend countless hours at Starbucks ;)) I think later this spring or ealy summer, after I save up enough for it, I'll purchase a laptop. I have my eye on the ASUS W5Ae and the Sony VAIO® TX670P/W Notebook.
I learned about the ASUS W5Ae in PC World's magazine - how gorgeous is this laptop shown here to the left? It's a sexy laptop you can buy from TigerDirect.com.
It has a 12" screen, weighs 3.63 pounds, has built-in WiFi, Bluetooth, a 1.3 megapixel swivel webcamera right on the screen, USB 2.0, SD/MMC/MS-Pro slots, and CD-RW/DVD Optical drive and has 40GB of space! I'm IN LOVE!!!!!!!
This is the SONY VAIO - it also has built-in WiFi but in addition has a DVD+R Double Layer/DVD±RW optical drive, 1GB RAM and 60GB hard drive. There's no camera but it's only 2.76 pounds and has 4.5-7 hours of battery life! That's what I want in laptop - long battery time.
Now, what do you suppose I'd CARRY gorgeous laptopbs like the ones above? Why in a Lala Suede Laptop Handbag of course! :D The one I want is in lavender shown here to the left - only one prob - it's like $395!!!!!! I'm gonna have to do a million threshold motions to *allow* myself the luxury of purchasing such a bag when I have so much debt to pay off first.
Well this is why I said it would be a late spring/summer purchase. I'm gonna be a good girl and pay down debt first before I make any purchases. I can live without a laptop till summer.
It's now Friday and my Ricky has left for vacation in India and sent me a care package in the mail!!! I was a crying, blubbery mess with him on the phone - so sad and depressed about his leaving to a foreign country and NO ABILITY TO TALK for 2 whole weeks. I know, I know - it's just 2 weeks but my parents will be on vacation in Florida for one of those weeks and I'm scared of being alone at home (I'm paranoid and fear the house noises). To make me feel better when my parents wouldn't be home and knowing how terrified I get being alone in a house, especially without him to talk to on the phone being in India, he sent me the most beautiful care package filled with 2 of his shirts, a cd filled with music I'd love and audio tracks of messages he made for me which I have to play on certain dates and he also wrote me letters in envelopes I can only open on certain days - he even planned egreetings to arrive on certain days to cheer me up. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!! :) He's the most amazing, perfect boyfriend/fiance/husband I could have ever asked for.
I hurt my back tonight helping my dad lift our old tv and take it to the curb for pick-up tomorrow. My lower back is PAINFUL - it hurts to walk, even sitting now.....GOD - how could I have done this???
I need to rest now and use a hot water bottle on my back. I need to head to sleep. May be visiting my sisters in Connecticut with the folks tomorrow. Lots happening with 2 of my sisters who are living together there.
Good night all. Forgive me if I don't respond to msgs - very tired. *HUGS* will respond tomorrow.
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
11:47 p.m.
oh i should sooooo be asleep but the girl that I am, I'm up looking through cnet.com, geek.com, thinkgeek.com and x-tremegeek.com. Why? Because I *LOVE* hi-tech gadgets. I'm looking for the newest mp3 players and the latest multi-functional dvd/cd/mp3/PDA/wi-fi/bluetooth-compatible gizmos. So far, I've decided my Creative Nomad Muvo TX FM is the best mp3 player I ever bought because of the 1GB of space, its functionality, case, and the fact it records from the radio, helps me record songs I think up during the day, and plays ALLL my songs with no problems. The only thing I wish is I had longer battery-use - but it could be my crappy batteries I buy ;)
To give u an idea of some of the cool gadgets on the market, check out the following links:
- Mini Bug Detector <-- for securing your hotel/office/etc free of audio bugs (like you're a CIA agent ;))
- CD/DVD Shredder - to get rid of cds/dvds that carry important info you don't want in the wrong hands - think of where you're hiding all those private home videos ;) LOL!
- Pen Activated Voice Recorder you remove the pen and the tape recorder starts recording - perfect to hide in your coat pocket and recoed people unawares
- Gustbuster Umbrella this Umbrella actually allows wind to pass through without letting rain in - and it's huge and says it won't ever get blown out like regular umbrellas. At $29.95 it's worth a try I think
- and last, but certainly not least, Swiss Memory USB it's a Swiss Army Knife only with a USB FLASH DRIVE and scissors and what not ;) This is a must have I think ;)
There're tons more cool gadgets - just check sites like cnn.com or msn.com or any news site for 'tech trends.'
Ok almost midnight and I MUST sleep now. Court in Brooklyn tomorrow - lots going on - sooo not looking fwd.
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
01:44 p.m.
afternoon guys and dolls :) Back from court and writing from the office during lunch. Had a nice day - it's Friday, January 17th, 2006. One of the things I contemplated this past New Year's Eve was how I wanted to live each day fully - to it's full potential and not waste any day. All we have is each precious moment of each day we're given. If we don't live it and love it, we're just wasting precious time. I want to FEEL I've lived January. Last year flew by I think....but I know I lived it. Each day I want to do something new, different - experience something wonderful and feel like I've LIVED a day. I'm starting to realize my age and coming to the realization I'm not gonna be this young and in great physical condition forever. One day I'll be 60 and *shiver* wrinkly. BLECH. I need to hit Duane Reade and CVS and stock up on anti-wrinkle creams. I definitely will not take to growing old well. I'm gonna fight it every step of the way. I'll always be as young as feel and dammit - I feel 26/27 right now :D Doesn't hurt I look 19 ;) LOL! :D
Anyways, how cute is Matthew Fox of LOST? WOWza. I'm reading the paper of the Golden Globe coverage and I just saw this advertisement for ExtravaGift.com - it has 'extravagant' gift ideas like hot air balloon rides etc. Gave ME lotsa ideas :) mmmm back to Matthew FOX ;) LOL! My Ricky is a fox actually - he's really gorgeous. He made me this huge cut out picture thing of various pictures of us from the past 4.5 years and I was admiring his jaw line and beautiful features. He's a fox in my book - anyday.
Sarah Beth definitely babe! Let's chat this weekend! *HUG* :)
It's only 1:43....still lotsa time before I have to go back to lunch. As I was traveling down to Harlem to switch to the subway to go to Yankee Stadium (which is where the Bronx Courthouse is, I was thinking about how when I was little I LOVED the city. The pulse..the rhythm...and now I was here....walking around in the city today I just KNEW that I was definitely meant to be here - possibly even live here. I want a home here in the city and also in L.A. I'm going to make it happen - somehow.
Listening to Eminem on the radio - love his songs.
See ya'll later :)
- Nishi
Monday, January 16, 2006
09:54 p.m.
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day everyone :) I had a wonderful day off! Worked on 2 of the band's songs - such great rock songs! One of them I got very political on - it's come out written very anti-war and invokes religious messages as well - still not finished with it cause it's a 6 minute song to put lyrics to! I pictured a child in tokyo during WWII when bombs were dropped and the fear and senselessness associated with death and war in those moments.
Am watching the Golden Globes now - Desperate Housewives won ANNDDDDD RACHEL WEISS WON!! For Constant Gardener! She SO deserved that because she was AMAZING in that movie! :D My favorite speeches so far were the one by the guy from HOUSE who pulled out 3 pieces of paper with persons he had to thank from his pocket ;) and the one by the guy who starred in the 40 Year Old Virgin - he pretended his wife wrote his speech for him and in it he thanks her like 9 million times! Was hysterical :D
Drinking a dessert tea called 'Almond Sunset' by celestial seasonings. It smells so delicious and is just perfect for bedtime :) I have court in the BRONX tomorrow so don't have to get up till 7am! :D
I'm reading a book called 'The Little Big Book For Brides' - a gorgeous book filled with advice and everything you need to be ready for a wedding. :) Ricky and I are SO good :D He's so loving and just PERFECT :D The date is still May 20, 2007 :D YAAHOOOOOOO! :D We're making each other things for Valentine's Day - I have a beautiful package planned :D
My birthday is coming up on Feb. 6th and so I'm going to have a bday party on Feb. 4th! Gotta get planning that too! But first, the songs for the band and my own songs - #1 priority is the music and getting the gigs ready.
Alex first of all, thank you! And yes, you can download the songs to your ipod but make sure it's not uploaded anywhere or shared with anyone. :) *HUGS* Azure Kaze that sounds way cute! Would love to see images from the book! :D Marcia he did but it's also tied into many pagan myths as well. I'll explain the full mythology and real St. Nicholas in another entry :D
Back to the Globes! Good night all! :D
- Nishi
On Yule
Sunday, January 15, 2006
10:05 p.m.
ahhhhh *sighs happily* :) just watched the 1st 4 episodes of Season 1 of Gilmore Girls, made decaf starbucks coffee, had some of my dad's leftover birthday cake from last weekend and life is good :D Lots I want to write about. Saw this movie "The Fairy Faith" which is a documentary about people who believe in faeries. It's eye opening and you have to watch it with an open mind. The belief in faeries is very matter of fact in Ireland. It's an 'of course!' thing - the way christians say 'does the devil exist? Of course!' The same way they answer 'Faeries exist - of course!' They believe these spirits are on the hills, and that there are air faeries, fire faeries, water fairies and earth faeries and each of these have their own classifications (earth faeries include forest/mountain/boggarts etc). I did a lot of research on them after the movie and was amazed by how many (and how much!) people believe faeries exist. It's definitely worth renting through netflix. The biggest lesson was about being in-tune with nature, feeling the energies of this planet, and being aware that there is more to this world and life than just our own human endeavors.
On a similar note, did you guys see the full moon this weekend? It's called the 'Moon After Yule' (and also the 'Wolf Moon' by Native Americans). Yule is NOT Christmas but it's celebrated in the same way. I did a lil research on the 'Yule Moon' and found the following interesting explanation/history: "The full moon after Yule is considered the most powerful of the whole year. Yule is the celebration of the death of the Holly king and the rebirth and renewed reign of the Oak king. When the pagans of old were taken over by Christian rule, the Christians found it impossible to convert the pagans. They eventually allowed the pagan peoples to keep their holidays as long as they did them in the name of their Lord, Jesus Christ. This is why Christians celebrate the birth of their lord on this night, even though Christ was born in the spring with the lambs. The Yule log, made of oak, is burned as sacrifice of the old dead Holly king. This day is a light festival, with as many lights on the tree and altar as possible to celebrate the coming of the new child. Mistletoe is hung because in the ancient days couples would play out their trial marriages on this day. Ceremonies were held beneath Oak trees strung with garlands of mistletoe." Fascinating huh?
I did more research on the Holly King and Oak King mythology and learned that "Yule is the Lesser Pagan Sabbat that acknowledges and celebrates the rebirth of the Sun. The Holly King and the Oak King are part of Celtic mythology, and they represent two sides to the Greenman, or Horned God. They battle twice a year, once at Yule and once at Midsummer (Litha) to see who would rule over the next half of the year. At Yule, the Oak King wins and at Litha, the Holly King is victorious and thus ensures that the light and warmth of the sun will begin to increase each day."
"Another version of the Holly King and Oak King symbolism, is that they do not directly switch places twice a year, but rather both live simultaneously. The Oak King is born at Yule, and his strength grows through the spring, peaks at Beltane and then he weakens and dies at Samhain. The Holly King lives a reverse existance, and is born at Midsummer, waxes more powerful through the summer and fall, to his peak at Samhain. His influence then lessens until Beltane, when it is his turn to pass away. In this perspective, the two Kings enjoy a more intricate interplay of power and is perhaps a better illustration of their duality. At any given time, they both exist but have varying levels of influence throughout the year. Either way, each King represents different ideas. The time of the Oak King is for growth, development, healing, and new projects. The Holly King's time is for rest, reflection, and learning."
"There is a custom that on Christmas Eve an enormous log of freshly cut wood called the Yule log would be fetched and carried to the house with great ceremony. On Christmas Eve, the master of the house would place it on the hearth, make libations by sprinkling the trunk with oil, salt and mulled wine and say suitable prayers. In some families, the young girls of the house lit the log with splinters from the preceding year which they had carefully tucked away. In other families, the mother had this privilege. It was said that the cinders of this log could protect the house from lightning and the malevolent powers of the devil. Choices about the variety of wood, the way in which it was lit and the length of time it took to burn constituted a genuine ritual which could vary from region to region."
"While Yule is most often juxtapositioned with Christmas today, Yule and Winter Solstice celebrations far outdate the Christian Christmas celebration. December 25th, the popular date to celebrate Christ’s birth, was also the birthdate of Mithras, the ancient Persian Sun god of light and the guardian against evil. Christianity didn’t even celebrate “Christmas” until the fourth century, and even as late as 1740, it was a normal workday for the Puritans in the New World of America. They viewed Christmas as a Pagan holiday, and forbid any celebrations and/or decorations of acknowledgement of the day. Most of today’s Christmas traditions are Pagan in nature, derived from both old Yule and Solstice traditions, and include holly wreaths, decorated christmas trees, the Yule log, kissing under the mistletoe, and the jolly old man himself, Santa Claus."
In olden times, they brought real live fir/pine trees into the house. Living trees were brought into the home to provide a warm place of residence for the wood spirits, who would then look kindly upon the family during the year. Foodstuffs such as apples and cinnamon sticks were hung on the branches so the spirits would have plenty to eat in this barren time of year, and bells were hung from the branches so that their tinkling could announce the presence of a spirit. The five pointed star (the pentagram), symbol of the five elements of earth, air, fire, water, and spirit, would be placed at the top of the tree and crystals hung to represent icicles."
Fascinating stuff huh?
Lady I'll try not to miss it! I wished I could've caught the re-runs of the past episodes I missed today but I was still cleaning. Serena Diamond thanks babe *BIG HUGS* back :) what're u upto this weekend? Marcia *HUG* thank you! Everything is super now :) How're you? How's your weekend been? Caro-chan, RMN, Azure Kaze, Kayla and Stephanie thanks guys!! I'm excited too! :D Probably won't start planning everything for a while though but I'm getting books all ready to read :D Darlene thank you! and congrats on teaching art to students in Brooklyn!! I am VERY happy for you!!! :D *HUGS* Sarah Beth one day we need to get together and spend the whole day being girls - go to a spa and get facials, massages and those pedicures where they use like fruits and chocolate ;) LOL! And afterward, there's this AMAZING tea and cake place I know I'd take you too!
10pm now and I've been sneezing up a storm - bet I'm getting sick - nose is all stuffy. Dammit. I need to send songs to the guys in the band and do lyrics.....maybe I should do this tomorrow....that sounds better. I need rest after this long day. See ya'll tomorrow!
- Nishi
Sunday, January 15, 2006
10:57 a.m.
it snowed! it snowed! but just like an inch and it's still snowing right now - just very lightly. It's pretty waking up to see it on the ground. I just woke up - time for breakfast and the morning paper. I only mopped the floors yesterday, so today I have to clean the bathroom, and take down the christmas tree (yes it's still up :P). Still have to work on the song lyrics too - Wednesday looks like the best next day for rehearsal with the band. Project Runway is on today (all the episodes I missed) from 1-4 and they're also showing the Odyssey from 3-7. Going to set my vcr to record! Desperate Housewives is on too at 9 - that show's got me hooked! So much to do and I just want to enjoy my Sunday off. But I get tomorrow off too so I shouldn't complain! ;) Shall respond to all msgs later. *HUGS* to everyone.
- Nishi
Saturday, January 14, 2006
07:33 a.m.
good morning everyone :) the drama of last night is over - whew! Woke up early (7am) on this Saturday morning - it is one ferocious day outside - it's raining and storming like crazy - could hear the wind rushing past the house. The trees are swinging and shaking and it's so dark outside. The weather's predicting snow tonight and tomorrow (just a couple inches).
It's a good thing I'm up early - lots to do today: sweeping & mopping the floors, cleaning the bathroom, putting together press kits and researching venues again and then mailing everything out, putting lyrics to and rehearsing Jason & Alex's songs, and rehearsing and recording my own songs for them.
Thank you everyone for your congratulations :) Nothing's been formally decided but Ricky and I know what we want. :) *HUGS* to all.
I'm off to start the day. See ya'll later :)
- Nishi
Friday, January 13, 2006
10:15 p.m.
ok everything's fine now. I think.
sheesh. I'm gonna zone out to tv.
- Nishi
Friday, January 13, 2006
09:18 p.m.
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I am so freakin angry at him right now. And after I had such a nice day and night too. Met with Jason (keyboardist) and Alex (guitarist) and they're amazing musicians. I think I can work really well with their songs and they with my music. But right now, I am pissed as all hell. I just got home. i really don't need this right now. So sick of this crap. It's always something. Can't even go a week without a fight and ya know, it takes a huge toll on me. Just when I think everything's super and wonderful - stuff like this happens and often at that - twice today alone! I need to cool off. Being this angry is going to give me forehead wrinkles.
- Nishi
and the moon shines tonight
Thursday, January 12, 2006
08:38 p.m.
I have amazing, super-happy news :D My darling Ricky and I picked a date. May 20, 2007. :D I was walking in Chelsea down 9th Avenue during lunch and commented to Ricky on the phone that this May 20, 2006 would be our 5 year anniversary. We were like 'wow, yeah, 5 years...so long and how wonderful it was we made it this far.' Then, all of a sudden he just said 'Why don't we do it May 2007' and I said 'What? You mean our wedding?' And he said 'Yeah.' :D And I said 'OK!!!' :D :D :D WE HAVE A DATE! WE HAVE A DATE! YAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D Just like that - we have a wedding date! And it falls on a Sunday! And it's late spring/early summer which is a time I LOVE! And it's late May which means most people will be able to come! I am *so* happy with that date. I feel no anxiety, no rushiness, no jitters - just pure happiness and contentment. I love that man with every fiber of my being.....he's going to be my husband...oh my god....my husband - such a big word.....but...he fits it perfectly :D :D :D WE HAVE A DATE!!! On May 20, 2007 - it will mark our 6th year together as a couple....and the beginning of our life as H&W! LOL! :) This is simply wonderful :D
*sigh* :) I'm very content :) I'm sitting here now wearing this beautiful white silk robe and matching long silk slip/nightgown and I feel so happy about everything right this second. I wish this moment lasts forever :D With that said, I have to tell you ladies out there - lesson #1: always treat yourself like a queen. This means doing things to help make you feel better, relieve stress, beautify your life, and make you wiser, stronger & better. This past weekend, I spent a good 8 hours completely organizing my drawers, closet, my finances (got receipts, statements etc all in tidy folders), my bags/purses, wallets, my coats, my everything is in perfect shape now and I didn't stop there - I have these beautiful scented vanilla, rose and lavendar sachets which I put into all my drawers - guess what flower my lingerie and nightgown drawers have the delicious scent of now? :) AND I misted Victoria's Secret 'Pure Seduction' body spray onto my pillows last night and I slept like a baby - seriously - did not wake up once. I'm very feminine so I like these kind of things. When I came home tonight it was like heaven to walk into my pretty room all clean and smelling nice and I felt so calm and relaxed. Took a hot shower right away, did my nails, helped mummy with dinner, and now just finished eating and am going to settle in to watch Beauty & the Geek, talk to my Ricky and read a book on Mayan mythology which I'm reading as research for one of the books I'm writing.
Saw the 'Search for the new contestants' last night on Beauty & the Geek and it was SO funny - I *LOVE* Lauren from the first season - she is SOOOO funny!!!! She just says and does the most funniest things that leave me cracking up! Can't wait for tonight's premiere :)
Am in Brooklyn for court tomorrow, will probably get out early from work in honour of the 3 day weekend for MLK day Monday - but I'm going to head to Queens to meet my band-mates! :D Can't wait to jam with them and start rehearsing music together.
Lydia *HUGGGGGGGGG* oh my god don't be sad! I just read my comment to Sarah Beth and it looks a lot harsher than I meant it - you know I adore you and love u like a sister! We're road trip warriors remember? :) *HUG* I was saying the 'annoys me' thing with my 'scowling face' on which is my playful way of being annoyed - it just came across sounding a lot harsher - I didn't mean it that way though. *HUG* I'm sorry. PLEASE don't be sad. You must be going back to Rochester now. Have a safe trip back sweetie. When you come back for your next break let's hang out ok? :) And I am *really* happy about you and you know who *cough* sho *cough* :)
Kayla I love your blog layout :) I saw FF Advent Children and loved that :) Hope the rain lets up for you! *BIG HUGS* Marcia I don't remember Lars.....but that's very cool! :D How're you tonight? *BIG HUGS* Sarah Beth YAAAYY! SUMMER!!! I'm a member of the Museum of Natural History too for the planeterium cause of all the courses I take there. Let's go!!! :D
I have one of the window blinds open cause I wanted the moon to shine in - full moon (almost) and it's gorgeous :) Listening to 'When Soul Meets Body' by Death Cab for Cutie - such a pretty song :) Ok time to watch Beauty & The Geek. Night everyone! :D
- Nishi
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
09:53 p.m.
it was one of those mornings - cloudy, gray, overcast with the promise of rain. Woke up later than usual because I stayed up talking to my darling Ricky late, and papa and I thought for sure I'd miss my train to the city but miraculously, my train was late this morning so I managed to catch it. Got to Supreme Brooklyn and had 4 things in court all in different rooms and it was one hectic mess!
I walked some of the way back to work and passed through 7th Avenue South - somewhere between Jane Street and Horatio (7th Avenue South is also 8th Avenue) and found this place called 'Chocolate Bar' - and being the crazy chocolate fiend I am, I stepped in, fully intending to only get the business card - and I did - and then I got tempted and spent $3.25 for a small caramel hot chocolate. Pricey - but OH SO GOOD. That was the most satisfying cup of hot chocolate I have had in AGES. In 'French Women Don't Get Fat' - the author taught readers that the reason why French women can indulge in super high-fat chocolates, croissants, baguettes and cheese was because they only bought the BEST *quality* and in small portions. Eating just 1 piece of rich premium chocolate made you 100% satisfied whereas eating a piece of, say - Snickers - left you wanting MORE because it wasn't as high quality chocolate. So this hot chocolate I had was just like that - like high quality premium hot chocolate with milk that left me full and satisfied and not wanting anything else. You can visit their website at www.chocolatebarnyc.com :)
Back at work, I found that this one motion/order I did - the judge had signed it and sent it back to me with instructions that it be 'personally served' upon the plaintiff's attorneys which means you have to go to the plaintiff's attorney's office and deliver it to them in person. Their office was on Wall Street so I trekked down there and luckily - I avoided all the rain all day until I came back to work and it was POURING like torrential rains! Stayed late and worked on a threshold motion and after running some errands, finally came home.
Just took a long, hot shower and lotioned up (I really love 'Curel' body lotion in Honey/Vanilla Shea Butter) and just had dinner. Now going to sit down and watch Regis & Kelly, Friends, and my recorded ep of tonight's 'Beauty & the Geek' :)
Ricky sweetheart I miss you too *MWAH* Sarah Beth Lydia annoys the hell out of me with those comments she makes. One of these days, I'm gonna kick her ass. Good thing we love her. Azure Kaze that soap sounds cool! tell me more or find out the name if you can :) *HUGS* Marcia what character did he play on Days??? I've watched that soap since like 1987! Dancer...dancer....did he look latino? with dark hair pulled in a pony tail?
oooooooooooooooooooooh! OH MY GOD - it just started to thunderstorm! YAAAHOOOOOOOO!!!!! Thunderstorms are one of my most favorite things on earth. I love the sound, the lightning, the excitement. :) I've written some amazing songs and amazing stories during thunderstorms. Ok time to go. Good night all :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
07:38 p.m.
I'll be in court every day this week looks like - very busy week. I have to push my meeting with the guitarist to this weekend - hopefully we can do that. His name's Jason and he has some great rock songs with gorgeous music - I'll be singing them at the gigs in addition to my own music. Can't wait! So excited! :)
I came home a little while ago and must have dinner. Gilmore Girls is on tonight as is The People's Choice Awards :D I SOOO need to rest and relax!
- Nishi
Monday, January 9, 2006
11:01 p.m.
how handsome was George Clooney on tonight's Critic's Choice Awards? That man has the most beautiful eye lashes - did you SEE his eyes?? I'm so jealous of his eye lashes!
I wanted Rachel Weiss (sp?) to win the best supporting actress role for Constant Gardener - she was amazing in that movie!
Caught majority of Emily's Reasons Why Not as I flipped back and forth between it & the awards show and my review is "SEE!" :) It's funny, quirky and interesting, fresh and not at all cliched! Missed Project Runway's re-run tonight (which I missed last week too because of the USC game :( still very sad they lost) in order to watch my recorded tape of Live with Regis & Kelly (I love them!) and Days of Our Lives and FRIENDS. 'Days' has completely stopped being the show I loved in the 80's and 90's. Jack and Jennifer are so messed up (at least Bo & Hope are still together but now they're crying over their son?) and why the heck is Frankie back in Salem with Jenn anyway??? I loved JACK! Agh I give up - same old story lines, love triangles, plots blah blah. I give up on soap operas.
On TV these days, I tune in most of the time for shows like 'Stacked', 'What I Like About You', 'Twins', (now Emily's Reason's Why Not), (soon Beauty & the Geek), Project Runway, Supernatural (except for the scary parts), Ghost Whisperer, Desperate Housewives and Smallville.
Time to talk to my Rickers and sleep. Night everyone & *HUGS* to Miyu-chan & Sarah Beth And Lydiiaaaa chipmunk??? u know what I think of when I read YOUR journal? I think of this old fart of a guy who smokes cigarattes and has a gravelly voice and is totallllly jaded and snarls a lot. Yeah. :P
- Nishi :)
Monday, January 9, 2006
06:26 p.m.
good evening everyone :) just got home - going to change into something super snuggly and warm and do some stretches - I walked a lot today and my calves feel it. Spent lunch walking to Greenwich Village and back to work (3 miles total) and exploring the Village - so many fun places I want to take Ricky to when he comes & visits me next. Greenwich Village is one of my most favorite neighborhoods in the city because of it's beautiful setting (trees everywhere) and it's cool shops (clothes, antiques), bookstores, coffee-houses and TONS of great places to eat - it's filled with all things unique and quaint, and eclectic and yet at the same time modern, hip and fun! I love it! :D
Had court in the Bronx today, have court tomorrow in NY Supreme - the prettiest state court in all of NY as far as I'm concerned (other than the Federal Court of course) - it has beautiful art at the top of the ceiling at 60 Centre Street.
Meeting the guitarist/keyboardist on Wednesday in Queens - tonight I'm going to relax - tomorrow, I'll rehearse my songs.
Tonight Emily's Reasons Why Not is premiering and at 8 it's also the Critic's Choice Awards - and u know how much I love awards shows ;) that snuggly nightgown is calling me - time for dinner and a hot, hot cup of cocoa and time to enjoy my Monday night after a long day at work! :)
- Nishi
Sunday, January 8, 2006
11:35 a.m.
I've been a very busy girl for the past week. Spent yesterday putting cd packages/press kits together to mail to clubs/live-performance venues and I'm still not done! Have to go get more 'clear folder' binders. Everybody came home Friday to celebrate my dad's birthday. I think we're going out to lunch today? Watched 'Barbie as Rapunzel' with Mek last night and it put me in such a feel good mood :) And after it was over, I was sharing with Mek these love letters from this book of 50 greatest love letters - and I came across one by Elizabeth Barrett Browning who is one of my most favorite poets ever. I fell in love with her and Robert Browning's love story when I was 14 and one day, by chance, stumbled across 'The Diary of Elizabeth Barrett Browning' in my high school library. I couldn't put that book down! Their life and love had been SO fascinating. I own the books now in my own collection and haven't read them in years. After I get done winterizing my closet and organizing all my drawers, think I'll sit down with hot chocolate and the Diary of EBB and read all over again :) It's only 42 degrees out - good day to go on my 4 mile run or grab my sisters and go hiking in the woods! If not, I'm going to see if my dad can set up the small tv and my old vcr downstairs in the basement - I have a ton of exercise videos sitting around - I used to exercise as a teenager to Denise Austin on ESPN's fitness segments during the summer vacations. I have a ton of her videos, the Crunch and the 'Buns, Hips, Thighs, Arms etc of Steel' all here - just collecting dust. If I can get the small tv and vcr set up I'll have that much more of a reason to exercise at home! :)
I just woke up at 11 and need breakfast and the morning paper. MMMM dontcha love lazy Sundays? :) I can hear my sisters and parents puttering around downstairs and talking excitedly about something. It's so comforting to hear your familiar family sounds....you feel like your life is safe and secure.
dreamkc3 thank you so much! *HUGS* you're pretty awesome yourself :) Dan :P USC is NOT evil! They're the BEST team in the nation - UT was just making the plays better that night. Whatever. Watch next year. USC will kick ASS! :D Sarah Beth *HUGGGGGGGGGGGG* I can't WAIT for you to come here!!! Who's Ben? memory I am DYING to see the Tristan & Isolde movie! I saw the preview for it and I right away knew who the movie was about! It looks great doesn't it? :) If you lived here, we would totally see it together :D Oh how was 'The New World'? Reena awwww I'm so glad you like Story!! :) That means a lot to me! *HUG* :) Caroline :( I know I'm still sad about USC :( *HUGS* Happy New Year Caro-chan :) Diana Cho I made this site using html coding. It's hard and you need to know how to write html. If you were searching for UsagiandMamoru.com or my other anime sites, everything's down because my host servers are down. Sucks. I'm going to change them one day soon. Marcia a cookie with no fortune? The people just made a mistake and forgot to put it in. Don't read into it. It's JUST a fortune cookie ;) Besides, we create on our own fortunes and I think you believe correctly - that the future is open to whatever you make it! I'm a firm believer in that. Kayla, Azure Kaze, Lady, Jade, and Hemal Happy New Year my friends!! *HUGGGGGGGGGG* I hope each of you is well and hope you all had a GREAT New Year!!! :) Myw ishes for you are that you have a happy and blessed 2006 with only joy and no sorrows. *BIG HUGS* :)
Ok I have to go and have breakfast now - been writing since 11am and it's 11:35 now! See ya'll later :)
- Nishi
Friday, January 6, 2006
10:55 p.m.
no can write - too sleepy. Thunk. zzzzzzzzzzzzz
*lifts head* will write tomorrow. *HUGS* to all you amazing, wonderful people and even bigger *HUGS* to my friends - you know who u are :)
- Nishi
Thursday, January 5, 2006
12:49 a.m.
:(
USC lost.
This is a horrible night.
It's 1am and I have to sleep. Ricky's depressed. I'm sad.
- Nishi
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
10:55 p.m.
hi everyone :) I finally have a second to write but not long. Got back in to work this morning on the red-eye flight - 2 hours delayed - somehow made it through the work day in once piece and have court tomorrow so need my rest. I want to respond to everyone's sweet msgs but am so very tired. Showed mummy and papa the beautiful necklace Ricky got me :) they loved it. Ricky and I are doing so well - GOD I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART :D We're happy and I'm happy :D
Ricky took me to see Chronicles of Narnia on Sunday and Syriana on Monday. Narnia was GREAT - totally my kind of movie :) As for Syriana....um....muy depressing....I loved the guy who played Nasir though! What a cutie ;)
Need to get in touch with the guys who are guitarists and keyboardists and who responded to my inquiries. Hopefully I can meet them on Sunday or next week early and start rehearsing material for new gigs I'm working to line up for this month and February.
2006! I seriously can't believe it's come so fast.....the days really DO go buy too quickly...it's scary how quickly.....well nothing you can do - you just need to grab the moment and live it and plan for the future the best you can. You only have this life.
Tomorrow USC vs. TEXAS!!! GO USC!!!!!!!! :D I'm wearing my USC shirt to court - I don't CARE! I'll wear a jacket over it or something. Hehehe :D
See ya'll tomorrow :D
- Nishi
Sunday, January 1, 2006
06:01 p.m.
met ricky's parents today - they're SOOOO cool :) real sweethearts and we all got along great :) We went to an italian restaurant and had delicious chicken marsala, pasta and tiramisu :) Getting ready to see Syriana or Chronicles of Narnia now - not sure which yet. It's raining like nuts here. Tomorrow's the Rose Bowl parade - gonna watch it in the morning on tv with my rickers :)
I had a wonderful New Year's Day 2006 :D
HUGS to my friends here - will write more and respond to all msgs later :)
- Nishi
Sunday, January 1, 2006
01:26 a.m.
It's now officially 2006. I am back home with Rick and that awesome party by GIANT VILLAGE we were supposed to go to with Black Eyed Peas? It was CANCELLED!! We dressed up and went to downtown L.A. and when we got there, learned from the security officers that the event had been cancelled due to electrical equipment issues because of the crappy rainy weather L.A. had all day. So rick and I went to eat at this restaurant called 'The Daily Grill' and then went home to change and get dressed for our back up plan - a party at the MOUNTAIN BAR in Chinatown. We watched the Ball drop in NY and i SOOOO wished I was in NY for the ball dropping - I think NY is the only best place to be on New Year's Eve - we went to the Mountain Bar and it was...well...all-right - tons of crazy drunk people, bad 80's music (and I'm sooo an 80's music girl!) and too small a place for the crowd that showed up. But, hey, I got to spend NYE with someone I love so it was a good night :)
Hope your New Year's Eves were fantastic! I'm annoyed about GIANT VILLAGE cancelling it's New Year's Eve function. We better get refunds!
- Nishi
Saturday, December 31, 2005
12:05 p.m.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :) I'm in L.A.!!!! Tonight, Ricky and I are going to see Black Eyed Peas, Christopher Lawrence, Death Cab For Cutie and Crystal Method and a ton of other acts at the Giant Village 2006 New Year's Eve Celebration!! They've closed down 6 blocks in downtown L.A. and have 6 stages with various acts! The acts above are the ones I really want to see :D Listen to Kroq now and heard this awesome song called 'Be Yourself' by AUDIOSLAVE. I'm also in love with Death Cab for Cutie's song 'When Soul Meets Body' :)
I can't wait! Tonight is the first New Year's I get to celebrate with RICKY! :D And I'm in L.A.! So happy :) We just had breakfast at IHOP - can I tell u how much I LOVE IHOP's breakfasts? I had their caramel-apple-crepes combo today and it was mouth-watering good - they even have good coffee! I've become addicted to coffee lately - I used to hate the stuff and now I'm becoming like Lorelai Gilmore on Gilmore Girls.
Ricky took me out for dinner at 2 restaurants - VILA (italian) and PASHA (turkish) - I had delicious wines, amazing foods and desserts and I felt so cherished. For Christmas - Ricky got me a beautiful DIAMOND-covered heart necklace from ZALES! It's stunning and beautiful and I was amazed. I don't own anything diamond and this is precious to me. He also designed a beautiful silver ball ornament filled with his wishes for me and us. It was so damn romantic and beautiful.
I don't have much time to write - more later this weekend or when I get back to NY. *HUGS* to everyone and may you all have an AMAZING NEW YEAR'S!!! HAPPY 2006!!! It's gonna be my year - I can feel it - I was born Feb 6 so that's 2/6/2006 this year - I think it's a sign of good things to come this year :D
- Nishi
on dreams and dream interpretation
Monday, December 26, 2005
09:54 a.m.
the following is my re-telling of one long convoluted dream I had last night which I'm interpreting.....the thing about dream interpreting is it's very personal to you - only you can truly understand what the dream means to you. However, sometimes - you just don't understand why you saw what you did and you need to look t up online or in dream symbol books.
I can't remember the order of my first 3-4 dreams last night so I'm just going to write them as I remember them.....the first one I remember I think was the dolphins dream....I was on a beach with people (I guess family and friends although I don't remember who they might have been) and the next moment, I think we were following dolphins who were trying to come ashore and hurt us! These dolphins didn't stay in the water - they came ashore and even climbing up a tree didn't stop them from trying to follow us, so we ran back to our houses and the people there (all malayalee-Indians like me) closed our windows (the ones with bars on the outside) but we forgot that the main door didn't have a bottom to it - like there was a WIDE GAP - and so the dolphins entered through there and we were TERRIFIED. And the next time we saw the dolphins (like 2 seconds later), they were now kids - a white boy and a white girl. And they were still malicious. They had some kind of a round object in their hand. Some kind of device that allowed them to travel. And I was wrestling with them to hold them down thinking the travel device was on, but then they got someone to switch the dial and it was actually on NOW - and I don't remember what happened after that.
Next dream, I'm in a house with a window or on a train on a train platform - it's dark outside but the kinda dark where dawn is breaking - like around 5am....and some man who I perceive as sinister walks by the window and acts a little nutty smiling at me so I get scared and try to close the window, but then there's another window to the left of the one I'm closing and he or another nutty man is there as well. I don't remember what happened but I do remember a train/subway ride after that which was calm and fine for the most part....
Next dream, I'm in a house similar to the entry ways of my family's 2nd home/apartment in New Rochelle from back in 1983 I think....I've dreamt about this entry way a lot. Anyway, this guy and I are somehow involved, I don't know if I was a willing or unwilling mate but we wind up in bed and while I'm in bed with him - these BAD MEN - one climbs in through the window and another is trying to get in through the door! The guy in the bed is useless so I'm left fighting them off. I can't remember details, but I somehow escaped the 2 men but was chased by them everywhere - I get out into a grocery store and they hunt me down in the store and just when I think I've escaped them by getting the help of 2 cops - the cops turn out to be them (they morphed into them or something) and the people behind them are the people who could help me and I should have trusted but one of the bad men sprays some kind of gas upon my friend Marlene and a couple other people from work that were there in the store too. Somehow, I escape again and I'm throwing carts and stuff behind me to slow them down and I spy EMERGENCY EXIT and there are cops in their blue uniform going through the door so I also run through and I come out on a police parking lot and I'm running as you do in dreams, in kinda of fast/slow motion and as I see the cars starting up, I decide I should 'start up' too and I pretend like I'm revving up a motorcycle and I start FLYING! It was like how you see a video camera going up, up, up.....I was going slowly up, up and up passing trees which I thought I'd HIT but miraculously, my body was being guided in flight so that I didn't hit anything. I started flying higher than I thought I could go and I was getting scared - I was SO SCARED of falling even though my conscious self in the dream knew it was a dream and that I wouldn't have any danger of falling but that concscious self was also trying to think what it would be like to really have this ability to fly in real life and the dangers associated with it. I was flying with my own body (kinda like superman flies in the movies) and as I finally reached the highest I could fly or wanted to go (I don't know which), there was trees up this high - branches of them, kinda like a northern world, and I saw animals - a tiger (i believe it was a white tiger but I'm postivie I saw orange streaks as well), a monkey and a polar bear or a panda. After seeing these animals in the sky and passing their land which included the tops of trees and mountains, everything was white/green/beautiful, and I wound up crossing over to pretty green fields and I went lower and landed (I don't know if I had wings or not) and i saw NATIVE AMERICANS - or people who looked a bit like them.....and I saw one particular girl with hair decorations, and apparently, I was a visiting helper who was to help a family so I went to this one log-cabin house to ask what I should do.....don't remember what happened after that.
So when I woke up, I went online and looked up 'dream interpretation' meanings tigers monkeys bears and came across this site: Totem/Power Animals - Native American and Celtic Power Animals - looked up tiger (an animal I have always loved for its beauty and strength) and found that such an animal symbolized "Passion/sensuality, silent solitary power, heightened sense of touch, valor." A Monkey: "Ability to change the environment, health, success." And the polar bear: "Solitude, overcoming adversity, rebirth, patience, spirit communication, strength, breaking through emotional barriers" - if I was confused and maybe saw a panda, it would symbolize "Importance of slow, determined pace, adaptability" - If it was just a bear, it symbolized "Watcher, world-guardian, giver of strength, courage/willpower, self-preservation, introspection, going inside yourself for answers, studying the importance of dreams, instinct, healing."
As for the dolphins I dreamt of: Dolphin: Wisdom/happiness, depth of emotions, playfulness, harmony, intelligence, communication, helper with dream interpretations, childlike, sexual.........well, they were definitely child-like! But in the dreams, they boded scary things for me and the people I was with.
Curiously, I looked up 'Duck' - I had once dreamt I was a duck going along happily in a stream when I went inside a cave and...well...I may have never come back out? I don't know.....so when I looked up 'duck' it symbolized: Water energy, helper of seers, can clearly see/deal with emotions. Well that's definitely true for me - I can see and deal with emotions very well.
I'm sure a lot of this has to do with the fact that my family and I were talking about marriage, kids and stuff last night - topics I really am not happy about at this exact point in my life - and my own worries about my music career (if any at that) and how I feel I'm losing at accomplishing it.
Thus, seeing the 'Native Americans' in that beautiful green field after flying so high - they stand for: "To see a Native American in your dream, represents the instinctual and untamed aspect of your character. You desire more freedom from cultural and society restraints."
Flying symbolizes confidence and self-esteem. To dream that you are flying, signifies a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.
Seeing the police and being able to use their emergency exit to escape the evil men chasing me and then flying to freedom.....to dream that you are having difficulties contacting the police, suggests that you have yet to acknowledge your own authoritativeness in a situation. You need to take control and be in command of the direction of your life.
The beach: To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.
To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean, indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.
To dream that you are looking toward the beach, suggests that you are returning to what is familiar to you. Alternatively, you may be adapting or accepting to the changes and circumstances in your life.
I was doing all of the above when we saw the evil dolphins trying to come ashore and hurt us. And they did change into children. So DUH - my dreams in a nutshell have to do with my life - the pressures of marriage and children - going down a path I don't feel I'm ready for yet and wishing for the freedom to be myself and live my life as I wish to and being restricted and unable.
Jeez Lord, what do I do? I guess I can only do what I've been doing - keep performing, keeping singing and working to make a musical success of myself! :) At least I will have tried, although that is a small consolation.
- Nishi
Sunday, December 25, 2005
01:35 p.m.
Merry Christmas!!!!
Well, against my will, my family of grown-up babies insisted on opening Christmas presents *NOW* instead of tonight after dinner. HMPH. So I gave in :) They loved everything I got them! I got Pretear DVDs, Pretear manga, a $50 Barnes & Noble gift card, and FRIENDS dvds of seasons 4 and 8! :D And papa and mummy gave me $100-OFF my RENT! LOL! :D Seriously - that is valuable because I am SO BROKE and I was broke before Christmas too! I'm SOOO gonna hate getting my bills! *SOB*
 Now, we're going to go buy cookie dough and brownie mix and cookie cutters - we're spending the afternoon making christmas cookies and possibly a gingerbread house. Went to church this morning - LONG service but was very nice :) It's not snowing and is actually in the mid to upper 40's which is 'warm' for this time of the year. Hopefully, I can convince my sisters to see CHRONICLES OF NARNIA or KING KONG with me tonight!! :D
 Christmas is my favorite time of the year - it's just so much fun - all the cooking, presents, family, the trees and lights on every house - and just the warm feeling everywhere. It's the only time of the year where people wish everyone else a Merry Christmas and no one gets offended! :)
Now let me wish all of you dear friends a Merry Christmas. Azure Kaze *BIG HUGS* thank you and have a WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS! My Darling Ricky *MWAAAHHHH* :) LOL! Yes it IS supposed to be about the christman ;) ur so cute :) Kayla I would *love* team up with you on the guitar! *HUGS* Have a super Christmas sweetie! :) To Lady, Memory, Marcia, Susan, Miyu-chan, Caroline, Lydia, Sanoj, Callie-chan, LISAAA, Jade-chan, Hemal, Suni and dear Sarah Beth MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! *HUGS* :)
- Nishi :)
Saturday, December 24, 2005
11:42 p.m.
Hi everyone :) Lots to write. The MTA strike ended on Thursday and everything went back to normal on Friday but not before I finished allllllll my holiday shopping! We had a party in our office (just got the motions dept) for the christmas holiday - we each brought in food and exchanged presents. :D Work let out early on Friday so I rushed to finish last minute holiday shopping and let me tell you - it is CRAZY! I thought people would kill each other at Victoria's Secret where I finally found Mili the Amber Romance set she wanted. I *LOVE* Victoria's Secret lotions - my faves are Pure Seduction, Romantic Wish, and Amber Romance - haven't gotten around to trying all the others yet.
My sisters all came home last night and our Christmas Tree is BRIMMING OVER with gifts. Today Mekha made us each open a small gift which turned out to be ORNAMENTS WITH OUR NAMES ON THEM that she *HAND-MADE* herself!!! :) It was beautiful. We spent the day helping mummy make 'pitty' which are these small round balls which you cook and they semi-melt and you eat with some kind of meat curry (usually chicken) and it was delicious by the way - and we also spent the day playing Chess (teaching papa how to play) and just hanging out :) We stayed up so late last night talking....love it when my sisters all come home :D
Just came back from Church - we had a HUGE celebration at church - and, ya know, I don't go to church for a LONG while - and everything changes. I was amazed by all the new faces! The dinner and performances were fabulous. And now we have to get up early for church in the morning so I gotta sleep. Going to try and reach my Ricky - he's home with his family too! :)
Good night all! Will respond to msgs tomorrow! Merry Christmas EVE!! :D
- Nishi
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
11:05 p.m.
wow - last night I posted on craigslist - one post about looking for other musicians to perform with, and a second post looking for record labels, agents and managers and I got amazing responses. I love craigslist :D
I'm watching Project Runway - I'm such a Heidi Klum fan - I think she's so beautiful and a total inspiration.
V hi darling :) *MWAH* if only ou weren't in L.A. and were here sweetheart. Rainy I began learning in 2nd grade because of the orchestra department at my elementary school. After that, I played every year until 11th grade in high school, and kept it up intermittently since then. It's never too late to start! You should see what lessons are available locally! :) Marcia LOL! You're too funny! What're u talking about! You're still smart! :D Kayla LOL! I know right? ;) fascinating convo right? What position do you play on violins? Do you play in the orchestra?
- Nishi
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
08:06 p.m.
Attention Musicians in NYC - if you're a keyboardist, drummer and/or guitarist and interested in performing with me in NYC (in and around the East Village, Chelsea and Midtown), then email me at nishirajan@hotmail.com - I have people in the industry who will be coming to performances and I need to show them a great performance with musicians and not just myself.
Now, I need to hire an agent. How the heck do I find an agent?
= Nishi
Monday, December 19, 2005
09:58 p.m.
Tonight I met my friend Will/Sky at Starbucks on 40th & Lexington (he's a guitarist) to rehearse for my gig on Wednesday. I'll know for sure if I'm performing after our rehearsal tomorrow night. Selected 3 songs I wrote in the past 30 days: 'Under My Skin', 'All Alone' (wrote that last night ;)) and 'Once Upon A Time' :) If I am definitely performing, I'll announce it here tomorrow night and on my lists.
Got home a while ago and super tired and hungry! Sent Will recordings of the song I did on my mp3 recorder and added all the new songs I've done since November 18th (a total of 8) to my hard copy which I'll mail in to be copyright protected.
Need dinner and sleep. My neck is still stiff - seriously what is wrong with me? I keep thinking 'did I get bit by a tick???' I know if you get a deer tick bite that symptoms of lyme disease show up as stiff neck and fever etc - ha ha ha I'm being paranoid now....but ya never know. Agh I hope whatever it is goes away soon.
Time for dinner and to catch whatever I missed of the Radio City Music Awards! :)
- Nishi
Sunday, December 18, 2005
08:50 p.m.
I was reading my friend Neil's journal and came across an entry where he linked to a conversation Albert Einstein had with Rabindranath Tagore - I'll repeat what Neil said in quotes about this man: "Tagore is a man that completely revolutionized the state of Bengal, as well as much of India. He is a Nobel Laureate in Literature, composed a compendium of songs, and was just an all around brilliant guy (and also the only person to be crdited with writing 2 national anthems - for India and for Bangladesh). Most of us know what Einstein was famous for - but beyond physics he was a humanitarian, deeply political and an accomplished violinist."
I never knew Einstein was a violinist. I played the violin for years, still do, it and the piano and guitar are my favorite instruments ever. So I went to the link and started reading the conversation and I started thinking about will - destiny - fate - the order of the universe and our role in it. Here's the link http://www.schoolofwisdom.com/tagore-einstein.html
Reading this conversation reminded me of how I used to study the conversations Socrates & Aristotle etc had with their students in my Literature and Rhetoric classes in college. Deep philosophical texts of conversations on the order of the world and life - fascinating stuff.
The following lines of conversation are very important:
TAGORE: in the realm of infinitesimal atoms chance has its play; the drama of existence is not absolutely predestined in character.
TAGORE: the idea of causality is not in the elements, but that some other force builds up with them an organized universe.
EINSTEIN: One tries to understand in the higher plane how the order is. The order is there, where the big elements combine and guide existence, but in the minute elements this order is not perceptible.
TAGORE: Thus duality is in the depths of existence, the contradiction of free impulse and the directive will which works upon it and evolves an orderly scheme of things.
EINSTEIN: Modern physics would not say they are contradictory. Clouds look as one from a distance, but if you see them nearby, they show themselves as disorderly drops of water.
TAGORE: I find a parallel in human psychology. Our passions and desires are unruly, but our character subdues these elements into a harmonious whole. Does something similar to this happen in the physical world? Are the elements rebellious, dynamic with individual impulse? And is there a principle in the physical world which dominates them and puts them into an orderly organization?
TAGORE: Otherwise, the drama of existence would be too desultory. It is the constant harmony of chance and determination which makes it eternally new and living.
EINSTEIN: I believe that whatever we do or live for has its causality; it is good, however, that we cannot see through to it.
TAGORE: There is in human affairs an element of elasticity also, some freedom within a small range which is for the expression of our personality. It is like the musical system in India . . . Our composers give a certain definite outline, a system of melody and rhythmic arrangement, and within a certain limit the player can improvise upon it. He must be one with the law of that particular melody, and then he can give spontaneous expression to his musical feeling within the prescribed regulation. We praise the composer for his genius in creating a foundation along with a superstructure of melodies, but we expect from the player his own skill in the creation of variations of melodic flourish and ornamentation. In creation we follow the central law of existence, but if we do not cut ourselves adrift from it, we can have sufficient freedom within the limits of our personality for the fullest self-expression.
TAGORE: You have to be absolutely obedient to this too complicated music. In India, the measure of a singer's freedom is in his own creative personality. He can sing the composer's song as his own, if he has the power creatively to assert himself in his interpretation of the general law of the melody which he is given to interpret.
EINSTEIN: It requires a very high standard of art to realize fully the great idea in the original music, so that one can make variations upon it.
TAGORE: If in our conduct we can follow the law of goodness, we can have real liberty of self-expression. The principle of conduct is there, but the character which makes it true and individual is our own creation. In our music there is a duality of freedom and prescribed order.
EINSTEIN: Are the words of a song also free? I mean to say, is the singer at liberty to add his own words to the song which he is singing?
TAGORE: Yes. In Bengal we have a kind of song-kirtan, we call it-which gives freedom to the singer to introduce parenthetical comments, phrases not in the original song. This occasions great enthusiasm, since the audience is constantly thrilled by some beautiful, spontaneous sentiment added by the singer.
All my life I've thought about the universe, our place, the point of existance - what is in store for us. I've concluded that I will live this life over and over again if that is what I want - each time being given a chance to live and enjoy this world - but I don't think it ends there.......I think that's one of the answers, one of the 'options' but there's a lot more......I think we have a chance to know and unlock the mysteries of the universe......I think at night when we dream, our brains are at that moment able to connect to something higher - if we so choose it to - I can't tell you how many nights I've woken up from dreams knowing I grasped something significant...knowing I had learned something HUGE.....something about will....our will to do anything.....about our choices, actions - and our desire - how we can exert our will and desire upon the universe and drive it. But then again, the skeptic in me shouts 'that's crazy drivel' but what if it's not? Does anyone out there know what the universe is about? We choose to go about our daily lives, content with the things happening in the news, our world, how to live life here on Earth - many of us have no concerns for the greater knoweldge - for the greater purpose of this life and universe - nor should most of us bother with that - I believe we were given life because it is an amazing, tremendous gift - to live each day, wake up and breathe, smile, to know joy, to know the warmth of the sun, to laugh and LOVE.....and I have learned that all of this is not possible without knowing the dark sides of life as well, without knowing hate, anger, strife and turmoil - because only then can we appreciate the beauty of life. Chaos reigns all around this universe - and beauty too. Great beauty. There's energy and life in everything.....something great.....and we are all part of it - unconciously and conciously - something is in order out there - something is in design - we have no idea what, or how, or why but it is. We try to find answers - but we're just small ants in the great expanse of space - we go about our daily tasks, live, marry, raise children, try to live a life of purpose, joy and love, and then die. And we hope - we HOPE - that that isn't the end. |
