Nishi's A Dream I Dream's Pitas Page

Name: Nishi
Age: 27
Where: New York
Faith: Christian
Sign: Aquarius
CH-S: Fire Dragon
AIM: SelenityHime
ICQ: 21380169
Email: be83398@yahoo.com

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The Story Thus Far . . .
Currently, I am working full-time as an Attorney in midtown Manhattan, New York City, New York and learning kickboxing and Kung Fu and middle-eastern bellydance, and working on making a music career!

Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).

1/1 - 2/21 | 3/5 - 3/30 | 3/31 - 4/18 | 4/19 - 5/10 | 5/13 - 6/22 | 6/22 - 7/29 | | 7/30 - 9/13 | 9/14 - 10/11 | 10/12 - 11/12 | 11/13 - 12/18 | 12/19 - 2/5 | 2/6 - 3/17 | 3/17 - 4/21 | 4/24 - 6/19 | 6/20 - 8/4 | 8/6 - 9/14 | 9/16 - 11/3 | 11/4 - 12/31 | 1/17 - 5/3 | 5/6 - 7/22 |

Lydia
Rence
SarahBeth
Natsuki
Diana
Ailinon
Eowyn
Seby
Manda
Bonnie
Stephanie

Caroline
Rebecca
Kris-chan
Miyu-chan
MoonKlutz
Zbet
Adrianne
RameoG
Louise
Leanna
Niovi
Kayla

Laurelchan
Aisha
Janeen
Danielle
Jenna
Hemal
Callie
Reena
Crystal
Lady
Aishah
M_JADE

Personality Quizzes I Made
The Royalty Quiz
The Woman of Beauty Quiz
Woman of Legend Quiz

Interesting Blogs

Barbie

Jenchan

Books / Stories
King Arthur and all things Arthurian, Merlin, light and dark; The Crystal Cave, The Dark is Rising series, most anything to do with magic, vampires, werewolves; anything fantasy and romance-like: EMMA, Jane Eyre, Phantom of the Opera, Count of Monte Cristo, The Cask of Amontillado; almost anything Shakespeare wrote; The Harry Potter series; my childhood stories - Sweet Valley High, Twins, Kids, Babysitters Club, Boxcar Children, Bobbsey Twins, RAMONA QUIMBY series; SHERLOCK HOLMES, NANCY DREW; all books dealing with things I love from art, mystery, religion, magic, mythical creatures such as "DA VINCI CODE" and "Interview with the Vampire"

Movies
Emma, Contact, Ever After, Farenheit 9/11, Bowling for Columbine, Legally Blonde 2, Princess Diaries, Sweet Home Alabama, Matrix: Reloaded, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Staw Wars: Episode II, TOMBRAIDER I & II

All-time TV Shows
Three's Company, The Nanny, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, FRIENDS, Relic Hunter, Buffy, Xena, Clarissa Explains it All, OUT OF THIS WORLD, Wings, Mad About You, Simpsons, Married with Children, Carol Burnette Show, Anamorphs, Punky Brewster, Smurfs, Rainbow Brite, and the list could go on forever ;)

Musicals
Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, WICKED

Favorite Drinks
In the summer: starbucks' iced caramel macchaito - decaf and nonfat; lychee, boba/bubble tea/pearl milk tea; thai iced tea; lipton lemon and raspberry iced tea

In the winter: hot chocolate and starbucks' white chocolate mocha non-fat

Fave Alcoholic Drinks
Margaritas, amaretto sours, singapore slings, rum & coke and white wine - pinot

Music to relax to: The slow version of the sailormoon theme song, the theme for Phantom of the Opera, the theme by Mono from Great Expectations and theme from Romeo and Juliet....so many more.....I can't live w/o music.....

A Fan Of:
I'm more a Democrat so I'm a fan of Bill & Hillary Clinton, Madeline Albright, Margaret Thatcher, Lee Iaccoca

Movie Actresses
Drew Barrymore
Kirsten Dunst
Kate Hudson
Nicole Kidman
Demi Moore
Gwyneth Paltrow
Julia Roberts
Reese Witherspoon
Renee Zellweger

Movie Actors
George Clooney
Johnny Depp
Matthew Goode
Tom Hanks
Ashton Kutcher
Brad Pitt
Keanu Reeves
Adam Sandler
Robin Williams

Magazines etc.:
Vogue
Cosmopolitan
Jane
Shape
Fitness
Allure
Elle
Marie Claire
Archaeology
Mysteries
Foreign Affairs Journals
The Economist
Discover
Astronomy
Sky & Telescope
National Geographic
New York Times
Commondreams.org
In Style
US Weekly
PEOPLE

My Adoptees
Shown are adoptees from Sailor Moon, Full Moon wo Sagashite, Star Wars Attack of the Clones, Lord of the Rings, and Emeraude from Magic Knights Rayearth, X-Files, the child-like empress from the Neverending Story, St. Tail!, The Labyrinth, Satine from Moulin Rouge, and HARRY POTTER!

Reminders:
Salons in NY to try:

Buff Spa at Bergdorf Goodman: 754 5th Ave $$$

Tiffany Nails: 903 Madison $$

Soho Sanctuary: 119 Mercer $$

Maximus Spa - Massage: 15 Mercer $$

Just Calm Down: 32 W. 22nd $$ - get grape gatsby with Essie Bordeaux polish

Ajune Spa: 1294 Third Ave $$

Frederic Fekkai: 15 E. 57th - Mandarin Supreme Pedicure $$

Salons in L.A. to try:

Kathy's Nails: 7967 Melrose $
Salons in Paris:

Mr. Ho: 3 Rue Washington $$

La Bulle Kenzo: 1 rue du Pont Neuf $

Things to buy:

HairArt's T3 tourmaline blow-dryer; t3tourmaline.com

Stuff in NY

Nobu - Sushi

TrapezeSchool.com

Things to Buy

Skin Ceuticals C + E Antioxidant Treatment $115 or

Renee Rouleau Vitamin C & E Complex $60

Neutrogena Active Breathable Sunblock SPF 30 $10

Rosamor Perfume - booklet 897 - 18004562297

Voting Related
Vote-Smart.org

Rock The Vote.com

Welcome to Nishi's Pitas Page a blog part of A Dream I Dream. Nishi is a 27 year old Indian American who is working as an attorney in Manhattan. She is also a singer/songwriter who is working on her 1st album. She dreams of bringing her songs to the world and moving people with her music; she also dreams of pursuing international human rights and foreign policy one day.

Nishi is an avid Japanese anime and manga fan & is a web designer too. See her major anime/manga websites listed to the right. She also collects anime goodies, see her Treasures.

This journal is a place for me to vent, to share, and to catch up with friends. Undoubtedly friends and strangers whom I don't know are probably reading my words - for all whom I know and don't know, you may read but never, ever bring up with me what I write about on this journal unless I bring it up with you. This place is sacred and I'm allowing you to enter it, to know what I choose to show of myself through this page, but don't assume you really know me or what I'm about, and don't assume you can talk to me about what I write. Respect me, my wishes and my writings - or leave. :)

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Saturday, October 30, 2004
09:59 a.m.

happy saturday everyone! Can't believe I didn't write since Wednesday night. So much to tell! Eclipse on Wednesday night was gorgeous wasn't it? Sat watching it with hot cocoa...mmm....went out with friends yesterday after work - didn't get home till late. Was nice though :) Called Ricky the second I got home.....I was telling him how my friend Danny and I had been talking about string theory and the universe and other intellectually stimulating convo and Ricky was like 'I love you' :) hehehe it always warms me when he says I love you out of the blue like that. I love my Ricky.

Gawd almost 10am! I have haircut appt at 11am and I need to sweep and mop the floors and take a shower before i go. I have bed hair. I don't wanna go to the hair salon with....well....unperfect hair ;) LOL! :)

Ayenes awww! I'll email you tonight hopefully? I'm horrible with emailing people back. It's very nice to meet another Sailor Moon fan my age! :) Stepahnie I'm glad you saw some of the eclipse :) How're you otherwise? What's new in your life? :) *HUGS* Tanja hey there :) what's up!? :) Raju thank yee thank yee ;) Kristine hi :) thanks for the smile :) Petter awww you're very sweet. Thank you :)

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 27, 2004
9:06 p.m.

*hugs* Susan and Memory :) thanks guys :) Micaila good luck on your midterms! Sounds like you're making amazing progress!! Let me know how it goes. Jade how're u? what's new with you? *HUGS* You have a great site!

Tom I think problems arise when people don't try to live up to their own high standards. Now this is different from perfectionism. I'm talking about high standards in important areas of your life such as work, love etc. I'm not saying high standards in how you make your bed, to brush your teeth to how your organize your closet. High standards in the most important aspects of your life - living up to them is key.

My problems come the moment I don't go the extra inch/mile, if I am able to, and live up to my high standards for myself. Yesterday, my 2 colleagues raised things I could do for the loser motion that hadn't occurred to me - they reminded me that even if everything said we were guilty, we still had to find something, anything, and make something out of it to raise a question and help our defense. I had written the motion off as a loser-motion and not bothered to go the extra inch and put in what I thought were enough arguments but which weren't....now I know better and I'll do even better - I'll live up to high standards in my work.

Another area where high standards are important: dealing with people. I have very high standards in how to treat people: always with kindness, even the seemingly-jerkiest and smelliest people (unless they're just truly horrible mean people who are taking advtg of me or others or making fun of me or others) but I'm only human and sometimes I'm not the nicest person. Today I was getting annoyed with this one guy (he's a decent person but he just drives me and a lot of other people at work nuts) and today he drove me plenty nuts so I made a comment to a co-worker about him and I think he heard me because he stopped to ask if me if everything was alright and I instantly felt bad that maybe he heard me venting my aggravation about him.....I can't really apologize for it but I can make up for it by being better to him. That is an example of how I didn't live up to my high standards of treating people with dignity and kindness. Even the most annoying guy is still a human being at heart - he wasn't some horrible jerk - he's a pretty nice guy - never says a mean thing to anyone. I feel bad I said what I did to my friend at work about how he was driving me nuts seeing me about this and that.....and saying it while he was in the area to possibly hear....ugh.

High standards...very important...you can't go wrong in *trying* to always live up to high standards - even if you fall short sometimes, at least the rest of the time you're succeeding.

Tom you may not agree with all of the above, but it's how I feel and I'm going to do my best to always keep at it.

There's an eclipse of the moon tonight from 9:15pm EST to 12midnight. Gorgeous moon out too! Curtains open and peering out.....so beautiful at night..I finished volume 4 of Cyber Idol Mink and am reading Dream Saga #2 now. I love both books :)

Anywayz, 9pm and I need to do my vocal exercises, shower and tidy up ths room, watch the eclipse, have dinner, finish my manga Dream Saga and go to sleep.

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 26, 2004
10:46 p.m.

RMN what can I say....it is creepy....but maybe its meant with only the purest of good intentions....haha...right ;).....Jahangir and Janak thanks guys and u're cool too! Hope you both know I'm in a serious relationship with my boyfriend of 3+ years who I'm likely to marry one day? If you didn't, u know now ;) Cynthia I loved Strawberry Shortcake as a little girl! Rose Petal's Place too!

It sucks when you fall behind your own high standards, worse when you do that AND fall behind others standards too. Ugh. This is the worst feeling. :(

Only one solution: never let this happen again. Always, ALWAYS live up to your high standards, never compromise on those high stds. Don't disappoint yourself or allow others whose respect is important to be disappointed in you. Of course this varies depending on the nature of the situation but when it comes to work and doing such work....it applies well. It's different when you take a stand on an issue that's open as to opinions (such as politics, abortion, etc).

Ok I'm off to sleep. I feel better having gotten this out. Time for my Ricky now.

- Nishi

Saturday, October 23, 2004
06:13 p.m.

I think I'm getting fat. I'm eating like a pig and I haven't jogged in like a month and haven't gone to my kickboxing or dance classes in a month either (or more) UGHHHHH I gotta start again. This is nuts. Also sux that Aunt Flow's visiting. Blech. I have the worst cramps.

We celebrated Mekha and Mili's 21st today with cake (they turned 21 on the 21st though) and tonight the girls and I are going out to Applebees for appetizers and drinks. Ugh I'm not really in the partying spirit but I guess I should goooo. Blech. Rather stay home and read manga and watch anime. Phooey. Think I'll go take a hot shower now and after getting ready, pop in my new Disney Princesses DVD and watch before we go out.

I slept till 12noon today...(between getting Aunt Flow and cramps last night and barely getting 6 hours of sleep a night I'm exhausted) and I feel like my Saturday off has just flown by. It's too bad Mek and I couldn't go to Columbia U for the OPen House - she wasn't feeling well.

Ricky's visiting his folks now and going out to some big club/party tonight....I miss him. We wanna go to the Grand Canyon together sometime soon. I can't wait! I haven't gone horseback riding in years! I wanna horseback ride there and see EVERYTHING. I especially wanna go to reservations and meet Native Americans. Basically be just like the Brady Bunch sans the kids.

- Nishi

Saturday, October 23, 2004
12:25 a.m.

Getting ready to go to sleep and call it a night - half past midnight on a friday....well now saturday - ricky's sick and waiting for my call - he's so cute when he's sick, although very demanding and whiney too ;)

Today my friend Stephanie and I went to MOTT Street in chinatown for dinner and to find a chinese-dress that I'd seen in magazines that I love.....no luck but I did find a gorgeous black coat from this store made for women of my size! The coat is some kind of suede material all over with a long faux-fur collar and faux-fur sleeves. It's SO gorgeous and I got it at such a bargain too. I actually didn't have a black coat (have a pea-coat....comes to mid-thigh) but this new one is ankle length and so so so warm.....I love it :)

Didn't get home till 8:30 and updated PrincessIshtar.com with a new gallery chock full of gorgeous manga color scans and images from Judal's Vampire Game! :) Got these on Wednesday from one of my favorite japanese bookstores here in the city. Steph and I went to Kinokuniya after work that day and had Assam Tea and chestnut cream cake and I got new manga and even got the new SAILOR MOON editions - including the EXTRAS!!! With gorgeous cover art of Chibi Usa and Usagi and Mamoru although it's not new art. Book OFF had Judal's tankoubons - all of them and for SOOOOO cheap and I bought 'em and Steph scanned everything for me though she still has some left to do.....she's such a good friend to me.

I'm excited about the new gallery for PrincessIshtar.com but also because I have 3 new staff members who are going to help write up the summaries for all the volumes of Vampire Game :)

I gotta sleep....tomorrow Mekha and Mili and Nithi are all coming home for Mek and Mil's 21st birthday celebration which was actually yesterday! :) Can't believe my sisters are 21 at last! Supposed to go with Mek to Columbia University's Open House to check out their grad program in psych Mek's interested in. And of course I'm interested in the Masters of International Affairs program.

Ok my rickers needs me. Night everyone :) Tom LOL! Your rule should be 'sing and then duck' ;) u'll avoid the thrown objects much easier that way ;)

- Nishi

Thursday, October 21, 2004
11: 57p.m.

JUST got home from Hoboken, NJ where I was with Ashish spending a lot of time working on my song 'Unravelled' - one of the songs he's producing for me. He really gets the music and gets me! It's so great!

I love to sing. God do I love to sing. It's the best feeling to just belt out and sing something.....I told him I wanted to do 'Story' as the 4th song and we recorded it to a track just to start working on the music and by then I was completely feeling the music and it was just running inside me......

To sing, really sing, you have to feel the words, the melody, the music - all of it. You have to channel it and convey it perfectly to the listener so they see and hear what you see and hear. I think Ashish and I were able to get each other on that level tonight and I'm so thankful to be working with a musician who's so good like that.

The music, recording, cd, everythng's progressing :) Makes me so happy....

Hoboken is such a pretty city - it reminds me of L.A. in the USC area where the cars all stop the minute a pedestrian steps foot in the road - it's totall 'yield to pedestrian' there - love it!

Another reason? I saw one of the cutest indian guys while I was trying to figure out which train was the PATH train to Penn Station. This indian dude musta been somewhere around my age, so cute! And it was his first time taking the PATH so he couldn't help me too much. I smile too much with cute guys. Must stop smiling or they'll get the wrong idea.

I think single girls in NYC should head out to Hoboken. That place is crawling with good-looking guys in their 20s! I can't believe how many I see everytime I head out there.

Anywayz, I'm completely exhausted and need to sleep to get up for work tomorrow s'g'night! With love to Susan and Alex and Sarah Beth! :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 19, 2004
10:49 p.m.

Ricky told me the best news! This January 1st, he and I are getting VIP tickets to the ROSE PARADE! It's part of his company's perks! I'm SO there for New Year's!!!

Susan & Alex thank you both for your messages *HUGS* I know my dad has my best interest at heart but he can show that without having to run a credit check on me. ;) I love my papa - he's the best dad! Even if he is overprotective he is because he loves his daughters so much and wants to make sure we're well-off and happy and stable and safe. What every father wants. He's a good father. I just strongly feel that as old as I am, my finances are now my business alone. I've had my own checking account and credit cards since I began law school and been paying all my own bills on my own since then so even if he did pay for college and a lot of law school, I'm the one repaying the school loans for law school and also paying him money every month to repay college tuition too. I can do my own credit report check and maintain my own finances.

Anywayz, I need to get ready for sleep.

An important lesson I learned today at work: don't talk to certain people about anything in your personal life, or heck just anything at all and don't let people who think they can, say anything to you about anything - shut them up.

- Nishi

Sunday, October 17, 2004
10:09 p.m.

I think I am going to do something I never thought I would - I am going to sell my Neo Queen Serenity resin model kits. All of them. Well, maybe.

If you are interested in making an offer - view the Neo Queen Serenity Resin Model Kits FOR SALE - they're near the mid-to-bottom of the page. Also available for offer is the IMPERIAL HIGHNESS ANASTASIA.

For the 1/4" Volks Serenity asking price is: min. $750 - I'll sell it to the 1st to the highest offer

For the one of Serenity with arms outstretched: min. is: $500 - sell to highest offer

And for the supremely rare one of Neo Queen that isn't even named: $2000. Yes 2 THOUSAND. I had one collector offer me $1800 for it last January and considering I'll never find it again once I sell it, I think $2000 is a steal.

I love them SO much........I just told Ricky I was going to sell them to pay down my credit card debt.......and as I was telling him I was like 'well they're sitting here on top of my closet in their boxes, wrapped, I haven't even taken them out once, even when delivered, I just always assumed when I was ready and able to glue and paint and everythng else to them I would....but it's been at least 2 years and they're still untouched and meanwhile I spend a fortune on clothes and trips to L.A. and could use the money. Is it worth selling them? Will I regret it terribly?' He was like: "Oh God" ;) LOL! He knows my anime collection, esp my Serenity stuff, are like my most prized possessions ever because of how supremely rare and beautifl they are. That's why if I am going to do this I have to sell them at the best price. Oh god I hope I don't regret it......agh.....I'm looking at the pictures of them now and already squirming.

I don't think I can sell them....oh good lord I already emailed this collector about offering him the $2000 Serenity one......AGHHHHH.........it's so hard.....knowing I'll never be able to find these ever again let alone afford them ever again......I can't, I can't....maybe I'll see what kind of an offer I get......

I already sold my Full Moon Music Box for $500....that was hard to part with at first but when I thought about it, was ok. My serenitys though.....the more and more I think about it, the harder it actually gets to part with them. I don't think I can afterall.....they're just too rare and important to me......*sob* I'm gonna be in debt foreverrrrrrrrrrr *SSSSSOOOOOOBBBBBBBBB*

That's it! No more spending after today! NONE! Except for food and necessities...and...manga....and that's it! I don't need any more clothes. Nope none! I wish I was rich.

And on that note, before I go: a convo with my friend Lydia tonight:

I have decided that unless I am rich, clothing, shoes, pretty things for the home, and all things anime and manga shall be the bane of my existance. I must not buy them, by whatever means. Victoria's Secret catalogues? I can't even look at them - even though 1 arrives in my mailbox almost every day. Oh Lord, Lord, Lord help me. And while You're at it - make me rich and famous too? ;) hehehe :D

- Nishi

Saturday, October 16, 2004
09:58 a.m.

Friday was so nice - even if it was rainy and cloudy! I got the day off as a vacation day so spent th emorning making a big breakfast for R & me: cinnamon toast, apple pancakes, apple slices, scrambled eggs, orange juice :) We then headed out to TARGET where I picked up a couple things for the home and bathroom (pretty bath rugs and sets and a new table for my room for all my magazines. Ricky calls my room a museum cause I have so much STUFF in here ;) We ate at this Noodle Shop near my home for lunch and after Linen-n-Things came back home and watched tv and made dinner - noodle soup (again ;)), brie cheese on top of little bread toasts, plums and plum slices and milk with BROWNIES :) hehehe :)

Today, we're heading to the city - going to help Ricky buy some shoes and a jacket. Gorgeous sunny day - almost 10am so have to move fast to get ready and enjoy the most of this day! Taking him down into the west village and greenwich village :) Hope ya'll have a great day! See you tonight!

Susan hi :) *HUGS* 2 boys and girls? Which entry is this in comment to? Hope you're having a great weekend!

- Nishi

Thursday, October 14, 2004
10:39 p.m.

I love the U.S. I think we have been, are and can be an amazing, wonderful country - as long as we fix the problems we've been making and the wrongs committed. I wish I could help. I want to so much. My dream is to be involved in foreign policy one day and work for human rights everywhere with the U.S. leading the human rights movement.

Watched my first FULL episode of the Apprentice today. I know, I know - where've I been? I caught a few episodes - like 10 minutes or so of them but wasn't drawn in. Today rickers made me watch and I loved it! They had a fashion design/clothing task today and it was SO good :) It's too bad John got fired - he was so cute and so good. I like Raj and Kelly! Kelly I think is GORGEOUS. Raj is hysterically funny :)

We went to Cosi's tonight and had their S'Mores dessert after hummus dip and salads and decaf caramel mochas :) mmm :) I love Cosi's! Their S'More thing is the best - they bring a fire-thing to your table they light and you get to toast your marshmallows and make your s'mores yourself.

Micaila congrats sweetie! *HUGS* Do you have midterms? I'm so happy to hear how well you're doing! I bet one day you're going to be an amazing designer :)

I need to go rest.

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 12, 2004
10:55 p.m.

Columbus Day was SO much fun :) R and I went to the Columbus Day parade on 5th Avenue and it was just great! So much laughter and smiling faces. I waved at everybody :) After watching the parade for an hour or more we headed down to 34th street to shop. R spent a FORTUNE at the GAP but it was so worth it - I dressed him up in AMAZING outfits - he looked SO gorgeous! I think I *really* like dressing guys up :)

Today I had court in Kings - argued and won a threshold motion for Colin and appeared for 4 other motions besides his, and just worked hard today. Don't know if I'll get Thursday or Friday off at all - wanted to go with R to Washington D.C. this weekend.

Was reading the paper today and I have a new thing I wanna do on my journal. I'm gonna call it What The F@$k!?.

Today's What The F@$K!?
A Saudi-American captured in Afghanistan, labeled an enemy and held in U.S. solitary confinement for nearly 3 YEARS *without charge*, returned to his family yesterday after agreeing to *forefeit his U.S. citizenship* for freedom. His name was Yasser Esam Hamdi, and he was taken in 2001 and made a deal for freedom with the U.S. which required he give up his American citizenship and live in Saudi Arabia for 5 years AND renounce terrorism and agree not to SUE the U.S. over his imprisonment. He will never be allowed to travel to Afghanistan, Iraq, Israel, Pakistan or Syria. What the f--k indeed.

God that kinda stuff pisses me off. How can the U.S. tell someone ok we'll free you even though you were never charged with anything and we'll free you IF you give up ur american citizenship and agree to never sue us for holding you in solitary confinement for almost 3 years. WHAT THE HELL????? This kind of stuff SHOWS how the U.S. commits horrible, HORRIBLE errors and thinks no one will call us on it. This guy was obviously NO THREAT if he was never charged and was freed under all those conditions.

My horoscope today said: "The path to your success if clear. There may be a few degrees to get before you achieve the status ou want, but that's just a matter of time. Make the commitment." :) what a beautiful horoscope! I love being an Aquarius! :D

Sarah Beth hon how're the wedding details coming along? Can we get together sometime soon and catch up? When're you coming back down to the city? Maybe I can drive up one of these weekends? Gimme directions to Troy! :D

After I came home today, Rick and I went to Best Buy in Mount Vernon so he could get a wireless card and I managed to pick up the widescreen DVD of EMMA and of the Disney Princess Stories Volume 1 :) has brand new stories for the princesses :D hehehe :D Afterwards, we went to APPLEBEES and gorged on appetizers, skillet dishes, hot cocoa, raspberry iced tea, and this chocolate melt down thing - YUMM :) I am stuffed!

I'm in NY Supreme for a mediation tomorrow. Fun fun. Hopefully I can meet up with my friend James for lunch in chinatown. Time for sleep. Night everyone!

- Nishi

Monday, October 11, 2004
10:51 a.m.

ugh! since Saturday my yahoo mail account hasn't been working. Andrew I got your email I think on Friday or Saturday - couldn't respond since my email program's not working. Thank you though for the email :) *HUGS* Sashi if you're reading this, send you something on Saturday :) Should arrive by Tuesday I'm thinking?

Ricky's visiting this week and we had the best time yesterday! We went and saw BOMBAY DREAMS the musical on Broadway. Our review: we both thought it had gorgeous dance numbers, with LOTS of energy - the acting was great, and as ricky said 'lots of T & A (a.k.a. tits and ass ;) LOL!) but the one thing we didn't like were the singing performances. We thought that the singing was WAY off on almost every performance. There were times when the performers SHINED and did beautifully, especially when they used their full vocal capability but then others they sounded just....ugh......and the really bad thing I thought was how they were trying to do the whole Indian accent thing and mixing it with the music sometimes and it just sounded....eh.....we did some shopping afterwards and went to like half a dozen shoe stores to shop for shoes for Ricky - he got 2 pairs and I got a gorgeous pair of Bucci italian camel yellow suede or leather/suede-like material boots for only $50!!! How amazing is that? It was 70% discount :) WOO HOO!

Today we're heading out to the Columbus Day Parade in the city and doing serious shopping for Ricky - going to buy him almost a whole new wardobe :) heheeh I get to dress him up all day ;) I wanna shop for myself but I can't afford it. AGHHHH I need more MONEY.

- Nishi

Friday, October 8, 2004
11: 58 p.m.

political post - reaction to 2nd Bush/Kerry Debate

Just finished watching the debate b/t Bush & Kerry.......I have decided to vote for Kerry. Here's why:

Kerry has wisdom.

Wisdom means seeing both sides of an issue and making the right decision that is best for all.

Kerry said something I have always believed: that a president can't put into legislation laws that cater to only one person's specific belief on an issue - leglislation that takes away CHOICE on that issue.

When it comes to abortion, gay & lesbian marriages or civil unions, we as a country have been pressured by religious faithful who believe strongly in their ideologies and want to change our country so that it's in-line with those religious beliefs. How does that make us different from Islamic states who run their country according to the ruling majority's view on Islamic rules? Our country is run on separattion of church and state. That's what ensures the protection of all Americans' rights whether they believe in abortion or not, gay or lesbian or straight. Religious and moral values dictated by religion *alone* should NEVER impact the rights of *everyone*, especially when not *everyone* is a Christian or holds those same morals and beliefs.

A president who runs a free nation with a diverse group of people has to do the right thing, which is ensure all people's interests, even if they go against his religious views, are represented and protected.

I grappled with the issue of abortion for a long time, I was staunchly pro-life but as I grew older and learned and experienced a lot more, I understood that every woman MUST have the choice on whether to keep a pregnancy or not - however, I condition that on no abortion past the 3rd month. Up to the 3rd month, pregnancies are very fragile - getting pregnant and *staying* pregnant through the 3rd month is very hard. Many people miscarry - you don't have to be pro-choice or pro-life to know the following things which DISCOVER magazine had in an amazing article earlier this summer on pregnancy, fertility and women's eggs. I learned the scary truth that it's actually very, VERY hard to get pregnant and stay pregnant. That statistics showed how you have a miniscule chance of a successful pregnancy that lasts to full-term and a healthy baby being born. They said that during the process of trying to get pregnant, a million things go wrong between defects in a woman's egg, a man's sperm, the ability of a fertilized egg to divide and form correctly, to embed itself in the uterus and placenta to attach successfully and for formation to take place correctly thereafter. If people knew how many 'potential' life embryos were actually killed naturally in the body, and how LOW a chance life has of forming, they'd be very surprised. I'll find that article and try to type it up this weekend.

Anywayz, point being, there is NO way to actually tell whether every fertlized egg will become a baby. Like a chicken who lays eggs in her nest, a few (if any at all) actually hatch into chicks.

The human species reproductive capabilities aren't very advanced. Given all of this, who's to say why women can't choose to be pregnant or not? Who's to say one can't decide whether they want to create life in them or not? Who's to tell them 'well my religion and moral values say you should be pregnant and have a baby'? Having a baby, BEING pregnant is a very personal decision and should be left to the individual. They should receive counseling and be aware of what they're giving up or choosing to keep and the consequences and responsibilities of each decision - they shouldn't have the choice to make this personal decision taken away.

And that's what it's about: freedom of choice.

When you start taking steps to take away freedom of choice, no matter how good the intentions behind such steps, you start forcing your views and beliefs upon people, even if they disagree. At this point in time, the pro-life and pro-choice both have the rights to speak out about their views and why people should side with them. If the pro-life people get their way, the pro-choice people will be forced to shut up. That's not a democracy - that's not a land of the free. You need to respect and maintain ALL opposing view points. If you want everyone to think like you, form a state of like-minded people. If you want to live in America which is a diverse population of VERY different-minded people, you need to respect them all and understand their beliefs and protect all their beliefs, agree or disagree.

Bush.....I realize I really do like Bush. Why? Because he's a guy with the best intentions and who believes he's doing and saying the right things.

However, it is not Bush specifically that is the problem and why America is, in fact, wrong on almost every issue that Bush stands for: it is his administration which has very specific ideologies, beliefs, and caters to them.

Bush is the talking head and moving arms of a body of ideology that much of America and the rest of the world disagrees with. He speaks beautifully - from the heart - believing he and his administration are doing all the right things. He is in fact briefed and told what he is doing. Of course he believes everything he is doing is right - because people in power tell him and make him believe so.

But the truth is - he and his administration are doing a lot of things that aren't right. Remember Fall of 2001 and January/February of 2002? The news was all about Afghanistan and Osama....suddenly we started seeing news broadcasts titled 'the president is eyeing Iraq' and article after article warning people that the Bush admin had its eye on Iraq and wanted to go in there. I read a bunch of things in the news from sources who stated that Bush had been wanting to go into Iraq even BEFORE 9/11 happened. His whole admin wanted Sadaam out of power way before 9/11 - 9/11 just gave them the perfect opportunity to take action against him and to convince the American people that doing so was in the best interest of America.

I even knew Iraq had no weapons of mass destruction. I saw Madeline Albright speak and watched people demonstrate on how Iraq was suffering due to America's sanctions. Was in law school reading and learning how Iraq's main problems were with the rest of the middle east. They didn't have their eye on America at all - did Iraq and Sadaam like the U.S.? Hell no. Much of the middle east dislikes the U.S. cause we're viewed as immoral, gluttonous, rich and whose culture and values, big business practices and oppresive actions are being felt over there. Of course they would dislike us. Those people int he middle east danced on the streets when the Towers got hit NOT becuse people were dying, they didn't realize it at the time - they just saw it as a hit against America's arrogance. Later when they learned and saw the innocents dying, they realized this was evil and wrong.

There is no axis of evil. To much of the world, America is evil. Bush calls Iran, Iraq, North Korea evil. Reagan called the Soviet Union evil. Is it evil for other people to disagree with you and oppose things you say? Is it evil for the middle east to shun the excess and immoral values of American culture which contradict the very religious Islamic values? Is it evil to oppose a U.S.-led invasion of one's homeland and country where the U.S. is viewed as invaders and occupiers who were never wanted in the 1st place?

No it's not evil.

One of those audience members raised the environmental issue. Bush specifically lifted the protection of forests in America and has allowed business to log from a huge area of what has, until now, been protected forest. He didn't agree to the International Criminal Court because the ICC wanted America, like ALL its members, to agree that Americans too would be held accountable for war crimes and prisoner abuses. Bush didn't want to sign the Kyoto Treaty because big business made arguments about how expensive it would be to implement changes that would protect the environment and protect against global warming. They argued it'd be so expensive they'd have to cut jobs. So no jobs? No no, jobs good, global warming can wait for another time to be taken care of. Right now, the success of big businesses is more important.

That's the truth you don't hear.

The real truth is that Kerry will make decisions that are good for *all*. Bush makes decisions that are popular here at home with conservatives and people who have religious or conservative views. They aren't popular in the rest of the world because the rest of the world is a lot older and a lot smarter and they know why those decisions are actually wrong. America is only 200 years old! We're very, VERY young. Europe and the rest of the world understand the importance of not attacking other nations without a good body of evidence, without a concensus that a great wrong is being done. There was never any evidence, shaky at best, as to why we should attack Iraq. They put together a bunch of intelligency that was easily questionable and flicked the war switch because they were set for that course of action. They acted aggressively, reactively. I don't want an administation in power that behaves that way. Bush, as nice a guy as he is, is on the wrong side of wisdom. He and his administation lack it.

We have a president who was governor of Texas, who is not a worldly intellectual leading the powerful USA - a country who is a young child in this world of long-running cultures and countries. We are so strong, so powerful....that we have become arrogant. We are viewed as a police power. We need a president and administration with wisdom.....

Gore, if he were in power during 9/11, would not have rushed to war. You can bet he would've done things differently. 1000+ of our soldiers would not be dead, and the thousands and thousands of innocent Iraqis would not be dead either.

I was reading Revelations against last weekend. I came to the part about 'the harlot who sits atop the beast and is drunk with the blood of innocents' - I am more than ever convinved the Harlot is the U.S. who has the blood of all the innocents in this Iraq war and the entire middle east is the 'beast' (7 headed - represents empires of the middle east) which will overthrow and devour the harlot. I am really worried that if things continue this way, with each day in Iraq bringing more death, havoc and chaos, that a holy jihad might be declared to rid the U.S. from the middle east and kill ALL people there who oppose, heck, ANYTHING.......really worried that the might and reign of the U.S. as world power will fall and that a new world order or religious hold will take place.

But that's my religious speculations. I'll stop there.

My vote is for wisdom - it goes to Kerry.

- Nishi

Thursday, October 7, 2004
10:13 p.m.

you guys ever have one of those days where everything is going nice and then you go and ask or say something or do something that u probably shouldn't have said/asked/did and you feel like an idiot for it cause someone tells you, in a roundabout way, that you're not living up to high standards and you KNOW it and feel like crap because you should be living up to high standards but you wanted to be lazy and didn't feel you should have to do some of things you learned you had to do?

Well tomorrow's another day - I'll be better from now on. I fell short....I'm well-meaning, but lord help me to be a better person in all areas of work and life.

Anywayz, *HUGS* to Susan and your 3 yr old! How cute! Daddy's girl :) I want to have 2 girls and 2 boys one day :) How was your weekend? Week? Niovi I found a few high heel boots I love now - Aerosoles boots are so easy to walk in....also these pair of white pointy toe boots I bought from PAYLESS - they're white ruched boots (gorgeous!) were SOOOO comfortable to walk in! Walked and stood on them all day with ZERO problems! LOVE these and think I'll go back and get them in black too and any other color they offer them in! Caro-channnn come to NY and we'll go hot-guy fishing for you! :) *HUGS* I haven't talked to u in SO long! We need to catch up, seriously. Suni how do you feel about Cheney? Esp the Edwards/Cheney match up? Hope you're having a great week! :) Miyu-channn amen! :) *HUGS* How's your SO doing by the way? :)

Ok am off...see ya'll tomorrow :)

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 6, 2004
10:56 p.m.

oh, my, GOD. I came home tonight by 7pm to get some rest and relaxation but I might as well've come home by 9 or 10. On the phone with Cable Vision for 45 minutes cause the idiots there messed up our cable - millionth problem since August 15th. I had to endure papa's anger over it directed towards them and my own anger at them for screwing things up so much.

Then had to deal with my mom and a new doctor she saw who believes she may have underlying lyme disease which caused her fibromyalgia condition. She, like anyone who is suffering a sickness, wants hope and a cure and latches on to one easily. I'm skeptical about reactions like that so my arguments and doubts on it deflated her although after researching online and finding there was indeed lots of stuff out there on lyme disease causing fibromyalgia I was able to better support her but still it wasn't a proven thing and there still was no permanent cure....and she got upset that I wouldn't talk to this chinese doctor she visited (what am I supposed to ask or say?) and I got all guilty for not giving into her request because she went on to say how she's dealing with this all herself and when others need help she's there but when she needs help, no one helps...and all this stuff....and GOD I FELT GUILTY. SO GUILTY. She's our beloved mummy - so amazing and wonderful - but what can we DO?? None of us really know how to support and help her with all of this.....we're as clueless about all of this as she is.....ugh..........Ricky said something great though - our mom is wonderful and she needs our support and help and we need to band together and support her and give her whatever help she requests cause that just might make her better......

*sigh* I wish my mom would just get better and go back to normal. I sure hope it's something treatable like Lyme Disease so I can just get my great strong invulnerable mom BACK.

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 5, 2004
09:25 p.m.

ok just finished watching the debates - I loved every minute of it! Best debate I've seen thus far! The Bush/Kerry match up last week didn't have the fire and feel as this one. Edwards and Cheney were both awesome! I LOOOVEEE John Edwards! The guy was on point about so many things - I found myself lovin the guy more and more! SO happy he's a VP candidate and when he looked at the camera in the closing statement and asked the American ppl to give him a chance, I was like HECK YEAH! Cheney was cool as cucumber but excellent points were raised about Halliburton, about the state of Iraq and how it's getting worse and worse each day and NOT better as Cheney/Bush keep claiming and fronting.

Additionally, I read in the newspaper tonight that Cheney actually SAID there was NO link b/t Saddam and Al Qaeda. Hello? You're finally SAYING it??? What we all knew all along?

I disagree with Cheney's stances and viewpoints with this administration he's a part of BUT dangit I wish he were on our side! I liked him. He spoke so well.

John Edwards did AWESOME. Just terrificly. He raised almost all the points I wished had been raised last week and then some and argued everything beautifully. He was GREAT.

My vote's goin to Kerry/Edwards - Bush has had 4 yrs to make me angry, make the rest of the world angry, and has catered to extreme conservative idealogies. I want to give Kerry/Edwards a chance to get our country back on a middle-of-the-road where both conservatives and liberals are happy and end this divisiveness that Bush & company have brought upon us. Edwards is right - we CAN do better than this!

- Nishi

Monday, October 4, 2004
08:53 p.m.

on breaking hearts, good friends and threesomes - not necessarily in that order ;)

I think I broke a guy's heart today. I was on the New Jersey PATH train riding back into the city when to make sure I was on the right train, which was empty save for this one guy, I asked the guy if this was the train to the city and we got to talking and turns out his name is Mike and we chatted the whole time. He was so sweet, and nice looking too, and I think I would've given him a chance had I been single (but I'm happy with my Ricky :)). There was a lot of smiling going on - on his part and on my part just cause smiling is what I do! After a long while of chatting about everything from school to jobs to hobbies and apartments etc he was like 'gosh I'm starving' and I'm like 'yeah me too' and then he asked 'where did you say you were going after this again?' and *alarm bells going off* - that's the point u know he's going to ask 'wanna grab something to eat?' and to not mislead him I have to be firm! So I said I'm going straight home upstate. After chatting more he gave me sweet opportunities to give him my number but I never took the bait and he got out at his stop just getting a warm handshake :) I felt bad - he was so sweet. Hope I run into him again just so we can be friends.

Who says finding dates in the city is hard? I wonder if I'd have a tough time if I was single again? Of course, when you're happy in love there seems to be gorgeous single available guys everywhere BUT once you're single again, you're lucky if you run into a mediocre single guy. Isn't there a law of science named after that?

My friend Carol had an interview with my firm today. She's one of my friends from law school - 2 years younger than me I think. I was SO excited to hear John was going to interview her and I ran into her in the waiting room today at the office and gave her a huge hug (like 3 times) and wished her luck. But then she gave me a call and told me that at the end of the interview John had told her they had pretty much decided who they were going to hire.....and she was left to assume that maybe she wasn't it? I felt so bad :( I guess John and Ronit already found great people. I feel bad now telling her how great my job is and how wonderful the place is and helping her to think that she had a great chance of getting in here.......I thought she'd be a shoo-in! *sigh* Would've been nice to have such a good friend working with me.

Speaking of good friends, one of my good friends told me recently she had a threesome - her with a good guy friend and another good girl friend. I was like 'oh my god' - she really is every guy's dream! I could NEVER do that. If I ever did a threesome it'd be 2 guys. I could never share my guy with another girl - waaaaaayyyyy too jealous for that ;) But another guy in the mix? Hey - the more guys the merrier ;) LOL! hahaha seriously, actually, as long as Im in a loving relationship with my boyfriend (or husband) then no I could never do a threesome because...well....the act of making love I think is a very intimate thing to be experienced with just 2 people. With more in the mix, inevitably someone's getting short-changed. Albeit, if you're single and it's 2 guy-friends or even strangers it could be fun and exciting - a whole new world of good nice experiences but not while I'm with someone I love.

Threesomes.....food for thought.

Anywayz, I have a feeling I'll be editing this entry one day ;) I have court tomorrow so must get my clothes ready and relax now....

Oh on a side note - strawberries with fat free whip cream (only 5 calories and 0 fat) - is DELICIOUS. YUMM. Ok I found a threesome I can do - me, my boyfriend and strawberies and whip cream :) Or is that a foursome ;) All good :)

- Nishi

Sunday, October 3, 2004
12:20 p.m.

a random assortment of musings

didn't go to the party last night because of how congested I was and recording is moved from this weekend to M,T & W of this week evenings. Adding a new song and replacing another one I was working with Ashish on.....we have a deadline - have to get everything recorded and mixed and music all down by November 15th which is when the engineer will be doing his thing. Suni when I went to work everyone was talking about the debates and everyone was saying Kerry did better and Bush didn't do as well at all, and all the news people have been saying the same things. I think the reason why I thought Bush did so great was because I had such low expectations for him that I was surprised that he could come across better than I expected. True republican? Oh god *sob* and I like you so much! :) hahaha *HUG*

Gorgeous Sunday here....sun shining....too bad I'm still congested. I'd love to go jogging now if I wasn't still sick.....just got out of the shower....am going to get breakfast and spend the day reading magazines and watching anime and tv :) Except when my mom needs me I guess. Blech ;)

Ricky's gone camping all weekend with his friends. I forget where they went but he even had a camping itinerary that listed from what hour to hour they'd have lunch, hike, drive, drink and party etc etc hahahaha :) I can't wait till he comes back tonight - hope he's able to call....

I'm really into cashmere these days. I was looking at the like 8 Victoria's Secret catalogues I receive EVERY WEEK (WHY THE HELL DO THEY SEND OUT SO MANY CATALOGUES OF THE SAME CLOTHES??? I swear I get one in the mail almost every day!) and I saw this gorgeous cashmere/silk/angora blend - mmmmm I like soft clothes....the kind of clothes that make you want to touch and never stop touching cause they make you feel so good. Too bad it's so darn expensive.

I had...very weird dreams last night.......I dreamt about Jesus. Specifically, I dreamt about his last days.......he has brown eyes. In the dream there was a close up of his eyes....I watched him suffering and how when he walked through a crowd as prisoner he didn't have any friends he could see among the crowd. Or at least that's how it looked. Everyone was scared to speak up in case if someone saw them show support for Jesus they too would be imprisoned or worse. So poor Jesus I thought. I was so sad......I wanted to yell 'Jesus thank you! I don't want you to suffer and I can't stand what's going to happen to you but I know you're doing this for us and I thank you' but I couldn't say a word (it's a dream after all) - the weird thing was...after the 1st day of torture or punishment, whatever it was, he was taken back to a room where he was given a bed to sleep on till morning.....(weird huh?) and he cut something out of his stomach? Not sure....or was he just removing skin? I have no idea. The thing is I actually saw him smile. There was this boy about 11-16 years of age I think and he was helping Jesus in the room.....and as the boy talked to him that's when Jesus had that 'half-smile' like you smile when you're enduring something or...that...smile that you bring out when you know you're going through hard things but your spirit hasn't been crushed............

In another dream....I was in some King's palace (or something) and fell either accidentally or willingly down this huge long hole - pne of those 'bottomless pits' - I expected to die in a raging stream of volancic lava or something in the center of the earth but wound up landing in this narrow corridor where a cannon had been set up (or a gun?) - it was there to execute prisoners - i was like 'whew, this is all it was down here' and proceeded to use the levers and foot holds that had been made onto the wall to climb up the whole HUGE long distance exactly as I'd learned from Ricky when we went rock climbing recently. I was thinking in the dream 'God I'm glad I did rock climbing' - when I got to the top after admiring all the beautiful engraved and intricate levers that I'd had o use to climb up God knows how many feet - I saw these 2 large eggs which I or somehow they on their own cracked open and out flew 2 birds who rushed into my arms and I held them protectively. Two large WHITE birds....and I wasn't scared...normally I'm scared of birds' beaks and how sharp they are etc etc...not to mentiont heir claws....but these birds were like large fowl that were loving to me and so I protected them from anything that happened in the dream. I think the palace I was in was an Indian palace because in this library were all these Indian books....one was a book about Madhuri Dixit and her dancing career and I read something about her taking classes at Central Park. LOL!

People always say you can't read in dreams. That's not true. I ALWAYS read in dreams. I've read countless newspapers, books, signs everything. They say when you dream you're not using the side of your brain that reads - how can that be true if I'm reading all sorts of books - esp the one about Madhuri last night in a dream? I read clearly stuff about her growing up and taking dance classes etc etc.....God knows why I dreamt all this stuff....

anywayz.....so when I woke up I was left...kind of dazed and questioning everything I'd dreamt. Dreams are amazing things. Amazing. I believe dreams connect to us to all the mysteries of the universe. I think dreams are a way we can escape the bounds and limits of our human understanding and knowledge and attain real enlightenment and understanding.......Jesus had brown eyes. I believe it. He was a real man. I know it. The rest of the world and the universe are a mystery and I hope one day I come to understand it. God? When it comes down to it, I believe in my heart Jehovah, Yehovah, Yahowah, Iehovah, however His name is said across the world, I believe He exists. It's so easy to doubt, especially in this world where so much tragedy happens, where everything can be boiled down to a science, where more and more evidence points to the mysteries of the world and God has not appeared to us in all this time. The more I study astronomy, the more I study about the fate of our world, of evolution.....no wonder people question the Biblical accounts of God etc etc. But there's one thing I read recently that I agree with 100% - there is *something* in this entire universe that is holding everything together - a consciousness - a thing that exists but isn't manifest - that, I believe, is God. Everything is connected, you and me, the plants, Saturn....all of it is connected in even some MINUTE way which we couldn't detect....we're all made from the same stuff.....the same atoms, particles.......everything we touch....kinetic vibrations...impressions....it's all there......there's life (a sense of it, a form of it) in everything. Life isn't necessarily breathing living beings, it can be the dirt....the snow....water......it's not alive...but it's a thing of creation.....it exists and it has properties that are connected to us and the whole universe.....I think humankind has the ability to understand on a very deep level all these things, how to use these things for good.....how to change water into wine.....I think we're just limited right now.....but in dreams...in dreams.....I see far.....I understand so much.....I can fly and do magic in dreams.....I was in the center of space, alone and sad among the infinite space and sun and objects........there is a power in dreams that help you reach greater knowledge and understanding.

Angels in heaven, Jesus' sacrifice, God.....so much of it is confusing....a lot of times it doesn't make sense when you try to fit it into our world and understanding....you just have to believe it...have faith......and hope that one day, it will all be clear and you WILL understand.....

the greatest of mysteries is death. Why do people die? Why does someone who's so full of life, smiling and laughing, playing with his kids, suddenly just DIE - gets sick, car accident, stabbed....and all that life...all his...essense, spirit, everything's just gone. And he's GONE. It's like he never existed. What happens to him? Is that the end? If that's so, then life is so damn precious. It's fleeting and finite and everything has to be done to preserve it and protect it as long as possible. Life is a miracle. Death....death is wrong. It's ugly and horrible. It shouldn't happen. I learned how beautiful worlds are created - millions and billions of years they take to form and our world developed life....and yet billions of years from now, this world and all we know in it, will be dead from radiation from the sun as we get pulled closer to it, and finally our core will burn out, our world won't have gravity and we'll implode or explode (don't quote me I'm just trying to remember what I read was the timeline of events to happen to worlds) and this world will be gone. How can that be? Everything we know and love...just gone. A world that doesn't exist anymore. And then you think about 'aliens' although I don't know if they exist - I tend to laugh at this idea - but it isn't too far out logically to think people from other worlds that died out are travelling the universe to find a new planet that's suitable for them to live on. If we every survived as a race long enough to have the fuel and ability to find a world, we humans would do the same. Find a new world to make a home so we can survive.

Ok I've been sitting in this towl for over 40 minutes now writing and it's time for me to go. I'm gonna enjoy this beautiful life and world given to me. It's sunny outside, I am blessed right now with good health and God help me to keep it and my family and loved ones with me as long as possible.....I want to live and enjoy...be happy and make all dreams and possibilties come tru. We're only given this one life....who knows what's to come....we have to make the best of things.

- Nishi

Friday, October 1, 2004
09:19 p.m.

shoes are the bane of my existence. My feet are small - size 5 - these stupid shoes that are so pretty and felt so nice at the time I bought them - hurt me like HELL today - i just spent 10 minutes soaking them - still hurt. My poor feet. WHY did I do this to them? WHY do women have to wear shoes like this to be fashionable. AGHHHHHHHHHHH - the balls of my feet hurt like hell and what's worse - somewhere along the way as a child growing up, my big toe must've gotten messed up cause my big toes aren't straight - they're slightly pushed up (possibly from ill-fitting shoes as a child?) - all my other toes are straight except for the big toes. So as a result, I often get painful pressure and bumps and blisters if the shoes are too tight on top of the big toe. I want perfect feet. Gimme. Size 6 would be JUST fine.

Saw the KERRY v. BUSH debate last night - am I one of the few non-bush people who actually thought Bush was great last night? I'm gonna vote for Kerry but Kerry didn't win me over. Not one bit. Bush actually was winning me. And If *I* - a tried and true ANTI-Bush-for-president woman felt that way, who can blame other people who thought Bush rocked? I thought he came across great. *sigh* I don't want Bush as president simply because he did things no other president did or would ever do in reacting to a tragedy that happened in his 9th month of presidency - on his watch mind you.

ok i am exhausted and am out. Went to Court both yesterday and today - will tell all about it later. Have a party to go to tomorrow night and a ton of cleaning to do before that.

- Nishi

Wednesday, September 29, 2004
08:41 p.m.

Memory-chan you're so sweet! *big hugs* how was YOUR weekend? salvee dude you're a freak of nature. Susan *HUGS* don't worry about writing a lot! :) I enjoy your comments! How old is your daughter? I generally think anything before 22 is too young. 23-29 seems ok to me but I'd recommend 25 and up - 23-26 is when you get to live it up and really find yourself....you're not a teenager nor a college student anymore - ur a mature adult in grad school or law school or doing ur PhD or actually working or following your dreams. So much growth happens during that time. If you're married, that time to urself is gone. But of course, this is very general. Some people are VERY ready for marriage by age 23 or as young as 21 and they're just different people for whom marriage is a great thing. Everybody's different so I can only really say that you should get married when you truly feel ready and not because you feel pressured.

Speaking of age, I really DO still feel about 25. Why do I have to be 27? It's just cause the Earth went around the sun in approx. 365 days that I'm deemed 1 year older. Why - why can't it be every 730 days that I turn a year older? I'd only be 13.5 years old now ;) LOL! I seriously believe you *are* only as old as you feel. It's all a state of mind. Just telling myself 'I'm 25' makes me feel younger already. I feel the way I did when I actually WAS 25 - like my life was just beginning and that I was just starting to come into my own. Two years later I still feel exactly the same way but it's dampened by the fact that the number '27' hangs over my head instead of 25. I now understand why there's so much negativity associated with aging....it's seriously depressing stuff! Who wants to get old and wrinkly? Everyone wants to stay in their mid-20's, and for some people their late teens and early 20's. That's youth, vibrance and vitality. When everything is fresh, surging, ALIVE.....nothing starts getting run down, broken down, your collagen doesn't start depleting and nothing makes you run to the Clinique or Estee Lauder counter to buy their newest anti-wrinkle serum. Aging? Wrinkles? Sun damage? You don't even THINK about that stuff in your early to mid-20's cause you feel invinceable. DAMMIT. I'm 27 but I might as well be 25 still cause I refuse to give up the young and alive and invinceable feeling. As long as I look as good as I do, feel as yong and healthy as I do, I'm not gonna let my age get me down. It's just a number. Hell, I have 16 year olds hitting on me - they think I'm 19 or 21 ;) LOL! I'm blessed that I look so young....it's just ironic that I'm actually 27. Irony - a funny thing.

On a side note - it is VERY important for people in their 20's to start using anti-wrinkle lotions and SPF 30 sunscreen moisturizers cause a lot of the foundation for skin damage and wrinkles is set in your 20's so take good care of your skin now and you'll look that good into your 30's, 40's and 50's and look a helluva lot better in your 60's!

Ok I'm 27, in the 2 years since I graduated law school at age 25, I took and passed my bar exam, and at age 26 began work at my first real job as an attorney at a law firm on the east side of Manhattan, and by age 27 was at a new firm that was better for me because since law school I'd found my callings - music/singing/dancing/song-writing and foreign policy/human rights/writing and have been working to achieve my dreams in these areas. When I look at it like that, I've accomplished a lot in my short time on Earth. I'm just 27. JUST 27. I'm actually pretty young when I really think about it. I'm STILL starting out. I still have time to make my dreams come true. I'm not old. Not by a long shot. I think I'll feel old when I'm 38. hahaa but knowing me, I'll be writing here 'I'm Nishi and I'm 38 but dammit I really feel only 35' ;) LOLLLLLLLLLLL :D

As for Ricky and love and marriage.....ya know what? I think I'll just let things go day by day and not think about it so much. Right now, my biggest goal is to get my music done, and to make THAT dream come true. Marriage will always be there. I don't need that pressure. Not now. Whether it's Ricky or someone else (wonder if there's a Prince of Monaco free?), I'll just leave it in God's hands and let things turn out however they do.

Right now, marriage is the last thing on my mind. My dreams, my life, my goals....they're #1. Everything will work out for me. I know it will. Somehow, all for the best.

:) I feel better having written all this.

So that's it :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, September 28, 2004
09:31 a.m.

oy! Gomen Gomen Gomen!!! I got so busy and tired I couldn't write! *HUGS* to everybody. I have so much to tell everyone but I'm at work now.....agh what the hell I'm not goin for employee of the year or anything ;)

ok ok....so Friday, after work I went with my friend Danny to his apartment - my friend Danny is gorgeous. He's puerto rican I think or some kind of spanish ethnicity and he's such a cute flirt ;) We have a lot of fun together when we hang out. We went to his apartment in Greenwich and I met his roommates and he has this dog named Binger who's this collossal dog who loves girls apparently - we played ping pong on their table they set up and played with the dog who liked to run around all over the apartment, his roomates are hysterically funny and by 2 hours poor Danny was a little tipsy from the vodka or whatever he had and we're going down the stairs and he takes this fake rose off the wall and hands it to me ;) LOL! Just some flower stuck up by somebody who used to live there and who write this long eulogy in pen on the wall about how much she'd miss living there ;)

Greenwhich is such a gorgeous neighborhood. Anywayz, Saturday, my sisters came home and you know what raucous fun that is ;) We all piled into the car and papa drove us to my uncles' houses upstate in Fishkill for our grandfather's memorial. Both my grandfather's died in the past year or two so we had memorials the past 2 weekends. The best part was hanging out with all my cousins! My 4 yr old cousin Manisha reminds me SO much of myself at that age, dancing and being a nut ;) Good food, good family, lots of family friends over for the prayer meeting and we slept over there - I slept with my little cousin Megan and we stayed up till 1am talking about her school life, friends etc etc and how this one girl acts mean to her. I wanted to punch the mean girl. The next morning we went to church and LORDDDDDD it's been a LONG time since I stood through a 2.5 hour long Qurbana. Jeez louise!

It was such a beautiful Sunday! Last really nice and warm day of summer I think. After church we went back to our uncle's house and played football for the afternoon and jumped on the trampoline my uncle had set up in his backyard and then we went home and I spent the rest of the afternoon reading magazines outside and going for my 4 mile run. SIsters all left so it was lonely - I caught some of the 'FASHION ROCKS' special on tv that night.

Monday...there was a big explosion and fire here at Penn Station so our company let us out at 4pm because so many people go through penn station to get home. No one was injured though - it was some transformer which was 9 stories down. My friend Stephani and I saw all the fire trucks and police cars wizzing by us on our lunch hour so we knew something bad happened at Penn. I'm glad no one was hurt.

I finally have a DVD player! Steph and I bought one yesterday - it's a VCR/DVD combo and was only 79.99! Today Mark brought me in a gazillion anime dvds - Naruto and Escaflowne etc for me to watch since I finally have a dvd player ;) Yes Nishi welcome finally to the new age ;) And I used to consider myself ahead of the times ;) Psshh I was just missing a dvd player! ANywayz, when work let out at 4, I made my way to Grand Central and made it home by 5:15 and went on my 4 mile run and popped in 8-minute abs and did push ups and I felt very buff :)

So that in sum is my weekend. There is SOOOOOOO much more I wanna write.....like how the leaves are turning colors....it's gorgeous upstate - I've almost forgotten the rolling hills and how beautiful it is in the fall with the red and golden and orange leaves.....I wanted to write about the crazy asian lady who wouldn't stop following me to the #7 line cause I was the only one nice enough to tell her the way to Grand Central that wasn't confusing.....lesson to me - stop being so nice! Saw my friend Rani this morning from church on the train - was so nice to talk to her!

Oh lord I've been writing for 20 minutes. Gotta go back to my desk before someone has a cow. I'll respond to msgs etc on my lunch or later tonight. *HUGS* I missed you all!!

- Nishi

Thursday, September 23, 2004
11:47 p.m.

I woke up an hour ago. I feel a lot better. Thank goodness. I slept from about noon till 5:30. Hope I sleep tonight! My stomach still aches a little but I don't feel nauseous.

Ok responding to msgs: Suni you hit the nail on the head! The 'won't look good in a sari' is so common a comment I hear about girls it's so annoying! Congrats on getting into the med school!!! And definitely don't settle down in marriage too early! Every one needs time to find themself, explore this world and life before accepting the responsibilities of marriage, babies, mortgage/rent, electricity bills etc. Leni thanks! :) glad you liked :) Alex you've very welcome *HUGS* Micaila good luck on your finals!! Playing with paint? :) LOL! *HUGS* I know you'll do great!! Rence-chan *HUG* no :P I didn't get shorter! *half-strangles you* :) I have to talk to you on IM one of these nights when I'm on and free. We need to catch up. Susan I didn't get a sore throat (thank goodness) but thank u! How're u? What's new in your life? I love my ricky :) memory hiya :) well good luck to the friend moving to Hoboken! where do you live again? Gomen...I forget! :) hahahaha and who knows if Ricky's reading - he checks in once in a while - he's very busy with work these days. Miyu-channnnn *HUGS* he is very silly :) how're u? what's new? I need to read your journal. Kari thank goodness for antibacterial swipes! No girl should leave home without them :) LOL! How're u? Over a dozen? Oy! We'll kick the credit habit! :) LYDIAAAAA ok let's do lunch tomorrow? I'll actually be bringing lunch from home but we can go somewhere? I'll call u. *HUGS*

Stomach still feels achy so I'm gonna get off the computer now and get back in bed and watch tv and/or read. I'll see ya'll later.

- Nishi

Thursday, September 23, 2004
11:44 a.m.

I just got home 20 minutes ago - came home from work sick with an upset stomach and first thing I did? Went and threw up. Ugh. I'm drinking tea and going to sleep soon. I knew I should've stayed in bed, but I got myself dressed, looking nice, and went to work. The whole way I was like I made it this far I should just go to work and see how I feel there. That's always a mistake. Next time, if I feel queasy, I'm staying home. I felt so god awful that I didn't wind up leaving till John came. He's such a sweetheart. Speaking of sweethearts, the cabbie gave me a free ride home - I told him how I was sick and left work to come home and when we arrived at my house he wouldn't accept payment and said it's fine and for me to feel better. SO sweet. I got his cell phone and will use him for cab services from now on! :)

Ok I feel awful so I'm getting off the computer and gonna lie down or sit up, or whatever will make my stomach feel better. Sheesh.

- Nishi (will respond to ALL msgs tonight - promise)

Wednesday, September 22, 2004
09:50 p.m.

I had Court today - 5 motions, argued 3, adjourned 2. Won 1 I argued, had the other 2 denied though it wasn't my fault - the motions sucked. NONE of them were motions I wrote though! The one I won, I was so happy about - threshold motion - guy had unsworn doctor's reports. Is any of this making sense to you people out there? Ok I'll skip this.

Anywayz, point being, going to Court reminded me how I hated the practice of law. I forget that when I'm in the motions department cause I'm doing what I love: writing. But once I'm out, killing time in court, forced to get up and argue about motions I could care a fig less about, that's when I'm like 'dude what am i DOING with my life as an attorney? It's not like I'm even arguing life and death, Guantanamo Bay or Sudan here. It's some guy who says he has a sprain and claims he was confined home for 2 days and then sues for gazillions of dollars.' If THAT doesn't give you a good perspective on what you should devote your life to, I don't know what does. So I was SO thankful then that I have begun working with a new producer to bring forth my music :) THANK YOU GOD!

I gotta email my friend sashi SASHIIIII if you're reading this I couldn't get to the post office on Saturday cause of the rain, thunderstorms, flooding we had and my dad forbidding me to use the car and post office closing at noon while storm was still here. I can't go this Saturday cause we're having my grandfather's memorial at relatives upstate so won't be home. Next chance I'll get is NEXT Saturday. I hope that's ok. I know I delayed it already. *HUG* I'll email you after this too.

So tired after getting back from court at like 2:15 pm. My last motion was supposed to be 12:30, wasn't up till 1:15. Ugh! Met a woman there who LOVES going to court and arguing. I so canNOT relate. She was like a foreign beast to me. Love court? BWAHAHAHAHAHA. Anywayz.

I'm worried about my finances. I need to cut up all my credit cards. No joke. Seriously need to cut them up. Will I? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe 2 of them. Bwak, bwak bwak (chicken sounds or is that the sound of credit card addiction?) Agh, I'll get it under control. This happens every spring and fall. High fashion times. When will I learn to say no to spending, spending, spending when I have such limited funds, funds, funds. Ugh! No more! As of Oct 1. this girl is getting on a super strict budget and going to stay there! I'm gonna kick my debt! Who's got bets on whether I'll stick to it or not? Count me in on the odds :P

People who left me msgs, I'd LOVE to respond cause I saw them but tag-board dosn't seem to be working with now. I'll respond as soon as I can see the msgs (probably tomorrow). Thank you to everyone who commented about Ricky. :) hehehe :)

- Nishi

Monday, September 20, 2004
10:08 p.m.

I walked barefoot on the streets of NYC!

not because I wanted to though mind you!!! My slipper broke!!!! My favorite black suede-like flip flop, the left one, broke mid-stride down 42nd at 5th Avenue. What was I to do?? It was 7:29 and I HAD to make the 7:40 train so I walked and ran with my bare left foot and still flip-flopped right foot and ignored all stares and looks and somehow made it through the streets, through Grand Central, down to the subway tracks and every car was full on my train till I finally found a seat and then whipped out my 4 Stridex Antibacterial face wipes and proceeded to douse my foot in antibacterialness - my foot was practically squeaky clean after that, and I pulled out a pair of shoes I had tucked into my duffel bag and slipped them on and voila, train doors closed and we started moving.

i cannot BELIEVE I actually walked with a bare foot down 42nd and 5th and Madison. UGHHHHHHH! Actually I was quite surprised by how relatively clean the sidewalk was! I encountered nothing gross - just smooth sidewalk.

I stayed in the shower a full 30 minutes scrubbing my foot and giving myself a foot soak and pedicure.

A conversation with my darling boyfriend Ricky when I told him my barefoot NYC adventure tonight:

I'm already 4 ft 8.5/4ft 9" so getting even shorter would be a terrible fate! ;) Gangrenous....hmph :P

- Nishi

Sunday, September 19, 2004
02:31 p.m.

I had a WONDERFUL recording session with Ashish today! Hoboken is so pretty :) We did 4 of my songs including 'Hush' and laid them all down on a track next to a tick/beat thing and next Sunday we're going to work with the music. He's SO efficient and thorough and everything is top notch professional. I love it :)

Now the bad news, I think I feel the signs of another sore throat.....I knew it the second the wind, rain and cold weather hit - I could feel it. I'm drinking OJ by the jug ;) Gonna drink some tea too with honey and relax with my magazines before the EMMY's tonight!!! Red Carpet Pre-Show on E! starts at 6pm! I'll be glued to the tv starting then! :)

It was SO cold today - SO COLD. I couldn't STAND it. I drank 2 cups of cocoa within 2 hours and then a large green tea. It's so bright and sunny, like a summer day, but it's COLD out there. UGH!

- Nishi

Saturday, September 18, 2004
10:40 a.m.

ok this weather is awful - there's no way I can go anywhere today - it's raining like crazy out there and the wind is ferocious. I had to go to the post office and run errands and made plans to meet friends for the BIG APPLE CONVENTION in the city but nothing doin! My dad just came back from *attempting* to go somewhere and he said the road we live on is almost flooded and there's no way he's letting me go anywhere! ;) LOL! Alrighty. I'll stay home and watch tv and read ;) Kinda nice actually - rainy Saturday.....got the windows all open and listening to the wind and rain sounds.....I'm finally seeing the yellow fall leaves on the ground - always makes me sad when that happens cause I know the leaves are dying and that soon