Name: Nishi
Age: 27
Where: New York
Faith: Christian
Sign: Aquarius
CH-S: Fire Dragon
AIM: SelenityHime
ICQ: 21380169
Email: be83398@yahoo.com
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The Story Thus Far . . .
Currently, I am working full-time as an Attorney in midtown Manhattan, New York City, New York and learning kickboxing and Kung Fu and middle-eastern bellydance, and
working on making a music career!
Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).
Books / Stories
King Arthur and all things Arthurian, Merlin, light and dark; The Crystal Cave, The Dark is Rising series, most anything to do with magic, vampires, werewolves; anything fantasy and romance-like: EMMA, Jane Eyre, Phantom of the Opera, Count of Monte Cristo, The Cask of Amontillado; almost anything Shakespeare wrote; The Harry Potter series; my childhood stories - Sweet Valley High, Twins, Kids, Babysitters Club, Boxcar Children, Bobbsey Twins, RAMONA QUIMBY series; SHERLOCK HOLMES, NANCY DREW; all books dealing with things I love from art, mystery, religion, magic, mythical creatures such as "DA VINCI CODE" and "Interview with the Vampire"
Movies
Emma, Contact, Ever After, Farenheit 9/11, Bowling for Columbine, Legally Blonde 2, Princess Diaries, Sweet Home Alabama, Matrix: Reloaded, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Staw Wars: Episode II, TOMBRAIDER I & II
All-time TV Shows
Three's Company, The Nanny, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, FRIENDS, Relic Hunter, Buffy, Xena, Clarissa Explains it All, OUT OF THIS WORLD, Wings, Mad About You, Simpsons, Married with Children, Carol Burnette Show, Anamorphs, Punky Brewster, Smurfs, Rainbow Brite, and the list could go on forever ;)
Musicals
Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, WICKED
Favorite Drinks
In the summer: starbucks' iced caramel macchaito - decaf and nonfat; lychee, boba/bubble tea/pearl milk tea; thai iced tea; lipton lemon and raspberry iced tea
In the winter: hot chocolate and starbucks' white chocolate mocha non-fat
Fave Alcoholic Drinks
Margaritas, amaretto sours, singapore slings, rum & coke and white wine - pinot
Music to relax to:
The slow version of the sailormoon theme song, the theme for Phantom of the Opera, the theme by Mono from Great Expectations and theme from Romeo and Juliet....so many more.....I can't live w/o music.....
A Fan Of:
I'm more a Democrat so I'm a fan of Bill & Hillary Clinton, Madeline Albright, Margaret Thatcher, Lee Iaccoca
Movie Actresses
Drew Barrymore
Kirsten Dunst
Kate Hudson
Nicole Kidman
Demi Moore
Gwyneth Paltrow
Julia Roberts
Reese Witherspoon
Renee Zellweger
Movie Actors
George Clooney
Johnny Depp
Matthew Goode
Tom Hanks
Ashton Kutcher
Brad Pitt
Keanu Reeves
Adam Sandler
Robin Williams
Magazines etc.:
Vogue
Cosmopolitan
Jane
Shape
Fitness
Allure
Elle
Marie Claire
Archaeology
Mysteries
Foreign Affairs Journals
The Economist
Discover
Astronomy
Sky & Telescope
National Geographic
New York Times
Commondreams.org
In Style
US Weekly
PEOPLE
My Adoptees
Shown are adoptees from Sailor Moon, Full Moon wo Sagashite, Star Wars Attack of the Clones, Lord of the Rings, and Emeraude from Magic Knights Rayearth, X-Files, the child-like empress from the Neverending Story, St. Tail!, The Labyrinth, Satine from Moulin Rouge, and HARRY POTTER!
Reminders:
Salons in NY to try:
Buff Spa at Bergdorf Goodman: 754 5th Ave $$$
Tiffany Nails: 903 Madison $$
Soho Sanctuary: 119 Mercer $$
Maximus Spa - Massage: 15 Mercer $$
Just Calm Down: 32 W. 22nd $$ - get grape gatsby with Essie Bordeaux polish
Ajune Spa: 1294 Third Ave $$
Frederic Fekkai: 15 E. 57th - Mandarin Supreme Pedicure $$
Salons in L.A. to try:
Kathy's Nails: 7967 Melrose $
Salons in Paris:
Mr. Ho: 3 Rue Washington $$
La Bulle Kenzo: 1 rue du Pont Neuf $
Things to buy:
HairArt's T3 tourmaline blow-dryer; t3tourmaline.com
Welcome to Nishi's Pitas Page a blog part of A Dream I Dream.
Nishi is a 27 year old Indian American who is working as an attorney in Manhattan. She is also a singer/songwriter who is working on her 1st album. She dreams of
bringing her songs to the world and moving people with her music; she also dreams of pursuing international human rights and foreign policy one day.
Nishi is an avid Japanese
anime and manga fan
& is a web designer too.
See her major anime/manga
websites listed to the right. She
also collects anime goodies,
see her Treasures.
This journal is a place for me to vent, to share, and to catch up with friends. Undoubtedly friends and strangers whom I don't know
are probably reading my words - for all whom I know and don't know, you may read but never, ever bring up with me what I write about on this journal unless I bring it up with you.
This place is sacred and I'm allowing you to enter it, to know what I choose to show of myself through this page, but don't assume you really know me or what I'm about, and don't assume you can talk to me about what I write.
Respect me, my wishes and my writings - or leave. :)
Thoughts on war....after watching King Arthur the movie starring Clive Owen:
I thought the same thing again watching this as I did Alexander etc.: the senselessness of war. So many of those men (saxon, roman, whatever) were taken as young boys and reared to be warriors - their whole life is nothing but death. I thought of their humaness as all the fake movie blood was shed.....their bodies being gutted, arms chopped off and throats sliced - when you kill you FEEL the humaness, the flesh & bones of those you kill - you know you're killing someone who was once just like you - those are people - real people - once loved, once with so much beauty and purity, hope and potential and war forced their lives to change.
Such people were called savages and barbarians. Maybe they're barbarians because a childhood and adult life of war and death has warped their minds - it takes a healthy upbringing to be a normal human being as we know it - a life of a soldier or warrior isn't normal - it takes something of the human out of you. So then is it ok to kill someone like that? A barbarian so to speak? One who isn't a normal human anymore because he's been made mentally unstable? When you're on the battlefield - that seems reason enough. But what if he's not a "barbarian" - what if he's just a normal guy who had a mother and father but is on the wrong side? What then? You could've been him if your lives were traded - wouldn't you then see through his eyes as he does? See his views and understand them? I would.
So many young people aged 18-25 are serving in Iraq - it's the young dying. The worst thing about war - it clouds people's views about the "enemy" - we are urged to see them as evil - as "kill them or be killed" - on the battlefield you have no choice - ur chance to think and understand is taken away - you have to fight to survive - but there is always the choice and time BEFORE war - before forcing all those people to 'kill or be killed' - the time when a leader should realize the senselessness of war and refuse to instigate and partake......."preemptive war" - which is the doctrine of our current president and his administration - that doctrine is wrong when there is no clear & present threat - and there never was.
War...is not about conquering or liberating - war is about every man fighting for his beliefs, his country, his values - its values whether it's Islam, democracy, christianity or communism. War is never about us against them - it's about the people in power making us think it's us against them. Who are you fighting for? Why? Do you really even know? Or are you believing everything you're told without thinking and questioning that 'hey, what if they're wrong?'
I've said it before and I'll say it again - those "insurgents" or "saddaam loyalists" weren't fighting for Saddaam - they just HATE the thought of the U.S. fighting on their land, invading their country....occupying their country. There are those who are happy the U.S. got rid of Saddaam but still don't want the U.S. there - and there are those who see that the U.S. has to be there now to help re-stabilize Iraq. Then there are extremists who hate the U.S. and everything we've done so much that they just want to kill every last one of us out there - because that's how much they've been hurt - extremists aren't born that way - they're made that way because of pain suffered - by themselves or by others.
When humans are caused to be hurt, we naturally want to find the reason for the pain - someone to blame, someone to take our anger out on, someone to claim vengeance upon. 'Fanatics' or 'Extremists' don't incite rebellions or wars without REAL REASON for the masses - the masses had to have been affected badly, hurt or seen a real threat in order to become incited. Humans will hurt each other only when they themselves or their loved ones are hurt or think they or their loved ones will be hurt.
It's a simple as that. Whether that 'hurt' is physical, or mental by way of political systems, religious idelogies is irrelevant. It's the hurt and us vs. you mentality that is preyed upon and used to make war. Those in power know how to manipulate, know how to make people believe in things and see things a certain way - humans want to believe in things, want to be given clear choices. To make tough decisions is not in our immediate nature - that takes stength of mind and will.
All those "witches" burned during the witch hunts? For God sakes - they weren't witches! They were just normal people - even if someone were a little weird or abnormal - they're just human. No one spoke out lest they be branded a heretic. People complied in lynchings, mob-like menality killings all because there is no strong voice telling them what is right and what is wrong. Instead, there are many strong voices saying what's wrong and encouraging it.
People are so scared of things they don't understand, things they can't understand, that they don't stop to think that just because something is different (religion, culture, people/person), or that they don't like it, isn't reason to hate nor reason to believe you're better than them/it.
I think war is about superiority too. One or the other or both feeling they're superior to the other - their religion, beliefs, values, morals, intellectual achievments - Ancient Greece thought it was better than so much of the world, early Christianity thought so too - and even today my religion preaches that we are the only true and right religion and all others are false. Yet my readings and education have shown that the roots of christianity are nothing to be proud of. I am only proud of Jesus - and I only love God - as for the rest - no one can show me that they were really what is written of them, no one can prove to me that the Bible is what it claims to be - we're told we're not Christian if we don't believe the Bible is the Word of God - well who told u it was the Word of God to begin with? Your priests? Theirs? And so on - back in time? Who was it that even wrote all those texts? You cannot even prove that they are what they're supposed to be as written. There's controversy over the 'Gnostic Gospels', why they were left out and should be included - inconsistencies in it all - don't doubt me, I believe in God with all my heart, love Him and pray to him with every cell in me, and I believe Jesus DID exist and came to show us the way back to God - but as for the rest of it? Trinity, 'virgin mother of God', all those rules, sins, etc - HOW can ANY intelligent human being tell another without solid proof that what they say and believe is the ONLY true religion? Islam believes it's the right religion - we Christians have a million arguments on why it's a false religion but is it? If we weren't Christian but were raised as Muslims wouldn't we, too, believe in it whole heartedly and view Christians as the misguided ones?
War, death, fights over religion or political hegemony - mankind for as long as we have existed has always painted itself things to believe in and believed, with no doubt, that what they believed in was right and true - that anything differing from that belief was wrong. We didn't understand other beliefs, other ways of being - how can we understand that which we haven't learned? So we fought, and argued, until one by one - every major empire and belief system that ever existed has died out, been assimilated into something new, died out again.....and it keeps going. A never ending cycle - 500-1000 years from now, if humans still exist, do you think Christianity will? Islam? Democracy? Our faith and beliefs are what keep us going because to NOT believe in something leaves so many questions - to which we have no answers. What if there is no God? What if God is just this ethereal conciousness that gives this universe life and keeps it existing but does not intervene - and just lets life in all its forms: planets, solar systems, man, insect etc go its course. As humans - we can't allow such a bleak reality to exist - we simply do not have the answers. So we continue to believe whatever we're told to believe and which feels agreeable to us - to not believe is a far scarier thing.
That said - you can then understand nearly every human being on this planet - we're all the same - we think the same, react the same - we were all just raised differently - to believe in different things, to fight for different things.
The real goal of humankind - of our lives - is to bridge the gap - to make an understanding so great, so encompassing that it ends our own evil natures of greed, pride, superiority, and even the basest notion of self-survival. To realize that in this vast universe - we have only each other, that we all came from this earth, are brothers and sisters, only separated by great mountains and lands - distance - which kept us from knowing and understanding each other.
Miyu-chanyou have to do me a HUGE favor - I want a screencap of when Clive Owen is coming out of that foggy gate and his face is clear on the way to meet that long white-haired saxon. Just that still where his face finally emerges all nice. It's from the scene 'Battle for the Wall' and before that guy says 'finally a man worth killing.' I want that to be my wallpaper cause he's SO gorgeous and inspirational in that shot! I can't find that screencapture anywhere online and I can't hook up my dvd to my computer *sob*
I bought the director's cut :) So thankful I did (didn't even notice it was the director's cut when I purchased it) cause the movie is GOOD. I enjoyed it very much. I don't believe it is the truth about Arthur, of course, but a very great historical re-telling of the story - or at least one version of history which can't be proven.
Anyone else think Clive Owen is amazingly hot? Wow. That helmet and battle gear - wow.
Anywayz....I've waxed philosophical enough. Almost midnight and I have to sleep. *HUGS* to all.
- Nishi
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
07:53 p.m.
snowwww snowwwww snowwwwwwww :) hehehe sunday it snowed and tonight it's snowing - so pretty. Unfortunately, didn't snow enough to close work! ;) Work was fabulous today - my friend Carol started and it's so great to have her there! I hope she's really happy where we work now :) It was Jenn's birthday yesterday and John's today so we went out for lunch and celebrated with lots of cake and cupcakes, should've gone out with Seany and Jose and their boys with Carol for drinks but the snow made me rush home. Watching movies tonight with my sisters - we've been watching so many! Already saw 'Van Helsing', 'Ella Enchanted' (I love Anne Hathaway - what an awesome actress!) and 'MEAN GIRLS' - I think Lindsay Lohan is a phenomenal actress! And I don't care what everyone else says - I LOVE that Rumours song and think she can sing VERY well. I think Hillary sings pretty too! I LOVEEEE her song 'Fly'.
Tonight we're watching King Arthur. So happy to have my sisters all home :) House feels full and happy and it's fun to come home :)
Respond to msgs later *HUGS* to all g'night :)
- Nishi
Saturday, December 25, 2004
11:58 p.m.
Merry Christmas:)
Today was a wonderful Christmas! :) I took my family to Radio City Music Hall to see the Christmas Spectacular and it was great! My dad loved the 3-D thing, we all loved the nativity thing at the end, but we all hated the Nutcracker thing they did. The Rockettes are AMAZING! My only criticism of the show was in the poor organization of the staff at Radio City - during the first 30-40 minutes people kept coming in late and blocking my view of the stage as they tried to find their seats - it was SO annoying - Mil and I were like 'what the heck? don't these people know how rude it is to stand there in front of us all while a show is going on? Arrive on time!!' And this happened throughout that first 40 minutes or so.But that's the show's fault for not having a strict door policy like they do for musicals on Broadway....I don't remember ever having a problem like that at a Broadway show!
I wore my beautiful Victoria's Secret dress and jacket/coat :) It looked SOOOOO good in person. My sister took pics of me using my cellphone - they didn't come out too well but hey at least it's something:
Afterwards, we made out way to JEWEL OF INDIA. The following is a review of this restaurant:
Review of Jewel of India
15 West 44th Street, New York, New York
Food: fabulous. Service: terrible. Overall rating out of 4 stars: 2.5 stars
Although the food at this Indian restaurant was well prepared and delicious - agreed to by all 6 of us in my family - the service was so slow, unfriendly and poor that it almost put a dark cloud on our wonderful Christmas night celebration. Food and the dining experience is enhanced by excellent, quality service. This was not the case here and while I will applaud the chef and the preparation and display of their food - the service was really terrible.
The menu here offered excellent choices - we had the appetizer sample which had delicious samosas, pakoras, seekh kababs, and chicken tikka pieces. The table was arrayed with condiments of pickles, and celery, cucumber and carrot sticks as well as pappadam with chutney and this sweet orange thing I loved. I ordered for the main meal the Dieter's Special which was a serving of shrimp, chicken, fish and another meat item, with boiled rice and saag paneer, and also ordered naan. My sisters and parents all ordered some type of meat dish each with nan and it was ALL delicious - nothing was greasy - just prepared perfect. Dessert for me was Rasmalai <-- LOVE this - it's sweet cottage cheese in this sweet liquid broth - it's just heaven! My mom had also recommended their Gajjar Hallwa (something like that) but no one else could fit in more dessert. We all finished with masala tea or cappuchinos and the ending condiments of sweet sugars. Our waiter brought us warm towelettes to cleanse our hands with.
Now the service - they kept us waiting for everything although one guy always made sure we had water. They took forever to bring us out our meals, and forgot things that were included in our meals such as my tomato soup and my sister's poori. That's not really so bad but combine that with the fact that if we needed anything we had to wait 10 minutes to get our waiter's attention. They basically just brought us our food and left and never came back to check on us or ever ask if everything was fine, what else we needed - never asking if we wanted dessert, which when we asked for dessert, and twice for dessert menus, took AGES to come - we ordered 4 cappuchinos, one tea and one rasmalai. When it came time to ask for the check, that TOO took forever. Gratuity was included in the meal: $37 so we couldn't even show them how terrible the service had been. Total meal cost: $222+ incl.gratuity of $37 = $259. For 6 people on Christmas night for excellent food - yes! But for poor service? No. Their excuse? They were short staffed. But honestly - the restaurant wasn't that packed. They had about 9-10 tables with diners, counting us, to serve. It doesn't take much to check every few minutes to make sure your diners are taken care of and it wasn't a huge restaurant - waiters can easily see all patrons in that one room, on all sides. My dad actually complained asking what had been taking so long with dessert menus etc. For him to do that takes a LOT. After that, we weren't given much friendly service at all. And I mean that.
I would recommend this place for the food but not for the service. I honestly don't know if I'd ever go back there again although I SOOOO loved the rasmalai - when Ricky visits here again I'll take him there and write a 2nd review - see if their terrible service was only tonight.
Thankfully, poor service or not, nothing dampened our spirits - we were happy to be out on Christmas night, in the city, having seen the Rockettes, and eating yummy food and WARM :) On the walk down I showed my family Rockefeller Center and the Christmas tree all lit up :) I'm a regular so I see this thing every day but my family doesn't so they loved it all. Mummy and Papa kept stopping at every hat stand on the street to try and find a bucket hat for mummy cheaper than $10 (they wanted one for $5)!
That was my Christmas gift to my family this year and they all loved it which made me very happy. Mek and I watched the Sound of Music on tv and now we're all heading to sleep.
memory that's cool - a weapons collection :) yes I love swords! u should totally go back to fencing if you loved it! Tom From England have a wonderful holiday! Whadya doin' for New Year's!?
Tomorrow, I'll be working on the last 2 songs for my cd. Ok time to sleep. Night everyone :)
- Nishi
Saturday, December 25, 2004
01:51 a.m.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! :) Had a very nice Christmas Eve today! Slept in late, had pancakes for breakfast, wrapped up presents - my family found it funny that I was wrapping up the show tickets - they knew I was taking them out to a show tomorrow as their christmas present but didn't know it was Radio City Music Hall's Christmas Spectacular I was taking them too (and dinner at Jewel of India afterwards) so I was determined to wrap up the tickets in big boxes so they'd have something to open up from me :) We went to church tonight all dressed in saris - I wore this beautiful soft red sari that I could actually walk in for once ;) I love saris but I hate how they never stay on my head during church service and how they're so difficult to walk in sometimes. ;) We came home and weren't supposed to open presents till christmas morning but ppl in my family are babies, i swear! :) we wound up opening them tonight - I got 2 beautiful earrings from mummy, papa'll put $200 towards a telescope for me :) YAAY! Nithi got me a $50 gift card to H&M and a gorgeous book on World Mythology - an anthology of great myths and epics!! :) She knows how much I love that stuff! Mekha got me a $50 Forever 21 gift card and a body spray and lotion from Bath & Body Works, and Mili got me a $50 Barnes & Noble gift card and this very pretty ruffled white shirt with red and pink stripes for work :) I got a lot of gift cards this year including a $25 Macy's one from John at work.
We stayed up till midnight talking and drinking hot chocolate I made and reading US Weekly :) Tomorrow, we'll have breakfast, and we need to get ready and leave by 2pm to drive down to the city and find parking and be in our seats for the show by 3:30 :) I can't wait to see the ROCKETTES!! And I really hope Jewel of India is a place my family will enjoy! It's Indian food....which we normally don't go for cause we're Indian and we always have it - but YOU try booking last minute reservations and finding something that isn't sold out or closed ;) I should've booked earlier but I wound up not having time.....at least I got Jewel of India!
Ok MSGS! Liz I saw your page and love it! Will be linking you soon! Bing class of '98? I'm class of '99! Law School '02. What law school did u go to? Do you know what area of law you'd like to practice in if given the choice? Congrats on passing the bar!!
Callie happy 27th! I read ur blog - am so sorry to hear about the job....I pray for brighter and happier days ahead for you and a great new job in 2005! :) *HUGS*
Alex LOL! You have no idea how much i LOVE swords. They're one of my passions too. I have long believed that if there is such a thing as past lives I must've known how to wield a sword in a past life because I have this inherent desire to handle swords and fight with them. My friend Neil fences - but the foil isn't as inspiring as the double-sided blade of a sword....learning how to fight with a sword is on my long list of to-do things - but before i fight with a sword I want to learn how to fight with my hands and body which is why I am doing Kung Fu and kickboxing <--- this isn't fu-fu stuff - it's real boxing with gloves - using both hands and legs - thus adding the kick to the boxing ;) it's intense and amazing. Everyone's been complimenting how toned my arms have become since I started lessons at the gym last March 2004. It's worth every minute. Once my arms are strong enough and I can defend myself well and go on the offensive too, then I'll progress on to weapons - the sword being my first choice :) I want to also learn how to use the bamboo stick and also want to one day get a gun license. I'm against the use of guns for the recreational hunting and killing of animals - I think that's disgusting and terrible waste of life, and I believe in very strong laws controling who gets guns, registration etc but I still believe people should have the right to arms for defense so I don't support outlawing use of guns. Anywayz, long response to ur question! ;)
Suni awww you're so sweet! *HUGS* thank you! I'm thinking of wearing the dress and coat out for the Christmas Show and dinner tomorrow with my family or for New Year's or in L.A. with Ricky in February for Valentine's day ;) I like getting good mileage out of expensive outfits - wear this one to as many things as people haven't seen me in it ;) But ya know what - I was reading in US Weekly how people like Sarah Jessica Parker have so many expensive clothes which they can only wear once & wind up giving away to charity because they get photographed in it and that's that - can't be seen in it again - apparently people actually make fun if you wear things more than once just because you're rich! Dude...if I ever become rich and famous.....agh I'll prolly do the same thing cause I wouldn't want people to make fun of me either for wearing the same Roberto Cavalli dress, no matter how beautiful, twice - you DO have the money to afford different outfits. Oh the woes of riches and fame *sarcasm* ;)
Jade thank you so much :) *HUGS* everything is great now :) I'll have samples up when the cd is fully finished and up and ready to be purchased! :) I wish you an amazing and very blessed christmas 2004! :)
Hemal awww Merry Christmas and a very happy new year to you too! I popped on over to your blog and things don't look so merry over there *HUGS* I hope things get better and will pray they do.
Miyu-chan merry yuletide to you too my dear friend :)
Ok I'm out - it's 2am now almost and I need to sleep!
- Nishi
Thursday, December 23, 2004
8:30 p.m.
Ricky and I are back together :) But boy did I have a horrible afternoon as a result of all that. But everything's back to normal (for now ;)) :) A couple friends from work and I went for drinks at 'Down the Hatch' in Greenwich Village after work. They did their best to cheer me up which I appreciated :) But nothing worked until Ricky called and I heard his voice and everything got better again. I really love this guy - us almost breaking up broke my heart.
I was up till 3am with Ashish and Moises last night (slept over there too and went to work from there this morning) working on the music. 2 songs DONE - music-wise and 2 more to go. The music is gorgeous - now i just wanna sing my heart out.
Work was fun with everyone in the christmas spirit - I got sweet presents from co-workers - sweet Jody and Lynette got me potted plants, Jenn a cup, Kate a perfume from victoria's secret in one of their signature pink jewel bags, Greg an Indonesian box with a tiger on top to hold my knick knacks, perfume from this guy Patrick who gets all the girls perfume each year - my friend Jody and I thanked him with kisses on his cheek and he was talking about that the rest of the afternoon ;) LOL!
One thing getting upset at work showed me - I have a great set of friends there - one of them told me 'Nishi you're always so happy so when we see you sad and crying it's like a shock and we all just want to make you feel better and see your smile again.' That was so sweet. I love my friends :)
I'm pretty exhausted and realize I have msgs to respond to - tomorrow's christmas eve - I'll have time tomorrow! I need to eat and sleep now since I only got 4 hours of sleep last night - barely - but it's worth it when you're working on something as precious as your songs and music.
- Nishi
Monday, December 20, 2004
07:16 p.m.
It's almost time to leave L.A.....a lot's on my mind....I had a great time here though - the exhibit yesterday of the Queen of Sheba was fascinating - I learned a lot about Yemen and its ancient history as the fabled kingdom of Saba (or Sheba as westerners called it). Today was spent at Santa Monica, Little Tokyo and Chinatown.
I didn't get to wear the pretty dress because we just didn't get the chance to dress up and go out to a dinner or show or something fancy to wear the dress for. I'll wear it for him when I come back for my birthday or valentine's day.
I have VIDEOS :) These are taken today while at the beach in Santa Monica. I took one of Ricky but out of respect for him I won't put it up on my journal although he looks so hot in it!
The first 2 are videos of the beach, the second 2 ricky recorded of me and they say the following:
Ricky: recording; Me: I am going to move to L.A. cause I love it SOOO much; Ricky spans away from me prompting me to ask 'Are you looking at hot chicks?' and Ricky promptly yet guiltily responds: 'Nooo.'
The second one: I'm trying to say that it's 75 degrees out and that I'm leaving tonight on my flight out of L.A.
I'll respond to all msgs in either 15 minutes of this entry or tomorrow when I'm back in NY.
- Nishi
Saturday, December 18, 2004
07:22 p.m.
I got pictures!!!! These are a bunch of pics taken with my sprint camera phone :) They are, in order, a picture of me and then of Ricky from dinner at the Grotto on Broome/Grand Street with Ricky this past July 2004, a pic Ricky took of me on the train, a pic of my friend Laurice and I at the DIDO concert at Bryant Park this summer (or was it spring?), and finally a pic Ricky took of me today while we ate at this place called MOONSHADOW right on the coat of Malibu where we went to go horseback riding at the Silverlining Ranch on Decker School Lane.
Horseback riding was AMAZING! Our instructor was this woman named Maya and this little boy who was SO knowledgable about horses (forget his name - Danny?) - my horse's name was Harley and Ricky got this horse name Utah. My horse was only 60" tall! We were there for 1.5 hours after searching for the ranch for almost an hour all over the Malibu hills! My thighs hurt.....I got to trot and everything! And Maya told me that we did SO well and picked things up very quickly :) YAAAY :) I had SO much fun and LOVE horseback riding but DUDE - my inner thigh muscles got a workout as did my butt everytime I trotted (8 times) and my horse was so hard to control sometimes....they said to keep him to the rail but he wanted to go every which way and it took every ounce of my strength to control the horse. Whew! I don't remember it being this hard to control a horse but now I know!
I'm definitely following up with lessons this summer. I HAVE to learn how to master a horse. I made a believer out of Ricky now too - he fell in love with horseback riding as well :)
Lunch at MOONSHADOW was fabulous - had stuffed croissant entree and a spinach salad. On our ride back, I stopped by Safari Sunglasses and picked out a pair of new PERSOL sunglasses (an Italian brand I now love) and met this cool guy who ran the store named Edgar - turns out he was an attorney too who climbed mountains - he is one of the few men who have climbed Mt. McKinley!!! It is the tallest mountain in the continental U.S. he told me. Very cool :)
Tomorrow we're off to see the Queen of Sheba Exhibit at the Bower's Museum in Santa Ana, California!!< :) I'm SOOO excited to see this exhibit because the Queen of Sheba is one of those famed, legendary women I've read so much about and studied a great deal on in my private readings. They have in their collection this set of stamps from North Yemen issued in 1967 which feature King Solomon prostrating himself before the Queen of Sheba who was named 'Bilqis' although it is not yet proven WHO the Queen of Sheba who met Solomon was exactly and there are 4 women proposed for that role. Anywayz, I'm going to become a member of that museum tomorrow because beginning April 17, 2005 they'll have an egyptian exhibit titled 'MUMMIES: Death and the Afterlife in Ancient Egypt - Treasures from the British Museum' which I SOOO want to see :)
Sanoj *HUGGGG* thank you :) I wish you'd use that blog I made you!! :) Tabitha ok I'll stop on by :) *HUGGGGG* I responded to all other msgs in the entry below! ok all I am off - I think we're going to see a band perform tonight or see a movie or SOMETHING :) Night :)
- Nishi
Saturday, December 18, 2004
07:59 a.m.
Western-style horseback riding - that's what we're learning today. They're going to teach us everything including trots, canters, and if we're up to it, jumps. I can't wait :) I've only horseback-ridden twice before and loved it both times - first I was 16 in Texas on a family trip and terrified out of my mind by how high above the ground i was on this monstrous horse and clung to the reins so tightly it would only do a slow walk ;) I went in better my 2nd time in Binghamton when one of my friends who was a local there (meaning she went to Binghamton but her family lived in the area) had relatives with a ranch and I had considered taking lessons there but couldn't afford it but still got to get on a horse and this time I acted like a pro and held the reins firmly but not too tightly and the horse walked much faster but it still didn't run or trot - or maybe that WAS trotting? Whatever it was, I was hooked and ever since then - think I was 19 - I've loved it. Although I never got a chance to ride on a horse since then. Now I shall :D And no matter how today turns out, I'm going to follow up with lessons beginning this spring or summer to learn English-style riding as well and learn it all - jumps etc.
The birds are chirping. I haven't heard a bird chirp all fall/now-winter in N.Y. It's heaven here although last night it was BRRRRR cold.
Caro-chan jogging around the USC area isn't that bad! :) As long as you stay on the main road which is HOOVER. I don't think it's so bad actually - it reminds me of neighborhoods in NY like QUEENS and BROOKLYN where there're lots of latino populations and lotsa places look "ghetto" but aren't that bad if you know where to be. *HUG* Besides, USC is so beautiful it makes up for everything :)
Tabithaaaaaaaa oh my GOD you started a blog too!!!! *HUGGGGGGG* It's gorgeous babe! 'come see the world through my eyes' is what I used to say in layouts past for this journal but I think it's too open an invitation for people to read and make assessments so I stopped using it on this layout. It's very romantic though and beautiful *HUG* I read everything you wrote so far! Does Mat read? ;) I tried to leave you a comment on your blog but it will only let members leave msgs and that's way annoying. Get a text box like mine? :) go to www.tag-board.com :D
Miyu-chan *huggles susan-chan* you're so cool :) I know what you say and agree but you know they always get the better of me each time ;) I'll pretend I'm you next time and eat someone alive :D You're like the female version of Maximus :D
Memory I think u told me of Laguna Beach before! I remember about the art galleries. I'll have to sometime but this weekend may not allow it - we DID want to go to a beach....hmmm......agh anywayz *HUGS*
Jade LOL! :) I'll see if Ricky can take pics when we get dressed up :) Hair up? hahaha ok I'll try although I didn't bring anything to put my hair up with other than a scrunchee and no way I can wear that out!
I woke up early at 7:15 and it's almost 8am and must shower and get breakfast - we have a 10am lesson for the horseback riding. See ya'll later tonight. *HUGS*
- Nishi
Friday, December 17, 2004
03:59 p.m. PST
I love Los Angeles. When I walked out of LAX with Ricky yesterday night it was warm out. I didn't need my jacket at all. It felt so amazing to be back here after 3/4 months away. The night, the trees, the LA pollution ;) Loved all of it. We ordered in Thai food and planned our weekend. Today, I got up at 8:30am and went jogging for an hour all the way to USC and back...took a bunch of pics of architecture and pretty quotes I found on the buildings of USC - I love their Philosophy bldg and the bldg for the International Relations school. After my jog, Rick and I went for breakfast at GRINDERS and after spinach omelette we came back to plan our day. I called up a bunch of places which offered horseback riding lessons. We're going to either Malibu or Tujunga tomorrow.
Gotta go now - will respond to msgs later :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
06:55 p.m.
ridia gee thanks - I think ;) who are u? u call me 'Nish' which is something I only allow good friends to call me. As for the 12-year old hahaha yes well any one can sound like a 12-year old when they 'rant' about 'issues' but I'm curious how many blogs you've read, let alone those written by 12 year olds, to make that assessment ;) I know u meant it in good fun but you should know it came across a little insulting - I'll take it with the best of intentions.
Sarah BETHHHHHH *HUG* gawdddd when ARE u getting MARRIED!? Thank you very much for your wonderful thoughts *HUG* Happy Holidays to you to my dear and now one of my oldest friends. Do you know I've now known you for almost 7 years? I knew you pre-Pat! How's he doing by the way? WHEN, in heaven's sakes, are we meeting up? And as for the cd - hon I'd rather you come down to the city and watch me perform LIVE :) EMAIL ME!!! Or call me on my cell when u get a chance :)
Hannah new here? :) hahaha well welcome to my journal :) I'm happy to meet you. Chrystaria you have a gorgeous name. A pleasure to meet you. Jade I KNOWWWW right??? :) It's even better in person! Victoria's Secret always has gorgeous dresses - I just wish they made it available in petite sizes...or petite-petite for me ;)
I'm home early to PACK! L.A.!! L.A.!! I'm so excited!! I got WICKED playing on my cd player and I'm singing along with 'As Long As You're Mine' :) Need to pack now :) Night everyone and see you from L.A.! :D
- Nishi
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
07:45 p.m.
I swear to God I am moving to Los Angeles. It's 74 degrees there right now. Here in NY? Bloody 27 degrees but the windchill makes it feel like 16. I HATE THE COLD. Sunny L.A. I'll be there in 2 days!!!
- Nish
Monday, December 13, 2004
10:21 p.m.
This is what I shall be wearing for New Year's Eve to all the parties! :D
It's from Victoria's Secret and I managed to snag the dress in size 2 and coat in size 0 although the dress is still too long and needs to have alterations before I can wear it.
That is my New Year's gift to myself!
Today was fun at work - after getting what had to be done, done, the computers had to be shut down due to server problems but it was ok because my friend Sandra's 14-year old daughter Christy comes to work at 3pm and so I got my deck of cards out and she and I played rummy, poker, war, hearts, and black jack. Was fun :) I treated her to her first Starbucks drinks - she loved the Double Chocolate Chip Frappuchino! I told Sandra I wanted to adopt Christy! :) I'm going to have fun with my future sons and daughters. I am already a child at heart myself and when I'm around kids and teenagers the child in me takes over :) I think life is more fun like that!
Time to go to bed. *HUGS* to all. Crystal so glad to see you again! I'm going to your new journal!!
- Nishi
Sunday, December 12, 2004
11:52 a.m.
Updated at 9:15 p.m. BELOW
I was just reading reviews for Lindsay Lohan's new album 'Speak' and was amazed by how mean people could be - comparing her to Hillary Duff and Avril Lavigne and saying they suck and how Linday's so much better. How can they say that!? I love Hillary's song 'FLY' - it's gorgeous. And I LOVEEEEEEEEE all of the songs on Avril Lavigne's latest album. That girl can SING and has the most beautiful songs and music. As I was reading the reviews I was thinking 'dude, there are people who are going to HAAATTTEEEE me, with a passion, if my cd ever comes out to the public.' Agh, I guess that's part of what you have to accept - that there are people who'll support you and agree with what you write and sing about, and ARE about, and people who hate almost everything you stand for. I think I will be very bothered by those who choose to hate me. Afterall, who can ever truly accept, in their hearts, that others could hate them? All humans want to be loved and liked, even when they disagree badly on things there's still that need to somehow work things out. Maybe it's just as natural for humans to hate as it is to love. I don't think there's anything natural about hate, though. I think it's an ugly thing we're prone to but which we have full control over - the ability to choose not to hate. Those who choose to try & understand, even if they disagree, and not to hate, I think, are amazing people.
If this journal is any indication, I think I'll tick off a lot of Bush supporters ;) LOL!! Just to be clear - I DON'T hate Bush the GUY - I think he's a funny, sweet PERSON, but I do NOT like his policies as president. I'm more a Clintonian, and much more a moderate liberal. If he hadn't led our country to war, I think I'd have been fine with him as president for the most part, save for decisions on guns, environment and conservative appointments to the Supreme Court and the chance the clock could be turned back on Roe v. Wade. But that would've been true of any president with that agenda, not just Bush. My problem is with the Iraq war and his part in it. Iraq and all of terrorism could've been handed MUCH better and later I'll write up a piece I read on this very point in the Forein Affairs Journal I read - pick it up at any bookstore - it's published 6x a year by the Council on Foreign Relations. Go check out their website at www.cfr.org.
Last night was fun :) The music is coming along gorgeously. Like I said yesterday, still lots of work left but we're meeting again tomorrow night (monday). All of the songs, so far, are staying true to my vision and everything I had in my head. I don't have to go to work on the music today so I'm going to stay home and listen to the tracks we've already laid and see where things have to be changed, what still has to be added, and GOD WILLING, maybe I'll be done before the end of the year! I think once this cd is done, I'll take Ashish and Moises out for a celebration dinner and/or have a small cd-"release" party ;) LOL! Who knows.
It's noon and time for me to have breakfast and start my day. *HUGS* to all.
Updated at 9:15 p.m.
Does anyone out there know where I can learn Bungee ballet? It's what Angelina Jolie, in Tomb Raider, practiced during a scene. Apparently, this is a real sport/dance and is used by Cirque de Soleil and a 'bungee ballet rig' was set up in Federation Square in Melbourne back in January of 2003. Any info on where one could learn more about bungee ballet would be appreciated :) It's something I'd LOVEEEEE to learn and practice. I'm already planning to go to Trapeze School here in NYC one day over the summer. go to TrapezeSchool.com to learn more :)
- Nishi
Saturday, December 11, 2004
11:52 a.m.
morning everyone :) I'm looking out the window onto the lake - today it's very still and like a mirror. I can see the white house in the distance reflected in it. If it was warmer I'd love to go out there, sit and draw or write.
I love my Kung Fu lessons cause I learn such wonderful defense and attack moves. It's very relaxing yet empowering. I get stronger each week studying and learning it. Unfortunately, yesterda's class was cancelled so after work I went to my company's 'Office Christmas Party' ;) The party was great and I had a FABULOUS time! I danced to my heart's content (once they stopped playing that horrible slow raggae and crappy music and put on good stuff). My friends David and Andrew and Luiz are great dancers! :) At 10pm, I left with David and Luis and we drove to 'TRAILER PARK' which is this bar/restaurant on 23rd Street between 7th and 8th avenues. We met our friend James there and we stayed there from like 10:30 to midnight or sometime thereafter. I was supposed to have met my friend Chelsea and go out to a club but I hadn't expected to dance and have such a good time at the christmas party so when I did, and danced so much, my feet hurt and I was pretty much danced out. We'd wanted to go to this place called EVELYN on the upper westside but turns out they're under new management and no longer have a dance floor. Agh, I'll go out with Chelsea another weekend - maybe New Year's Eve!! :)
So anywayz, Luiz drove David and me both home - he lives over in Pennsylvania and doesn't mind driving so, thanks to him, I was driven home to arrive at 1:30 :) My friends are such sweethearts.
I just got out of the shower and am going to clean up my room, pick up a suit I dropped off at the dry-cleaners back in October (god I hope it's still there) and head down to the city to meet up with Ashish and Moises and listen to what they came up for my songs. Tonight, my friend Danny is having a Christmas party so I gotta dress for that. I wonder if my voice and body can take 2 christmas parties back to back ;) I tried to be good to my voice last night so I could sing this weekend and next week. We're 'supposed' to have the music completed by the 15th so it can go to get mixed but I think it's gonna take lots of work to get all 4 songs sounding right before I can record my vocals on top of them and give them to the mix guy. We might not be on schedule but at least we're 1/2-way there!
Mahima *HUG* sweetie don't be depressed!!! You have my cell right? CALL ME! Tell me where you're applying to. what program didn't you get into? I swear I'll beat up whoever depresses my Mahima!!
To the one who calls themself 'me' get a clue? Sweetie, why don't YOU get a clue? What are you - all of 12 years old signing yourself as 'me' and 'not telling.' You make no sense writing that just because I don't support Bush's policies whole-heartedly would mean I support Bin Laden and how in the world does any of that tie in to Josh Groban? First off, me, dear, I have a plethora of reasons on why I don't agree with the decisions Bush has made as president and don't support his policies. My reasons are based on a multitude of information from news broadcasts and intelligent articles from various newspapers, news and policy publications (magazines and news journals). I have a MILLION 'clues' as to why I don't think our president made the best choices for our country and policy to the world but that does NOT mean I support Bin Laden! You are so twisted to even think like that. It's people like you who see things in only black and white. You say you respect that people have different opinions yet you tell them to get a clue. Actually, the truth is, people like you don't respect anyone unless they think like you. You're the worst type of person because you don't think beyond your own beliefs and opinions and try to understand why others see things the way they do. Don't talk down to me because I don't think you have the intelligent clout to back up anything of what you said in your anonymous comment. Oh and one more thing - only a coward and a weakling who truly doesn't know anything about what they're trying to write about would leave an anonymous 'me/not telling' monicker. Grow up and learn real facts before you can even hope to debate and discuss with others on controversial and dividing topics.
memory just send it to be83398@yahoo.com :) i do have more than one email address (20 actually ;)) but that's the one I check every day. And yes, the messages I get on this thing are crazy and funny ;)
Dr. Shaikh thanks! good luck with your music and poetry :) Rodrick thank you very much :)
Alrighty I'm out. See ya guys tonight or tomorrow :)
- Nishi
Thursday, December 9, 2004
11:19 p.m.
Beginning the week of January 3, 2005 - I will be enrolling in ice-skating school :D it's 12 weeks of classes to teach me not only how to ice skate but how to figure skate too! I went ice-skating in college with my friends Ingrid and Adam but haven't ice-skated since. I've been wobbly on rollerblades and I really want to get better. I'm SO EXCITED :) It's one of my life-long dreams to know how to ice-skate and figure skate! :)
Next on my list:
horseback riding lessons - I want to do full jumps, stunts everything!
motorcycle lessons - I love them! I have to learn!!
hang-gliding lessons - what more can I say except I wanna fly :)
sky-diving - I'm gonna start out tandem until I get over my fear - tandem means you jump attached to an instructor
painting - everything from color paints, to charcoal
piano & guitar - I've always loved these 2 instruments and watching Moises and Ashish play inspires me so much to learn! I can play the violin but that's not enough - I wanna learn and do it all! :)
Did I mention I also want to become a famous, multi-platinum selling singer/song-writer and writer of political and academic articles as well as fiction? ;) LOL!
One by one I'll make it all happen. First, i gotta get my family to buy me the telescope I want for christmas or my b-day, then take the ice-skating classes :) See? I'm on my way! ;)
It's my journal dammit - let me dream! :)
I gave myself as much voice rest as possible at work - am feeling LOADS better than yesterday :) I decorated my desk at work with a pre-lit christmas garland and attached red velvet bows everywhere on it. Bought these from K-Mart and also bought a slew of other christmas decorations for the home - showed mummy and papa the christmas angel I bought and although beautiful, we couldn't get it to sit up right on the top of the tree!! How the heck do u get it to stand up straight!
Tomorrow night I'm going out with friends after the office's christmas party - plan to wear this pretty black stapless pants-dress. It's almost 11:30 and I have to sleep and talk to my ricky. Good night everyone *HUGS*
- Nishi <-- who shall respond to all msgs tomorrow from work or on Saturday *HUGS* to all my dear friends and cousins who left me msgs
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
02:09 p.m.
hey everybody :) I didn't go to work today either because I woke up with a horrible sore throat. My dad thought I was slacking but I was totally serious - I wouldn't miss work (and lose a day's pay!) unless I really wasn't well to go to work. Who wants to voluntarily not make money for a day? My company works such that if u don't go to work, u don't get paid for that day which creates a good policy of making sure people come in and only be absent when they really are sick.
Throat still hurts right now but I'm drinking tea. Stomach flu maybe? I dunno. I just know I felt like hell on legs. Anywayz, I had a weird dream this morning as I went back to sleep after calling in to work.
I dreamt about the man I would agree to marry. It wasn't Ricky although he was still around at the time that I was determing whether I wanted to marry this new guy. This guy isn't my normal kinda guy I go for - I go for clean-shaven guys with a decent head of hair....this guy I *think* had a goatee? I dunno, can't remember and he had his hair shaved closer to his head.......not shaved completly but just a close shave such that there was still hair....agh...can't describe it - foggy memory of him - I can't remember his face at all and I think it was shaved head and goatee - whatever.
He was cute I think. But here's where it gets strange......so I meet the guy and we're talking in some room adjacent to a bathroom or IN a bathroom and we decide to get into the shower. We both got naked (somehow) and got in the shower and were fixing the shower nozzle head so hot water came out of 2 shower heads....and when that happened I hugged him and liked how he felt. This whole paragraph sounds really raunchy. So anywayz, we're talking (naked in the shower mind you and this is a DREAM! A DREAM I repeat!) and he mentioned something about an ex-gf and I get a little jealous although realizing that by our late-20's everyone's had at least 1 significant other in their past. So anywayz, I remember thinking he looked nice, had a bit of a belly I think (nothing big) but I thought he was hot. Nice body. So we kept talking nude in the shower about lots of things I can't remember and then we get outta the shower and we're talking more outside and I ask him important questions such as what religion we raise children under and he turns out to be some other religion.....but agrees with me that we teach them both belief systems and let them decide when they grow up. And after that everything just clicks and I decide this guy will be the one I marry and we're totally like good together. Even my parents were happy with him and wanted me to marry him. Mummy was saying in the dream 'so will this be the guy u finally marry?' It was the weirdest thing. I have no problem with arranged marriage I just didn't think I'd ever need one. It fast forwarded then to my wedding day and for some reason all these dignitaries and diplomats are there and I'm wondering "am i famous or something?" and it's a huge to-do affair and it was an extravagnt and gorgeous indian-style wedding like what i see in movies. Wowza.
I just told ricky about the dream and he's like 'great, now I'm fianceless and bestfriendless cause no way your dream guy's gonna let u chill with me' ;) LOL! I had to remind him it was ONLY a dream and that in all likelihood he (ricky) and I would get married so why doesn't he be my hubby already? and he's like 'nah..' and laughs and I'm like 'then don't complaint faggot!' and got pissed at him.
hmph. he's still laughing like a maniac. Men!
My tea is cold and I need a new cup. I *have* to go in to work tomorrow. I can't miss more than 2 day's pay - I'm already going away next week on 3 days unpaid to see Ricky in L.A. - so I HAVE to save up all the money I can. Hopefully I'll be better by tonight and be ok tomorrow.
Thank you to Susan, Lady and Memory you guys are such sweethearts :) *HUGS* Waheed dude I'm in New York, USA, work as an attorney in Manhattan in insurance defense litigation/personal injury litigation. What field of law do you practice in?
Oh I gotta tell you guys - I went to Origins the other day cause my White Tea facial toner ran out and while there I also bought Nightamins eye cream and night cream for the face and have been using it past couple nights and it is SO GOOD. It smells SO delicious and totally hydrates the skin and it looks great :) Ok I'm out to rest and drink more tea. See ya'll later.
- Nishi
Tuesday, December 7, 2004
02:58 a.m.
Updated at 10:45 a.m. BELOW
i just threw up 7 times. my throat feels raw. I'm so tired but I can't go back to sleep cause I still feel sick. I think it was the chore or chicken...maybe the orange juice? God knows! I threw up everything. Oh my throat hurts. I've been up since 1:15 or 1:30am when I woke up from a dream feeling nauseous. I thought the feeling would go away until it registered in my sleepy head that I had to get up cause I was going to hurl. Mummy's gonna get a surprise when she walks into the main bathroom tomorrow morning. heh heh heh it's so gross. ugh. I left a note for papa telling him I might sleep late. I have court tomorrow too....I don't know how to go....i feel really weak and sick.....wish I could wake mummy up and have her take care of me - she'd make a nice tea to settle my stomach, tell me to rest and don't talk. I'd go and make the tea myself but I'm so gosh darn tired now.....throwing up took everything out of me. 3 a.m. - I better make tea......i'm already scared about how all that throw up affects your voice/vocal chords etc - can't be good :( I hope I don't throw up again althogh my stomach still feels queasy so I think I still have a couple more rounds to go. This is a gross entry.
Updated at 10:45 a.m.
Drinking the tea last night was a bad idea - after my last entry, I threw up 2 more times, had the tea, threw up 4 more times. I didn't go to sleep until 5:30-something. I still set my clock to 7am to see if I could get up and feel ok to go to court and work but when it rang I slammed it off and knew there was no way I was doing anything today. Got up at 9 to make a phonecall to work - I feel so awful :( They needed me at court in Kings Supreme today and there's no way I could do it. Mummy helped me make black tea and I drank just a while ago - so far I'm keeping it down. My throat hurts like HELL. It feels like it's burning. I don't wanna talk much for the rest of the day. Talking more will just create cuts and scars along my vocal chords and throat lining. These affect ur vocal ability and range if not ur sound. Taking no risks. I'm going to make some more tea and go to sleep. My eyes are so tired.
Thank you memory and lady *HUGS* I hope you guys are well! What're ur SNs on AIM? Email them to me so I can talk to u online :) I'll write again later after I've slept and feel better.
- Nishi
Sunday, December 5, 2004
08:59 p.m.
azggghhhhhhh server's have been down since Wednesday night. *SOBBBB* amanda-channnnnnnn have ur hubby fix it as soon as possibleeeeeee.
I haven't written since early last week so let me re-cap - every night from Sunday through Wednesday I didn't get home till 3am because I was over at Ashish's working on the music. It is all coming along beautifully and is what I'm seeing in my head and then some!!
Today I went with my friend Rose to the Guggenheim's Aztec Exhibit and it was AMAZING! I had the most WONDERFUL time. Got there at 10am and didn't finish till after 1pm! I read, listened to the audio tour, became a Young Collector's Concil member of the museum (and now I get to vote on acquisitions to the museum!!) and bought aztec-related stuff. Afterwards, I met up with Sashi and Andreas and while Sashi shopped, Andreas and I watched ALEXANDER. Because of all the bad reviews I was expecting something awful - instead, i was happy to see it was a good movie. Well done, if lengthy and a little cheesy at some places. However, I think it could've been better. Something was missing. That certain something that makes a movie AMAZINg and PERFECT and people raving about it.....it was a movie-epic biography of Alexander the Great and I've read countless books on the guy and own a few in my library. I knew a lot about him going in and I wish the movie had echoed the mystic, historical feel instead of a 'story-teller' kind of feel with Ptolemy's telling of Alexader's life. It should've echoed the story of Ricky Valenz in La Bamba. THAT was a great biographical movie and had the same approach been used to Alexander as it was used in La Bamba, I think it would've been a spectacular movie.
I can't stop reading my Aztec exhibit books now. I already have like 16 mllion books on the Mayas, Incas and Aztec and now add 2 more on the Aztecs. I got a HUGE soft-cover version of the entire Guggenheim's knowledge and collection of the exhibit, a companion of all 450 exhibits on display, aztec hot cocoa (yes!) and collectible aztec symbols. Good stuff :)
I wanna head to sleep early so am off. *HUGS* and g'nite everyone - will respond to msgs when the servers are working again and you can see what I'm writing!
- Nishi
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
10:16 a.m.
Last night was one of the best music sessions! Moises and Ashish are so amazing. We were there till 1:30am and I didn't get home till 2:30 and seeing as how I'm on barely 4 hours sleep, I'm surprisingly together ;) 'Story' is, I think, 75% finished and will be completed tonight. It is GORGEOUS. Everything I imagined and hoped it'd be and then some! :) I LOVE MUSIC AND SINGING. SO much of it can be frustrating, and hard, but the feeling that music brought - I actually CRIED when I heard the completed intro which had been running in my head for so long.....the song was written about S. and our end......so it's a completely emotional song for me and like I was telling Ashish the other night, I only STOPPED crying everytime I sang it recently.
I need to get back to work but before I go - close your eyes if you don't like profanity or when I get angry:
Drake go f--k urself a--hole.
To everybody else who left me msgs, I'll respond tonight or tomorrow. Will be back at the studio finishing 'Story' tonight.
- Nishi
Sunday, November 28, 2004
02:03 a.m.
I just played 'Angel of Music' from Phantom of the Opera on my violin :) it sounded SO good! I can't believe I did it! :) Moved on from Creed to Nickelback - while I was listening to Nickelback my sister Nithi asked me if I was mad and I said 'no' in this angry way and my other sister Mekha laughs 'why else would she be listening to angry rock music' ;) LOL! I worked out my angry mood by practicing the new Kung Fu I learned last Friday and then shadow boxing and after that came back and went for the violin. I just got a new bow and rosin and I think I want a new violin ;) I played it from 2nd grade to 11th but hadn't *really* picked it up since then. I just started up on it this month, inspired by Ashish's playing of the guitar and all my lessons and knowledge came flooding back although I am really rusty. I started playing Linkin Park's 'Breaking the Habit' on the violin as well ;) now THAT sounds hot on a violin ;) I think I'll get a tutor for a few lessons to brush me back up to my basics and teach me how to tune this damn thing - the F string is way off and no matter how much I tune it it doesn't sound right to my ear! :) I wish I had kept up with it after high school.....should've, would've, could've, didn't. Agh no time for excuses, just throw myself in there and pick it back up! :)
I was SO mad on my way back home tonight after meeting Ashish to give him a present I got him and the check. I was in such a good mood from having spoken with him about the music and when I get out of the subway and finally get to GCT, I had a voice mail from one of my friends for whom I stayed up till 3am last night talking about her love life and stupid decisions - I told her the best thing to do - DUMP the loser - what does she do? SHE STAYS WITH HIM. She called me up to tell me that and how she thinks it'd be better in the long run for her to give him a 2nd chance - I'm like 'u don't GIVE a guy who breaks up with u 4 times and comes crawling back after seeing other girls ANOTHER CHANCE.' She and I got into a fight then and I was SO pissed the rest of the night.
Honestly have no CLUE why I bothered to help advise her, stayed up so damn late only to have her make the worst decision. GIRLS CAN BE SO STUPID! WAKE UP! UGH!
Anyway, I got rid of my frustration :) I should practice Kung Fu and shadow boxing at home more often! 2am - time to sleep. Night everyone.
- Nishi
Saturday, November 27, 2004
09:35 p.m.
"Peace is what they tell me, love am I unholy, lies are what they tell me, despise you that control me, the peace is dead in my soul. I have blamed the reason for my intentions poor, yes I'm the only one who, the only one who would carry on this far, torn, I'm filthy. Born in my own misery. Stole all that you gave me. Control, you claim you save me, the peace is dead in my soul, I have blamed the reason for my intentions poor. Yes I'm the one who, the only one who would carry on this far." - Creed: Torn
The lyrics fit my bloody mood right now.
- Nishi
Friday, November 26, 2004
09:13 p.m.
I love Armani Exchange! Mekha and I just got back from almost 4 hours of shopping at the mall (The Westchester in White Plains) - we were going to christmas shop but wound up shopping for ourselves TOO. I got this gorgeous black Armani Exchange sweater I am in love with. It *IS* possible to be in love with your clothing. Got some pretty stuff from Delia's and bought Mek a sweater there too cause I spoil my sisters rotten.
Our thanksgiving yesterday was nice :) Cooked the turkey, gravy, peas, corn, broccoli, stuffing, apple pie, white cake, brownies mmmm so good :) We didn't have cranberry sauce this year! I love that! Just thinking about it makes me want some.
Needless to say I need to jog a LOT now.
Off to take a shower. Night everyone :)
- Nishi
Thursday, November 25, 2004
11:52 a.m.
G'morning everyone!! :) It was fun when my sisters all came home yesterday :) We sat around reading magazines, talking, painting our nails - all that fun and girly stuff ;) Well ok I painted my nails and Mili changed her mind, but whatever. Papa woke us all up at this morning saying 'breakfast's ready! it's 12 o'clock!' and I turn over and it's actually 11am. Ugh. I had weird dreams again. Today we're going to cook thanksgiving turkey and all the food and then in the evening go and enjoy more at our relatives upstate. I wish I coulda gone to the parade this year but it was raining this morning and hardly anybody I knew wanted to get up to go watch the parade. Phooey. Dammit next year I'm watching it live! No tv! :)
Micaila can't wait to see the Incredibles :) *HUGS* Jade Star was mispelled in the movies section? I don't understand - where? Susan LOL! thanks! ;)
Happy thanksgiving everyone - I better get up and outta this room before they start hollerin' for me. If you celebrate thanksgiving, have a blessed holiday. And hope you're ready for the 1st real day of Christmas shopping tomorrow! I have to take my sister Mekha to the Open House for Columbia University tomorrow at 1 - she wants to do her PhD in Clinical Psychology and I've been rooting for her to go to Columbia even if it IS expensive.
- Nishi
Monday, November 22, 2004
08:04 p.m.
i think something weird happened to me last night as I slept.......either I got smarter, grew taller, or something in me changed........I feel.....different......then again maybe it's all in my head and I just need a good night's sleep.....
I believe Unicorns existed. Not necessarily the white horse-like creatures they've come to be represented as, but evidence indicates they hail from the antelope species and, to have horns, would've had to have been claw-toed-hoofed......I think they were definitely real....strong beasts.....who died out and their legend just spread like all legends spread, into fantastic tales that exaggerated everything till they are what they are now.
MoMA: I have pictures and I took notes on my favorite works: David Alfaro Siqueiros' "Collective Suicide", Edvard Munch's "The Storm", Paul Cezanne's "Chateau Noir" and "Pines and Rocks - Fountainebleau?)
On the morning of the opening of the Museum of Modern Art, I got up early cause I was meeting Chelsea at 10am. I got there and found a HUGEEEEEEE line that wrapped around the whole building, front and back. I wound up 2/3 of the way at the back of the building on 54th Street and waited on line total of 20-35 minutes before the line moved swiftly and I gained entrance by 11amish - Chelsea, her friends, and I went and had breakfast at Cafe 2 - SO expensive - $10 for a Roast Pork and Rosemary Sandwich but once I tasted it I was like WOW - SO GOOD. Overpriced but SO yummy! I had breakfast tea, tiramisu and peach tart (all excellent). It may be pricey but the food is fantastic. After we all ate and got to know each other a bit, we started on the 6th floor and worked our way down.
I like abstract art. I don't think it's pretentious. But some abstract art is really stupid and idiotic (in my opinion) and SO abstract that the artist has to spell it out in the title so we can figure it out. For example, there was this sculpure of a bronzy/gold metal square with all these bronzy/gold nails sticking out of it - it looks like a bed of nails. We read the title on it which was 'Message #7B: Ecclesiastes VII:6. One of the girls had a bible on her so we opened to Ecclesiastes Chapter 7, verse 6 and read: "like the crackling of thorns under the pot, so too is the laughter of fools. This too is meaningless." So the "bed of nails" was a message about the meaninglessness of thorns which represented the laughter of fools - which is also, meaningless. Get it? SO abstract you would HAVE to lend the viewer some clue in the title to lead him to the meaning.
We were at MOMA from 10am to 5pm. SOOOOOO tired were out feet after all that walking, standing, and viewing. I saw some GORGEOUS pieces of arts, and some scribble that looked like children went nuts......abstract art has to be appreciated on a very personal and individual basis. What I see as art and beautiful, another might go 'that's bullshit'.
Bottomline: I appreciate all forms of art (for the most part) including abstract. I really loved MoMA and am going to become a member and go back often. I love museums.
After MoMA, Chelsea and I met up with Chelsea's bf, Sean, for a movie and we saw 'NATIONAL TREASURE' the Nicolas Cage movie and it was FANTASTIC! I had low expectations - expecting it to be tired and cheesy but BOY was I wrong - it was GREAT! I loved every minute of it. It makes me want to study American History all over again. SO much I didn't know and learned in that movie. WORTH SEEING! GO SEE IT!
This thanksgiving weekend I think my sisters and I will see ALEXANDER and The INCREDIBLES :)
Sunday was spent all day working with the music, and today I had court in the morning......I didn't get out of court until 12noon roundabouts (12:22) and I decided since it was so close to lunch (it's from 1-2), to just chill instead of spending another 20-30 minutes on the subway rides back. So I took a walk down to City Hall Park and enjoyed the fountain and the beautiful lanterns they have there....as I walked I thought about the last time I walked there - over a year ago.....and how much had changed since 2003.....back then I was so unhappy as a lawyer, so miserable because my dream was to sing.....and now, over a year later, it's happening. I'm happy as a lawyer, happy singing and doing the music......God willing, a year from now, MAYBE I'll have a successful album! I'm going to pray as hard as I can.
There's a friend at work who doesn't believe in dreams. She believes in reality. Her dreams are realistic ones: law school, home, marriage and a family. I agreed with her on all that - that dreams should be realistic. Dreams should be tempered with reality is what I said. My dreams...of singing....of becoming a world-reknown performer and artist......the reality might just be that I'll have my beautiful songs recorded on a cd....and I'll perform to small audiences.....the reality might be: nothing big will happen. And while that thought makes me so sad that tears well up in my eyes, I have to think: hey! at least you'll have these songs you love so much recorded. At least SOMEONE, even if it's just small audiences, friends and family, they will hear you sing, hear your songs. Maybe you won't be rich and famous....but the music....I really KNOW people will love the music. So that's my dream tempered with reality. If by some miracle, I make it big - I will be one of the happiest girls on earth.....because I won't *really* be content JUST singing for small crowds, and only having a small amount of people hearing my songs....I want the whole WORLD to hear these songs, to hear me sing.....who knows if that dream even has a chance to come true but as long as I'm trying, I'm closer than those who never try at all and just let a dream slip away.
Maybe I'm a fool but I don't care. I'm going to believe that one day I'm going to sing to sold-out concert halls and arenas, that I'll perform at awards shows, maybe even snag a few awards. I'm going to work hard to achieve the steps that'll bring me there. Maybe I'll succeed. Maybe I won't, no matter how hard and great I try. You never know unless you try.
memory come to law school in NYC! Or in a suburb or borough of NYC like Queens or Long Island! You'll LOVE it here! And I loved what u said about abstract art - ur exactly right and I agree 100% :) Alex wow! I still have to pick up Josh Groban's cd......his voice...so gorgeous :) You lucky duck have all of it!! *HUGS* :) and about musician men? delectable is the right word....they're so hot...... Victor thank you very much! DO you have a blog too? Donna LOL!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOoooooo :) NO ONE on that page is my boyfriend! hahahahaha u made me laugh so hard! Ricky's pics are at my pics page: Photo Gallery. The one you pointed to is the star of Bombay Dreams playing on Broadway here in the city - Manu Narayan - he's gorgeous though :) Amazing voice...would LOVE to do a duet with him ;) and if I was single, a lot more than that! ;) LOL! JUST KIDDING! Ricky I love you :D *ducks head* but seriously yeah he's hot ;) Ricky ur just as hot! MWAH!! *ducks head again* ANNNNYYYYYWAAAAAYZZ lord I'm a dork. Micaila hooray for boyfriends who are video game freaks! :D hahaha *HUGS* congrats! It's ok about the class - u have a million more to do amazing on and I know you will! :) I can't wait to see some of your stuff!! Susan awww thank you!!! Well first I have to make sure it's legit and then I'll plan my bahamas adventure - me, ricky, the surf, the sand and a bikini ;) fun fun fun ;)
aright folks - I'm out. I need to do some vocal exercises, and head to sleep early. *HUGS* to all and good night :)
- Nishi
Sunday, November 21, 2004
11:32 p.m.
I had the best recording/music session today! SOOO much work done on S.Y.H.A. and I even was able to get 2 of the songs in mp3 format and Hush sounds SO good even though right now it's not the version I want to eventually release. Ashish is SO awesome and I got to meet his friend Moses (or Moises?) and he's so cool! Watching them play the piano and guitar is so amazing. I think I'm a sucker for men who know how to play music.....especially when it's MY music....SUCH a turn on ;) It's strange how men you don't think of in ANY romantic sense whatsoever transform the second you hear them play music - through the music, u SEE the beauty in their soul and that is incredible - incredible how music brings out the best in us.
I know I promised to write about MoMA and respond to all msgs but I have court tomorrow morning and I only got home a while ago and am so very, very tired.....I don't think I'll get any break until Christmas.....I forsee a lot of late nights ahead until the CD is finished at the end of December (God willing) because I want to get them printed and start performing in January.......I want to shop this beautiful music and please God - let someone out there hear it and fall in love with it and agree to take it and produce it for the masses and let the masses hear...and be moved.....
- Nishi <-- who promises, this time, to reply tomorrow night even if it takes till 3am ;)
Saturday, November 20, 2004
11:42 p.m.
MoMA (the Museum of Modern Art) was AWESOME!!!! Spent almost all DAY there! SOOOOO much to write about it! I'm SO glad I went today - on the first day it opened - even dispite the long wait on the line and the crowds - was WORTH it! Although I found out, for sure, I'm not a huge fan of abstract art - some of it's fun, some so pointless and made us keep saying 'I COULD DO THAT AND BE RICH TOO!' ;)
I'll write everything (and we saw National Treasure starring Nicolas Cage too!) tomorrow after I get home - will be most likely working on the cd all day tomorrow. SO tired. Can't believe I got back so late.
Good night and will respond to ALL messages tomorrow night too! *HUGS* to all.
- Nishi
Friday, November 19, 2004
11:44 p.m.
too much to write and too little time! So in brief: gotta go to sleep now cause I'm meeting friends to go to the opening of the Museum of Modern Art tomorrow morning! I don't care if it's raining or if there's a mile-long line - ADMISSION IS FREE! :D hehehe :) Meeting Chelsea (and I think Sean?) at 10 for breakfast and I think Sashi and Andreas are coming and maybe my friend Danny from work and his friend Janeen. Should be a nice group of us :) Then later, maybe heading to Hoboken to meet up with Ashish (can't wait to see what's been done with the music :)) and then Sashi said something about a gallery opening in Soho tomorrow night so will go there with her. And on Sunday, it's being spend all day working on the music with Ashish.
I had a kick-ass kickboxing class yesterday and an awesome Kung Fu class tonight. My whole body aches but it's good cause I know I'm getting in shape and getting stronger.
Did I mention Ricky sent me lilies - like 3 dozen of them - the day after I fell and hurt my knee last week? They still, after 10 days, look gorgeous on my desk at work :)
I love Ricky. SO much so I went to Banana Republic during lunch and bought him 3 beautiful things for Christmas that I'll have to sacrifice manicures and pedicures for the next 3 months for ;) He's worth raggedy nails ;) MWAH lovebuggers :D
ok must sleep! gotta get up at 7:30am on a SATURDAY cause I love spending time with my friends and esp. at a museum's opening! night everyone :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
09:57 p.m.
How did it become Wednesday? (Don't answer that!) I just got home at 9:30....had a fun night! Stephanie and I went to our first, ever, manga meet-up. It's the New York City Anime and Manga Meet Up Group and was a LOT of fun!
For those of you living here in NYC, 'NYC Anime/Manga Meet Up' holds monthly anime and manga meet ups. Tonight they held a meeting at the Skylight Diner over on 34th and 9th Avenue. I'm going to go as much as I can. If you're interested in meeting up with fellow manga and anime fans once a month, and one sunday a month they do screenings of all sorts of anime too, then check out http://manga.meetup.com/2 - it was actually a lot of fun and everyone was so great!
Now for other news....I won a vacation to Florida and the Bahamas! Yup - and it's not a scam! Remember the Chocolate Show I went to on Saturday? While there I filled out a form to win a free trip/cruise and I WON! They phoned me tonight :) YAAAAAAY! I'm going to find out details tomorrow. I've never BEEN to the Bahamas before! YAY YAAY YAAY! I sure hope this is legit.
I'm reading IMADOKI vol. 3 - SOOOOO good :) Will write more tomorrow. Night everyone!
- Nishi :)
Sunday, November 14, 2004
10:28 p.m.
oh my GOD - I love Josh Groban's music! I just heard him perform to where you are (I think that's what it was?) on the AMAs and so i went to www.joshgroban.com to listen again and WOW - beautiful. Just beautiful. Oceano is pretty too.
Alicia Key's performance was FABULOUS and her's and Usher's duet together? WOW. I haven't seen such hot, all-out performances in a LONG time. SO worth watching tonight.
- Nishi
Sunday, November 14, 2004
11:24 a.m.
g'morning everybody :) Just woke up! hehehe :) Yesterday, after mopping the wood floors of the upstairs/stairs and my room, mummy and papa went to visit Nithi in Connecticut and I got ready to meet up with Sashi and a friend from work, Greg for the Chocolate Show / Festival at the Metropolitan Pavilion here in New York on 18th Street b/t 6th and 7th Avenue. It was SOOOOOO much fun but I do not want to smell, taste or see chocolate for another year ;) LOL!
When I got to 18th Street, I didn't see Greg so I thought he was up in front of the line cause he told me he was already there - the line wrapped ALLLLLL the way around the block! I found him towards the middle back and joined him - he's such a sweet guy! He's this big teddy bear type and it was actually so much fun hanging out with him outsideof work! Soon thereafter Sashi joined us. My friend Chelsea and her boyfriend Sean and Greg's friend Nicole joined us later inside. And Sashi's husband Andreas joined us later after the show. Sashi and I went up and tried European Drinking Chocolate, every kind of dark, milk, swiss, german etc chocolate there was at the show; including chocolate liquors - mmmmmmmmmm :D We had marshamallows dipped in chocolate, fruit like pineapples, strawberries and bananas dipped in chocolate, although by the end I was like 'can I just have the fruit?' and waited in line 3x to get just the fruit cause I was so sick of chocolate ;)
There were chocolate paintings, chocolate dresses, chocolate sculptures, there was even a chocolate fashion show (On Thursday which I missed) which had women WEARING clothes and stuff made out of chocolate!
Anywayz, after we were all chocolated out, I said bye to Chelsea and Sean who had plans to go for french food (I think we're meeting up next week at the Guggenheim for the Aztec Exhibit since yesterday was impossible ;)) and Sashi, Andreas, Greg and Nicole and I walked up to 23rd and 8th where there's this restaurant called East of Eighth with the most gorgeous waiters and bartenders! WOWZA ;) I wound up having our waitress tell the bartender that he was gorgeous and he sent a free Amaretto Sour (one of my fave drinks) :) So sweet :) She was encouraging me to go up and talk to him but I'm like noooooo I can't ;) hahahaha telling a guy I think he's cute is as far as I go ;) I told my boyfriend Ricky what I did and he was like 'Niiiceeee' ;) LOL! Sashi was like 'damn I should tell bartenders I think they're cute so I get free drinks too ;)' LOL!
We had SOOOOOO much fun at East of Eigth but I could barely eat much of the delicious food - seafood chowder, crab sandwhiches, and dessert of mango sorbet which came with this delicious sweet graham cracker-like thing? MMMMMM. Definitely going back!
I was only able to catch the 9:40 train out of Grand Central and got home at 10:30 and first thing my dad says after I ask how Nith's apartment in CT was? "You know, YOU are the messiest daughter I have." I'm like 'oh jeez, here it comes, what did I do now, I just tidied up my room!' and he continues that Nith, Mek and Mil's apartments are all SO organized etc etc and I'm like 'but papa if you came to my future home you'd see it like that TOO' but he scoffed at that. I'm like 'WHATEVER, I don't CARE.' and take solace in my room. And they wonder why I don't like to come downstairs and hang out with them. My room is nicer to me!! ;) Just kidding ;) But seriously, I was like 'geez, to have a nice day with good friends and come home to criticism from my family - not a good way to end a great day at all.' I really, REALLY should not be living at home at this stage and age of my life but I cannot afford to move out to an apt in the city and other apts in other areas are just not worth it for the sole reason of getting away from home - I love my parents very much - no matter what they say or do to me, or how angry and annoyed I get - I love them like crazy and I'd only move out when I could afford to and when I found the right apartment.
Today is Sunday......I'm gonna jog a million miles to work off the 10 pounds of chocolate and food I ate yesterday ;) Going to completely organize my closet and dresser drawers - I have achieved what I thought was impossible - I have so many clothes I can't fit them all in my closet. Who knew this day would come?! ;) And tonight is the American Music Awards so going to watch that and dream about one day performing there and maybe, just maybe, being lucky enough to win an award. LOL! Yeah right :) But hey, I can dream.
Eneida I hope you read updated entries - these new entries? I've been back at work since last March and my dad's health is great now (well not GREAT but no problems!) Last time I talked, you told me you had a boy! :) It HAS been too long. I'll email you today! :) *HUGS*
God it's so COLD. Oh before I go, I was reading US Weekly yesterday and saw a picture of Prince William who was an usher at his relative's wedding. Wow Prince William is cute! I was like 'was Prince William *always* this cute?' Never noticed him much before. No wonder 1/2 the British world loves him so much - but better than his looks is the fact that he helps so many charitable causes and actually works to improve conditions for people. He's a great figure for Britain.
I'm going to have breakfast now :) Have a great day everyone!
- Nishi
Saturday, November 13, 2004
12:36 a.m.
Thank goodness I'm home! :) It's so bloody cold outside and rainy. Just got back from a night out with my friend Chelsea - we went to the Open Mic Night in Chinatown at TEABAG again - the emcee googled TeaBag and found this journal ;) LOL! In case you're reading again, you're a kick-ass emcee. ;) No joke - you make the interim fun and everyone's cracking up. For those of you reading, if you're in NY on a Friday night, head into Chinatown to corner of Mott Street and Pell Street to a place called Silk Road - the downstairs has the Open Mic Night while the above is a restaurant (the place is a little before Peking Duck House). Or go to TeaBagOpenMic.com :) When the cd's ready, Ashish and I are going to perform my material there and test the waters. I'm also thinking of the Coffee Grind and Olive Tree Cafe and some other places which do great open mics.
Was supposed to go to my friend Danny's party after the Open Mic ended but that didn't happen - good thing though cause I'm exhausted. After work, went with Kerry to this place called 'El Quixote' for sangria and appetizers - had this clam-like dish - SO good. Sangria - red one - yummy :) We parted ways around 6:30 after which I met up with Chelsea and we went to Chinatown for dinner and (of course went to Sweet N Tart ;)) and then went to my fave clothing shop in Chinatown on Mott/Canal corner called 'BEAUTY' :) I find the most gorgeous coats there.
The Open Mic was great even for a very slow and rainy night. Not much of a crowd but the performances - fabulous. Especially this 'Voodoo Soul' guy who just ROCKED as the final performance of the night. His music is a lot like my own - songs about lost love and broken hearts - moving stuff that just makes you go 'wow'. I was totally inspired.
I gotta get some sleep - tomorrow meeting up with Sashi (I think?) to go to the Chocolate Festival and then heading to the Guggenheim Museum's Aztec Empire exhibit. Better see if it actually happens first. All my friends have a weird habit of making plans with me and then not being able to make it come time ;) Maybe it's me! Naahhh! ;) LOL :)
My bed looks way comfy over there.....time to sleep. Night everyone :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
11:56 p.m.
Just got home from the city - was out celebrating Neil's birthday! He's one of my oldest friends from college I still keep in touch with. We had a great time! Went to Olive Tree Cafe on McDougal and W. 3rd for eats and then all went to Slainte - this bar over on Bowery and E 1st. I love Sashi and Neil. Spending time with them was so nice and I need to do it more often.
Knees are better today. Am so tired so am heading straight to sleep. Susan LOL! Yes! When I box I punch the heavy bags and get all my aggression out! :) Lady you're right, every word. And I know exactly how to deal with people like that. Jade *HUGS* thank you. :) I'm betting people have said awful stuff where u work too huh? It's such a waste of productive work time and creating a kind work environment.
Anywayz, I'm out *HUGS* to all.
- Nishi
Monday, November 8, 2004
05:47 p.m.
Today I am HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! HOORRAAAYYY LOL! :D Everything worked out! THANK GOD!
Soua you never left your site address - I'd be happy to check it out and offer some advice but I don't have the time to actually help with it. Janagir dude....thanks....too bad I can't say the same back....Melody you're so sweet! *HUG* thank you very much. I hope you joined the Arwen and Aragorn message board and email discussion group :) Susan amen! I am with u there 100%! I'm all better now though :) *HUG* Lady but ur in a better place now :) *HUGS* I'm ok - I just HAD to vent that day to get it out of me. Things are good now :)
I'm going back to my kickboxing/martial arts classes starting today. I can't wait to kick some ass.
- Nishi
Sunday, November 7, 2004
09:49 p.m.
I am sad and disappointed. That's all I'm gonna say.
- Nishi
P.S. I will respond to msgs tomorrow
Saturday, November 6, 2004
11:33 p.m.
Inspired by that song I wrote about below: Savage Lover
The following is (c) Nishi Rajan Nov. 6, 2004
restless
i fall back on u
waiting
waiting
breathless
moving closer
can't escape ur touch
must get closer
to love u is torment
to leave u my death
no choice but to give in
sweet release
come and bring me to you
- Nishi
Saturday, November 6, 2004
10:55 p.m.
mmmmmmm I just got rid of alllllll my anger and pent up aggression by dancing to 'Savage Lover' - an electric violin song by Lorenzo LaRoc and his band Masterpiece. I heard him playing in the Grand Central subway the other day and was SO moved by this song that I had to buy his cd. Found out he studied at Juliard, toured with Sheila E. and performed at Carnegie Hall and is an amazing electric violinist.
This violin piece, 'Savage Lover', MAKES you want to get up and move...to lose yourself in its music and rhythm....I couldn't stop dancing.......it's a song that evokes all the emotions from anger, to expression, to release....it's haunting....at times sad....always beautiful......I have it on repeat....can't stop listening to it....it's addicting. I even got the guy to sign it! LOL! I can play the violin, played it from 2nd to 11th grade but stopped there.....and I've only played it intermittently since then.....I'll probably be so rusty but maybe I should pick it up again....I used to be good once upon a time so couldn't hurt to try again, with more time I could be back to where I once was.....
*sigh* nothing like music to make everything better..... :)
Petruchio I'm glad I helped. *HUGS* I hope it works out for you. Telina hahahaha good luck to you too! your comment cheered me up :) Lady your comp crashed? doh! I'm thinking of buying a new one this christmas cause i think my pc here is gonna die one of these days soon.....
I just finished cleaning my room spotless....am gonna wash my face, eat a late dinner and go to bed - tomorrow I think I'm working with Ashish on the music so need to be up early. Mmm...I still wanna dance more to this song.....
Night everyone.
- Nishi
Saturday, November 6, 2004
08:57 p.m.
I wanna move out! I wanna move out! I wanna move out!!!
*screams bloody murder* AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wanna move the hell OUT!!!
I am too freakin old to get yelled at about how I keep my room messy (I can't help it - I'm a busy girl! it's not like I LIKE to live in a pig sty or something!) but now papa's yelling about my closet and the books on it and the clothes and how it'll break off the wall and how I have to remove the books - I'm like what the hell - the books don't weigh much and I want them there! I cleaned out the whole bloody top of the closet for that express purpose and now he's freakin out about it?
Just leave me and my room the heck alone. I wanna punch something. Hard.
People, after college and def after grad school MOVE OUT. Don't live with your folks, even if they beg and plead and pull at your heart. It's best for all if u move OUT. OUT OUT OUT. AAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!
- Nishi
Saturday, November 6, 2004
02:26 p.m.
edited out advice to Petruchio.
The Country Music Awards are on this TUESDAY at 8! And the American Music Awards next Sunday! I can't wait :) I love music award shows!
This new house has given me my first ever allergy I think - and it is making my immunse system weaker - I have a freakin sore throat! Well a slight sore throat - nothing severe (thank God) but what the hell???? I used to hardly EVER get sick and now it's like every month I'm getting sick! Drank hot cocoa....cleaned the bathroom this morning....going to completely clean and organize my room today.......
Anywayz, I'm out. See ya'll later.
- Nishi
Friday, November 5, 2004
09:30 a.m.
and divided we stand . . .
I loved this morning's edtorial by Jim Watkins, the WB11 News Anchor. He writes that when Kerry conceded the election to Bush, they talked about the urgent need to heal our divded nation. Bush promised to do just that in his victory speech hours later. Jim Watkins says it's not going to happen. He cites the feelings on both sides. For example, the conservative Adam Yoshida is quoted as saying in his blog: "Those who didn't support Bush can go perform a certain anatomically impossible act. They lost, now they can sit in the back of the bus. Thank God almighty." Or from the other side of liberals who're saying the parade of horribles and how Bush will bring only worse in the next 4 years and those who voted for Bush couldn't complain, 'you wanted this guy, now you have him, unleashed.' Unleashed being key in that now there's nothing to restrain him from acting in any way he pleases in ruling and making decisions.
Watkins says "The fact is, no matter who won Tuesday's election, the divisions that are beginning to define America were destined to widen no matter who won. Red states and blue states used to symbolize Republicans and Democrats. Now those colors represent completely different belief systems. In a way, they seem like parts of different countries. Every time Pres. Bush sneeringly spit out the word "Massachusetts" as code for his opponent's inferior values, and every time the crowds hearing it erupted in a joyful roar, a little bit of hope drained from my heart. United States of America? Who are we kidding? Something tells me that even if the president extended a hand across the blue-red divide, lots of people in Massachusetts would slap it away. We're not really part of your America? Well, you're not really our president. In my darkest moments I fear all of this is turning into something much worse. I think of Serbs and Croats, and Catholics and Protestants in Northern Ireland, and other religious and nationalist groups who internalize a hatred for those who aren't like them, even as they share the same country. When a nation becomes split between 'us' and 'them' and the politicians' success depends on exploiting that, you're not moving in the direction of solving the problem. Warning against what he calls 'deep social conflict' and the threat of a national religious war, writer Andrew Sullivan finds the only answer is allowing states greater latitude to make their own rules. If blue states want legalized pot and stem cell research, let 'em have it. 'Forcing California and Mississippi into one model is a recipe for disaster," Sullivan writes. So the 'under God' part of the Pledge of Allegiance isn't the most controversial part, after all. 'One nation' is the part we're having trouble with."
This is exactly what I wrote about yesterday and the day before. Other letters in the newspaper had people saying Kerry lied about things - I'm thinking 'huh?' I hold strongly that we liberals and dems have and had the right thinking with respect to how to guide this nation, especially in the world. We didn't agree with Bush's unilateral preemptive strike.
Cara D'Amica from here in Manhattan wrote today thanking midwestern America for voting for Bush but not in the way you think. She writes 'It's quite easy for you isn't it? You aren't in a constant state of 'orange alert.' You don't see armed guards everywhere. You don't jump every time you hear a loud noise, thinking it's a bomb. Because, let's face it, nobody wants to bomb Kansas. But about 3/ of the residents of NYC voted for John Kerry. Perhaps we'd rather now be the ones to die or lose loved ones simply as repercussions for our aggressive self-proclaimed "war president." We'd rather seek peace. Instead, we will have to spend 4 more yrs watching this man provoke insane terrorist leaders and hoping they will not take it out on us."
I agree with her. I wrote a while back that Bush was provoking people in the middle east with his idiotic statements and bad foreign policy. Cara D'Amico isn't off base when they says he'll provoke more insane terrorists. Majority of the world isn't insane. But thet are moved to act and feel when they believe they've been wronged. In extremists minds, when they've been wronged, they will take extreme actions. You have to keep that in mind when you say things, do things....especially when you're an influential world power.
Anonymouse care to tell me who you are or shall you be an anonymous mouse forever? ;) I agree with you 100%. I definitely take comfort in the fact that my young generation will bring progress and better rule for all. And yup, the Repub party was brilliant in their campaign and election strategy. Unfortunately for us. Tim Saccone I agree with you. Fully. Suni I'm happy you're happy but let me ask you, what good actually came from the past 4 years under Bush? All I've known is anger, hurt and sadness under Bush. He is the reason I stopped being a republican (a liberal republican albeit) and turned into a liberal democrat after he took office. All I see is 4 more years of the same if not worse in decisions, actions and results. I pray it isn't so.
If Suni and I, people who would generally agree and get along on most everything, disagree so strongly in politics and viewpoints on such, it's a similar indication of the divide in this nation and how pointed/obvious/stark it is. This doesn't bode well for us as a nation. I want us to be together on most things, if not all. To reach a compromise. My only solution has been to let not only each state, but each district or county decide. But as it is now, divided we stand.
- Nishi
Thursday, November 4, 2004
09:43 a.m.
Mark A. Keeton from Long Island City wrote this wonderful letter to the editor of "am New York" in today's newspaper saying: "I've never been prouder to be a New Yorker than I am today, With our votes we chose more than a presidential candidate. We, the firsthand witnesses and victims of 9/11, chose hope over fear. We chose science and common sense over voodoo and religion. We chose intelligence over ignorance. We chose a decoated war veteran over a man arrested for DUI. We chose the hope of a peaceful resolution to our problems over unilateral, crusade-like wars. New York is truly the home of the brave. And the very slight majority of America needs to catch up."
Amen Brother Mark! :) I fully agree with you.
It doesn't matter to me that the media and everyone seems to think this country is going to the conservatives. I think the moderates and liberals are in for a struggle the next 4 years to make progress against a conservative curtain, but that, eventually, forward thinking will win. While I strongly hold it is important to have traditional, conservative values, I believe it's just as important to acknowledge when those values are outdated and not in line with much of the culture of your nation, or your own beliefs. In that respect, you must rule by logic and fairness when you're governing a great nation with a diverse population with widespread views on polarizing issues. When you rule such a nation, you cannot hold a particular view which you enforce upon all - you must hold your view but not apply it across the board. Choice. Choice is key. You must give people the choice.
Anywayz, I'm at work now and planning to attend some function at Macy's tonight unless my plans change. Today at Macy's Herald Square on 34th Street from 5:30-8:30, Cosmopolitan Magazine is having a Beauty Awards event where they'll have beauty shopping, music, refreshments, astrological readings and various in-store happenings. You can enter to win a gift basket and if you spend $50 or more you take home a Beauty Queen tank top. I want one! :) hehehehe :)
Also, at 6pm they're having a designer bag shop and performance by the all women jazz ensemble SAGE and you can enter to win a $1000 handbag shopping spree! :)
My friend Stephanie at work showed me this Anime get together that's occuring here in the city where people meet up to enjoy manga and anime. It's happening next week right near where I work at a diner :) I'll have more details on this later.
Time to work. Have a great day everyone.
- Nishi
Wed, Nov. 3, 2004
9:00 a.m.
the 2004 election results thus far
Edited below at 11:40 a.m.
so someone asked me on the train 'are you happy about this election?' and I answered: "No I'm not happy. The guy I supported doesn't look like he'll win. And I backed him with my full heart. Bush doesn't represent me or stand for the qualities I believe a president should have for the U.S. My only consolation is the fact that there are about 48% - 49% of the voters last night who agree with me in supporting Kerry and not Bush. It's unfortunate that Bush has more voters who support him." That's what I said. I'll support Bush as president when it's determined he's won because he IS our President and that's determined by the majority of voters, but I can't say I'm happy about it.
I don't know how to feel. Bush is too conservative for me. I'm more progressive, more equal rights, and although I love God, I don't like how Bush has taken a strong view of the Bible and Christianity and uses it as part of his presidency to label Iraq and other countries evil, not God-fearing etc. I hate how I am looking at a 'Bush Era' now instead of a Bush stint in the White House. I'm afraid for this country and what the end results of his presidency will bring. My gut feeling is it was wrong to elect Bush last night. My gut tells me only bad can come in the next 4 years under this president, and not because he's a bad guy or anything - but simply because he and his administration have turned this country upside down and the world as well.
Someone said somewhere that they'd rather have an extraordinary guy in the White House - someone who's amazing, intelligent, talented to lead the U.S. - not a mediocre or average guy. I wanted to elect someone who would be a super intelligent and amazing guy for the office. I don't feel Bush is that guy.
*sigh* I wish Kerry had won clearly, decisively. He didn't so here's to 4 more years of Bush and let's pray that it doesn't get worse and that Bush and his admin makes good decisions for us and the rest of the world.
Edited at 11:40 a.m.
I was listening to NPR News Radio all morning and learned Kerry has called Bush and conceded the presidency. Well that's it. I'm sad and disappointed. But as I was listening to all the opinions, news reports, and various calls in by the listening public I thought how I would've run this race....and my stance formed....
On the morality issue - who says what is moral? Is it immoral to be gay or lesbian? If it is, why is it immoral? Because the Bible says so? Well what about people who don't believe what the Bible says about gays and lesbians, homosexuality being immoral - but who are people who are still good, god-loving, god-fearing people? What about their morals and values? There are clear societal morals such as (1) do not kill, (2) do not steal, (3) don't have sex with each other's spouses, minors etc and then there are questionable areas where opinion is divided. Those areas aren't clear cut moral areas.
How would I rule? Since this great nation is so divided as to moral values, let the states decide. Let each vote decide what their district or county or state will allow as regards homosexuality, marriage, abortion etc. Our opinions differ but instead of forcing our views on one another who live in the same state, let us vote to decide where abortions are ok and not, where gay marriage is ok and not. I believe abortions and gay marriage should be protected on a federal and constitutional level because my intelligence tells me clearly that these are issues which go beyond people's beliefs in faith but are things you have to decide independent of such emotional pullings - decide based on logic alone. However, the midwest and south disagree with me, so I'd leave it up to those states and their districts etc to vote. I wish Kerry would've made a statement like that.
- Nishi
Tuesday, November 2, 2004
06:45 p.m.
I voted! I voted!
Today is Election Day in the U.S.! and today, I voted for the first time in a presidential election along with my folks who also were 1st time voters! I went straight democratic in voting ;) It was SO easy! Woke up 5:30 am to get to the poll by 7am and with my dad we saw how easy it was to pull the lever, pull down the levers for our choices, lift the main lever back up and tada, all done :) I wish I could do more!
I hope Kerry wins. I know I'll be so disheartened and upset if Bush stays president.
Memory positive thinking! No negative! :) Jade I don't care if people from my work read this journal. I do mind if they're reading and not letting me KNOW they're reading or if they bring up something I write about to me - I'd be like 'what right do you have to talk to me and ask/say ANYTHING to me about what I write about on a journal? Just cause it's public doesn't give you the right to feel so free as to say anything you like to me.' Sharon dude....computer program about rapture? uh...no offense...really...but what planet did you drop down from? ;)
Gonna clean my room, finish my dinner, and stay glued to the tv watching the election results.
- Nishi
Sunday, October 31, 2004
11:30 a.m.
Happy Halloween!!
I put a lit up pumpkin out last night and today. It runs on batteries and has a fan that blows a fake cloth flame inside the pumkin. Hung up a cute plushie of a cat jumping on a pumkin on the door handle. Going to a Halloween party tonight (maybe, depending on some things) and probably the parade in Greenwich Village. Was supposed to record/work on music today but stuff came up on Ashish's end and I'm really worried that the music won't have enough solid time to be what I really want and imagine. Before I can record vocals at the full studio over the music track I've gotta be happy with the way the music sounds. It's gotta be perfect. I can't pay money for anything less than 100% satisfaction. As it seems today/tonight is out, only option now is to work weeknights and all the next 2 weekends because the engineer is supposed to have it on Nov. 15. And before that, I have to record the vocals. So it's very little time to get all the music right.
Sean this one's for you ;)
I'm voting for KERRY because he's a helluva lot better than Bush for almost all of our foreign policy (save for his stance on Iran but that can get worked on). Kerry will keep a woman's right to choose, will help protect the environment, won't play games with people's minds and manipulate them as the Bush admin has, and electing Kerry will send a clear message to the rest of the world that we, the people of the United States, were not happy with Bush's preemptive strike against a country that never had weapons, never made a strike against us, his decision to do it with very little credible evidence, and the information that he had wanted to do this all along anyway regardless of the info to support it, and ended up costing us thousands of American and Iraqi lives.
The rest of the world took a huge backturn away from the U.S. when Bush got elected and proceeded to mess up every major alliance and foreign policy instituted by the Clinton Admin after 8 long years. Every country in the world, save for maybe Poland, hates what the U.S. has become under Bush. The leaders of some countries may talk nice, but talk to the people and they'll tell you something else. It's not that they hate the PEOPLE of the U.S. but what our government is doing. KERRY will change that. Electing him will get back a lot of the faith in our government and in this country. Kerry says he won't go preemptively striking any country without hard facts to support such a strike first! I believe him. Bush, as soon as he was elected, already had 'let's go after Iraq' on the mind, this was confirmed by aides who heard it from his mouth. No president of the U.S. should be starting wars or involve our people in wars unless it is a LAST resort. HOW was involving our people in Iraq a last resort? We took the 1st action! Iraq had destroyed all their stockpile of weapons - the UN inspectors said so. But the U.S. refused to give in, saying they were still hiding it and saying they had credible sources (from years back) which said they were hiding it. Bullshit. I don't want such a nefarious 'Big Brother is watching you from 1984' government.
If Bush gets elected a second term, I bet we'll get attacked again and/or that situations with Iraq and other countries will worsen and that Bush and company will issue a draft and say it's because our reserves and volunteers can't do it alone, and they need the help of the American people. I can hear it from his persuasive lips right now.
This country already took an extreme turn to conservativism with his election. We have republican cameras scrutinizing black voters in Florida last week when they were doing early election. What is this?? And we are one vote away from overturning Roe v. Wade - the landmark law that gave women the right to choose! One vote away from turning time back to the 1970s and pre-1970s when women everywhere who got pregnant by mistake had babies dumped in alleyways, dying, and dead mothers. Today, women and couples are safer with reproductive choices: the pill, the morning after pill, and abortions. Whether we have the same religious belief or not is irrelevant. Your faith determines YOUR decisions only. And you can help TALK to people who are undecided. But your faith, alone, may not force everyone else who disagrees with you to live the way you see fit. I'm not a fan of abortions. I hate them. But I still believe that a woman should have the choice. It's a very personal decision - if you got pregnant and you were 19, in college, what would you do if you and your family didn't have the money to raise a new child, let alone the fact that your family would raise hell that you got pregnant and the fact that as a result of an accident (condom breaking, ineffective birth-control device, or even unprotected sex which is very stupid!) in getting pregnant, you now have the possibility that this pregnancy might come to full term and you'd have to give up your life as you know it and take care of a child.
Many women and couples have abortions today because of mistakes and accidents such as the above. Now some of you out there, like me, would choose to have the baby. Others would say 'no!' and the rest of us have to respect that. What's ok for US is not ok for OTHERS. And that's the main thing wrong with the Bush administration. They act like what's good for them under their belief in God is good for everyone in this country weather they are atheist, hindu, buddhist - whatever. The fact is what happens in your life, to your body, is your choice and your decision. The government shouldn't take choice away. It should GIVE choices and instruct people better. People are people. If you take abortions away, people will still have them illegally and because it can't be done in legal hospitals or clinics, it'll be done in private offices and back alleys where the risk of injury to the woman will be quadrupled if not 100%. Bottom line, gov't must not take choice away. Freedom to choose is the foundation of this government. You believe in Bush, I believe in Kerry. We choose. You believe in being pro-life, I belive in pro-choice. We choose. And that's how it has to be because when you start taking choice away, there's no stopping what choices will be taken away next.
Go KERRY!
- Nishi
Since 1998, I have been designing websites. The following are almost every main site I have ever made.
A Dream I Dream
My personal page with pictures of me and everything I love!
TooyaandAya.com
Devoted to Touya/Tooya and Aya of Ayashi no Ceres!
UsagiandMamoru.com My favorite and best couple ever! Sailor Moon's Usagi and Mamoru (Serena and Darien)
MiakaandTamahome.com My tribute to Fushigi Yuugi's main couple who always have my heart, Miaka and Tamahome!
Kare Kano Love
A Miyazwa and Arima ML - discuss everything Kare Kano here!
Things I Support
Favorite Manga and Anime most everything in Ribon and Nakayoshi!
Alice 19th
Anatolia Story a.k.a. Red River
Ayashi no Ceres/Ceres Celestial Legend
Basara
B.B. Explosion
Call Me Princess
Catcher in the Horoscope or ZODIAC P.I.
Crescent Moon
Cyber Idol MINK
Delicious! (Yui Ayumi)
Dream Saga
Fruits Basket
Fushigi Yuugi
Gals / Super Gals!
Hana Kimi
Hot Gimmick
IMADOKI
Instant Teen (Otona Ni Nuts or Just Add Nuts)
Juvenile Orion
Kaikan Phrase or SENSUAL PHRASE
Kamikaze Kaito Jeanne
Kanata Kara a.k.a. From Far Away
Kare Kano
Kodomo no Omocha
Magic Knights Rayearth
Maria (Naoko Takeuchi)
Marmalade Boy
Max Lovely
Mint No Bokura
Miracle Girls
MODEL
More Starlight to Your Heart
Mouryou Kiden
Neck and Neck
One
Ororon
Othello
Otona Ni Nuts 0r INSTANT TEEN - JUST ADD NUTS
(the) Queen's Knight
Psychic Academy
Random Walk
SailorMoon
Saint Tail / St. Tail
Saiyuki
Sweet & Sensitive
Tokyo Mew Mew
Ultra Maniac
Vampire Game
Wild Act
Words I live by:
Man is never so tall as when he kneels before God - never so great as when he humbles himself before God. And the man who kneels to God can stand up to anything. -Louis H. Evans
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. - Eleanor Roosevelt
"All human wisdom is contained in these two words: wait and hope." - The Count of Monte Cristo
"The winds of God are always blowing but it is up to you to set the sails." - UNKNOWN
"The only dream worth having, I told her, is to dream that you will live while you're alive and die only when you're dead. [Which means:] To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget." - Arundhati Roy
Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).
