Name: Nishi
Age: 27
Where: New York
Faith: Christian
Sign: Aquarius
CH-S: Fire Dragon
AIM: SelenityHime
ICQ: 21380169
Email: be83398@yahoo.com
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The Story Thus Far . . .
Currently, I am working full-time as an Attorney in midtown Manhattan, New York City, New York and learning kickboxing and Kung Fu and middle-eastern bellydance, and
working on making a music career!
Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).
Books / Stories
King Arthur and all things Arthurian, Merlin, light and dark; The Crystal Cave, The Dark is Rising series, most anything to do with magic, vampires, werewolves; anything fantasy and romance-like: EMMA, Jane Eyre, Phantom of the Opera, Count of Monte Cristo, The Cask of Amontillado; almost anything Shakespeare wrote; The Harry Potter series; my childhood stories - Sweet Valley High, Twins, Kids, Babysitters Club, Boxcar Children, Bobbsey Twins, RAMONA QUIMBY series; SHERLOCK HOLMES, NANCY DREW; all books dealing with things I love from art, mystery, religion, magic, mythical creatures such as "DA VINCI CODE" and "Interview with the Vampire"
Movies
Emma, Contact, Ever After, Farenheit 9/11, Bowling for Columbine, Legally Blonde 2, Princess Diaries, Sweet Home Alabama, Matrix: Reloaded, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Staw Wars: Episode II, TOMBRAIDER I & II
All-time TV Shows
Three's Company, The Nanny, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, FRIENDS, Relic Hunter, Buffy, Xena, Clarissa Explains it All, OUT OF THIS WORLD, Wings, Mad About You, Simpsons, Married with Children, Carol Burnette Show, Anamorphs, Punky Brewster, Smurfs, Rainbow Brite, and the list could go on forever ;)
Musicals
Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, WICKED
Favorite Drinks
In the summer: starbucks' iced caramel macchaito - decaf and nonfat; lychee, boba/bubble tea/pearl milk tea; thai iced tea; lipton lemon and raspberry iced tea
In the winter: hot chocolate and starbucks' white chocolate mocha non-fat
Fave Alcoholic Drinks
Margaritas, amaretto sours, singapore slings, rum & coke and white wine - pinot
Music to relax to:
The slow version of the sailormoon theme song, the theme for Phantom of the Opera, the theme by Mono from Great Expectations and theme from Romeo and Juliet....so many more.....I can't live w/o music.....
A Fan Of:
I'm more a Democrat so I'm a fan of Bill & Hillary Clinton, Madeline Albright, Margaret Thatcher, Lee Iaccoca
Movie Actresses
Drew Barrymore
Kirsten Dunst
Kate Hudson
Nicole Kidman
Demi Moore
Gwyneth Paltrow
Julia Roberts
Reese Witherspoon
Renee Zellweger
Movie Actors
George Clooney
Johnny Depp
Matthew Goode
Tom Hanks
Ashton Kutcher
Brad Pitt
Keanu Reeves
Adam Sandler
Robin Williams
Magazines etc.:
Vogue
Cosmopolitan
Jane
Shape
Fitness
Allure
Elle
Marie Claire
Archaeology
Mysteries
Foreign Affairs Journals
The Economist
Discover
Astronomy
Sky & Telescope
National Geographic
New York Times
Commondreams.org
In Style
US Weekly
PEOPLE
My Adoptees
Shown are adoptees from Sailor Moon, Full Moon wo Sagashite, Star Wars Attack of the Clones, Lord of the Rings, and Emeraude from Magic Knights Rayearth, X-Files, the child-like empress from the Neverending Story, St. Tail!, The Labyrinth, Satine from Moulin Rouge, and HARRY POTTER!
Reminders:
Salons in NY to try:
Buff Spa at Bergdorf Goodman: 754 5th Ave $$$
Tiffany Nails: 903 Madison $$
Soho Sanctuary: 119 Mercer $$
Maximus Spa - Massage: 15 Mercer $$
Just Calm Down: 32 W. 22nd $$ - get grape gatsby with Essie Bordeaux polish
Ajune Spa: 1294 Third Ave $$
Frederic Fekkai: 15 E. 57th - Mandarin Supreme Pedicure $$
Salons in L.A. to try:
Kathy's Nails: 7967 Melrose $
Salons in Paris:
Mr. Ho: 3 Rue Washington $$
La Bulle Kenzo: 1 rue du Pont Neuf $
Things to buy:
HairArt's T3 tourmaline blow-dryer; t3tourmaline.com
Welcome to Nishi's Pitas Page a blog part of A Dream I Dream.
Nishi is a 27 year old Indian American who is working as an attorney in Manhattan. She is also a singer/songwriter who is working on her 1st album. She dreams of
bringing her songs to the world and moving people with her music; she also dreams of pursuing international human rights and foreign policy one day.
Nishi is an avid Japanese
anime and manga fan
& is a web designer too.
See her major anime/manga
websites listed to the right. She
also collects anime goodies,
see her Treasures.
This journal is a place for me to vent, to share, and to catch up with friends. Undoubtedly friends and strangers whom I don't know
are probably reading my words - for all whom I know and don't know, you may read but never, ever bring up with me what I write about on this journal unless I bring it up with you.
This place is sacred and I'm allowing you to enter it, to know what I choose to show of myself through this page, but don't assume you really know me or what I'm about, and don't assume you can talk to me about what I write.
Respect me, my wishes and my writings - or leave. :)
happy saturday everyone! Can't believe I didn't write since Wednesday night. So much to tell! Eclipse on Wednesday night was gorgeous wasn't it? Sat watching it with hot cocoa...mmm....went out with friends yesterday after work - didn't get home till late. Was nice though :) Called Ricky the second I got home.....I was telling him how my friend Danny and I had been talking about string theory and the universe and other intellectually stimulating convo and Ricky was like 'I love you' :) hehehe it always warms me when he says I love you out of the blue like that. I love my Ricky.
Gawd almost 10am! I have haircut appt at 11am and I need to sweep and mop the floors and take a shower before i go. I have bed hair. I don't wanna go to the hair salon with....well....unperfect hair ;) LOL! :)
Ayenes awww! I'll email you tonight hopefully? I'm horrible with emailing people back. It's very nice to meet another Sailor Moon fan my age! :) Stepahnie I'm glad you saw some of the eclipse :) How're you otherwise? What's new in your life? :) *HUGS* Tanja hey there :) what's up!? :) Raju thank yee thank yee ;) Kristine hi :) thanks for the smile :) Petter awww you're very sweet. Thank you :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
9:06 p.m.
*hugs* Susan and Memory :) thanks guys :) Micaila good luck on your midterms! Sounds like you're making amazing progress!! Let me know how it goes. Jade how're u? what's new with you? *HUGS* You have a great site!
Tom I think problems arise when people don't try to live up to their own high standards. Now this is different from perfectionism. I'm talking about high standards in important areas of your life such as work, love etc. I'm not saying high standards in how you make your bed, to brush your teeth to how your organize your closet. High standards in the most important aspects of your life - living up to them is key.
My problems come the moment I don't go the extra inch/mile, if I am able to, and live up to my high standards for myself. Yesterday, my 2 colleagues raised things I could do for the loser motion that hadn't occurred to me - they reminded me that even if everything said we were guilty, we still had to find something, anything, and make something out of it to raise a question and help our defense. I had written the motion off as a loser-motion and not bothered to go the extra inch and put in what I thought were enough arguments but which weren't....now I know better and I'll do even better - I'll live up to high standards in my work.
Another area where high standards are important: dealing with people. I have very high standards in how to treat people: always with kindness, even the seemingly-jerkiest and smelliest people (unless they're just truly horrible mean people who are taking advtg of me or others or making fun of me or others) but I'm only human and sometimes I'm not the nicest person. Today I was getting annoyed with this one guy (he's a decent person but he just drives me and a lot of other people at work nuts) and today he drove me plenty nuts so I made a comment to a co-worker about him and I think he heard me because he stopped to ask if me if everything was alright and I instantly felt bad that maybe he heard me venting my aggravation about him.....I can't really apologize for it but I can make up for it by being better to him. That is an example of how I didn't live up to my high standards of treating people with dignity and kindness. Even the most annoying guy is still a human being at heart - he wasn't some horrible jerk - he's a pretty nice guy - never says a mean thing to anyone. I feel bad I said what I did to my friend at work about how he was driving me nuts seeing me about this and that.....and saying it while he was in the area to possibly hear....ugh.
High standards...very important...you can't go wrong in *trying* to always live up to high standards - even if you fall short sometimes, at least the rest of the time you're succeeding.
Tom you may not agree with all of the above, but it's how I feel and I'm going to do my best to always keep at it.
There's an eclipse of the moon tonight from 9:15pm EST to 12midnight. Gorgeous moon out too! Curtains open and peering out.....so beautiful at night..I finished volume 4 of Cyber Idol Mink and am reading Dream Saga #2 now. I love both books :)
Anywayz, 9pm and I need to do my vocal exercises, shower and tidy up ths room, watch the eclipse, have dinner, finish my manga Dream Saga and go to sleep.
- Nishi
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
10:46 p.m.
RMN what can I say....it is creepy....but maybe its meant with only the purest of good intentions....haha...right ;).....Jahangir and Janak thanks guys and u're cool too! Hope you both know I'm in a serious relationship with my boyfriend of 3+ years who I'm likely to marry one day? If you didn't, u know now ;) Cynthia I loved Strawberry Shortcake as a little girl! Rose Petal's Place too!
It sucks when you fall behind your own high standards, worse when you do that AND fall behind others standards too. Ugh. This is the worst feeling. :(
Only one solution: never let this happen again. Always, ALWAYS live up to your high standards, never compromise on those high stds. Don't disappoint yourself or allow others whose respect is important to be disappointed in you. Of course this varies depending on the nature of the situation but when it comes to work and doing such work....it applies well. It's different when you take a stand on an issue that's open as to opinions (such as politics, abortion, etc).
Ok I'm off to sleep. I feel better having gotten this out. Time for my Ricky now.
- Nishi
Saturday, October 23, 2004
06:13 p.m.
I think I'm getting fat. I'm eating like a pig and I haven't jogged in like a month and haven't gone to my kickboxing or dance classes in a month either (or more) UGHHHHH I gotta start again. This is nuts. Also sux that Aunt Flow's visiting. Blech. I have the worst cramps.
We celebrated Mekha and Mili's 21st today with cake (they turned 21 on the 21st though) and tonight the girls and I are going out to Applebees for appetizers and drinks. Ugh I'm not really in the partying spirit but I guess I should goooo. Blech. Rather stay home and read manga and watch anime. Phooey. Think I'll go take a hot shower now and after getting ready, pop in my new Disney Princesses DVD and watch before we go out.
I slept till 12noon today...(between getting Aunt Flow and cramps last night and barely getting 6 hours of sleep a night I'm exhausted) and I feel like my Saturday off has just flown by. It's too bad Mek and I couldn't go to Columbia U for the OPen House - she wasn't feeling well.
Ricky's visiting his folks now and going out to some big club/party tonight....I miss him. We wanna go to the Grand Canyon together sometime soon. I can't wait! I haven't gone horseback riding in years! I wanna horseback ride there and see EVERYTHING. I especially wanna go to reservations and meet Native Americans. Basically be just like the Brady Bunch sans the kids.
- Nishi
Saturday, October 23, 2004
12:25 a.m.
Getting ready to go to sleep and call it a night - half past midnight on a friday....well now saturday - ricky's sick and waiting for my call - he's so cute when he's sick, although very demanding and whiney too ;)
Today my friend Stephanie and I went to MOTT Street in chinatown for dinner and to find a chinese-dress that I'd seen in magazines that I love.....no luck but I did find a gorgeous black coat from this store made for women of my size! The coat is some kind of suede material all over with a long faux-fur collar and faux-fur sleeves. It's SO gorgeous and I got it at such a bargain too. I actually didn't have a black coat (have a pea-coat....comes to mid-thigh) but this new one is ankle length and so so so warm.....I love it :)
Didn't get home till 8:30 and updated PrincessIshtar.com with a new gallery chock full of gorgeous manga color scans and images from Judal's Vampire Game! :) Got these on Wednesday from one of my favorite japanese bookstores here in the city. Steph and I went to Kinokuniya after work that day and had Assam Tea and chestnut cream cake and I got new manga and even got the new SAILOR MOON editions - including the EXTRAS!!! With gorgeous cover art of Chibi Usa and Usagi and Mamoru although it's not new art. Book OFF had Judal's tankoubons - all of them and for SOOOOO cheap and I bought 'em and Steph scanned everything for me though she still has some left to do.....she's such a good friend to me.
I'm excited about the new gallery for PrincessIshtar.com but also because I have 3 new staff members who are going to help write up the summaries for all the volumes of Vampire Game :)
I gotta sleep....tomorrow Mekha and Mili and Nithi are all coming home for Mek and Mil's 21st birthday celebration which was actually yesterday! :) Can't believe my sisters are 21 at last! Supposed to go with Mek to Columbia University's Open House to check out their grad program in psych Mek's interested in. And of course I'm interested in the Masters of International Affairs program.
Ok my rickers needs me. Night everyone :) Tom LOL! Your rule should be 'sing and then duck' ;) u'll avoid the thrown objects much easier that way ;)
- Nishi
Thursday, October 21, 2004
11: 57p.m.
JUST got home from Hoboken, NJ where I was with Ashish spending a lot of time working on my song 'Unravelled' - one of the songs he's producing for me. He really gets the music and gets me! It's so great!
I love to sing. God do I love to sing. It's the best feeling to just belt out and sing something.....I told him I wanted to do 'Story' as the 4th song and we recorded it to a track just to start working on the music and by then I was completely feeling the music and it was just running inside me......
To sing, really sing, you have to feel the words, the melody, the music - all of it. You have to channel it and convey it perfectly to the listener so they see and hear what you see and hear. I think Ashish and I were able to get each other on that level tonight and I'm so thankful to be working with a musician who's so good like that.
The music, recording, cd, everythng's progressing :) Makes me so happy....
Hoboken is such a pretty city - it reminds me of L.A. in the USC area where the cars all stop the minute a pedestrian steps foot in the road - it's totall 'yield to pedestrian' there - love it!
Another reason? I saw one of the cutest indian guys while I was trying to figure out which train was the PATH train to Penn Station. This indian dude musta been somewhere around my age, so cute! And it was his first time taking the PATH so he couldn't help me too much. I smile too much with cute guys. Must stop smiling or they'll get the wrong idea.
I think single girls in NYC should head out to Hoboken. That place is crawling with good-looking guys in their 20s! I can't believe how many I see everytime I head out there.
Anywayz, I'm completely exhausted and need to sleep to get up for work tomorrow s'g'night! With love to Susan and Alex and Sarah Beth! :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
10:49 p.m.
Ricky told me the best news! This January 1st, he and I are getting VIP tickets to the ROSE PARADE! It's part of his company's perks! I'm SO there for New Year's!!!
Susan & Alex thank you both for your messages *HUGS* I know my dad has my best interest at heart but he can show that without having to run a credit check on me. ;) I love my papa - he's the best dad! Even if he is overprotective he is because he loves his daughters so much and wants to make sure we're well-off and happy and stable and safe. What every father wants. He's a good father. I just strongly feel that as old as I am, my finances are now my business alone. I've had my own checking account and credit cards since I began law school and been paying all my own bills on my own since then so even if he did pay for college and a lot of law school, I'm the one repaying the school loans for law school and also paying him money every month to repay college tuition too. I can do my own credit report check and maintain my own finances.
Anywayz, I need to get ready for sleep.
An important lesson I learned today at work: don't talk to certain people about anything in your personal life, or heck just anything at all and don't let people who think they can, say anything to you about anything - shut them up.
- Nishi
Sunday, October 17, 2004
10:09 p.m.
I think I am going to do something I never thought I would - I am going to sell my Neo Queen Serenity resin model kits. All of them. Well, maybe.
If you are interested in making an offer - view the Neo Queen Serenity Resin Model Kits FOR SALE - they're near the mid-to-bottom of the page. Also available for offer is the IMPERIAL HIGHNESS ANASTASIA.
For the 1/4" Volks Serenity asking price is: min. $750 - I'll sell it to the 1st to the highest offer
For the one of Serenity with arms outstretched: min. is: $500 - sell to highest offer
And for the supremely rare one of Neo Queen that isn't even named: $2000. Yes 2 THOUSAND. I had one collector offer me $1800 for it last January and considering I'll never find it again once I sell it, I think $2000 is a steal.
I love them SO much........I just told Ricky I was going to sell them to pay down my credit card debt.......and as I was telling him I was like 'well they're sitting here on top of my closet in their boxes, wrapped, I haven't even taken them out once, even when delivered, I just always assumed when I was ready and able to glue and paint and everythng else to them I would....but it's been at least 2 years and they're still untouched and meanwhile I spend a fortune on clothes and trips to L.A. and could use the money. Is it worth selling them? Will I regret it terribly?' He was like: "Oh God" ;) LOL! He knows my anime collection, esp my Serenity stuff, are like my most prized possessions ever because of how supremely rare and beautifl they are. That's why if I am going to do this I have to sell them at the best price. Oh god I hope I don't regret it......agh.....I'm looking at the pictures of them now and already squirming.
I don't think I can sell them....oh good lord I already emailed this collector about offering him the $2000 Serenity one......AGHHHHH.........it's so hard.....knowing I'll never be able to find these ever again let alone afford them ever again......I can't, I can't....maybe I'll see what kind of an offer I get......
I already sold my Full Moon Music Box for $500....that was hard to part with at first but when I thought about it, was ok. My serenitys though.....the more and more I think about it, the harder it actually gets to part with them. I don't think I can afterall.....they're just too rare and important to me......*sob* I'm gonna be in debt foreverrrrrrrrrrr *SSSSSOOOOOOBBBBBBBBB*
That's it! No more spending after today! NONE! Except for food and necessities...and...manga....and that's it! I don't need any more clothes. Nope none! I wish I was rich.
And on that note, before I go: a convo with my friend Lydia tonight:
Me: Yesterday, I was shopping with Ricky on Broadway and Broome at some store near Guess etc and found this gorgeous jacket - white italian leather with this beautiful rose decal thing on the back and lots of jeweled things on the front.....it looked so beautiful...
Lydia: but?
Me: It cost $569! I couldn't get the seller to budge past "$550 with no tax"....
Me: So I walked out of there refsuing to buy it and have regretted it ever since.
Lydia: LOL
Me: *SOB*
Lydia: ROFL
Me: I wish I was rich
Lydia: so does everyone
I have decided that unless I am rich, clothing, shoes, pretty things for the home, and all things anime and manga shall be the bane of my existance. I must not buy them, by whatever means. Victoria's Secret catalogues? I can't even look at them - even though 1 arrives in my mailbox almost every day. Oh Lord, Lord, Lord help me. And while You're at it - make me rich and famous too? ;) hehehe :D
- Nishi
Saturday, October 16, 2004
09:58 a.m.
Friday was so nice - even if it was rainy and cloudy! I got the day off as a vacation day so spent th emorning making a big breakfast for R & me: cinnamon toast, apple pancakes, apple slices, scrambled eggs, orange juice :) We then headed out to TARGET where I picked up a couple things for the home and bathroom (pretty bath rugs and sets and a new table for my room for all my magazines. Ricky calls my room a museum cause I have so much STUFF in here ;) We ate at this Noodle Shop near my home for lunch and after Linen-n-Things came back home and watched tv and made dinner - noodle soup (again ;)), brie cheese on top of little bread toasts, plums and plum slices and milk with BROWNIES :) hehehe :)
Today, we're heading to the city - going to help Ricky buy some shoes and a jacket. Gorgeous sunny day - almost 10am so have to move fast to get ready and enjoy the most of this day! Taking him down into the west village and greenwich village :) Hope ya'll have a great day! See you tonight!
Susan hi :) *HUGS* 2 boys and girls? Which entry is this in comment to? Hope you're having a great weekend!
- Nishi
Thursday, October 14, 2004
10:39 p.m.
I love the U.S. I think we have been, are and can be an amazing, wonderful country - as long as we fix the problems we've been making and the wrongs committed. I wish I could help. I want to so much. My dream is to be involved in foreign policy one day and work for human rights everywhere with the U.S. leading the human rights movement.
Watched my first FULL episode of the Apprentice today. I know, I know - where've I been? I caught a few episodes - like 10 minutes or so of them but wasn't drawn in. Today rickers made me watch and I loved it! They had a fashion design/clothing task today and it was SO good :) It's too bad John got fired - he was so cute and so good. I like Raj and Kelly! Kelly I think is GORGEOUS. Raj is hysterically funny :)
We went to Cosi's tonight and had their S'Mores dessert after hummus dip and salads and decaf caramel mochas :) mmm :) I love Cosi's! Their S'More thing is the best - they bring a fire-thing to your table they light and you get to toast your marshmallows and make your s'mores yourself.
Micaila congrats sweetie! *HUGS* Do you have midterms? I'm so happy to hear how well you're doing! I bet one day you're going to be an amazing designer :)
I need to go rest.
- Nishi
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
10:55 p.m.
Columbus Day was SO much fun :) R and I went to the Columbus Day parade on 5th Avenue and it was just great! So much laughter and smiling faces. I waved at everybody :) After watching the parade for an hour or more we headed down to 34th street to shop. R spent a FORTUNE at the GAP but it was so worth it - I dressed him up in AMAZING outfits - he looked SO gorgeous! I think I *really* like dressing guys up :)
Today I had court in Kings - argued and won a threshold motion for Colin and appeared for 4 other motions besides his, and just worked hard today. Don't know if I'll get Thursday or Friday off at all - wanted to go with R to Washington D.C. this weekend.
Was reading the paper today and I have a new thing I wanna do on my journal. I'm gonna call it What The F@$k!?.
Today's What The F@$K!?
A Saudi-American captured in Afghanistan, labeled an enemy and held in U.S. solitary confinement for nearly 3 YEARS *without charge*, returned to his family yesterday after agreeing to *forefeit his U.S. citizenship* for freedom. His name was Yasser Esam Hamdi, and he was taken in 2001 and made a deal for freedom with the U.S. which required he give up his American citizenship and live in Saudi Arabia for 5 years AND renounce terrorism and agree not to SUE the U.S. over his imprisonment. He will never be allowed to travel to Afghanistan, Iraq, Israel, Pakistan or Syria. What the f--k indeed.
God that kinda stuff pisses me off. How can the U.S. tell someone ok we'll free you even though you were never charged with anything and we'll free you IF you give up ur american citizenship and agree to never sue us for holding you in solitary confinement for almost 3 years. WHAT THE HELL????? This kind of stuff SHOWS how the U.S. commits horrible, HORRIBLE errors and thinks no one will call us on it. This guy was obviously NO THREAT if he was never charged and was freed under all those conditions.
My horoscope today said: "The path to your success if clear. There may be a few degrees to get before you achieve the status ou want, but that's just a matter of time. Make the commitment." :) what a beautiful horoscope! I love being an Aquarius! :D
Sarah Beth hon how're the wedding details coming along? Can we get together sometime soon and catch up? When're you coming back down to the city? Maybe I can drive up one of these weekends? Gimme directions to Troy! :D
After I came home today, Rick and I went to Best Buy in Mount Vernon so he could get a wireless card and I managed to pick up the widescreen DVD of EMMA and of the Disney Princess Stories Volume 1 :) has brand new stories for the princesses :D hehehe :D Afterwards, we went to APPLEBEES and gorged on appetizers, skillet dishes, hot cocoa, raspberry iced tea, and this chocolate melt down thing - YUMM :) I am stuffed!
I'm in NY Supreme for a mediation tomorrow. Fun fun. Hopefully I can meet up with my friend James for lunch in chinatown. Time for sleep. Night everyone!
- Nishi
Monday, October 11, 2004
10:51 a.m.
ugh! since Saturday my yahoo mail account hasn't been working. Andrew I got your email I think on Friday or Saturday - couldn't respond since my email program's not working. Thank you though for the email :) *HUGS* Sashi if you're reading this, send you something on Saturday :) Should arrive by Tuesday I'm thinking?
Ricky's visiting this week and we had the best time yesterday! We went and saw BOMBAY DREAMS the musical on Broadway. Our review: we both thought it had gorgeous dance numbers, with LOTS of energy - the acting was great, and as ricky said 'lots of T & A (a.k.a. tits and ass ;) LOL!) but the one thing we didn't like were the singing performances. We thought that the singing was WAY off on almost every performance. There were times when the performers SHINED and did beautifully, especially when they used their full vocal capability but then others they sounded just....ugh......and the really bad thing I thought was how they were trying to do the whole Indian accent thing and mixing it with the music sometimes and it just sounded....eh.....we did some shopping afterwards and went to like half a dozen shoe stores to shop for shoes for Ricky - he got 2 pairs and I got a gorgeous pair of Bucci italian camel yellow suede or leather/suede-like material boots for only $50!!! How amazing is that? It was 70% discount :) WOO HOO!
Today we're heading out to the Columbus Day Parade in the city and doing serious shopping for Ricky - going to buy him almost a whole new wardobe :) heheeh I get to dress him up all day ;) I wanna shop for myself but I can't afford it. AGHHHH I need more MONEY.
- Nishi
Friday, October 8, 2004
11: 58 p.m.
political post - reaction to 2nd Bush/Kerry Debate
Just finished watching the debate b/t Bush & Kerry.......I have decided to vote for Kerry. Here's why:
Kerry has wisdom.
Wisdom means seeing both sides of an issue and making the right decision that is best for all.
Kerry said something I have always believed: that a president can't put into legislation laws that cater to only one person's specific belief on an issue - leglislation that takes away CHOICE on that issue.
When it comes to abortion, gay & lesbian marriages or civil unions, we as a country have been pressured by religious faithful who believe strongly in their ideologies and want to change our country so that it's in-line with those religious beliefs. How does that make us different from Islamic states who run their country according to the ruling majority's view on Islamic rules? Our country is run on separattion of church and state. That's what ensures the protection of all Americans' rights whether they believe in abortion or not, gay or lesbian or straight. Religious and moral values dictated by religion *alone* should NEVER impact the rights of *everyone*, especially when not *everyone* is a Christian or holds those same morals and beliefs.
A president who runs a free nation with a diverse group of people has to do the right thing, which is ensure all people's interests, even if they go against his religious views, are represented and protected.
I grappled with the issue of abortion for a long time, I was staunchly pro-life but as I grew older and learned and experienced a lot more, I understood that every woman MUST have the choice on whether to keep a pregnancy or not - however, I condition that on no abortion past the 3rd month. Up to the 3rd month, pregnancies are very fragile - getting pregnant and *staying* pregnant through the 3rd month is very hard. Many people miscarry - you don't have to be pro-choice or pro-life to know the following things which DISCOVER magazine had in an amazing article earlier this summer on pregnancy, fertility and women's eggs. I learned the scary truth that it's actually very, VERY hard to get pregnant and stay pregnant. That statistics showed how you have a miniscule chance of a successful pregnancy that lasts to full-term and a healthy baby being born. They said that during the process of trying to get pregnant, a million things go wrong between defects in a woman's egg, a man's sperm, the ability of a fertilized egg to divide and form correctly, to embed itself in the uterus and placenta to attach successfully and for formation to take place correctly thereafter. If people knew how many 'potential' life embryos were actually killed naturally in the body, and how LOW a chance life has of forming, they'd be very surprised. I'll find that article and try to type it up this weekend.
Anywayz, point being, there is NO way to actually tell whether every fertlized egg will become a baby. Like a chicken who lays eggs in her nest, a few (if any at all) actually hatch into chicks.
The human species reproductive capabilities aren't very advanced. Given all of this, who's to say why women can't choose to be pregnant or not? Who's to say one can't decide whether they want to create life in them or not? Who's to tell them 'well my religion and moral values say you should be pregnant and have a baby'? Having a baby, BEING pregnant is a very personal decision and should be left to the individual. They should receive counseling and be aware of what they're giving up or choosing to keep and the consequences and responsibilities of each decision - they shouldn't have the choice to make this personal decision taken away.
And that's what it's about: freedom of choice.
When you start taking steps to take away freedom of choice, no matter how good the intentions behind such steps, you start forcing your views and beliefs upon people, even if they disagree. At this point in time, the pro-life and pro-choice both have the rights to speak out about their views and why people should side with them. If the pro-life people get their way, the pro-choice people will be forced to shut up. That's not a democracy - that's not a land of the free. You need to respect and maintain ALL opposing view points. If you want everyone to think like you, form a state of like-minded people. If you want to live in America which is a diverse population of VERY different-minded people, you need to respect them all and understand their beliefs and protect all their beliefs, agree or disagree.
Bush.....I realize I really do like Bush. Why? Because he's a guy with the best intentions and who believes he's doing and saying the right things.
However, it is not Bush specifically that is the problem and why America is, in fact, wrong on almost every issue that Bush stands for: it is his administration which has very specific ideologies, beliefs, and caters to them.
Bush is the talking head and moving arms of a body of ideology that much of America and the rest of the world disagrees with. He speaks beautifully - from the heart - believing he and his administration are doing all the right things. He is in fact briefed and told what he is doing. Of course he believes everything he is doing is right - because people in power tell him and make him believe so.
But the truth is - he and his administration are doing a lot of things that aren't right. Remember Fall of 2001 and January/February of 2002? The news was all about Afghanistan and Osama....suddenly we started seeing news broadcasts titled 'the president is eyeing Iraq' and article after article warning people that the Bush admin had its eye on Iraq and wanted to go in there. I read a bunch of things in the news from sources who stated that Bush had been wanting to go into Iraq even BEFORE 9/11 happened. His whole admin wanted Sadaam out of power way before 9/11 - 9/11 just gave them the perfect opportunity to take action against him and to convince the American people that doing so was in the best interest of America.
I even knew Iraq had no weapons of mass destruction. I saw Madeline Albright speak and watched people demonstrate on how Iraq was suffering due to America's sanctions. Was in law school reading and learning how Iraq's main problems were with the rest of the middle east. They didn't have their eye on America at all - did Iraq and Sadaam like the U.S.? Hell no. Much of the middle east dislikes the U.S. cause we're viewed as immoral, gluttonous, rich and whose culture and values, big business practices and oppresive actions are being felt over there. Of course they would dislike us. Those people int he middle east danced on the streets when the Towers got hit NOT becuse people were dying, they didn't realize it at the time - they just saw it as a hit against America's arrogance. Later when they learned and saw the innocents dying, they realized this was evil and wrong.
There is no axis of evil. To much of the world, America is evil. Bush calls Iran, Iraq, North Korea evil. Reagan called the Soviet Union evil. Is it evil for other people to disagree with you and oppose things you say? Is it evil for the middle east to shun the excess and immoral values of American culture which contradict the very religious Islamic values? Is it evil to oppose a U.S.-led invasion of one's homeland and country where the U.S. is viewed as invaders and occupiers who were never wanted in the 1st place?
No it's not evil.
One of those audience members raised the environmental issue. Bush specifically lifted the protection of forests in America and has allowed business to log from a huge area of what has, until now, been protected forest. He didn't agree to the International Criminal Court because the ICC wanted America, like ALL its members, to agree that Americans too would be held accountable for war crimes and prisoner abuses. Bush didn't want to sign the Kyoto Treaty because big business made arguments about how expensive it would be to implement changes that would protect the environment and protect against global warming. They argued it'd be so expensive they'd have to cut jobs. So no jobs? No no, jobs good, global warming can wait for another time to be taken care of. Right now, the success of big businesses is more important.
That's the truth you don't hear.
The real truth is that Kerry will make decisions that are good for *all*. Bush makes decisions that are popular here at home with conservatives and people who have religious or conservative views. They aren't popular in the rest of the world because the rest of the world is a lot older and a lot smarter and they know why those decisions are actually wrong. America is only 200 years old! We're very, VERY young. Europe and the rest of the world understand the importance of not attacking other nations without a good body of evidence, without a concensus that a great wrong is being done. There was never any evidence, shaky at best, as to why we should attack Iraq. They put together a bunch of intelligency that was easily questionable and flicked the war switch because they were set for that course of action. They acted aggressively, reactively. I don't want an administation in power that behaves that way. Bush, as nice a guy as he is, is on the wrong side of wisdom. He and his administation lack it.
We have a president who was governor of Texas, who is not a worldly intellectual leading the powerful USA - a country who is a young child in this world of long-running cultures and countries. We are so strong, so powerful....that we have become arrogant. We are viewed as a police power. We need a president and administration with wisdom.....
Gore, if he were in power during 9/11, would not have rushed to war. You can bet he would've done things differently. 1000+ of our soldiers would not be dead, and the thousands and thousands of innocent Iraqis would not be dead either.
I was reading Revelations against last weekend. I came to the part about 'the harlot who sits atop the beast and is drunk with the blood of innocents' - I am more than ever convinved the Harlot is the U.S. who has the blood of all the innocents in this Iraq war and the entire middle east is the 'beast' (7 headed - represents empires of the middle east) which will overthrow and devour the harlot. I am really worried that if things continue this way, with each day in Iraq bringing more death, havoc and chaos, that a holy jihad might be declared to rid the U.S. from the middle east and kill ALL people there who oppose, heck, ANYTHING.......really worried that the might and reign of the U.S. as world power will fall and that a new world order or religious hold will take place.
But that's my religious speculations. I'll stop there.
My vote is for wisdom - it goes to Kerry.
- Nishi
Thursday, October 7, 2004
10:13 p.m.
you guys ever have one of those days where everything is going nice and then you go and ask or say something or do something that u probably shouldn't have said/asked/did and you feel like an idiot for it cause someone tells you, in a roundabout way, that you're not living up to high standards and you KNOW it and feel like crap because you should be living up to high standards but you wanted to be lazy and didn't feel you should have to do some of things you learned you had to do?
Well tomorrow's another day - I'll be better from now on. I fell short....I'm well-meaning, but lord help me to be a better person in all areas of work and life.
Anywayz, *HUGS* to Susan and your 3 yr old! How cute! Daddy's girl :) I want to have 2 girls and 2 boys one day :) How was your weekend? Week? Niovi I found a few high heel boots I love now - Aerosoles boots are so easy to walk in....also these pair of white pointy toe boots I bought from PAYLESS - they're white ruched boots (gorgeous!) were SOOOO comfortable to walk in! Walked and stood on them all day with ZERO problems! LOVE these and think I'll go back and get them in black too and any other color they offer them in! Caro-channnn come to NY and we'll go hot-guy fishing for you! :) *HUGS* I haven't talked to u in SO long! We need to catch up, seriously. Suni how do you feel about Cheney? Esp the Edwards/Cheney match up? Hope you're having a great week! :) Miyu-channn amen! :) *HUGS* How's your SO doing by the way? :)
Ok am off...see ya'll tomorrow :)
- Nishi
Wednesday, October 6, 2004
10:56 p.m.
oh, my, GOD. I came home tonight by 7pm to get some rest and relaxation but I might as well've come home by 9 or 10. On the phone with Cable Vision for 45 minutes cause the idiots there messed up our cable - millionth problem since August 15th. I had to endure papa's anger over it directed towards them and my own anger at them for screwing things up so much.
Then had to deal with my mom and a new doctor she saw who believes she may have underlying lyme disease which caused her fibromyalgia condition. She, like anyone who is suffering a sickness, wants hope and a cure and latches on to one easily. I'm skeptical about reactions like that so my arguments and doubts on it deflated her although after researching online and finding there was indeed lots of stuff out there on lyme disease causing fibromyalgia I was able to better support her but still it wasn't a proven thing and there still was no permanent cure....and she got upset that I wouldn't talk to this chinese doctor she visited (what am I supposed to ask or say?) and I got all guilty for not giving into her request because she went on to say how she's dealing with this all herself and when others need help she's there but when she needs help, no one helps...and all this stuff....and GOD I FELT GUILTY. SO GUILTY. She's our beloved mummy - so amazing and wonderful - but what can we DO?? None of us really know how to support and help her with all of this.....we're as clueless about all of this as she is.....ugh..........Ricky said something great though - our mom is wonderful and she needs our support and help and we need to band together and support her and give her whatever help she requests cause that just might make her better......
*sigh* I wish my mom would just get better and go back to normal. I sure hope it's something treatable like Lyme Disease so I can just get my great strong invulnerable mom BACK.
- Nishi
Tuesday, October 5, 2004
09:25 p.m.
ok just finished watching the debates - I loved every minute of it! Best debate I've seen thus far! The Bush/Kerry match up last week didn't have the fire and feel as this one. Edwards and Cheney were both awesome! I LOOOVEEE John Edwards! The guy was on point about so many things - I found myself lovin the guy more and more! SO happy he's a VP candidate and when he looked at the camera in the closing statement and asked the American ppl to give him a chance, I was like HECK YEAH! Cheney was cool as cucumber but excellent points were raised about Halliburton, about the state of Iraq and how it's getting worse and worse each day and NOT better as Cheney/Bush keep claiming and fronting.
Additionally, I read in the newspaper tonight that Cheney actually SAID there was NO link b/t Saddam and Al Qaeda. Hello? You're finally SAYING it??? What we all knew all along?
I disagree with Cheney's stances and viewpoints with this administration he's a part of BUT dangit I wish he were on our side! I liked him. He spoke so well.
John Edwards did AWESOME. Just terrificly. He raised almost all the points I wished had been raised last week and then some and argued everything beautifully. He was GREAT.
My vote's goin to Kerry/Edwards - Bush has had 4 yrs to make me angry, make the rest of the world angry, and has catered to extreme conservative idealogies. I want to give Kerry/Edwards a chance to get our country back on a middle-of-the-road where both conservatives and liberals are happy and end this divisiveness that Bush & company have brought upon us. Edwards is right - we CAN do better than this!
- Nishi
Monday, October 4, 2004
08:53 p.m.
on breaking hearts, good friends and threesomes - not necessarily in that order ;)
I think I broke a guy's heart today. I was on the New Jersey PATH train riding back into the city when to make sure I was on the right train, which was empty save for this one guy, I asked the guy if this was the train to the city and we got to talking and turns out his name is Mike and we chatted the whole time. He was so sweet, and nice looking too, and I think I would've given him a chance had I been single (but I'm happy with my Ricky :)). There was a lot of smiling going on - on his part and on my part just cause smiling is what I do! After a long while of chatting about everything from school to jobs to hobbies and apartments etc he was like 'gosh I'm starving' and I'm like 'yeah me too' and then he asked 'where did you say you were going after this again?' and *alarm bells going off* - that's the point u know he's going to ask 'wanna grab something to eat?' and to not mislead him I have to be firm! So I said I'm going straight home upstate. After chatting more he gave me sweet opportunities to give him my number but I never took the bait and he got out at his stop just getting a warm handshake :) I felt bad - he was so sweet. Hope I run into him again just so we can be friends.
Who says finding dates in the city is hard? I wonder if I'd have a tough time if I was single again? Of course, when you're happy in love there seems to be gorgeous single available guys everywhere BUT once you're single again, you're lucky if you run into a mediocre single guy. Isn't there a law of science named after that?
My friend Carol had an interview with my firm today. She's one of my friends from law school - 2 years younger than me I think. I was SO excited to hear John was going to interview her and I ran into her in the waiting room today at the office and gave her a huge hug (like 3 times) and wished her luck. But then she gave me a call and told me that at the end of the interview John had told her they had pretty much decided who they were going to hire.....and she was left to assume that maybe she wasn't it? I felt so bad :( I guess John and Ronit already found great people. I feel bad now telling her how great my job is and how wonderful the place is and helping her to think that she had a great chance of getting in here.......I thought she'd be a shoo-in! *sigh* Would've been nice to have such a good friend working with me.
Speaking of good friends, one of my good friends told me recently she had a threesome - her with a good guy friend and another good girl friend. I was like 'oh my god' - she really is every guy's dream! I could NEVER do that. If I ever did a threesome it'd be 2 guys. I could never share my guy with another girl - waaaaaayyyyy too jealous for that ;) But another guy in the mix? Hey - the more guys the merrier ;) LOL! hahaha seriously, actually, as long as Im in a loving relationship with my boyfriend (or husband) then no I could never do a threesome because...well....the act of making love I think is a very intimate thing to be experienced with just 2 people. With more in the mix, inevitably someone's getting short-changed. Albeit, if you're single and it's 2 guy-friends or even strangers it could be fun and exciting - a whole new world of good nice experiences but not while I'm with someone I love.
Threesomes.....food for thought.
Anywayz, I have a feeling I'll be editing this entry one day ;) I have court tomorrow so must get my clothes ready and relax now....
Oh on a side note - strawberries with fat free whip cream (only 5 calories and 0 fat) - is DELICIOUS. YUMM. Ok I found a threesome I can do - me, my boyfriend and strawberies and whip cream :) Or is that a foursome ;) All good :)
- Nishi
Sunday, October 3, 2004
12:20 p.m.
a random assortment of musings
didn't go to the party last night because of how congested I was and recording is moved from this weekend to M,T & W of this week evenings. Adding a new song and replacing another one I was working with Ashish on.....we have a deadline - have to get everything recorded and mixed and music all down by November 15th which is when the engineer will be doing his thing. Suni when I went to work everyone was talking about the debates and everyone was saying Kerry did better and Bush didn't do as well at all, and all the news people have been saying the same things. I think the reason why I thought Bush did so great was because I had such low expectations for him that I was surprised that he could come across better than I expected. True republican? Oh god *sob* and I like you so much! :) hahaha *HUG*
Gorgeous Sunday here....sun shining....too bad I'm still congested. I'd love to go jogging now if I wasn't still sick.....just got out of the shower....am going to get breakfast and spend the day reading magazines and watching anime and tv :) Except when my mom needs me I guess. Blech ;)
Ricky's gone camping all weekend with his friends. I forget where they went but he even had a camping itinerary that listed from what hour to hour they'd have lunch, hike, drive, drink and party etc etc hahahaha :) I can't wait till he comes back tonight - hope he's able to call....
I'm really into cashmere these days. I was looking at the like 8 Victoria's Secret catalogues I receive EVERY WEEK (WHY THE HELL DO THEY SEND OUT SO MANY CATALOGUES OF THE SAME CLOTHES??? I swear I get one in the mail almost every day!) and I saw this gorgeous cashmere/silk/angora blend - mmmmm I like soft clothes....the kind of clothes that make you want to touch and never stop touching cause they make you feel so good. Too bad it's so darn expensive.
I had...very weird dreams last night.......I dreamt about Jesus. Specifically, I dreamt about his last days.......he has brown eyes. In the dream there was a close up of his eyes....I watched him suffering and how when he walked through a crowd as prisoner he didn't have any friends he could see among the crowd. Or at least that's how it looked. Everyone was scared to speak up in case if someone saw them show support for Jesus they too would be imprisoned or worse. So poor Jesus I thought. I was so sad......I wanted to yell 'Jesus thank you! I don't want you to suffer and I can't stand what's going to happen to you but I know you're doing this for us and I thank you' but I couldn't say a word (it's a dream after all) - the weird thing was...after the 1st day of torture or punishment, whatever it was, he was taken back to a room where he was given a bed to sleep on till morning.....(weird huh?) and he cut something out of his stomach? Not sure....or was he just removing skin? I have no idea. The thing is I actually saw him smile. There was this boy about 11-16 years of age I think and he was helping Jesus in the room.....and as the boy talked to him that's when Jesus had that 'half-smile' like you smile when you're enduring something or...that...smile that you bring out when you know you're going through hard things but your spirit hasn't been crushed............
In another dream....I was in some King's palace (or something) and fell either accidentally or willingly down this huge long hole - pne of those 'bottomless pits' - I expected to die in a raging stream of volancic lava or something in the center of the earth but wound up landing in this narrow corridor where a cannon had been set up (or a gun?) - it was there to execute prisoners - i was like 'whew, this is all it was down here' and proceeded to use the levers and foot holds that had been made onto the wall to climb up the whole HUGE long distance exactly as I'd learned from Ricky when we went rock climbing recently. I was thinking in the dream 'God I'm glad I did rock climbing' - when I got to the top after admiring all the beautiful engraved and intricate levers that I'd had o use to climb up God knows how many feet - I saw these 2 large eggs which I or somehow they on their own cracked open and out flew 2 birds who rushed into my arms and I held them protectively. Two large WHITE birds....and I wasn't scared...normally I'm scared of birds' beaks and how sharp they are etc etc...not to mentiont heir claws....but these birds were like large fowl that were loving to me and so I protected them from anything that happened in the dream. I think the palace I was in was an Indian palace because in this library were all these Indian books....one was a book about Madhuri Dixit and her dancing career and I read something about her taking classes at Central Park. LOL!
People always say you can't read in dreams. That's not true. I ALWAYS read in dreams. I've read countless newspapers, books, signs everything. They say when you dream you're not using the side of your brain that reads - how can that be true if I'm reading all sorts of books - esp the one about Madhuri last night in a dream? I read clearly stuff about her growing up and taking dance classes etc etc.....God knows why I dreamt all this stuff....
anywayz.....so when I woke up I was left...kind of dazed and questioning everything I'd dreamt. Dreams are amazing things. Amazing. I believe dreams connect to us to all the mysteries of the universe. I think dreams are a way we can escape the bounds and limits of our human understanding and knowledge and attain real enlightenment and understanding.......Jesus had brown eyes. I believe it. He was a real man. I know it. The rest of the world and the universe are a mystery and I hope one day I come to understand it. God? When it comes down to it, I believe in my heart Jehovah, Yehovah, Yahowah, Iehovah, however His name is said across the world, I believe He exists. It's so easy to doubt, especially in this world where so much tragedy happens, where everything can be boiled down to a science, where more and more evidence points to the mysteries of the world and God has not appeared to us in all this time. The more I study astronomy, the more I study about the fate of our world, of evolution.....no wonder people question the Biblical accounts of God etc etc. But there's one thing I read recently that I agree with 100% - there is *something* in this entire universe that is holding everything together - a consciousness - a thing that exists but isn't manifest - that, I believe, is God. Everything is connected, you and me, the plants, Saturn....all of it is connected in even some MINUTE way which we couldn't detect....we're all made from the same stuff.....the same atoms, particles.......everything we touch....kinetic vibrations...impressions....it's all there......there's life (a sense of it, a form of it) in everything. Life isn't necessarily breathing living beings, it can be the dirt....the snow....water......it's not alive...but it's a thing of creation.....it exists and it has properties that are connected to us and the whole universe.....I think humankind has the ability to understand on a very deep level all these things, how to use these things for good.....how to change water into wine.....I think we're just limited right now.....but in dreams...in dreams.....I see far.....I understand so much.....I can fly and do magic in dreams.....I was in the center of space, alone and sad among the infinite space and sun and objects........there is a power in dreams that help you reach greater knowledge and understanding.
Angels in heaven, Jesus' sacrifice, God.....so much of it is confusing....a lot of times it doesn't make sense when you try to fit it into our world and understanding....you just have to believe it...have faith......and hope that one day, it will all be clear and you WILL understand.....
the greatest of mysteries is death. Why do people die? Why does someone who's so full of life, smiling and laughing, playing with his kids, suddenly just DIE - gets sick, car accident, stabbed....and all that life...all his...essense, spirit, everything's just gone. And he's GONE. It's like he never existed. What happens to him? Is that the end? If that's so, then life is so damn precious. It's fleeting and finite and everything has to be done to preserve it and protect it as long as possible. Life is a miracle. Death....death is wrong. It's ugly and horrible. It shouldn't happen. I learned how beautiful worlds are created - millions and billions of years they take to form and our world developed life....and yet billions of years from now, this world and all we know in it, will be dead from radiation from the sun as we get pulled closer to it, and finally our core will burn out, our world won't have gravity and we'll implode or explode (don't quote me I'm just trying to remember what I read was the timeline of events to happen to worlds) and this world will be gone. How can that be? Everything we know and love...just gone. A world that doesn't exist anymore. And then you think about 'aliens' although I don't know if they exist - I tend to laugh at this idea - but it isn't too far out logically to think people from other worlds that died out are travelling the universe to find a new planet that's suitable for them to live on. If we every survived as a race long enough to have the fuel and ability to find a world, we humans would do the same. Find a new world to make a home so we can survive.
Ok I've been sitting in this towl for over 40 minutes now writing and it's time for me to go. I'm gonna enjoy this beautiful life and world given to me. It's sunny outside, I am blessed right now with good health and God help me to keep it and my family and loved ones with me as long as possible.....I want to live and enjoy...be happy and make all dreams and possibilties come tru. We're only given this one life....who knows what's to come....we have to make the best of things.
- Nishi
Friday, October 1, 2004
09:19 p.m.
shoes are the bane of my existence. My feet are small - size 5 - these stupid shoes that are so pretty and felt so nice at the time I bought them - hurt me like HELL today - i just spent 10 minutes soaking them - still hurt. My poor feet. WHY did I do this to them? WHY do women have to wear shoes like this to be fashionable. AGHHHHHHHHHHH - the balls of my feet hurt like hell and what's worse - somewhere along the way as a child growing up, my big toe must've gotten messed up cause my big toes aren't straight - they're slightly pushed up (possibly from ill-fitting shoes as a child?) - all my other toes are straight except for the big toes. So as a result, I often get painful pressure and bumps and blisters if the shoes are too tight on top of the big toe. I want perfect feet. Gimme. Size 6 would be JUST fine.
Saw the KERRY v. BUSH debate last night - am I one of the few non-bush people who actually thought Bush was great last night? I'm gonna vote for Kerry but Kerry didn't win me over. Not one bit. Bush actually was winning me. And If *I* - a tried and true ANTI-Bush-for-president woman felt that way, who can blame other people who thought Bush rocked? I thought he came across great. *sigh* I don't want Bush as president simply because he did things no other president did or would ever do in reacting to a tragedy that happened in his 9th month of presidency - on his watch mind you.
ok i am exhausted and am out. Went to Court both yesterday and today - will tell all about it later. Have a party to go to tomorrow night and a ton of cleaning to do before that.
- Nishi
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
08:41 p.m.
Memory-chan you're so sweet! *big hugs* how was YOUR weekend? salvee dude you're a freak of nature. Susan *HUGS* don't worry about writing a lot! :) I enjoy your comments! How old is your daughter? I generally think anything before 22 is too young. 23-29 seems ok to me but I'd recommend 25 and up - 23-26 is when you get to live it up and really find yourself....you're not a teenager nor a college student anymore - ur a mature adult in grad school or law school or doing ur PhD or actually working or following your dreams. So much growth happens during that time. If you're married, that time to urself is gone. But of course, this is very general. Some people are VERY ready for marriage by age 23 or as young as 21 and they're just different people for whom marriage is a great thing. Everybody's different so I can only really say that you should get married when you truly feel ready and not because you feel pressured.
Speaking of age, I really DO still feel about 25. Why do I have to be 27? It's just cause the Earth went around the sun in approx. 365 days that I'm deemed 1 year older. Why - why can't it be every 730 days that I turn a year older? I'd only be 13.5 years old now ;) LOL! I seriously believe you *are* only as old as you feel. It's all a state of mind. Just telling myself 'I'm 25' makes me feel younger already. I feel the way I did when I actually WAS 25 - like my life was just beginning and that I was just starting to come into my own. Two years later I still feel exactly the same way but it's dampened by the fact that the number '27' hangs over my head instead of 25. I now understand why there's so much negativity associated with aging....it's seriously depressing stuff! Who wants to get old and wrinkly? Everyone wants to stay in their mid-20's, and for some people their late teens and early 20's. That's youth, vibrance and vitality. When everything is fresh, surging, ALIVE.....nothing starts getting run down, broken down, your collagen doesn't start depleting and nothing makes you run to the Clinique or Estee Lauder counter to buy their newest anti-wrinkle serum. Aging? Wrinkles? Sun damage? You don't even THINK about that stuff in your early to mid-20's cause you feel invinceable. DAMMIT. I'm 27 but I might as well be 25 still cause I refuse to give up the young and alive and invinceable feeling. As long as I look as good as I do, feel as yong and healthy as I do, I'm not gonna let my age get me down. It's just a number. Hell, I have 16 year olds hitting on me - they think I'm 19 or 21 ;) LOL! I'm blessed that I look so young....it's just ironic that I'm actually 27. Irony - a funny thing.
On a side note - it is VERY important for people in their 20's to start using anti-wrinkle lotions and SPF 30 sunscreen moisturizers cause a lot of the foundation for skin damage and wrinkles is set in your 20's so take good care of your skin now and you'll look that good into your 30's, 40's and 50's and look a helluva lot better in your 60's!
Ok I'm 27, in the 2 years since I graduated law school at age 25, I took and passed my bar exam, and at age 26 began work at my first real job as an attorney at a law firm on the east side of Manhattan, and by age 27 was at a new firm that was better for me because since law school I'd found my callings - music/singing/dancing/song-writing and foreign policy/human rights/writing and have been working to achieve my dreams in these areas. When I look at it like that, I've accomplished a lot in my short time on Earth. I'm just 27. JUST 27. I'm actually pretty young when I really think about it. I'm STILL starting out. I still have time to make my dreams come true. I'm not old. Not by a long shot. I think I'll feel old when I'm 38. hahaa but knowing me, I'll be writing here 'I'm Nishi and I'm 38 but dammit I really feel only 35' ;) LOLLLLLLLLLLL :D
As for Ricky and love and marriage.....ya know what? I think I'll just let things go day by day and not think about it so much. Right now, my biggest goal is to get my music done, and to make THAT dream come true. Marriage will always be there. I don't need that pressure. Not now. Whether it's Ricky or someone else (wonder if there's a Prince of Monaco free?), I'll just leave it in God's hands and let things turn out however they do.
Right now, marriage is the last thing on my mind. My dreams, my life, my goals....they're #1. Everything will work out for me. I know it will. Somehow, all for the best.
:) I feel better having written all this.
So that's it :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
09:31 a.m.
oy! Gomen Gomen Gomen!!! I got so busy and tired I couldn't write! *HUGS* to everybody. I have so much to tell everyone but I'm at work now.....agh what the hell I'm not goin for employee of the year or anything ;)
ok ok....so Friday, after work I went with my friend Danny to his apartment - my friend Danny is gorgeous. He's puerto rican I think or some kind of spanish ethnicity and he's such a cute flirt ;) We have a lot of fun together when we hang out. We went to his apartment in Greenwich and I met his roommates and he has this dog named Binger who's this collossal dog who loves girls apparently - we played ping pong on their table they set up and played with the dog who liked to run around all over the apartment, his roomates are hysterically funny and by 2 hours poor Danny was a little tipsy from the vodka or whatever he had and we're going down the stairs and he takes this fake rose off the wall and hands it to me ;) LOL! Just some flower stuck up by somebody who used to live there and who write this long eulogy in pen on the wall about how much she'd miss living there ;)
Greenwhich is such a gorgeous neighborhood. Anywayz, Saturday, my sisters came home and you know what raucous fun that is ;) We all piled into the car and papa drove us to my uncles' houses upstate in Fishkill for our grandfather's memorial. Both my grandfather's died in the past year or two so we had memorials the past 2 weekends. The best part was hanging out with all my cousins! My 4 yr old cousin Manisha reminds me SO much of myself at that age, dancing and being a nut ;) Good food, good family, lots of family friends over for the prayer meeting and we slept over there - I slept with my little cousin Megan and we stayed up till 1am talking about her school life, friends etc etc and how this one girl acts mean to her. I wanted to punch the mean girl. The next morning we went to church and LORDDDDDD it's been a LONG time since I stood through a 2.5 hour long Qurbana. Jeez louise!
It was such a beautiful Sunday! Last really nice and warm day of summer I think. After church we went back to our uncle's house and played football for the afternoon and jumped on the trampoline my uncle had set up in his backyard and then we went home and I spent the rest of the afternoon reading magazines outside and going for my 4 mile run. SIsters all left so it was lonely - I caught some of the 'FASHION ROCKS' special on tv that night.
Monday...there was a big explosion and fire here at Penn Station so our company let us out at 4pm because so many people go through penn station to get home. No one was injured though - it was some transformer which was 9 stories down. My friend Stephani and I saw all the fire trucks and police cars wizzing by us on our lunch hour so we knew something bad happened at Penn. I'm glad no one was hurt.
I finally have a DVD player! Steph and I bought one yesterday - it's a VCR/DVD combo and was only 79.99! Today Mark brought me in a gazillion anime dvds - Naruto and Escaflowne etc for me to watch since I finally have a dvd player ;) Yes Nishi welcome finally to the new age ;) And I used to consider myself ahead of the times ;) Psshh I was just missing a dvd player! ANywayz, when work let out at 4, I made my way to Grand Central and made it home by 5:15 and went on my 4 mile run and popped in 8-minute abs and did push ups and I felt very buff :)
So that in sum is my weekend. There is SOOOOOOO much more I wanna write.....like how the leaves are turning colors....it's gorgeous upstate - I've almost forgotten the rolling hills and how beautiful it is in the fall with the red and golden and orange leaves.....I wanted to write about the crazy asian lady who wouldn't stop following me to the #7 line cause I was the only one nice enough to tell her the way to Grand Central that wasn't confusing.....lesson to me - stop being so nice! Saw my friend Rani this morning from church on the train - was so nice to talk to her!
Oh lord I've been writing for 20 minutes. Gotta go back to my desk before someone has a cow. I'll respond to msgs etc on my lunch or later tonight. *HUGS* I missed you all!!
- Nishi
Thursday, September 23, 2004
11:47 p.m.
I woke up an hour ago. I feel a lot better. Thank goodness. I slept from about noon till 5:30. Hope I sleep tonight! My stomach still aches a little but I don't feel nauseous.
Ok responding to msgs: Suni you hit the nail on the head! The 'won't look good in a sari' is so common a comment I hear about girls it's so annoying! Congrats on getting into the med school!!! And definitely don't settle down in marriage too early! Every one needs time to find themself, explore this world and life before accepting the responsibilities of marriage, babies, mortgage/rent, electricity bills etc. Leni thanks! :) glad you liked :) Alex you've very welcome *HUGS* Micaila good luck on your finals!! Playing with paint? :) LOL! *HUGS* I know you'll do great!! Rence-chan *HUG* no :P I didn't get shorter! *half-strangles you* :) I have to talk to you on IM one of these nights when I'm on and free. We need to catch up. Susan I didn't get a sore throat (thank goodness) but thank u! How're u? What's new in your life? I love my ricky :) memory hiya :) well good luck to the friend moving to Hoboken! where do you live again? Gomen...I forget! :) hahahaha and who knows if Ricky's reading - he checks in once in a while - he's very busy with work these days. Miyu-channnnn *HUGS* he is very silly :) how're u? what's new? I need to read your journal. Kari thank goodness for antibacterial swipes! No girl should leave home without them :) LOL! How're u? Over a dozen? Oy! We'll kick the credit habit! :) LYDIAAAAA ok let's do lunch tomorrow? I'll actually be bringing lunch from home but we can go somewhere? I'll call u. *HUGS*
Stomach still feels achy so I'm gonna get off the computer now and get back in bed and watch tv and/or read. I'll see ya'll later.
- Nishi
Thursday, September 23, 2004
11:44 a.m.
I just got home 20 minutes ago - came home from work sick with an upset stomach and first thing I did? Went and threw up. Ugh. I'm drinking tea and going to sleep soon. I knew I should've stayed in bed, but I got myself dressed, looking nice, and went to work. The whole way I was like I made it this far I should just go to work and see how I feel there. That's always a mistake. Next time, if I feel queasy, I'm staying home. I felt so god awful that I didn't wind up leaving till John came. He's such a sweetheart. Speaking of sweethearts, the cabbie gave me a free ride home - I told him how I was sick and left work to come home and when we arrived at my house he wouldn't accept payment and said it's fine and for me to feel better. SO sweet. I got his cell phone and will use him for cab services from now on! :)
Ok I feel awful so I'm getting off the computer and gonna lie down or sit up, or whatever will make my stomach feel better. Sheesh.
- Nishi (will respond to ALL msgs tonight - promise)
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
09:50 p.m.
I had Court today - 5 motions, argued 3, adjourned 2. Won 1 I argued, had the other 2 denied though it wasn't my fault - the motions sucked. NONE of them were motions I wrote though! The one I won, I was so happy about - threshold motion - guy had unsworn doctor's reports. Is any of this making sense to you people out there? Ok I'll skip this.
Anywayz, point being, going to Court reminded me how I hated the practice of law. I forget that when I'm in the motions department cause I'm doing what I love: writing. But once I'm out, killing time in court, forced to get up and argue about motions I could care a fig less about, that's when I'm like 'dude what am i DOING with my life as an attorney? It's not like I'm even arguing life and death, Guantanamo Bay or Sudan here. It's some guy who says he has a sprain and claims he was confined home for 2 days and then sues for gazillions of dollars.' If THAT doesn't give you a good perspective on what you should devote your life to, I don't know what does. So I was SO thankful then that I have begun working with a new producer to bring forth my music :) THANK YOU GOD!
I gotta email my friend sashi SASHIIIII if you're reading this I couldn't get to the post office on Saturday cause of the rain, thunderstorms, flooding we had and my dad forbidding me to use the car and post office closing at noon while storm was still here. I can't go this Saturday cause we're having my grandfather's memorial at relatives upstate so won't be home. Next chance I'll get is NEXT Saturday. I hope that's ok. I know I delayed it already. *HUG* I'll email you after this too.
So tired after getting back from court at like 2:15 pm. My last motion was supposed to be 12:30, wasn't up till 1:15. Ugh! Met a woman there who LOVES going to court and arguing. I so canNOT relate. She was like a foreign beast to me. Love court? BWAHAHAHAHAHA. Anywayz.
I'm worried about my finances. I need to cut up all my credit cards. No joke. Seriously need to cut them up. Will I? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe 2 of them. Bwak, bwak bwak (chicken sounds or is that the sound of credit card addiction?) Agh, I'll get it under control. This happens every spring and fall. High fashion times. When will I learn to say no to spending, spending, spending when I have such limited funds, funds, funds. Ugh! No more! As of Oct 1. this girl is getting on a super strict budget and going to stay there! I'm gonna kick my debt! Who's got bets on whether I'll stick to it or not? Count me in on the odds :P
People who left me msgs, I'd LOVE to respond cause I saw them but tag-board dosn't seem to be working with now. I'll respond as soon as I can see the msgs (probably tomorrow). Thank you to everyone who commented about Ricky. :) hehehe :)
- Nishi
Monday, September 20, 2004
10:08 p.m.
I walked barefoot on the streets of NYC!
not because I wanted to though mind you!!! My slipper broke!!!! My favorite black suede-like flip flop, the left one, broke mid-stride down 42nd at 5th Avenue. What was I to do?? It was 7:29 and I HAD to make the 7:40 train so I walked and ran with my bare left foot and still flip-flopped right foot and ignored all stares and looks and somehow made it through the streets, through Grand Central, down to the subway tracks and every car was full on my train till I finally found a seat and then whipped out my 4 Stridex Antibacterial face wipes and proceeded to douse my foot in antibacterialness - my foot was practically squeaky clean after that, and I pulled out a pair of shoes I had tucked into my duffel bag and slipped them on and voila, train doors closed and we started moving.
i cannot BELIEVE I actually walked with a bare foot down 42nd and 5th and Madison. UGHHHHHHH! Actually I was quite surprised by how relatively clean the sidewalk was! I encountered nothing gross - just smooth sidewalk.
I stayed in the shower a full 30 minutes scrubbing my foot and giving myself a foot soak and pedicure.
A conversation with my darling boyfriend Ricky when I told him my barefoot NYC adventure tonight:
RickyGVarghese: YUCK
RickyGVarghese: you're diseased
RickyGVarghese: you know how much gunk is there?
RickyGVarghese: ppl spitting
RickyGVarghese: soot
SelenityHime: i'm CLEAN now
SelenityHime: I scrubbed my foot in the shower
RickyGVarghese: its too late
RickyGVarghese: its seepd into your skin
SelenityHime: i am giving myself a foot soak and pedicure now
RickyGVarghese: you'll mutate in 2 hrs
SelenityHime: SHUT UP
RickyGVarghese: you'll become blue
SelenityHime: :PPPPPP
RickyGVarghese: and your foot will be gangrenous
RickyGVarghese: we'll have to amputate
RickyGVarghese: and then you'll become even SHORTER!!!
RickyGVarghese: EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWw
SelenityHime: agggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm already 4 ft 8.5/4ft 9" so getting even shorter would be a terrible fate! ;) Gangrenous....hmph :P
- Nishi
Sunday, September 19, 2004
02:31 p.m.
I had a WONDERFUL recording session with Ashish today! Hoboken is so pretty :) We did 4 of my songs including 'Hush' and laid them all down on a track next to a tick/beat thing and next Sunday we're going to work with the music. He's SO efficient and thorough and everything is top notch professional. I love it :)
Now the bad news, I think I feel the signs of another sore throat.....I knew it the second the wind, rain and cold weather hit - I could feel it. I'm drinking OJ by the jug ;) Gonna drink some tea too with honey and relax with my magazines before the EMMY's tonight!!! Red Carpet Pre-Show on E! starts at 6pm! I'll be glued to the tv starting then! :)
It was SO cold today - SO COLD. I couldn't STAND it. I drank 2 cups of cocoa within 2 hours and then a large green tea. It's so bright and sunny, like a summer day, but it's COLD out there. UGH!
- Nishi
Saturday, September 18, 2004
10:40 a.m.
ok this weather is awful - there's no way I can go anywhere today - it's raining like crazy out there and the wind is ferocious. I had to go to the post office and run errands and made plans to meet friends for the BIG APPLE CONVENTION in the city but nothing doin! My dad just came back from *attempting* to go somewhere and he said the road we live on is almost flooded and there's no way he's letting me go anywhere! ;) LOL! Alrighty. I'll stay home and watch tv and read ;) Kinda nice actually - rainy Saturday.....got the windows all open and listening to the wind and rain sounds.....I'm finally seeing the yellow fall leaves on the ground - always makes me sad when that happens cause I know the leaves are dying and that soon the trees will be bare...I like when the trees are full and green - so ALIVE....makes me happy.....winter always comes too fast.....my office at work is freezing cold - so far this sumemr I loved how I could go outside and be WARM and get away from the cold office and I went out after 5pm yesterday and dude, it was getting cold outside too - windy and not as warm....blech. HOLY FREAKING COW I just saw a branch break and hit the ground!!!! Ok yeah am NOT going outside today!!
Alex when choosing a college you have to consider Location, Cost, and Programs of study/courses offered. You want a school that will give you the best education for your dollars and is in a good location with a great campus scene and local city life. I went to BINGHAMTON U, the BEST SUNY school in NY and I loved my time there! I was an Literature/Rhetoric major and they had excellent courses and fantastic professors. The campus there was big and gorgeous, the social scene very happening, and lots of stuff to do up there (skiing, shopping, local clubs and bars, parks etc). I went to ST. JOHN'S UNIV. OF LAW in Queens here in one of the burroughs of NYC and loved it there too! Because it was a big city location I could easily go to NYC and it had a beautiful campus and social scene as well and the education I got was EXCELLENT!! The courses offered were excellent although every student's major gripe was that the courses they wanted to take, they couldn't cause it conflicted with other classes they had to take too and it wasn't offered at better times or more than one semester, for example.
Your college years are the most formative - meaning a lot of what you learn and will come to believe about life, people and YOURSELF happens in college. I grew up and became a woman in college (even moreso in Law School) and choosing a great place to study and make friends at is very important.
What are your interests, passions? What do you want to study? Look at their course catalog, see what they offer. AND TAKE EVERYTHING YOU ARE EVEN REMOTELY INTERESTED IN!! You never know what might strike your fancy and become something you develop a life long career from. Back in high school I remember I loved current affairs but being bored by political science classes and I just didn't have the patience and thirst for knowledge about all things political and current affairs then as I do now. I wish I could go back and study political science as a MAJOR in college now - as it is I only took a few classes and I regret it now.
I would recommend courses in: archaeology/anthropology, psychology, sociology, biology (a few classes so you know what a leucocyte is!), beginning chemistry (so you aren't an idiot), English (so you're knowledgable, well-read and able to speak and write beautifully - journalism clases are a cool choice), political science (so you'll be an intelligent person who actually knows what the heck is going on in our world), Economics (so you understand about how business, money, our finances all work - u need to or ur an idiot, really), and of course classes in art and music.
That's what I recommend so you'll end up a very intelligent and well-rounded person upon graduating.
Now granted, these courses are only as good as the professors who teach them so you need to go to a school with great profs! There are people who HATE political science (I did for a long time) because profs make it so BORING! I would love to teach it cause I'd make it so exciting! You want profs who are passionate about what they teach and want to get their students excited about the subject too - that's the ONLY way people learn!
Ivy League - apply if u think u can get into one and can afford it or afford to pay back loans for the rest of ur life ;) LOL :) But there are a gazillion schools just as good as IVY leagues which aren't so expensive. Just look and compare :)
Lady still broke.....double *ugh*! Lorie oh lord I realllly hope the draft isn't reinstated. Those rich politicians didn't send ONE of their kids to fight in Iraq. I hate how they're deciding what to do for our country via the draft. The draft is an ugly word. I want it outlawed.
Memory I'm a size 2 too! :) Although in pants it's a tight 2...I'm more a 3 on the bottom I think and a 2 on top. Big hips ;) LOL :) Ya know what - those people have nothing better to talk about - they're gossipy and would rather everyone look like THEIR definition of what they should look like. Yeesh. As long as you're happy with yourself and HEALTHY, that's all that matters! :)
Dang I've been writing for over 35 minutes. Time to go.See ya'll later. It's still raining and blowing like crazy out there.
- Nishi
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
9:12 p.m.
The Fall and Higher Consciousness
it's getting colder and I saw the first leaves scuttling around the road yesterday.....the Fall is here so quickly. I was reading this amazing article about the higher conscious' and how the whole universe, everything and all of it and us are finely atuned and connected and that there is this consciousness existant everywhere - it's something that is yet isn't.....(God?) and humans don't usually reach a state of higher conscious because we only use like 5 or 10% of our brain - there's another 90-95% of the brain we don't use and when we do achieve higher consciousness we use the other 95%. I love that. I think dreams are sometimes our brains reaching a level of higher consciousness. I remember that dream I had about being in the middle of space and it was so dark and lonely save for the dim light of the sun and other worlds I was near....I didn't like the loneliness and how my own reality I knew was so far away (or so far past?)......
Be very scared: The Military DRAFT may make a come back if BUSH is Elected
I like Bush but not as President because of his foreign policy and domestic policy decisions. The biggest thing that worries me is how he and his administration will bring back the Draft if he is re-elected! Here is an article sent to me by good friend Pete:
Actions Indicate Administration Has Plan To Reinstate Military Draft if Bush Re-Elected By Mike Blair
A military draft may be reinstated by mid-2005 if President George W. Bush is
re-elected in November. An appropriation of $28 million has been provided in
the current defense budget to bring the nation’s Selective Service System up
to speed, which many people believe will likely lead to a national draft of
young men and women by June 15, 2005.
U.S. military professionals have told American Free Press that due to the
Iraq war and large troop deployments in Korea and Europe, a manpower shortage in
the armed forces has reached “a state of critical mass.”
Neither Bush nor his Democratic opponent, Sen. John Kerry (Mass.), would dare
to push for reinstating the draft during an election year.
The draft was
ended in 1973. But many people believe Bush has put the machinery in place to
begin a draft by June 15, 2005, which includes setting up and staffing local
Selective Service boards throughout America.
The Pentagon has begun a program to fill 10,350 local draft board positions
and 11,070 appeals board posts as soon as possible.
Last September, the Pentagon ran an ad for volunteers to fill the slots. But
when it was reported in the news media, the ad was quietly pulled.
Registration for the draft ended in 1975. Under President Jimmy Carter,
however, registration was reinstated for all men between the ages of 18 and 25 in
1980, in an amendment to the Military Selective Service Act.
Currently, legislation is pending in the House and Senate to renew the draft. In the House there is H.R. 163, which was introduced last year by Rep.
Charles Rangel (D-N.Y.). It was referred to the House Armed Services Committee and
the House Subcommittee on Total Force.
H.R. 163 has 14 co-sponsors, including Reps. Neil Abercrombie (D-Hawaii),
Donna M. Christensen (D-Va.), John Conyers Jr. (D-Mich.), Alcee L. Hastings
(D-Fla.), John Lewis (D-Ga.), James P. Moran (D-Va.), Fortney “Pete” Stark
(D-Calif.) Corrine Brown (D-Fla.), William Lacy Clay (D-Mo.), Elijah E. Cummings
(D-Md.), Sheila Jackson-Lee (D-Texas.), Jim McDermott (D-Wash.), Eleanor Holmes
Norton (D-D.C.), and Nydia M. Velazquez (D-N.Y.).
Most of those who have signed on to support the bill are members of the
Congressional Black Caucus. However, Rangel and the bill’s co-sponsors contend, as
Rangel puts it: “Those who love this country have a patriotic obligation to
defend this country. For those who say the poor fight better, I say give the
rich a chance.”
Rangel said primarily the poor and minorities are serving in Iraq, getting
wounded and killed.
Under the bill, the draft would apply to men and women ages 18 to 26, the
20-year-olds being taken first, with exemptions to allow people to graduate from
high school. But college students would have to serve, unlike during the
Vietnam War, when attending college was a stay-home pass.
SHOULDER THE BURDEN
In the Senate a companion bill, S. 89, has been introduced by Sen. Ernest F. “
Fritz” Hollings (D-S.C.), which has been referred to the Committee on Armed
Services.
Said Hollings: “We all share the benefits of life in America, and under this
plan, we all help shoulder the burden of defending our freedoms. Our proposal
ensures that all Americans answer the call of duty. High school students could
be deferred until they graduate, but in no case will that deferment extend
beyond the age of 20. As we fight this war on terrorism and protect our way of
life, we must once again listen to the words of President John F. Kennedy, who
implored us to ‘ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do
for your country’.”
Army commanders in Iraq want more troops to combat the growing guerrilla war
that is engulfing the country and causing daily deaths among U.S. troops.
Even Republican members of the Senate are beginning to talk about a draft
being needed to fill manpower gaps.
“Why shouldn’t we ask all of our citizens to bear some responsibility and
pay some price?” said Sen. Chuck Hagel (R-Neb.) at a recent Senate Foreign
Relations Committee hearing. His comments came just after the Pentagon moved to
extend the missions of some 20,000 of the 134,000 troops in Iraq.
Hagel said that restoring the draft would force “our citizens to understand
the intensity and depth of challenges we face.”
Only one Army division remains in the United States.
The continued deployment of the National Guard and Reserves has created a
mass exodus of troops from their ranks.
For example, the Massachusetts National Guard’s recruiting was down 30
percent last year. Of Reserve and National Guard troops sent to Iraq, 46 percent
said they had no intention of re-enlisting. This has not only resulted in a
manpower crisis but a critical loss of talent for the Guard and Reserves.
Further angering National Guard and Reserve troops, the Bush administration
has initiated what is referred to as a “stop loss” program, which mandates
that members of the Guard and Reserves cannot leave the military until 90 days
after they have been deactivated.
“I just shudder to think what would happen if another war scenario pops up
suddenly somewhere in the world, with a single division of regular troops
remaining as reserves. We would be in big trouble, and I cannot emphasize enough how
big ‘big’ is,” a retired Air Force officer told American Free Press.
This stuff makes me SICK. Don't use your twisted arguments on the rest of us. BUSH and his admin started this war, and is anxious to start other wars and send our young men and women to fight for their wars. This is NOT our war. In WWII we had a vicious dictator hurting our allies: France and Britan etc. That's why we stepped in and fought in the war. This new war is different - we took the step to attack countries which hadn't even attacked us. Some SAUDI suicide bombers attacked us and we go after Iraq and Afghanistan tying both to the 9/11 tragedy and making every case to try and relate Iraq to 9/11. Please, we're not stupid. We know when we're getting garbage shoved down our throat and told if we don't agree we're unpatriotic or a Sadaam lover. That makes me want to curse up a storm. I love this country but hate what we've been doing - and even though I like Bush as a guy, can't stand that he has done all this harm as our president and I will not vote for him come election time. GO KERRY! :)
Memory oh I'm SO glad you understand!! Indian adults need to leave people alone about their bodies. They're just trying to seem concerned and make conversation but it's more detrimental, hurtful and insulting than anything. *HUGS* I added you to my buddy list. IM me if you see me on :)
Sebin dude I ain't callin' you in India ;) Thanks for wanting to be my friend - I hope you're fully aware I have a boyfriend already whom I love very much and whom my parents approve and we have been together in love for 3 years. And err...you might know this and just might have forgot but you shouldn't post your phone number on the internet - you never know who might abuse your number and call you and bother you. Anywayz, it's very nice to meet you :) Hope you're well!
Susan aww thank you!!! *HUGS* :) Kayla and Alex Happy September to you both! No I never read any of those books although now you're making me want to! I'll look for it when I'm at B&N next and start reading :) And Alex yes I constantly write songs, always :) Sarah Beth *HUGS* 6 weddings? aww sweetie! I can't wait for yours! It sounds hectic on your end. COME ONLINEEEEEE so we can GABBBBB :)
Ciao folks!
- Nishi
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
10:41 p.m.
wow - I'm happy :) My life is slowly (very slowly) coming together :) Spoke to Ashish again today who gave me the final sum of money it will cost to record a master cd of 4 of my songs to have shopped to labels - it's.... $$$$$ a lot. I'll work overtime, whatever, I have to do this. I want this more than I have words to speak how much. If I don't give it everything I've got....everything I can, it'll be an empty dream. Even if it never happens, even if it never comes true, at least I tried with every bone in my body to make it happen. God I want to make it happen. Make it so badly and have my songs on the radio, on MTV, really touch people out there, make them move, dance, cry, FEEL.
I'm so broke now it's not even funny ;) I'm saving every cent I can. Who knew attorneys don't make much? Not me - until I was already knee-deep in law school ;) Tellin you folks - between what you make when you graduate, the loans, and everything else you'll be struggling or just getting by the first few years. Look to make the big bucks after 3-5 years. Unless you're a genius, or well-connected or just plain lucky in which cases you'll land the 100K+ job at a corporate firm which'll make you work so hard that you'll be grey-haired and a raving drunk every weekend before you're 28. I'm happy where I work now - love the people - the pay could be a heck of a lot better but it's decent and hell for 9-5 I'll take it ;)
Starting this Friday, my Martial Arts/Kickboxing gym is offering Kung Fu at NIGHT!!! YAAAAAY :) I can't wait to learn Kung Fu!!!
I'm excited about this weekend - 1st weekend of recording sessions, and on Friday friends from work and I are all going out - I'm gonna miss my friend James at work so much! He's so funny and such a good friend to me - he adds a necessary spice to the work place. His last day is next Tuesday and this Friday is the last Friday we all go out after work. I hope we all still go out even after his new job starts!
We're going out to a bar/lounge and then to a club - no clue yet which. My friend Carol IMed me about her birthday party at Luca Luca Lounge this Saturday night but with plans on Saturday and recording I don't know where I'll be Saturday night......my friend Chelsea called me tonight and I was SOOO happy to hear from her! She's going to Taiwan for 2.5 weeks! I'm so jealous! I wish I could go visit! Think she and I'll get together on Sunday.....my other friend from my old Chinese classes, Luis, and I are meeting for lunch tomorrow. Can't wait to see him too.
Busy week and weekend ahead but I'm loving it. I'm gonna take it a little easy tomorrow at work - I did, I think, 7-9 files today. A TON of work and I was SO drained by the end of the day. Felt great at kickboxing though although today was more of boxing drills and exercises than kickboxing. But I was psyched to learn about the Kung Fu!! So lemme get this straight, MTR-boxing/kickboxing, W-Middle Eastern/Belly dance, Sunday-Indian dance classes. I can't give up the dance classes - I LOVE them. I feel so at peace and at the same time full of life when I dance. It's in my body and blood - I HAVE to dance.
God I write a lot. Ok I see a LOT of msgs from a LOT of people. Alex, Sarah Beth, Kayla, and anyone else I'm forgetting: I'll get back to you guys tomorrow, I promise. *BIG HUGS*
Time for sleep. Night.
- Nishi
Sunday, September 12, 2004
9:56 p.m.
Jimmy, the guy whose family owns the taxi service I always use when my folks can't pick me up from the train station, is such a sweetheart. He just dropped me off at home and didn't charge me a cent. Turns out he's a singer and performer too and is in a band that's performing in Yonkers and the city and in Queens too. I think if my friend Danny at work (who lives in Yonkers) wants to go, I'll see Jimmy perform. I love rock bands - watching people perform their music always makes me happy cause it rejuvinates my own wish to be up there singing my heart out.
Speaking of that, I met with Ashish in NJ today and I had so much fun! We jammed with me singing and him playing the guitar and tablas etc and I think I went through 8-10 of my songs. He's a gifted musician and I'm looking fwd to working with him. Only one problem. It is freakin expensive. Good GOD the cost of recording is HUGE. HUGEEEEEEE. I definitely cannot afford it but hopefully they can work out some package deal so it's workable. Hope so.
We have family friends over right now and just spent the past hour or so gabbing with a friend named Sindhu. Am getting ready for work now tomorrow. Need to iron. Ugh. I hate ironing - I never do a decent enough job i.e. I get the creases wrong, create more creases and wrinkles. Blech.
So I spent all morning into early afternoon jamming, and then went to my favorite place: Union Square and to Barnes & Nobles and relaxed with my magazines and read the afternoon away till I came home and now we have guests over. One thing I hate about Indian culture - or at least our South Indian is how the "adults" love to talk about how a girl looks "sheenichu" meaning - dammit howcome she's actually thin and has a nice body as opposed to a little more thick and chubbier. 1st of all, it's rude to talk to people about their weight, size etc and 2ndly, who gives a rat's ass what you think about how much I weigh. Geez freakin louise.
Anywayz, gotta go folks. Ciao and see ya tomorrow night.
- Nishi
Saturday, September 11, 2004
10:54 p.m.
mmmmm I love FRIENDS :) hehehe :) Ricky's working at a new project again at NBC-Universal Studios and, this time, is getting me a small black baby-doll FRIENDS t-shirt with 'FRIENDS' in glittery font :) Babe if you're reading this - do they have anything with 'Gilmore Girls' for Mekha since she loves the show so much? Poster? Shirt?
Just finished watching eps 221-225 and 301-305 of my FRIENDS cds and no matter how many times I watch the show I still crack up and get caught under its spell. There's still no sit-com I've found that's made me fall in love with it as much as FRIENDS did.
Getting ready for bed now - need to get my lyrics and everything together for 1st day at the new studio :) Can't wait! Gotta get there early though - 10am. I'm hoping once details are worked out we can work on this every weekend, Saturday and Sunday. Who knows though. I'm excited to finally have it working. Need to drink tea and warm up the vocals in the morning. My voice is never good in the morning but I hope I can do a decent job there.
I'm going on a strict diet - been packing on the carbs lately and I can feel it - my jeans are tighter and I'm not as fit as I was in April or May and June. Need to go back to my boxing and dancing and jogging my 8 miles on weekends although with recording I may have to squeeze it in early in the morning or late in the evening.
This Saturday was so beautiful - watched a gorgeous sunset over the trees and lake outside my window....the pink and orange hue...it was so breathtaking and I felt unbelievable lucky to witness such a beautiful site. I only wished I could really be enjoying that moment with Ricky or my sisters.
Ok I'm out - see ya guys tomorrow :)
- Nishi
Saturday, September 11, 2004
11:17 a.m.
morning peeps :) happy saturday morning to ya'll. I need to mop and clean the bathroom today. Ugh. I slept till 10:30 this morning and god that felt good.
I dreamt about vampires. Well 1 vampire. He was tall, dark and SO sexy. A bunch of us regular humans were standing on some platform all scared and acting like we wouldn't be next yet being taken down one by one by this vampire guy who was so hot I can't begin to tell u ;) Finally it comes my turn and I'm like 'uh no you don't want me' and I'm hiding behind someone or something and I start babbling to him about us being lovers once in a past life or something and it shouldn't be like this on and on making saying stuff that now that I'm awake I have no clue if it was even true in the dream but he seemed to buy it cause I didn't get bitten. Whew! From there the dream got strange and I can't remember much of anything except everyone but me being vampires in the end. And something about this house in front of a huge lake and me and 2-3 others trying to spy on it or get close to it(?) no clue.....we were in some old 1920's black rolls royce . . . the lake and white house are so vivid . . . I love dreaming . . .
Desi *HUGS* thanks :) sometimes I think it *is* good to crawl under a rock and hide for a little while till you've "re-grouped", re-thought things out and feel better to come out and take everything on. I feel a ton better this morning. Thank you very much for your encouraging words. *HUGS* I visited your blog and love it! You're from Canada and desi? I'm happy you're getting baptized! Susan that sounds so cool :) but weekends on Thurs and Fri? Wow....I don't think I could get used to that ;) I'd love to visit Dubai one day! Sohag hahaha mystery? :) thank you :) David thanks! you sound like a fortune cookie :) LOL! Very nice to meet you and your words of encouragement are much appreciated! Memory I love Kenneth Cole and Heatherette! :) I need to check out the other photos available now :) I'll talk to you about it more tonight. IM me on AIM tonight if you're on and if I'm around? Nishit I got your email :) So funny how you searched for your name and found me ;) Very nice to meet you! I take a while to respond to emails but I will (eventually) ;)
11:40 almost and I need to get started or I'll never enjoy my day. Write more later. Have a great day everyone!
- Nishi
Friday, September 10, 2004
10:50 p.m.
I just wanna crawl under a rock and hide.
- Nishi
Thursday, September 9, 2004
10:45 p.m.
listening to the Corrs - love their song 'Dreams' :) It's FASHION WEEK here in the city - the tents have all been up at Bryant Park for weeks - I don't think I saw any models yet. I think I'll head over with a friend or two tomorrow after work to check out the scene there. When I was walking past the park on the way to the train this evening I saw all these stylish women - one was wearing these baggy cargo pants, a shirt, and a sweater thrown over her shoulders, I think a Gucci bag and some serious high heeled shoes with that fall crocodile look I love and WOW did she just OOZE style. I instantly felt like I should've dressed much better just to walk by the park ;) LOL! Which makes me want to dress nice just in case I go to the park tomorrow ;) For those of you who aren't celebrities or famous socialites or just people with insane amounts of money, you can see the newest fashions at Spring 2005 Fashion Show :)
Speaking of socialites, I bought Paris Hilton's new book 'Confessions of an Heiress' and I must say - I really like it! The media (Post etc) made fun of the book, picking it apart, out of context and out of spirit of what it was intended as, but if you read it - it's really funny and cute and FUN to read. I like Paris Hilton! I think she's going to grow up to become a very good person who'll effect positive change for women.
I can't wait to go to the studio this weekend :) YAAAY :) I need to finish doing laundry, clean up this mess that is my room, get my outfit for tomorrow ready, read and go to sleep and talk to my ricky somewhere in between all that too ;) Stephanie that's so cool! I'm so jealous u have a rockclimbing gym in ur school! That's AWESOME! Take advantage of it all you can! Darlene I'll wait for your email :) Can't wait to meet up :) Sarah BETHHHH how're the wedding plans going? We need to talk soon! *HUG* I miss u too! Have u talked to Lisa? I haven't phoned her in AGES.
- Nishi
Wednesday, September 8, 2004
10:47 p.m.
hello folks! :) happy rainy crazy commute stormy wednesday to you all! Lemme tell ya - after I got back from my flight yesterday morning - I felt like crap but luckily John is a sweetheart and let me leave work early at 2pm t go home and I went home and SLEPT - all the way to 6:30am this morning. I still felt under the weather this morning but got up and got ready - wore this pretty blue-green and neon-green ribbed tank top from BETSY JOHNSON (a designer whom I ADORE) and my black skirt from Banana Republic and headed to work feeling good - on the train I found out I forgot my monthly train ticket and metro card - luckily the train conductor recognized me as a regular morning commuter so it was fine. When I got to Grand Central - many of the underground subways were FLOODED so they were re-directing people and what was normally a 15-20 minute subway trip to work turned out to b4 45 minutes. It was hell. Between people pushing and shoving and 1000 people crammed into a small tunnel and moving at a snail pace I was constantly muttering under my breath 'dammit I KNEW I shoulda stayed home today!' Made it into work by 9:30ish and had a pleasant day. Came home a couple hours ago and am FINALLY unpacking and cleaning up. Just got off the phone with Ricky - we miss each other like crazy - talked for over an hour whew....need to finish unpacking and then I call him back for our nigh-cap talk ;) LOL!
I have exciting news! My friend Neil referred me to one of his friends, Ashish, who's a music producer and is also a band member of this group 'Bikram Sing' see BikramSingh.com I think the url is - and he and I talked and he'll be producing my cd! I think we'll be doing a full cd or a 3-4 song demo? Not sure but most likely a cd.
I talked to my friend Nitz the other day and we talked about Mike and Tyga - she has no idea why Mike hasn't called or emailed me back. I really wish things were ok with me and those two and either way I hope they're well.
Anywayz, I'll be meeting up with Ashish this weekend and I'm so excited about it! Gonna spend Friday night rehearsing and doing vocals so I can be in good shape for the weekend to jam. God I sure hope this works out.
Lady that sure does sound perfect *HUGS* I finished all your soap the other day by the way - my sisters were like 'so that's what made the bathroom smell so good ;)' LOL! *HUGS* Darlene NYU!!?? Ur SO CLOSE TO ME!!!! Ok we have to meet up! When're u free? drop me an email ok? What food were you allergic to? Susan Dubai? wow that's awesome! I don't know if I've achieved a balance but I sure hope so! :) I can only hope that I pass that on to my own kids and they never lose site of their Indian heritage. Tell me all about life in Dubai? What do you do? Lorie I went to that site and read her blog and was laughing so much! I can't believe she was on What not to Wear!! I have to catch that episode sometime soon! Thanks for pointing that out to me!! I loved reading about her life and music!
- Nishi
Tuesday, September 7, 2004
8:30 a.m.
Ricky and I are fine. Forget my entry from last night. Ricky and I had an awesome dinner at this Japanese Shabu Shabu place in Little Tokyo. Cooked all this sea food and beef - Shabu Shabu is when you get food served to you that you cook on a boiling kettle at your table. It's fun and interactive as Ricky put it ;) We spent all day Monday at the Beach pretty much - Santa Monica beach - the ocean was fantastic - so salty and gross but so much fun :) We're thinking of going to Washington D.C. this October - Rick'll come up to NY and visit and then we'll both take the train down to D.C. to explore together. I wanna go back to L.A. though soon. After saying goodbye all tearful last night, my flight landed this morning at 5:30 a.m. and I got into work now at 8am. It's such crappy weather here in NY - rainy and cold. Blech. I wanna be back in sunny L.A. I'm starving. I want breakfast. Going to order up something yummy. Thanks for everyone messages. Memory thanks :) I'm always strong *HUG* RameoG dude you visit like once every 4 months now? ;) hahaha what's up? how're u? Darlene yaaay! good luck on your new school year! What school was it again? *HUGS* Stephanie thanks! My weekend in L.A. was fabulous and rock climbing was so great! Where did you rock climb at your university? A gym? Have you gone on a real rock climbing trip? Ricky's going on one in another week or two. I want to try one out myself too and see if I can do it.
- Nishi
Monday, September 6, 2004
09:02 a.m.
Happy Labor Day!!
wow Susan I think you must have read the 2002 Christmas entry? Gosh that was long ago although it feels honestly just like yesterday. Where do you live? What do you do? Are you a student or working? It's very nice to meet you :) *HUGS*
Labor Day and last day in L.A.....this weekend went by too fast and I'm disappointed about Saturday - we stayed up so late Friday night that we didn't get up till noon Saturday and I wanted to go shopping at Beverly Center so that took 3 hours and before that we ate at TOMMY'S BURGERS which is this super old fun burger stand with these chili burgers and chili hot dogs....wow....never ate so much chili ever before - couldn't finish it but it wasn't half bad at all! :) After TOMMY's and shopping we went home cause of how tired we were...we thought we'd go see 'Vanity Fair' and Ricky booked the tickets online but after deciding we didn't have energy to go out for food, we ordered in THAI food and cancelled the movie and went to sleep.
Sunday we got up early, did laundry, had breakfast at Denny's, and went ROCK CLIMBING!!!!!! Oh my lord - it is a LOT harder than I thought it'd be and on my first climb I was pretty scared when I got near to the top but couldn't figure out how to get higher. Ricky kept saying 'you have to trust you feet and use them to pull up' so I did and it was hard but I grasped with my hands and pulled with my foot. The thing is, you're not supposed to use your arms much - it's all about your legs - if you use your arms you'll tire yourself out. The arms are just to hold on and support and balance - the legs are what get you climbing and moving. I learned how to tie an 8-knot and every about belaying and traversing - climbed I think 4 times and traversed a zillion. Traversing is harder for me cause I used too much of my arms.
If any of you ever get the chance, try rock climbing at a rock climbing gym. It's a great workout and it gives you something to accomplish that you probably don't think you can do. It's hard and at first scary but you can do it and you're always protected by the harness and rope.
After the rock climbing, we tried to go to Manhattan Beach - it was SUCH a hot Sunday yesterday - but try as we could we couldn't find ANY parking near the beach so gave up and went to CHILI's to have lunch/dinner - I ordered their baby back ribs ;) It was nice and after molten chocolate dessert, and drawing our own chili as part of the donation for children with cancer CHILI's is doing, we went to go see HERO at the movies. It was an ok movie....one of those movies which is very beautiful but annoying because it overmphasizes its beauty over it's plot and loses the plot appeal. Ricky wanted to see Manchurian Candidate but I really didn't wanna see anhything serious.
After the movies, we went to play pool at Hollywood Billiards - after playing with Lydia 2 weeks ago I definitely improved like 100%! I was getting in tons of balls! I still need a ton of practice to get better but I'm proud I am so much better as is.
After pool, we stopped at a thai restaurant to get me some Thai Iced Tea and we went home where we read, and alked, watched tv and went to sleep.
Now it's Monday....we're going to the beach for sure today. I want to go to Little Tokyo and visit Anime Jungle and Kinokuniya too. I hope they're open and we get the chance to. My flight leaves tonight at 9:45 and I have to be there by 8:30 to check in....sucks.......cause it means leaving L.A. around 7:45 and I need to pack all my stuff too so that means being back to pack by 7pm.......it's 9am...aghhhhh just 10 hours??? *sigh* I love being with Ricky in L.A.......I'm gonna see if I can somehow come back in October for another weekend.
- Nishi
Saturday, September 4, 2004
10:40 a.m.
Greetings from L.A.!!
I had a wonderful flight, read my magazines (Elle, Shop Etc., and Hollywood Life) and watched an episode of 'What Not to Wear' on TLC - I felt so bad for the pakistani girl they were helping - she really needed help with fashion too! But still she was all teary and stuff. I arrived around 7:30 last night (PST) and Ricky picked me up and we went to this awesome sushi restaurant called 'BLOWFISH' with reservations for 9pm. OH MY GOD their Leilani drink was fabulous as were their appetizers: 'tiger prawns' and 'dynamite - something' I forget - the place was just great :)
We're watching the news now cause there was some explosion at LAX (L.A. International Airport) and it's now shut down! Thank goodness I take JETBLUE and it lands at Long Beach airport.
Today, I think we're going shopping and hitting the beach(?) - either going to Beverly Center or to some outlets. Tomorrow I think we're going ROCK CLIMBING! YUP! ME! Rock climbing! I never have so this is going to be fun! :)
I need to shower and get ready. Have fun everyone :)
Isbabel yes I did hear about the horrible Russia terrorism incident - anyone who hurts innocent children is just sick. I can only pray and hope the situation improves. Shakespear's Much Ado About Nothing is one of my most favorite of Shakespeare's comedies!! I LOVEEEE Beatrice! Awesome job! Wish I could see you perform. Good luck! *HUGS*
- Nishi
Thursday, September 2, 2004
06:52 p.m.
packing for L.A.!
Work let out at 4pm (for the convention) so I got home at 5:30ish and am busy packing now. My folks just got back from Connecticut where papa's company was having some swanky business conference ;) What should I pack! I'm only there from tomorrow night to Monday night. I need to pack an outfit for work on Tuesday too!
Friday night dinner at Blowfish: strapless black dress with black heels
Saturday beach: black jersey dress & black flip flops
Saturday movies & out shopping: blue jeans, tank top and sweater
Sunday (rock-climbing?): tank top and tight sports pants
Sunday going out (day): capris, tank top and light jacket
Sunday going out (night): black pants, red mesh top & jacket
Monday going out (day): who knows!
Monday night (in flight): prolly just comfy pants and a shirt
Back to work on Tuesday outfit: something that won't get crushed or wrinkled and I can change into easily at work....
agh I'm gonna chill and watch EXTRA on NBC now while I try on outfits and pack. Have a great night and weekend everyone!
- Nishi
Wednesday, September 1, 2004
08:57 p.m.
I want 3 pieces from Paris Hilton's new jewelery collection at Amazon.com! I was pleasantly surpised by how pretty her designs were and how much I liked them! As soon as I come back from L.A. next week I'm ordering the little pink heart earrings, and the 2 cross necklaces (total about $175 - oh my AMEX credit card will feel it but it's what it's there for right? ;)) She did a great job with designing those pieces and I'm looking forward to what else she comes up with. I'm excited by Nicky Hilton's new "CHICK" clothing line - can't wait to see what she comes out with! My favorite designers are Ralph Lauren, Armani, Dior, Calvin Klein, Trina Turk, and always *always* Dolce & Gabbanna and Valentino! I own more of Ralph Lauren (suits and a couple purses and 3 sunglasses!) and I haven't delved into Gucci or Versace yet - I can never find anything that fits me (budget or clothing-size-wise ;)) but I just love their designs too! I told my Ricky that this Christmas I want a gift certificate for something Gucci or Prada. I'm a designer label aficianado - NOT snob, just well I like gorgeous well-made, long lasting clothes. :)
Ok so rewind to Monday - day was fabulously spent relaxing and enjoying the beautiful summer day - jogged and did my workout and watched TV.....Tuesday we got out at 4pm in honour of beating traffic due to the convention but I went to my kickboxing workout anyway and stayed for 1.5 hours before heading home.
Today I came straight home from work and with getting out at 4 made it home by 5:15! Got ready and went out on a 40 minute run before coming back and popping "8 Minute Abs" in and whew that is still such a tough workout to get through! Just finished showering, having dinner, watching the opening of the Latin Grammy Awards and am settling in to do vocal exercises and rehearse my songs.
Before I go to bed I need to clean up this room, get outfits ready for L.A. and pack as much as I can. Somehow I don't think it's gonna happen tonight ;) Pretty tired and I'd rather go to bed early instead.
Ricky and I have reservations at L.A.'s gorgeous restaurant 'BLOWFISH' which is this lounge/club/restaurant thing. Ricky went with his company for a huge party recently and loved it so after my flight lands we're going straight for dinner there. I'll be famished! And I can't wait to dance! So on that note I definitely need sleep! In which case I should probably come straight home tomorrow too so I can pack and get ready for the trip.....
L.A.! L.A.! I can't waittttt :) Venice, Malibu...shoppingggg hehehe sushi yumm - ok don't mind me I'm like lost in my own world now.
With that said I'm gonna go sing some and then call an old friend I haven't spoken to in months! *HUGS* to all.
- Nishi
Monday, August 30, 2004
06:51 a.m.
Today I have off!
I'm off from work today because our company decided that it's the frst day of thereplublican convention and work in the zone and there'll be a lot of problems the 1st day so we get off! And every day this week we get out early at 4pm :) I love working for an in-house law firm! Our company gives us lots of perks!
I woke up early to get the most out of my off day. I need to sing and rehearse my songs, need to get through the pile of mail on my floor, wanna watch the convention on TV even though I'm NOT a republican anymore. Wanna just enjoy this awesome day OFF:)
the MTV VMAs last night - they were great! Usher's performance was fantastic! I watched everything from the 6:30 pre-show to when it was over sometime after 11. Painted my nails and toe nails too and gave myself a facial as well ;) My sisters left to go back to their apartment last night after my jog. Won't see them now for a good number of weeks I think since I'll be gone to L.A. this weekend and they don't normally come home on weekends once school starts.
Isabel great to see you! When are you coming to NYC? Linda aww thank you!! :) Florida is beautiful too!
- Nishi
Sunday, August 29, 2004
12:39 p.m.
I love bakeries
and on my hotmail I found the following that I must go visit!
NEW YORK BAKERIES TO TRY
Billy's Bakery
184 9th Ave, New York, NY
Pretty cupcakes and retro desserts at this small-town, '50s-style bakery in the heart of West Chelsea.
Sugar Sweet Sunshine
126 Rivington St, New York, NY
The cupcakes here--especially the pumpkin spice and the vanilla with chocolate icing--make this new LES bakery a contender for New York's best.
Mitchel London Foods
22 E 65th St Ste A, New York, NY
From the tiny fudge-topped cupcakes to the simply perfect croissants, this gourmet takeout shop serves excellent pastries and treats.
Sweet Melissa
276 Court St, Brooklyn, NY
The palmiers at this place are superb, but all the cookies are buttery and delicious. Grab a couple to dip into the luscious hot cocoa.
Balthazar
80 Spring St, New York, NY
No reservation and an hour wait for brunch? Stop by the bakery next door and take those addictive sticky buns and chewy breads home.
Los Angeles Bakeries To Try - guess where we're going Ricky when I come to L.A. next weekend! :D heheheeh:D
Susina Bakery (formerly SugarPlum)
7122 Beverly Blvd, Los Angeles, CA
Stylish Beverly Boulevard bakery adds a dash of artistry to each delicate, buttery apricot-raspberry shortbread cookie.
Sweet Lady Jane
8360 Melrose Ave, Los Angeles, CA
Cakes with glassy-smooth frosting and picture-perfect piping are the mainstay of this Melrose pastry palace.
La Brea Bakery
624 S LA Brea Ave, Los Angeles, CA
You can't live on bread alone, and this L.A. landmark also bakes up sinfully sweet candied-ginger scones and chocolate-whisky cake.
Cafe Tropical
2900 W Sunset Blvd, Los Angeles, CA
Break the apple pie rut with a slice of exotic and creamy guava-cheese pie from this Cuban corner bakery.
Euro Pane
950 E Colorado Blvd, Pasadena, CA
Homey Pasadena bakery raises the bar on croissants--flaky, light layers of pastry surrounding intense, bittersweet chocolate filling.
mmmmmm yum! :D
It is a gorgeous HOT day out. I hate sweating though. Thank goodness it's windy. My sisters and I stayed home and slept while papa and mummy went to church and when papa came back he was yelling about mopping hard wood floors - we're like 'it's hot outside and we clean every weekend - why the hardwoods floor TODAY of all days?'
I hate how parents buy/install these expensive things (like tiled floors and hardwood floors) and then the kids are the ones who wind up cleaning them. Sheesh. I can't wait to have kids and make THEM do this ;) MUWAHAHAHA kidding - I'll have maids. I won't subject my kids to that ;) LOL! I don't think I'm kidding about that ;) My kids willdo dishes and mop and everything I did but hell if I'm living in a mansion I don't think I'll require them to do anything more than their own rooms and bathrooms and their own dishes and such - if I'm rich I want them to enjoy not worrying about money but still understand its value and the necessity of knowing how to do hard work and taking care of yourself.
Anywayz....mmm bakeries. I gotta go clean the bathrooms now. I wish I had maids.
- Nishi
Saturday, August 28, 2004
10:20 p.m.
I just got back from seeing Princess Diaries 2! It is a very Disney-cheesy movie but one I wound up liking a lot! My sisters hated it though. I thought it had alot of redeeming points - the acting was excellent, the story was great, it was a feel good movie which people who can stomach cutesy cheesiness would enjoy! I did! :) Either way I'll be buying both the 1st and 2nd movies! And my friend just told me about Ella Enchanted which I think I'll rent this week!
This late afternoon I was jogging my 4 mile run and on the last mile I found this bird on the side of the road (sparrow? small brown bird) and it was laying on its blly slightly tilted with one wing against its body and the other fanned out to the side. I thought oh no it's injured! At first I thought I should just go on but I couldn't leave an injured bird!! So I stayed on the side of the road and proceeded to call 411 and asked for 'animal assistance' - they gave me Animal Pet Control and they couldn't help me so I called 911 who gave me the local police who gave me the Wildlife Preserve and THEY couldn't help me either! I was on the phone for almost 15 minutes learning no one could help save a tiny bird. Finally I thought of my neighbor Mitch who's a surgeon - surely he'd know how to fix the bird - so I took off my socks and slid my hands into them instead to protect my hands from anything on the bird and talking quietly to it, attempted to pick the bird up gently - the moment I did, though, it moved its wings and whoosh flew out of my hands. I was like great - I wasted 15 minutes thinking a bird was injured and it wasn't ;) hahahahha but I felt good inside nonetheless :) At least I had tried to help :)
Today my first true love got married. Many blessings upon him and his wife.
It's a beautiful night out - gorgeous moon. I'm going to relax.
- Nishi
Saturday, August 28, 2004
02:21 p.m.
Sunning is not all that it's cracked up to be
eeeeeekk I'm a monsterrrrrrr! I'm never gonna go tan in the sun again - ever, ever, ever!!! I'm a sun worshipper - meaning I love warm sunny weather as opposed to the dismal grey cloudy & cold days of winter when everything looks dead - however, being an Indian girl, I already have nice tan skin which gets very dark brown with long sun exposure. That never stopped me from being in the sun before - UNTIL NOW! Today was a beautiful late summer day - 86 degrees, soft wind, so I took my magazines, chairs, table, water outside, gobbed on the SPF 45 sunscreen (a lot of good that did!), put on a huge cowboy hat to protect my head and face and donned sunglasses and read my magazine for an hour. My mistake? I never switched sides and sat in the same position for an hour - the result? My left arm is about 5 shades darker than my right arm - I look like...well....an Indian girl with the arms of a Nigerian. I think this effectively killed my itch to be in the sun and beach etc etc although I'm still itching to go on the beachy sands and waters a LITTLE bit. Now my sisters are going 'oh my god chechy your arms are black!! That'll go away right? You'll go back to the same right?' - I'm behaving all nonchalant like 'oh come on it'll fade in 1 week!' but inside I'm like 'oh my god what did I DO to myself????'
Lesson learned. I'm not gonna be in the sun forever without coverup of some sort to preserve my nice colored skin and not get any more darker than I have gotten. But I thought SPF45 sunscreen would HELP!??? Howcome THAT didn't work to make sure I didn't tan so much? Ugh! I sure DO hope this tan fades like right away. Some girls look good with dark tans, others with light tans - I'm definitely a girl who looks better with just a light tan.
From now on, I'll leave the tanning to girls like Paris Hilton and Jessica Simpson.
- Nishi
Saturday, August 28, 2004
12:16 a.m.
oh my god I had such a fabulous night! so after work Marc and I pick up Lydia and we make our way to Corner's Billards opposite Webster Hall down by 11th Street. Now I've played pool off and on since college but I'm not that good although some days my luck is fabulous and I do great. Lydia is like a pro at pool and she taught me how to play the game well and WOW my game improved right away and I was easily hitting balls in the pockets! I'm definitely much better at pool sober ;) LOL! Last time I played pool was at the intern's going away party and lord almighty did I suck at pool that night - didn't get anything more than 1 ball in all night that time but tonight was another story. We had a lot of fun and I met Lydia's boyfrend Lok who is SOO sweet - they're SUCH a cute couple! I'm so glad Lydia works near me now! *HUGS* LYDIAAAAAAAA :)
Afterwards, we went to Chinatown to check out something called 'TEABAG OPEN MIC NIGHT' on Mott Street at 30 Mott Street. I saw it in the newspaper ("a.m. New York") and soon as we walked in they were like 'so who read about this in the newspaper?' and I shouted out 'I did! 'A.M. NEW YORK!'' and the guy was so surprised that I actually read about it in the newspaper so I got a round of applause and bowed ;) hahahathe music was 90% good! Comedians and Comediennes were VERY funny - the hypnosis thing was stupid. It looked so fake. Lydia and I were both like 'wow we didn't expect it to be so great' - I'm definitely bringing back friends the next Friday night I'm free! Lydia left around 10ish and Marc and I stayed till 10:30 afterwhich we got Bobas to drink and caught the subway back. I just got home and am gonna relax with my Cosmopolitan magazine.
I think.....*think* I might perform there at that Open Mic....I really want to. I just need a guitar or keyboard accompaniament.
So much fun - I love this city! :) I'm off to sleep. Messages in response to people are in the entry below. G'night all!
- Nishi
Friday, August 27, 2004
04:38 p.m.
what would I do without my handy dandy mastercard? ;) Probably not have so much debt! LOL! My stiff neck bothered me excuciatingly on Tuesday and Wednesday so I went to the Green Tea Nail Salon to get a chair massage (it's not expensive at all) and she unleashed all the tension and gave me temporary relief but it still didn't take care of the stiff neck so that night I slept on a neck pillow and it made a tremendous difference although the neck pain still hasn't gone away completely. I think something along my left shoulder is triggering it? I think my dad gets it too - darn genes! ;) My poor papa was complaining about neck pain this morning too and when I described the area where I got pain it matched his. I hope he feels better soon - I hate seeing my folks bothered and not well.
Lots happened the past few days but I don't have time to write it all so I'll just highlight - last night I went with my friends James and Danny from work to Bryant Park Grill and we went for drinks at the grill and chatted for 2 hours almost before meeting Danny's friends and hanging out. Danny is very very cute. I think he and John are the 2 cutest guys at work. Having drinks there after work in the park under those city lights is SO damn gorgeous - plush there were so many gorgeous men there! ;) (Ricky no one holds a candle to you babe ;))
I went home afterwards and watched the last episodes of Simple Life 2 and Newlywed's Nick and Jessica and today I spent the day chatting away with my friends Jenn and Danny and Jody and James at work before meeting Lydia for lunch - we're going out with her boyfriend and my friend Marc to go play pool at 5pm (soon!) and maybe to chinatown afterwards?
Anywayz, must get going. Will try to write more tonight or tomorrow. Hope everyone is well! Lorie I missed Alexi's high bar so don't know to comment..... memory public interest law is different from human rights in that human rights focuses on issues such as torture, war, poverty-related issues, women's issues etc and public interest encompasses that but not with such emphasis because it primarily includes things such as Constitutional Law, Criminal Law, Family Law, legal ethics, education, the environment, as well as civil rights. Hope that helps to answer your question :) Sunil aww thanks :) Raven umm thanks too! :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
09:54 p.m.
been so busy and preoccupied didn't have time or energy to write. sunday slept late - needed sleep - i lose so much during the work week - attempted to go to the beach at Hudson Park here in New Rochelle only to find out that for the first time I actually had a reason to hate New Rochelle - they charge people expensively to enter into parks and to even use the beach you have to have an "omni" card which you can only get at City Hall and which I can't buy now cause the season's over. BULLSHIT. I love Los Angeles. I'm not even a California state resident yet I can go free to every dang beach there and enjoy the pacific ocean instead of the dinky Long Island Sound here by new rochelle. SOOOOO mad. I made the best of things after venting to my Ricky and laid my towel on the grass and read US Weekly, catching up on Nicky Hilton's wedding (I adore Paris and Nicky!) before heading back home and going on a 2 mile run around the neighborhood. Sunday night I watched the Olympics, totally enraptured by the acrobatics and completely motivated to get in shape. Monday, went to work and had a nice day, fixed my sunglasses at Sunglass Hut (my Oakley's and Ralph Lauren sunglasses had broken recently and both needed to be fixed - they're now as good as new) and my friend Mark picked me up a salad and chicken nuggets from Wendy's - all for $2! I was so full and satisfied - amazing what $2 will get for you! After working a little overtime, I went to kickboxing and had a fantastic workout - my shoulders are still feeling it from yesterday.......since Sunday morning I've been having an awful stiff neck - I think I must've slept wrong or something but can't remember doing anything unusual. Never had a stiff neck last more than 2 days......saw the Olympics last night too - that whole thng with Paul Hamm and Igor and the Korean guy and the other russian guy Sexy Alexi - the Olympics is so exciting.
I'm looking forward to Sunday's MTV awards and the US Open on Monday. Because of the Republican Convention is being held near where I work our company's giving us Monday off and letting us out at 4pm all next week! :) YEE HAWW!! My friend James and I are going to hit Coney Island Beach on Monday (if weather is good and we still feel up to it). I've never been to Coney Island since I was like 11 years old and I didn't even ride on the rides then or go on the beach then either - it was for someone's wedding whom I didn't even know.
Came home early today and helped my folks around the house before retiring to my room to watch some tv and read magazines and rest. It feels SO good to just be home and do nothing :)
Am going back to doing nothing now. Hope you're all well! Niovi *HUGS* I'm happy to see you :) Alex waiiii moneyyy so luckyyyyyy - what a cool culture!! :) Miyu-chan summer is always TOO short :( *HUGS*
- Nishi
Saturday, August 21, 2004
07:06 p.m.
I love the Sapphire Lounge and I have a new gay best guy-friend ;) LOL! So lemme re-cap.......my friends Jonathan and Bill who interned at my law firm this summer - Friday was their last day - so in honour of them and of my friend Laurice who was leaving our company to go to AIG insurance company, we had cake and a mini-party in the library of our office. And after work we all got dressed up and met up to go to dinner in Little Italy at a restaurant called Dinico's (or something like that) and we had a fabulous time - my friend Jody bought one of her friends who is a very very sweet nice girl but sometimes, she said things that rubbed you the wrong way such as saying out loud that she thought wine drinkers were fufu and some other things I won't bother with cause despite all that she IS a very nice person. After dinner there, we went to my fave malaysian place to get lychee (from Nyonya's) and no one had the patience to go to Ferrara's or enjoy Little Italy (other than me and Jody!) so we wound up riding to HOGS & HEIFFERS - the west side downtown version which sucked cause it was such an older crowd and...it was just boring to us......not a lot of ppl and just bleh....so we left there and went to MARKET on 14th Street and 9th Avenue and I LOVE THAT PLACE! I met my friend James and his friend gay John there. Gay John is my new gay best friend - he is so cool! He taught me how to tell when a woman is wearing fake Chanel! And he's just a HOOT! He's brutally honest about women, friends and strangers a like, and men too - where they're fat, if they're ugly etc. He's a riot and a good person. After hanging at Market, we hit SAPPHIRE lounge which is just so much fun - they had great music and I let loose on the dance floor and danced my heart away. I haven't danced at a lounge/club in forever so it was fun to let loose again. It doesn't get old (going out to clubs) if you just do it once in a while when you really want to. I didn't leave till 12:30 and my intern-friend John helped make sure I got back to Grand Central Station safe and I took a train home and got in at 2:30 a.m.
Woke up this morning at 9am and helped mummy clean, mopped the floors, washed dishes, and fixed my sketchy internet with 2 technicians who wound up giving me a new modem. All good now. Sisters came home and my mom started doing a barbeque when the storm clouds let forth pounding rain - my dad and mili were sitting on the sofa couch dry and laughing watching Mekha and mummy get wet until papa and mili found that the sofa chair's cover top was getting soaked through with the rain and they were getting wet afterall! They dashed in to my newly mopped floors with me screaming bloody murder at them to take off their shoes! Was a lot of fun. We had our barbeque nonetheless and I've been chatting with my sisters and working through the magazine and newspaper piles in my room ever since.
I REALLLLLLLYYYY wanna go to the beach tomorrow but Mek and Mil said something about some people doing a barbeque somewhere and I am somehow roped into going with them...bah.....beach.....beach....only 2 more weeks of summer *sob* don't go away warm weather although I can't wait for the disgusting humidity to go away.
Anywayz, am off hemal feel free to email - just know I don't respond for a long time but I always read. Callie don't worry about it babe :) Hope the auctions ended well! raba ditto ;) Alex awwww - Mulan? yeesh - some people are so uncultured and ignorant ;) do u get dressed up for religious things? Festivals? Functions?
- Nishi
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
09:54 p.m.
what a fantastic evening I had! My friend Laurice and I went shopping at 'Strawberry' on the corner of 49th Street and 6th Ave and when we were finished it was 6:45 and I was like "let's go to Rockefeller Center cause when I was here during lunch to go to Kinokuniya they had all this fun olympic-related stuff going on." So we went and I'm so glad we did cause although they had the olympics playing on 2 huge tvs in the middle of the Center, there up on a stage the Korean Traditional Performing Arts Association was performing! The women were decked out in GORGEOUS traditional korean outfits (sooooo pretty) and their dances were just stunning! We sat in the make-shift amphitheater and enjoyed the whole show. Towards the end, this korean guy who was a cameraman came up to Laurice and I and interviewed us asking how we liked the the show and so Laurice joked we'd show up on Korean-TV now ;) LOL! Was so much fun! They're having shows there every night after 5pm from now till Sunday the 22nd!
So today I woke up, tired, but ready to go to work. Put on my pretty white skirt from Barami and my pretty black long-sleeved ruffled top from H&M and when I got to work - let out a soft scream cause all my SHOES were gone - in their place were BOXES. I have...a lot of shoes under my desk at work. A total of 12 pairs. It's not a big deal or anything but it earns me a lot of jokes ;) Anywayz, turns out each of the boxes had my shoes and turns out John had done it as a joke to get a reaction out of me ;) He's suchhh a practical joker! I swear I am going to do something that'll totally get him! I just can't think what. He's too funny :) But lord does he have a temper ;) All bark he says ;) I being the silly girl I am needed to get staples from his desk but he was on the phone - I thought probably I could open the drawer and get it out without bothering him but couldn't and earned an irate 'get away from the desk' ;) hahaha I was like "wow there's the temper I've heard about!" ;) Remind me NEVER to get on the bad side of John ;) He's probably got a worse temper than me ;) And that's saying a lot! So anywayz, my shoes are safe and back under my desk. WHEW!
I picked up the August issue of Ribon which has the new Erika Kurahashi story CHARISMA DOLL or SALA or something like that. WHY IN THE HECK did she make the characters look ALMOST EXACTLY like the characters from MAX LOVELY???? I also got Ribon ORIGINAL Augusgt issue - has some pretty cute side stories.
Anywayz, on the train home there were these group of people - all going to Stamford together and they were playing a game with their kids - the 'I spy with my little eye' game where they see something and say I spy....something red! and then it's everyone else's job to guess that that person sees and then whoever guesses correctly, it's their turn. They laughed a lot and it was so nice to watch them - I think the sound of people laughing kindly with kind joy is one of the most beautiful sounds. Nothing like warm laughter to make you feel good inside.
Home and ate dinner with the folks and just washed dishes for mummy. Washed my face and changed into my nightgown. Ready to relax now before going to bed in another hour or two.
- Nishi
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
10:50 p.m.
Kari waii! so happy you feel the same about Eichi-kun in Full Moon! *HUGS* I sure hope you're a member of the EichiandMitsuki group at yahoogroups! (*hint* link on the right ;))
I'm feeling sooo much better! I slept, had OJ, rested good and am definitely ready to go back to work and face the ensuing chaos.
My friend Lydia just started working right near where I work!! We're meeting up for lunch tomorrow! So excited! This is a girl I see like once a year if at all ;) we've been friends since we met through Sailor Moon fandom years ago - I think 1998 or 1999? Wow has it really been that long? She's the one who got me so hooked on Chinatown way back then ;)
I just finished the Ultra Maniac series - the last episode had me all choked up and ready to cry! Such a good series - why'd it have to end at only 26 eps? Phooey.
Hemal hey there! yeah it's been ages since I last heard from you! Glad to know everything's well! Keep in touch ok? :)
Almost 11, time to talk to my rickers and get a good night's sleep so I can wake up well and go to work. See ya'll tomorrow night! :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
10:21 a.m.
it's a good thing I stayed home - I feel awful. It's better than yesterday but still bad. Just finished gargling and am resting. Hope everyone is well. Write more later.
- Nishi
Monday, August 16, 2004
11:40 p.m.
aghhh what should I DOOOOO? Should I go to work tomorrow feeling like this? Just get through the day so I get paid or just rest one more day and go back Wednesday? The latter sounds so much more appealing until I think about lost pay. I know I'll feel awful and sick in the office if I go in with this......ok I need to rest....it's better I stay home one more day and get better than go to work and still be sick on Wednesday from not resting. Orange juice. I need orange juice.
- Nishi
Monday, August 16, 2004
07:57 a.m.
Updated at 5:30 p.m. BELOW
Psychic Reader aww thank you! Well I can't offer advice for your site (I keep being unable to connect to it) but I'll try again later! Stephanie Let me know if you get any of the customized shirts! :) I just read ur blog - good luck with registering for classes and hope you get the history one you wanted! I agree 100% with u about the Athens Opening Ceremony for the Greek history! :)
For those of you intersted, yesterday I posted links to gorgeous customized tanks and shirts that I'm getting - go to those links to design your own shirts. (see entry below)
I woke up this morning feeling like hell. I'm congested with a sore throat. Lovely. The weather matches my mood. It's thundering, and the rain is falling in buckets non-stop! I can't believe how it's pounding down. The prettiest sound though is how rain sounds falling through the trees - like hearing applause from a great distance.
Going to spend today at home resting and making sure I'm well enough to go to work tomorrow. Already phoned in to work and left msgs. The one thing I don't like about my company is that when you're sick, you lose pay. They say they'll give it back to you at the end of the year - 5 days worth or is it *up to* 5 days? But like everyone says - you want the money now. But I'd only take a sick day if I was really sick anyway.
Tried to go back to sleep - couldn't. The rain's so loud - opened up all 4 windows here in my room and am sitting here looking at the lake......I don't see a single squirrel or rabbit out - funny how when it rains the rabbits and squirrels hide deep within their homes too. I wish humans had the ability ti physically visit such places (not just in our imaginations or through tv scope etc) but to wander into rabbit holes (somehow safe and protected though) and just see what it's like.......
agh I'm talking weird again...it's lack of sleep and this cold. I'm gonna go try to sleep and get some more rest. Hope everyone is well. Write more later.
Updated at 5:30 p.m.
Oh I am so disappointed. I was so excited about Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne being licensed and released this fall but I just read the preview of the series and....the translation sucks. It's corny, cheesey, dumb, and keeps none of the beauty and seriousness and coolness that the scanlations I had read up till now had. If you guys out there want to read and enjoy Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne go to my shrine R E V O L U T I O N S and read to your heart's content.
While we're on manga by Arina Tanemura - she has a new story The Gentleman Alliance next month in Ribon. Erika Kurahashi has a new series - something SALA. Think I need to subscribe to both Ribon and Nakayoshi for the next 6 months. That said - there is one and only one manga by Tanemura-sensei which I have come to hate because of the fact that my favorite Eichi-kun suffered so much in it and didn't win the girl (Mitsuki). I *heart* Eichi! To me, that series is a huge disappointment because I had wished that Takuto actually BE Eichi-kun and that Mitsuki and he be reunited - instead the story took a whole other turn and just left poor Eichi in the cold. I never thought Takuto was all that great. (I think I hear a million Takuto fans screaming bloody murder at me) I sure hope Danielle isn't reading this. ;) *ducks head*
I slept a little....woke up feeling a little better....the rain stopped and the sun shined! :) Throat still aches but it's not as bad as this morning. Going to make another cup of cocoa.
GOD I hope they don't mess up GALS! by Fuji Mihona-sensei!
- Nishi
Sunday, August 15, 2004
04:22 p.m.
Some fun things to share with you girls out there :) Customized shirts. Go to Artemix Fashion.com and design a shirt of your favorite legendary Greek God or Goddess. I'm getting one of ATHENA. Then go to CustomGlamGirl.com and design another shirt - I'm getting a custom Noa Tank in hot pink with all those pretty flowers and it'll say 'Princess' ;) LOL! :) Too cute. And THEN go to CustomizedGirl.com and get a one-shoulder black tank with something sexy like 'bachelorette' or 'sexy' or 'glamorous' or Queen or Princess. It's so much fun.
I'm obsessed with Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch! Go read all about it a Pearl Song - MMPPP - a fabulous site with manga translations. Hope one of the US manga distrubutors license this and bring it on over. Other manga I recommend trying include: RED RIVER (written by Chie Shinohara) and AQUARIAN AGE (titled here as Juvenile Orion) - both have been licensed for US publication by VIZ and Broccolibooks respectively.
I've been buying every Nakayoshi issue that has Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch in it since early spring - I'm going to get a subscription now since it'll be cheaper. I didn't wind up going to the city today - was to meet up with my friend Luis and possibly my sisters for the INDIA DAY parade but all this gross rain kept me away. I've been eating so much junk food - a sure sign I'm PMSing cause I always overeat on bad things the week before - can't wait to work out tomorrow. Anywayz, hope you're all having a fabulous weekend. Adrianne I haven't chatted with you in so long! Are u ever online anymore? IM me when u get a chance k? And you working at UNOs means I get a free Brownie Bowl now right? ;) *HUGS* Jessica thank you very much! Very nice to meet you!
- Nishi
Saturday, August 14, 2004
12:02 p.m.
Did you guys see the opening ceremony for the Olympics? It was beautiful and inspirational. And did anybody besides me think how much everyone looks like each other from all the various countries? When you get past all the barriers of countries, origins, language, dress, culture etc, everyone looks the same and acts the same and have the same reactions walking in the parade of nations - either jubilance, a little bit of reservation and shyness, but always a sense of pride and happiness. The way Greece did the opening ceremony - with celebration of Greece's history of mathematical, architectural, art and literary achievments was perfect. I loved the large abstract head and it breaking away to the form of man....loved the floats of everything in Greece History to Alexander the Great....loved the vision of the future and the 'pregnant' woman......as I was watching the pregnant woman all I could think of was how precious life is....that a woman is so amazing...carrying the ability of life inside of her....
I fell asleep watching the opening ceremony :) woke up this morning after strange dreams at 10am......just finished having breakfast and am doing laundry and cleaning my room.....think I'll get a manicure and pedicure today at the local salon....need to run some errands too.....
INDIA DAY is tomorrow :) August 15th is India's Independence Day. They're supposed to have a parade in the city tomorrow and huge after-parties from 4pm to 4am ;) My sisters are going - and if my plans change, I might go with them too. The 24th Annual India Day Parade starts at 12.30 pm from 41st Street on Madison Avenue, New York, and winds down to 27th Street. The parade review will be at Madison Avenue and 30th Street. Three hour long cultural programs are scheduled at Madison Avenue and 23rd Street, starting from 3 pm.
Callie good luck on ur auction - I'm not interested in the HP lego kit but bet lots of people will love it. I heard Yu-hi-oh got some really bad reviews - but I think reviewers who don't know anime and anime-style shouldn't be reviewing it anyway. And I never got into Yu-gi-oh - I think I saw one episode and not even all of it. Diana hi there :) 11 years old? LOL! Ok I should warn you that some of the things you read on here that I write & post up will NOT be appropriate for a girl of your age to read. I'm not going to tell you to get your parent's permission or anything cause heck it's my blog and people have full choice on what they choose to read and are aware that they might come across things they don't like while reading stuff on the net - it's one of the risks people take using the internet - so if you're reading this, just be aware of all of that and happy readings to you! :) I'm very happy to meet you! And YESSSSS I wanna learn cantonese! They didn't offer cantonese classes so that's why I took mandarin. I haven't studied it though in 4 months. I really need to start again. Ugh! Anywayz, so what grade are you in? What state are you from? What;re ur hobbies and interests etc? :) Kitty hi and very nice to meet you too! These pictures are from my own private collection of scans which I don't post up and they're too big to email and too time consuming. You can find sailormoon images through my galleries on UsagiandMamoru.com. :) Good luck! Aaron howdy! :) Wow a coach? And your girls won a championship in your first year of coaching? Wow you must be good! Congratulations! :) Lady Jeanne congrats on your last day on Friday!!! When you come to NYC lemme know and we'll go shoe shopping too! :)
- Nishi
Thursday, August 12, 2004
10:17 p.m.
I made my mom so happy tonight ;) I bought her a bag :) It's this gorgeous black gucci-like bag - some italian designer - roomy and perfect for her yet light-weight and stylish - she was so excited when I showed her :) I love putting that smile on my mom's face :) I was so sleepy this morning - 7am came and I was like nooooo can't get uppppppp but I forced myself and got ready and managed to be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed for work ;) I lunched at my 2nd favorite authentic chinese restuarant near work today with Daphne, Bill and Laurice. Daphne's last day is tomorrow and turns out Laurice got a new job at another in-house law firm (for AIG insurance!) and is leaving our office! I'm happy for her! :)
Tomorrow is the olympics opening ceremony! I can't wait to see it! Coming home straight from dance. God I need sleep....so tired......after work today I was feeling too drained and tired to go to kickboxing and yet I didn't wanna go straight home - wanted to unwind and just relax some way so went with my friend James to Bryant Park and we chilled and chatted for like an hour and a half drinking starbucks iced caramel macchiatos :)
Oh about last night.....so Kate is my friend John's girlfriend. John is also our department's supervising attorney - he's the one I had a small crush on a while back. Somehow or other someone believed I was after John and told Kate to watch out for me that I liked him! I was like huh??? I had a small crush but that doesn't mean I'd go AFTER the guy!! I'm not like that. So this topic arose because Kate and I were talking about our boyfriends and I thought I should just tell her that I had had a small crush on John when I started - it's nothing serious in my eyes so i saw no harm in letting her know - she thanked me for my honesty and then told me the above - how someone had told her they thought I was after him! I had an idea on who it is and I can't believe that person - who doesn't even KNOW me could say such a thing about me. Anyone who knows me knows how much I love Ricky, that I'm loyal to a fault, and that while I'm only human and likely to think someone is cute and have a crush, I am also someone who'd never in my life act on that - contrary to my gregarious nature and 'social butterflyness' - I'm pretty reserved and shy about pursuing a guy I ever had a crush on which is why Ricky had to pursue me and I gave in ;) SO I made very clear to her how much I loved my Ricky and was NOT interested in John like that! She told me how she gets jealous very easily and had been worried - she's actually really jealous of my friend Jenn at work because Jenn and John talk a lot but I again made sure she understood she had NOTHING to worry about with Jenn either! I learned early on that a lot of girls at work have a small crush on John ;) hahahaah he's a sweet guy, very funny and just easy to be friends with - heck even *I* of all people developed a crush on him - so it's understandable why she'd get worried but good lord - she has nothing to worry in me - I'd never do anything like that. :) John is my friend - *if* and ONLY if he were single AND i were single would I even *consider* liking him like that - but as long as a sweet girl like Kate is in his life and is my friend, no way jose would I let anyone interfere with their sweet love. I think they're a very good couple :)
I think every office has its gossip monger and rumour mill. Such a waste. Well now when I look at that girl - I'm positive it's this girl Mariya - I won't be able to stomach it - I'm gonna avoid her like the plague. The nerve of her to say such an awful thing about me! ME!? Go after another woman's boyfriend? ME!!??? Holy heck no! Especially when I have someone I'm in love with? Are these people that jaded and think the worst of people? Ugh. I don't care if she's born 4 days before me - she's NOTHING like me. I would never presume to judge or think the worst of anyone without knowing them better beforehand.
Anywayz, Kate also told me that John knew that I had had a small crush on him. LOL! It doesn't bother me at all actually - we're very cool and good friends at work - nothing's changed :)
Now speaking of my Ricky - he *might* come to NY/NJ on a project.....I hope so! His other offer is Seattle, Washington. UGH! He says he'll most likely get Seattle - that's even further than L.A. is right now. I hope he gets NY/NJ...but I won't get my hopes raised.
It's getting late and I'm so sleepy. Need to work on something I'm writing and then head to bed. I'll respond to msgs tomorrow. *HUGS* to everyone!
- Nishi
Thursday, August 12, 2004
2:13 a.m.
2am and I just got home half an hour ago! :) Went to see my friend Sean's band he manages, the MYTVs, tonight at Mercury Lounge on the Lower East Side. I went with a co-worker named Kate who is just awesome and we had a great time! I got to know her so much better and we talked about a zillion things and really bonded! I told her all about Ricky and we shared a lot. It was so nice :) We braved the horrible rainstorm for this too! After my belly dancing class I went back to work and changed and then met up with her and we ate at TGIF before heading on downtown. I won't go into everything on here cause I'm too tired and need to wake up in 5 hours but I'll explain more tomorrow. G'night all :)
- Nishi
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
9:28 p.m.
some male pedicurists do not do their fellow male pedicurists justice. The guy I had tonight - well meaning as he may have been and a total flirt - just didn't do as thorough a job on my pedicure as the guy I had last time. Think I'll make an appointment with HIM next time....although this one gave me a free massage and lord did that feel good. I had to tell him exactly how to cut the cuticles on my toes....and he cut waaaay to much on my right bg toe and made the skin BLEED! I was like "DAMMIT!" inside my head but acting like it was "ok ok" on the outside. But then he gave that super massage on my shoulders, arms and neck and head too so he made up for it I guess ;) he kept complimenting my outfit - I wore this very pretty flowing black skirt from Banana Republic and this sheer/see-through black close-fitting sparsely red-rose printed top over a silk blank tank top....he was a sweet asian guy - I think he was working the tip ;)
My friend Tiffany who interned with my firm this summer left today as her internship ended. I was so sad to see her go! :( I hate it when good friends part ways cause good friends are hard to come by. Anywayz, we all went out to lunch at UNO's - had their pizza and brownie bowl (was mmm good :)) Speaking of, 2 of my other friends will be leaving the office soon too! They went on promising interviews and did very well and is likely they'll get hired. I don't blame them - the office I work for is under an insurance company (that's how we're in-house counsel) and they don't pay the paralegals well enough at all....so to make mortgage and make a living and a life they need to be making more which means get another job. I'm happy for them but sad to lose them.
My shoulder hurts - wish I had enough time to have the guy give me a full shoulder massage - was carrying 2 very heavy bags today on that shoulder so no wonder....
I feel very pretty.....with my toe nails painted clear, my own nails which I painted clear, and sitting in my white cotton night gown - it's peaceful. I have the windows open, the fan going, I can hear a cacophany of crickets out there......think I'll give myself an Origins clay facial and watch the last 3 episodes of ULTRA MANIAC before going to sleep a little earlier tonight.
I booked my trip to L.A. for Labor Day weekend! :) I can't wait to see my Ricky and hit all my favorite LA spots :) Anime Jungle, TOTs, that Sushi place....santa monica and venice beach! :)
I want to really enjoy the rest of my summer - I'm so sad thinking how it'll end soon. NO! I'm going to the beach this Saturday! I'm gong to spend as much time as possible out in the sun and warm weather even though I can't STAND the humid heat and too hot sun....once fall and winter comes and I feel the cold I get way to mad and sad that it's cold and miss the warm weather so much more. Winter has its perks - I love snow, ice skating, hot cocoa and bundling up in sweaters and jackets but...the cold is not my friend.
Kari LOL!!!!! When u come to NY let me know! we'll go shoe shopping :) I buy more hangers....even if everything doesn't fit one day, I'll still buy hangers and push 'em in there somehow ;)
- Nishi
Monday, August 9, 2004
09:54 p.m. EST
On a hot summer night like this , one of the best damn feelings in the world is taking a nice shower (hot or cold) and then going into your room, turning on the ceiling fan and lying nude on your bed. After a cool cotton white nightgown, I love sleeping in the nude. I love the summer.
Went to work today, spent almost all day working on a motion for summary judgment - I drafted it beautifully cause I KNOW we'll win. I hung out with my friend Stella at lunch and read the new issue of SHAPE magazine. After work, I ran to make the sale at the Designer Store on Broadway between Bond Street and Jones Street - I bought UNGARO black and gold strappy heels, a black kenneth cole dress shoe, a Cappriani (or something like that) gorgeous chocolate brown heeled dress shoe, and black Vichi or Vitachi (?) leather shoes for the winter - they're so comfy. Italian shoes always come in my size :D And the reason I went there even though I swore off shopping? They're selling these designer shoes (including Dolce & Gabanna and Steve Madden and Fendi etc) for $15 each or 4 for $50 or 10 for $100! That's right - 10 (TEN) for 100 smackeroos! In girl-loves-designer-italian-leather-shoes-land that is AMAZING :) I'm going there every day this week to see what they have in my size.
After paying so lucratively for designer brands, how can I ever go back to retail? ;) One of my shoes was originally $169!!! I got it for literally $12.50! hahahaha :)
I kicked butt in kickboxing today - Tiffany and Bill were SO funny working out - they had me laughing a lot with their antics and mine - Tiffany brought lots of pictures she'd taken from the party Friday night and from last week at work - I put a couple up near my desk. The instructor for Monday nights is this guy named Ian - I think he's very cute. :) He makes us work brutally hard but it's worth it - I see reasults almost immediately.
Anywayz, I'm gonna get dressed now ;) and give myself a facial and go have dinner. Oh before I forget, walked by Bryant Park (my fave place in the city along with Union Square, Chelsea and Central Park) and they set up this thing called 'The Reading Room' - a section of the park devoted to quiet and reading......they had the big movie screen set up cause they do nightly screenings of movies during the summer there. I sipped on my starbucks iced caramel macchiato and took it all in - wished I could stay and watch the movie but wanted to make the train to get home.
G'night all!
- Nishi
Sunday, August 8, 2004
07:02 p.m.
singing and dance . . . . . .
2 entries in one day - must mean a lot's on my mind ;) and boy is there - so much I never write down or explain and tell anyone save those most closest to me but here's something I can finally say: something good is happening to me. Very very good :) And God willing, everthing - all of it will work out.
Spent the past hour and a half outside on the deck swinging on the sofa swing chair and reading my magazines. Finished drinking some hot cocoa and am going to do my vocals for the night. The Teen Choice Awards are on Wednesday night! :) I'll probably be going to see my friend's band, the MYTVs, play at Mercury Lounge though so won't be home to watch it - will set the vcr to record....
This September I'll be starting formal classes in Indian dance - specifically classical and bollywood-style. I can't wait! In the past my formal dance training has only consisted of ballet and jazz in college - the majority of my dance skills are through informal dance training with many performances at school and church functions and private parties and functions which involved a great deal of choreographical training with the basics being taught alongside. I have performed (most recently Sil Sila from Devdas for my friend's engagement) a good deal since mid-college to 2nd year of law school, after which I just didn't until this past month. Dancing again in front of an audience made me LONG to be back in classical dance. I *LOVE* my belly dance classes / middle eastern dance classes but I want to learn Indian dance formally as well. It's not enough to just pick it up naturally from growing up in the culture and performing it from time to time....I want to learn all the technical details - know it inside and out. The good news is that I pick up dance very easily.....coordination is one of my strengths....the bad news is it costs so dang much! I need to do this though - for so many of my songs I write, I dance to them with a very distinct Indian style - I want to hone that.....formal training is absolutely necessary.
One day, God willing, I'll perform my songs with that distinct Indian style all my own, backed by formal training in all the dance styles I love........my friend James at work lectures me about how I do so much stuff and how he couldn't do it - he's like how do you work as a lawyer and do kickboxing and dance and astronomy and singing and writing papers etc etc and I'll tell him next time "when you're a girl as determined as I am to make the most of my life - not even the sky is the limit." I'll keep going to my martial arts kickboxing and middle eastern bellydance M-F and add in the indian classical and bollywood dance on Sunday evenings.
I'm planning 3 major purchases for before the end of the year. A new tv with dvd and vcr included, a new computer, and a new telescope. So aside from payments to credit cards, classes, family contribution, I'm putting myself on a strict budget. No more spending on clothes for a good long while till I've saved up enough. Ricky's always telling me about the budget makers on Yahoo Finance so I went now and plugged in my salary and monthly payments to credit cards and stuff and DANG - do I seriously need to budget! When I see how much money I waste on food every day and all these other misc expenses - it adds up to a lot.
Anywayz, am out. Lady Anime Night won't happen because my friends from work said the 13th is no longer a good date. So bah, fugeddit ;) Hope we can have one another night though. Memory good luck with your personal statement! :) I'll be happy to help u in reading it over and offering a critique. Niovi who'd they wind up picking for Bond? Micaila another girl working at the library :) Congratulations! I am happy for you and good luck! :) Skyy hi there :) nice to meet you and welcome to my blog :) Alex it's Kunzite and Malachite :) But Kunzite more so - he's so gosh darn sexy for a 2-dimensional character ;) Miyu-chan they made my sister stay still without moving for 25 minutes - she hated it so much. It's awful that MRI!
- Nishi
Sunday, August 8, 2004
3:00 p.m.
manga manga manga
aghhh the servers are down! *sob* hope Amanda and her husband fix it soon. I'm excited - I just found out DC Comics new manga imprint CMX is bringing KAMIKAZE KAITOU JEANNE ANDDDDDDDD GALS! By Fujii Mihona this OCTOBER 2004!!!!!!!!!!!! These are 2 of my favorite manga series and 2 which I've lobbyed a long time for to various manga publishers. Now all I need is Delicious! by Yui Ayumi and the works by Chiho Saito and everything will be good ;)
I posted the latest act of Kare Kano (Act 94) to the Kare Kano Love list (join it to the right) - it's a list of spoilers and summaries for the newest acts in Japan for the series - I can't believe Reiji shot Ryouko (at least not fatally) but she so deserved it anyway - she's a wretched human being who abused Arima and continued to abuse him and makde his and Reiji's lives hell. Arima telling Reiji he had the best father to rescue him was SO cool :) I have a feeling the series will be ending within another year or so.....with the Arima arc ended and Arima healed, they just have to deal with Miyazwa's pregnancy.....tie up all the lose ends and it'll be the end of Kare Kano :( I wish it could go on forever.....
Meanwhile, I love Cyber Idol Mink and Dream Saga! Most anythng Nakayoshi has I love.
Finished decorating my room with pretty indigo flowers my sisters and I bought at Linen-n-Things yesterday. We're headed back now to return things we don't want and shop for fruits and pick up starbucks iced caramel macchiatos! :) MMMM :)
- Nishi
Saturday, August 7, 2004
4:15 p.m.
last night was fun :) After work, a bunch of us walked to our intern Jon's apartment and we helped set up everything for the barbeque - I cut tomatoes and onions (blech hate onions on burgers) and I bought white wine but it was pinot grigio and chardonnay and I didn't like either much - the one Ricky and I had at GROTTO was sauvignon blanc (or something like that) - I'm going to buy that.
We ate barbeque, drank, played cards, listened to Jon play classical and semi-popular songs on his keyboard (he's a classical pianist with award-winning and competition-winning skills on the piano - amazing musician) but then the fun broke up too early with some of the interns and co-workers deciding to go home but the rest of us went on to play pool at SLATE on 5th and 21st. I suck at pool. Sometimes I'm good, sometimes I'm worse than bad. Last night was the latter ;) I kept trying to remember how Ricky taught me and other friends taught me to hit the balls but I just don't play enough to get good. I really need to - it's so much fun.
My friend Bill and I didn't wind up leaving till 1am or so - got a ride from John and his girlfriend Kate - they're such a cute couple - normally when you see John at work he does his best I think to not cross any lines with Kate (she works there too as a paralegal) but then outside of work you see how loving and affectionate they are and it's so sweet. They reminded me of Ricky and me so much in how close and loving they were - made me wish Ricky lived here too but that won't happen - he would hate living in NY. Ah well.
Didn't go to sleep last night till close to 3am and woke up at noon....had upa mav with mummy and am mopped the tile floors downstairs, and am still cleaning my room. Hopefully, tonight, my sisters will come see King Arthur with me. My dad wasn't so thrilled by my coming in at 2am and made a comment this morning about how I come in late and sleep late and something else in malayalam I didn't understand ;) haha I was like 'papa I go out one night and I rarely ever go out and stay late, it's not like I do this every night and I'm 27 years old. I have a life - you knew I'd be doing these things if I stayed at home with you guys instead of moving out to an apartment.' He said something about reading bad things happening to people late at night - yeesh. Yeah bad things always happen in this world but that's a crappy reason to live in your home sheltered and guarded by family and never take any risks and LIVE life. I can't stand people who won't try things, who won't LIVE....
Anywayz, sisters are home now - Mil had an MRI done today because of that car accident she was in a few weeks ago - she says they hurt her with the electric impulses and it was the worst thing going through an MRI. My poor sister :(
I'll write more tonight and respond to msgs then.
- Nishi
Thursday, August 5, 2004
09:34 p.m.
a conversation with my dad this evening after he picked me up from the train station about Anime Night:
Me: Papa, I renew my motion to have Anime Night
Me: It'll be downstairs, they'll sleep downstairs and we won't make any noise, we'll be so quiet!
Papa: mmm no I don't want any strangers in my house
Me: It's just ONE night - they'll be gone Saturday morning!
Papa: Then you're going out Saturday night too?
Me: No no that's this Saturday, next Friday the 13th is when I want my friends from work, 2 girls and 2 boys, to come over for Anime Night - just next Friday - oneeeee nighttttt.
Papa: mmmm I'll think about it.
YAAAAAAAY! Papa saying he'll THINK about it is a very very very good sign! Means I almost have him! Just need to wear him down! MUWAHAHAHA he he he he *devilish laugh* :D I'm going to do everything to have Anime Night at my house :) Sheesh - you wouldn't think i was 27 and an attorney by how I have to work so hard to get my parents to allow me to have friends from work over just cause 2 of them are BOYS. When I asked last night 'Boys? BOYS? NO BOYS' is how my dad responded. LOLLLL.
Anywayz, day was fun! Work was hectic with lots of stuff to be done on cases but at lunch I went to Midtown Comics with my friend Marc to see if they had new manga, they didn't, so got some lychee and a sandwhich from my fave chinese bakery and met up with friends at an outdoor cafe to enjoy the sun and after doing an hour of overtime, went with Tiffany and Bill to my boxing workout where we had one helluva workout as usual - instructor made us do the plank for a full 2 minutes - when you stay on ur elbows in full-man-style-push-up position. It is EXCRUCIATING!
Came home at 8:30, took a LONGGGGGG shower, gave myself a pedicure and am now getting ready to eat dinner and settle in for the night. My intern/friend John's barbeque party for everyone from work is tomorrow night after work - we're all excited but he's the most excited - he went to I think 3 different places to find a new barbeque grill since so many people are coming to the party and because he's wanted one for a long time. LOL! I'm bringing a bottle of wine and gonna have a good time with everyone.
Saturday night is my friend Robin's party for her new hubby who is serving in Iraq - he's home for just 2 weeks - it's over at the Red Sky Bar & Lounge on Park Avenue - ritzy place but hey - cosmos for only $4 - can't beat that! Then next Wednesday my friend Sean from work - his band is performing at the Mercury Lounge so I'm going for that. He's introducing me to someone very talented in the industry.
Anywayz, I need to finish drying my hair and eat dinner. Have a wonderful night everyone.
- Nishi
Wednesday, August 4, 2004
06:30 p.m.
Updated at 11:58 p.m. below
mmmm my eyes hurt....I feel tired. I didn't go to kickboxing cause I felt like this so am doing overtime to make extra money (must pay off credit card debt). Had a nice day though - for lunch my friends and I went to this cafe where outside of it they have these various music groups perform during the week. Was a lot of fun :) We people watched and scoped out chics and tried to find girls suitable for Bill and John. Anime Night may not happen but looks like the party my intern-friend John is having is shaping up nicely. So many people here from work are going to go. I'm looking forward to it. I think I'll just stay another half hour and then head home. Hope everyone's well and I'll see you guys from home.
Updated at 11:58 p.m.
just finished watching up to ep 24 of Ultra Maniac *sob* only 3 more episodes and it's over. Wonder if they made a continuation. WAIIIIII I want Anime Night to happen - I wanna show Mark and Stephanie Ultra Maniac and Kodocha and Marmalade Boy!
ok ok my insane anime ravings aside, no lesbians hit on me on the way home today ;) (see entry for Monday night down below to understand what I mean) Night was nice....came home, ate with the folks, talked to friends online on IM, enjoyed mummy and papa's anniversary cake and watched Ultra Maniac. Things are peaceful right now in my life.....I always wonder if that means it's the calm before a storm? Sure hope not. I've had enough storms in my life.
Ricky just called, need to get ready for bed now and settle in for one of our good night talks.
Memory LOL! Yes Eric Bana does have great eyes ;) though I don't think any parallel could be drawn to 'dark eyes' - they're each in a class of their own. Niovi the young Bond-thing is what they're going for apparently and not the 40ish or mid-30's mode that's been done. I think Orlando would be an amazing pick. Praheesh hai back! Miyu-chan hahahah *HUGS* one day we're going to have a movie marathon - Gladiator and then whatever other movies starring the men we most ogle ok?
Time for sleep. G'night all :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2004
06:05 p.m.
Updated at 9 p.m. BELOW
darn....sashi wound up leaving work late and it's pouring rain down in New Jersey and she forgot her umbrella - by the time she got to Penn Station we wouldn't have enough time before I'd have to catch my train. That sucks. Wish I could've known, then I would've gone to my kickboxing. Ah well. That leaves me with the evening free. I should go home and help my mom cherindih the coconut and relax with Ultra Maniac tonight. It's such a cute anime series - I like the anime better than the manga it turns out for once.
Had a nice day today! Wore my pretty white skirt and butterfly print yellow tank top with my soft cotton brown jacket from Anthropologie and had lunch with my interns and we went to this new pub I like and had mudslides and one of the interns is going to have a big party at his apartment this Friday night - we circulated invitations to everyone we wanted to come - it'll be a lot of fun. He's got an amazing apartment for the summer on W. 42nd street and the West Side Highway - great views of the river and the city.
I should get going soon - still got a little work to finish up. I'll probably write from home too and respond to all the msgs then as well. *HUGS* to all.
Updated at 9 p.m.
mmmmm just finished showering and put on this Origins charcoal clay mask has this nice smell - kinda like Quaker Instant Oatmeals packs of either maple & brown sugar or that peaches & cream one......nice :) I left work, read a new manga Mark gave me called 'Angelic Layer' which I never read till now, finished the 1st 2 volumes and LOVED IT! Going to finish the final 3 volumes tonight ;) heheheh My friend Jody gave me her copy of 'The Vampire Lestat' the next book in Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles.....
came home and cherindhed 2 whole cocunts - that's 4 halves people - a lot of coconut and found out my folks won't allow me to have anime night at my house - why? because there will be 2 boys over. If it was just 4 girls, ok but add boys into the equation? No. ;) Looks like if we have anime night at all, it'd have to be at someone else's apartment or house. Surprisingly, they'll let me GO to other's people's houses yet won't let me bring them home. Sheesh.
Crap my mom just asked me if I wanted anything to eat and I had to croak out a response through this hardening mask on my face. AGHH. I seriously look like Swamp Thing colored charcoal grey. On the face anyway. Hope it didn't mess up the mask.
anywayz.....almost 9pm....gotta towel my hair and lotion up and go eat something and settle in to relax with my anime and manga before I talk to my sweetheart.
Stephanie 3 cheers for Orlando ;) Definitely take kickboxing - u'll love it but research the different kinds - I'm taking one that emphasises martial arts. Amy the last quote is from my book 'War Talk' by Arundhati Roy - one of my favorite writers for her on-point beautiful political articles. Enjoy the quotes! :) Paul hahahaha paul my dear sure unless I'm rich and powerful before you in which case I'll have a whole slew of designers at my beck and call ;) Spain *sigh* wish I could visit! Sean I adore Pierce Brosnan but Orlando as a new James Bond? C'mon...chest hair please - some guys are better off with chest hair, some now - I and many other women would take him either way ;) LOL! Miyu-chan scruffy guys just ooze sex appeal.... :) I think anyway ;) But then some just look like bums and overgrown beasts....really depends on the man. Callie Happy B-day mamo-chan! totally been forgetting that! Rainy thank you sweetie *HUGS*
- Nishi
Monday, August 2, 2004
09:53 p.m.
whew! kickboxing tonight was good - even if Ian wasn't the instructor (and he's great) - we had this other really great guy (forget his name right now) but he had us going for the full hour top speed. Great workout. Punched out all my aggressions that I didn't even know I had. Tiffany and Bill are so much fun to box with - I'll miss them terribly when they leave at the end of their internship.
One of the interns, John, is going to have a barbeque at his apartment either Thursday or Friday evening after work as a party for us all since Tiffany's last day is next Tuesday. Daphne will join my friends and I for "Anime Night" at my house on Friday the 13th, and this weekend my friend Robin from law school is having a party for her husband who's back from Iraq for 2 weeks! They just got married - I still can't BELIEVE she's married! Tomorrow I'm meeting my friend Sashi whom I haven't seen in 9 months! We're having dinner at 6:30 at some place by Penn Station - figure it out tomorrow. Can't wait to see her and catch up - she's gotten married recently too which left me bug eyed!
On the way home from kickboxing, I got hit on by a lesbian. Yes, a lesbian. Her name was Tara or Theresa - I forget - she was latina for certain. Anyway, she had asked me for directions to Grand Central and I was like - well I'm walking there so I'll take you. She never announced she was a lesbian or anything, but....how do i explain this.....I have a zillion gal pals...and none of them make me feel....er....weird to be around them....she was smiling at me in this strange way....like the way guys smile at me when they're interested and know they don't have a chance - asking me if I lived upstate and what I did for a living...all casual talk but....different when u KNOW they're hitting on you. I made sure to bring up I had a boyfriend and that's when I knew - she went "oh that's good" in that certain way you know when someone's disappointed but trying to be nonchalant about it. I made sure she found her train and then after leaving her I was like "holy smokes I think she was a lesbian and hitting on me." I still can't be 100% certain but everything seemed to indicate so.......anywayz she was sweet and I hope she got home safe. I'm very, very straight. Wish I knew another lesbian to introduce her to.
Ah well....speaking of being straight, I hope Orlando Bloom gets chosen to play the new James Bond. :D Or Eric Bana....mmm guys with scruff on their faces....OHHH that guy who plays King Arthur - SOOOOOOOOO cute with scruff on his face. Without that beard I don't find him as sexy....I generally like men clean shaven - I love a smooth face or a face with a 5 o'clock shadow but SOME men look SOOOO undeniably amazing with a little scruffy beard - nothing major mind you - just a little...it's so...manly :) All depends on the guy. If Ricky grew a beard I'd scream in holy terror - he looks amazing clean shaven. So don't get any ideas ok bub? Good boy ;)
I just finished a long shower and need to lotion up and eat now. Beautiful warm summer night - got the ceiling fan turning. Se ya'll tomorrow :)
Ahnna nice to meet you :) Always happy to meet another Sailor Moon fan :) Chyanne err....mini moon your love? okie dokie :) nice to meet you too! Paul U.K. hey there! Leaving to Spain? wow that's wonderful! why are you going? how long did you live in London? Is it your hometown? caroooo-chhaannnn *sob* I MUST see you this timeeeee. I'll be in L.A. labor day weekend. Let's make planssssssss. :) Sean thanks for pointing it out! I'll put the John Kerry for President button back on this layout somehow. Everybody in Green Bay is pro-Bush? aww mannnnnn - don't they know how bad Bush is for our foreign policy? The tragedies in Iraq? Bush is a sweetheart as a guy alone but as a president? NO NO NO. I agree with you 100% My LJ name is "NishiRajan" :)
- Nishi
Sunday, August 1, 2004
06:10 p.m.
Happy Birthday Ricky!
Updated at 8:45 p.m. below
hot...so hot....I wanna go jogging but can't till it cools down a little and by then I'll feel lazy and won't leave ;) my sisters all left just now *sigh* I hate when they leave - it's like all the fun leaves with them. We spent the afternoon playing cards with mummy and papa - papa taught us "mail" which is pretty much just like "rabbits running" - fun card game. Didn't get up till noon....talked to my ricky - it's his birthday today :) Ironically, we cut a cake today - but it was for mummy and papa's wedding anniversary last weekend ;) Papa brought us home lotsa of cool gifts - we got a ton of gorgeous new bracelets "vallas" which are these round glass bracelets that make lots of ching ching noises I love :) Anywayz, drinkin iced tea and talking to friends on IM.....lazy sunday.....I love summer.....think i'll go out and read on the deck...
Miyu-chan ok I think I will! I sure hope I remember what my LJ password was......Paul hi there :) very nice to meet you and thank you! :) Where in the UK are you? Anonymouse hey there! you never did answer my previous questions to you from your last comments ya know ;) no comments on the Dem Con cause I *gulp* missed it.....I read about Clinton's speech though - I just get home so late and tired and I forgot it was on at night....but don't worry - I'm voting all democrat this november ;) callie wasn;t last night's blue moon beautiful? :)
Updated at 8:45 p.m.
I feel like writing tonight. I miss L.A. I miss Ricky in L.A. I want to be in L.A. - I'm longing for the beaches, Santa Monica...that distinct L.A. feel....everything I'm familiar with there....I feel so at peace when I go visit Ricky there....like my life is at a stand still and I can enjoy everything so much better...jog at the USC track, feel like I'm a college-girl again (I sure pass for it easily ;)).......I missed AnimeExpo and OtakuCon and ComicCon this summer - even ShoujoCon! I wonder if I'm hormonal - this is not feeling good. AnimeExpo is again at Anaheim next July 1-4th - I'm going, going, going!
ho hum....ho hum.....this is what Nishi gets like when there's not enough occupying her time and too much occupying her mind....what the heck should I do....sunday night off.....read manga? watch anime? read one of my books in this overflowing library of books I own? I wanna lose myself in another world right now.....Kodocha....I love Sana....but then again I have so much I should be doing - researching comparative photographers, studios....screw it - I'm gonna read a manga or watch an anime. I need a break. I'll pick up fresh tomorrow or Tuesday and be more energized.....there - this is what nishi is like when she finds solutions to her odd moments ;) Time for more iced-tea & let these nails finish drying with the new coat of paint.
- Nishi
Saturday, July 31, 2004
11:59 p.m..
just came back from the movies with my sisters - they finally convinced me to go see the Village even though I was terrified of seeing it as it was supposed to be a scary movie. Well....lemme tell ya.....I'm fine after watching it. Although it is a very thought-provoking movie, at the same time I found it to be one of the worst & stupidest movies I ever paid to go see despite the fact that it was beautifully directed, produced and very well done despite the many flaws. Why? (1) the actors couldn't speak their victorian-era lines right, (2) the dialogue SUCKED - except for the lines spoken by the main actress' character "Ivy" - the red head who was SUPERB! And of course Lucius, (also superb) and (3) the utter senselessness of it all <-- the major reason.
Do not read the following unless you want to be SPOILED about what THE VILLAGE is about
I LOATHE the belief that hiding or runing away from reality to be safe is the right thing to do. We find out that the elders of the village are actually people who lived in NYC etc who'd experienced horrible losses in this modern society - a sister raped and murdered, a husband robbed and left naked etc. So while at a counseling center, one of them, Ivy's father, says he has an idea - to re-create innocence all over again. They and their families all arrange for this area within these preserved woods to be used to create an 18th century town. To make sure no one from this village leaves the village, they create a myth that there are these horrible creatues in the woods. They make a creature out of red robes, gruesome etc and use that to scare the villagers who grow up in this town. They're taught that "these things we do not speak of" will not come down to our village boundaries if we do not go to their boundaries in the woods.
I hate how their innocence was created through lies, through an infliction of fear of the unknown, through a fear to face reality. One of my sisters thought it was sweet that they wanted to presrve and create innocence - I couldn't agree. Sure there are evils in our modern world, but to run away from it and create an innocent society and inflict upon it fear of creatures....make them run and hide in their houses....fear going into the woods...fear to even attempt to conquer their fears...fear of discovering the world - all its goods and evils - what kind of existence is that???? How can you be man if you live unable to face all that the world contains? To give in to fear and despair, to refuse to face reality - that is just as wrong. There were villagers dying who could've been saved with hospitals, medicines, who are kept blind to the advances of human mind and civilization.....
Perpetual innocence.....it cannot be. There *is* a way to keep a sense of innocence, a way to keep appreciating the innocent, to not allow perverse and worldly evils to cloud your mind and reality, but complete and perpetual innocence? No. Even when faced with great losses, the premise that it would drive people to create an 18th century village and go to methods of inflicting fear to preserve this 18th century farce.....it strikes of insanity - of a strange type of cruelty....the cruelty of letting these people believe there are evil creatures in the woods, allowing these people to live in fear and terror, allowing these people to believe, when all the world around them is in the 21st century - to believe they are in the 1700's or 1800's......
The world is not always beautiful, there is no Santa Claus at the North Pole.....innocence is a thing to have for a while....something to be cherished and nurtured until one's faculties are grown, matured and can handle the realities that innocence was used to protect them from. Life and death are all around us - our innocence is KEPT and preserved when we do not allow the ugliness in the world to jade us, embitter us - when we still look at the world with eyes of the child we were at age 8 - when the forest trees with the sun streaming through made us feel alive, when running around playing with family and friends were all that mattered - when we can still hold on to that childhood-like innocence and view of the beauty of the world despite the harsh realities of that world - then THAT ....that is right.....that is healthy.
What happened in that movie? Unhealthy - through and through.
I think the creation of fear in others to keep them safe - and to justify that creation of fear by saying you're doing what is best for everyone - it is wrong. There is no life in sheltering one from reality. No life in fear. In reality, what is best for everyone is knowledge and understanding - it destroys fear. When one has the power of understanding and knowledge - what can you fear? The entire world is before you. It is keeping yourself and others ignorant and fearful that is evil. So very wrong.
I could write a tome on this topic but must stop as it's almost 1am - an hour since I started writing this at close to midnight. Comment box isn't working so can't see any msgs. Will write again tomorrow.
- Nishi
Saturday, July 31, 2004
12:29 p.m.
oh god what a gorgeous summer saturday! it is 80-something degrees out there with a warm breeze! I can hear the weird buzzing of those locusts and other summer insects out in the woods. I just got back from running errands at the post office, bank and blockbuster and am having breakfast before going out for a 2-4 mile jog depending on how I feel in this weather. If I don't jog now I won't jog later - will be too tired from going to JFK and picking up papa this afternoon. Nith's home since yesterday but mek and mil aren't yet. Mummy's cooking - white morih - my fave :) Breakfast done - gonna slather on the SPF sunscreen and change - looking forward to this jog - haven't had a good physical workout in weeks and it's time I get back on top of that. I responded to all msgs in the entry below.
- Nishi
Friday, July 30, 2004
11:28 p.m.
I did more research on the modeling agency I was visiting - and i got an email back from a girl I found online who'd worked with them. They charged her $60 for the test shots for 12 pictures, and charged me $86 for 12 photos. I don't know why the difference but I'll email her back and find out if we had the same photographer and when she had this done.
I absolutely refuse to pay the cost they're asking for a portfolio. After careful research one thing became clear to me: I shouldn't pay an agency directly for a photographer or printing - at least not until you find out how much it costs comparatively through other photographers for what they're asking. I should pay the photographer and printing company directly is what I learned. I'm going to call them tomorrow and find out how they get their fees and if I have to use their photographer or if I can take my own pictures with someone a hell of a lot cheaper and submit them. If they say something about getting commissions on top of making me pay for photos - I'm dropping them - if I keep all the money I make - I'll consider as long as I can get my own photos to submit - if anything that throws red flags up for me I'm not going with them anymore. So far, all I've lost is $86. But i really love the photos :) So it's not a total loss - plus the experience was amazing. But no way in hell am I getting ripped off. And IF by any chance they're actually trying to scam me - oh hell hath no fury like a lawyer named Nishi - I'll do what I have to make sure they don't practice business again.
Is it just me or why is it Dark Eyes is wearing blue all of a sudden a lot more? I remember I posted on here how nice he looked in that blue shirt earlier this week and suddenly it's blue I've seen past couple days - coincidence, right? I wonder. Well can't complain - he does look good ;) LOL! Men really DO look gorgeous in blue...but I also love white, and red and black....all are so sexy.
At our law firm, we're in-house counsel for an insurance company so the company told us something today to our Legal department - they'd been monitoring phonecalls and could tell us exactly what was said in the phonecalls. Incoming and outgoing calls all screened. That's fine except Ricky calls me 1-2 times a day for 5 minutes. I NEED THAT cause we aren't allowed to be on our cell phones at all. You have no idea how much I love hearing Ricky. He's my darling, my love. He lives 2600 miles away from me. The phone is all we have. All that keeps me close to him. If you take that way, I'm liable to scratch someone's eyes out. I was told 5 minutes isn't a problem thank goodness but even still I'll take precautions. I miss him. It's his birthday this Sunday. He told me what he wanted - sweetheart, yes I'm getting you the watches :) He's the darndest pickiest person to get presents for - kinda like my sister Nithi so they wind up telling me exactly what they want and I get it to satisfy them. ;)
I just heard the most hilarious thing tonight - my friend from church who's graduated highschool is going to college this fall at SUNY DELHI located in Bumblefuck, USA. Excuse me while I roll on the floor laughing. BUMBLEFUCK, USA!! How can a town like that actually exist? :) The town's residents must be pretty cool ;) i wonder if there's a Bumblefuck High or Bumblefuck Elementary school....
I'm almost finished reading Interview with the Vampire - I love Louis and Claudia....I can't wait to read the other books in the series.
11pm already.....Friday night just flew by....after working overtime till 6:30, I went for a pedicure - Dante's White Russian is on my nails - turns out the polish is not one they actually carry so the lady at the salon gave it to me for free! How cool is that? To get an expensive shade of polish I LOVE free! :) Very happy :)
Lastly, one of my friends called me at 11:30 late last night - she's a friend from law school who just graduated last month and took tbe NY and NJ bar exams this week. She called upset because she feels so awful after the exam. I called her back and left her a msg this evening but haven't heard from her again. I hope she's ok. I remember I was pretty happy when the bar exam was over. I walked out going YEE HAW IT'S OVER and also feeling like 'oh God I have no idea if I passed but it's over and I did my best.' Hope I get to talk to her soon so I can try and make her feel better.
Callie have fun at YuGiOh! Lemme know how it is! I never got into that series so don't know what it's about. Adrianne thanks! I visited your blog at your new host and love the new layout. *HUGS* How's ur sister? how's the summer going? Lorie LOL! I think I can only get pedicures by men now....:) Long live male pedicurists! ;) Aishah listen to Lorie and me - run, do not walk, to the nearest nail salon with a man working there and sit back and enjoy ;) Amber LOL! thanks! nice to meet you :) Niovi no manga there? oh the joy of mail order! :) i was happy and lucky to find anime fans at work. :) Janeen-chan I watched a few episodes of the anime of HYD and hated it - so annoying, frustrating and depressing. I have all 5 books of Hot Gimmick so far but it too annoys me to no end - how weak the main character is...so weak. But it's addicting to read so I wind up buying each volume to find out what happens next. You might like SENSUAL PHRASE (Kaikan Phrase as it's known outside the U.S. ;)) - it's been getting just as twisted and maddeningly frustrating ;) Sarah Beth August 13? Wedding? DUDE! You're so welcome at anime night! We'll have one again soon when u visit here again. Rachel no sweat! don't apologize for something like that! Stay in touch when you can :) Micaila your school sounds great sweetie! Take full advantage of everything they can give you to learn - don't miss out on any opportunities. Your time there is short so use everything to the fullest. Kayla no I never heard of that site! Will check it ot this weekend! :) *HUGS*
I've been writing on this thing for more than an hour. Time to wash my face and do my beauty routine, talk to my Rickers and sleep. And to Marissa who emailed about what my beauty routine is at night? I wash with Biore cleanser, tone the skin with Origins White Tea facial liquid toner, let it dry, and depending on how I feel use either (1) Oil of Olay Intensive Treatment (black tube) only or use (2) Origins White Tea face lotion and (3) eye lotion and/or (4) Origins "Make a Difference" face cream. On both face and neck and lotion up the hands and feet, elbows and knees too. Lastly, put chapstick's vaseline lip therarpy nighttime on my lips. All this, including the washing and brushing my teeth before bed takes no more than 10 minutes.
Night everyone.
- Nishi
Thursday, July 29, 2004
11:20 p.m.
I'm dialing the number home, mummy picks up after the 3rd ring:
Mummy: "hello?" Me: "hi mommy, I'll be home today 7:42 - can you get me from the train station?" Mummy: "7:42? sure" Me: "cool! I'll see u then" Mummy: "but you have to buy me dinner then" Me: "huh? oh! ok! sure!!"
and thus did my cute mom swindle a dinner out of me ;) she was actually just joking but I took it seriously. We went to a local diner where we ordered the 2-for-1 seafood combo special which served a heck of a lot food - we bought bags of it back home: salmon, lobster, filet of sole (what the heck IS sole by the way?) and shrimp and clams and scallops. It was really nice to take my mom out to dinner :) I love her :)
NO COMMENTS - the following is an entry I don't want anyone making comments on - at all - if you do, it'll be deleted and you banned - NO COMMENTS
I went back to the modeling agency today....I got the slides of the photos...they looked great...1/2 of them I liked - really pretty photos, the other 1/2 were eh, alright and ok......but then the main girl I interviewd with - after telling me how pretty my pics were and that I photographed well and based on that they were accepting me, that I now needed a portfolio to send to the clients - this portfolio would consist of 4 outfits: dressy, sporty, casual and business suit. 40 photos or so would be taken. However.....the cost for my portfolio??? $480. I was like WOAH. If I had that kinda money to just spend freely why would I do modeling on the side to try and pay for studio time and pay down credit card debt?
I refused to agree to anything except a tentative appointment next Saturday for the next photoshoot....instead I came back to work to get my things and think about the agency and look at the photos and while reviewing the photos once more, John spotted them as he was standing behind me talking to someone and wound up looking at 'em all. I was adamant about him not seeing what I felt were the worse pics of me. The good thing was he helped do a search for my agency online to see how legit they were......so far what's been determined is (1) there's not much on them online and (2) what little real site connections there are that aren't related to porn and smut that always comes up when you do searches for stuff of that nature (i.e. the word "glamour") - the remaining real results didn't say anything negative or wary. They seem to just be a NYC modeling agency - nothing scam-wise but it remains to be seen if I'll actually make any money from them if I pay for this portfolio. I'm going to do more research tonight and have asked friends for help to make sure I'm safe.
Anywayz, I really don't want anyone commenting on any of the above so don't.
It's been an hour since I started this entry here and I researched the agency more - it still seems to be legit but I think $480 is a lot of money for no guarantee of modeling employment or that the jobs I get may be suitable for me. The best move for me to ask is if I can get another photographer to take the photos or negotiate the price down. I am NOT willing to spend that much. There are hundreds of other modeling agencies if this is something I really wanted to do - I can find another place to try this out with. The whole purpose to do this was to make money to pay for studio time etc. I don't want to LOSE money.
All of this stuff...it's shady...tricky....music industry - entire entertainment industry - it's easy for an inexperienced person to get ripped off.....I don't plan on being a prey - anyone out there considering these things - do your homework and learn about the agencies etc before handing money over - especially anything over $100. That's a huge chunk of cash you will never see again.
Everyone who left msgs, thank you. *HUGS* I'm tired and can't reply tonight. Will respond to everyone tomorrow.
- Nishi
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
09:07 p.m.
manga, sushi & singing
Edited at 11:45 p.m. BELOW
the wind was blowing this evening as I walked to Grand Central to catch the train.....the kind of wind that reminds me of the blustery days of November......it was like an odd preview of the coming fall despite the warm humidity in the air....I can't stand when I see signs of autumn before its time....the stores decked out with sweaters and everything colored brown and grey in clothing - no summer clothes at Express! What gives!? It's still bloody hot out there - I demand everybody keep acting like it's summer until it starts turning cold at the end of September. Sheesh.
I'm having anime night at my house on Friday the 13th (of August) :) hehehehe I'm happy thinking about it. One of the manga I love is SAIYUKI and my friend Mark from work lent me the 1st 15 episodes of the anime and although I love the manga better, it got me searching through the sites online and got me hooked on the Gaiden novels about the saiyuki 4's pasts in heaven. It's a great series GO BUY IT!!! :) We're gonna showcase our favorite anime that the others haven't seen. I can't wait wait wait! :)
Today I spent lunch buying manga at Midtown Comics with Mark, Stephanie and one of my intern friends and afterwards we ate Sushi rolls and drank lychee and after work, I got a super pedicure from a GUY! His name was Tony and I swear if you have only gotten pedicures from women before, go get a GUY to give you a pedi! WOW.....he was so gentle and did an amazing job with my pedicure....he was cute too ;) And honestly a guy giving you a pedicure that includes a leg massage? Heaven. :) He's gonna be my regular pedicure guy from now on! :) LOL! ;)
Tomorrow I go back to that modeling agency to review the photo shoot from last Thursday....I gotta look nice in case I need to take new pictures....aghhhh........Sarah Beth!!! *HUGS* vent? que pasa?? email me soon! Can't wait to talk to u cause it's been forever! And no I haven't spoken to Lisa in months too. I'm so bad at staying in touch with friends. Sorry sorry *HUGS*
Edited at 11:45 p.m.
and with one low rumble of thunder, it just started raining gorgeously outside.
Love leaving the windows open when it rains...i want to hear it
falling so loudly through the leaves and upon the grass.....
I've been singing for the past 1.5 hours....for those of you who do
vocal training etc, you notice how when you first try to sing a song
you never sang before that your voice sounds poorly trained for it?
Oddly out of tune at places?
And it's only after repeated efforts that you sing it beautifully? Full
of inflection and emotion and the full range and beauty of your voice
shining through. For me, at first, I don't like the sound of my voice when
I'm rehearsing and learning how to sing a song beautifully - I feel
I sound...dry, emotionless and flat....all because I wasn't
focusing on the music, not being moved, not focusing on how it has to
come out of my throat - I get so focused on how I'm supposed to sing it
correctly that I lose the feel for the music - the natural feel that makes you
sing from within...beautifully naturally - when i find myself doing this, I correct all that
and the results are
astonishing and makes me remember something I learned once that
you sing beautifully only when you feel the music from within....then
only will the right melody, the right tune emerge from your voice...
I love singing. It's such freedom. To open my throat and have beautiful sounds come out - or
at least what I hope are beautiful sounds ;) and to be lost in the beauty of the voice and
music making....it's cathartic....absolute bliss....a feeling like....my whole body is alive.
That's exactly what it is. Singing makes me *feel*....makes me see.....makes me be more *alive*...
okie now I'm officially out for the night. Sayonara people.
- Nishi
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
08:52 p.m.
what a chaotic night.....began raining when I left work and I ran to the subway barely avoiding getting drenched. Mum was able to get me from the train station when I got back home and soon as we got safely home, it began downpouring! The rain is so pretty to watch when you're dry :) I watched it rain heavily for a while as I helped my mom with stuff. Had a nice day at work - my friends Greg and Ron took me to that "secret bakey" - it's called Cupcake Cafe and those gorgeous cupcakes are 2 bucks for a "small" one and 3 dollars for a large one ;) pretty pricey for cupcakes but they're so pretty and taste so fabulous it's worth it :) I couldn't afford any today but will buy some when I have cash to spare. For lunch, we went to this Thai restaurant next door which had yummy thai iced tea and good food :)
I was teaching my friend and current legal intern for the summer, Tiffany, today more motions and we both love the aspect about motions where we're putting our defense together, racking up the evidence and making a great case for ourselves. That's the stuff that makes us go YES! We did a great job! I really enjoy teaching others.
Suni I'm not sure how to respond to your comment - it's weird you'd think this layout suits me more than the other - I don't agree - each of my layouts are based on images I selected very carefully because of how much I saw myself in them. Emeraude is a perfect symbol of me - her arms outstretched against the night, her sacrifical nature and deeply loving nature. I love things both black and dark and both white and bright and everything in between. This image was chosen because Selenity looks as though she may be praying, or lost in thought, or just simply looking within for strength or all of the above. It's very much like me. Emeraude against the black night suited me very well for the past year and reflected my personality well i think :) I'm just ready for a change for the blog and searched through my fave images for the basis for a new layout and this was my first choice.
The tag-board isn't working now so I can't see what other msgs I may have had. Will reply tomorrow. Night everyone!
- Nishi
Monday, July 26, 2004
05:31 p.m.
good evening guys and dolls :) writing from the office and taking a small break from writing motions and doing a lil overtime before my kickboxing class - tonight's class is taught by the super intense guy who makes us sweat buckets and lose pounds every Monday. And after the amount of food I ate today I will totally NEED to lose pounds ;) My friend Greg here has this secret bakery near work which sells the most gorgeous cupcakes (they're topped with beautifully and ornately deocrated flowers etc) but he won't say WHERE this bakery is! So tomorrow I'm going with him so that it, too, will be MY secret bakery ;) I LOVEEEE bakeries! If I could open any business it would be: a bakery, a flower shop, or a store full of gorgeous trinkets and things for you and your home.
Lunch was fun today - I went with my friends to the local cafe where we can eat outdoors and afterwards we "sunned" and sang old songs. Reminded me of college days and the silly things my friends and I used to do having such fun all the way. Afterwards, returned to work to tackle more motions. I'm going to miss the interns when they leave - they're so much fun to hang out with and we've all become such great friends. That's the thing I hate about life - how you make great friends but time eventually splits everyone apart.
Ok that's enough moroseness for one evening :)
Callie yaay for Lance! I read and saw that on tv! Didn't know you were a fan! Anna aww thank you very much. I love your 'Midsummer Night's' Avril Lavigne layout. She's one of my favorite musicians! Caro-chan *HUGGGGGGGG* thank you!!! Why haven't you and i gabbed in AGES??? I HAVE to see u next time I come out to L.A. ok?? Niovi hahaha thank you very much *HUG* but sometimes not even having what it takes is enough - it's all about luck and being in the right place, right time....so many people out there are trying very hard and are so talented but getting no where. It's often a gamble. Hopefully, luck is on your side. But thank you - your words mean a lot to me. *HUG* Memory yeah that happens to me too - it's information overload. You read a lot but don't commit it to memory right away....read slower and focus on what you're learning and repeat it over and over. If you want to remember things, you need to study them. Some people can read and remember everything. They just have brains better designed for that purpose - the rest of us weren't as lucky so we need to focus & study to make it stick. Doesn't mean you're any less smarter - just means you work harder to remember as much. And that's NOTHING to be ashamed about. Often the ones who work harder to be smarter are the ones with drive, ambition and end up succeeding in life - cause they have that thirst for knowledge and success - sometimes the ones for whom smarts come easily are more prone to take advantage of things and might not work as hard and don't get very far. So take heart :) *HUGS*
- Nishi
Sunday, July 25, 2004
10:21 p.m.
on myths.....and on my love of song
Myths and legends...they are what form the basis of our earliest understanding of mankind's history...the dawn of our civilization....they are based somewhat on fact, revolve around religion and societal structures and are the beginning of knowledge. It's no wonder that I spend so much time studying mythology. This evening, after my sisters all left to go back to their apartments, Nith in connecticut and Mekha and Mili in Long Island, mummy and I were left home alone and we ventured outside to the patio and sat on the sofa swing chair and read. I'm reading a book I picked up at the Metropolitan Museum last weekend called 'Gods and Heroes in Art' - almost 400 pages, it features a listing, from A to Z, of the many Gods, Goddesses and heroes beginning with Actaeon the hunter who saw Diana bathing and was turned into a stag who was then killed by his own dogs and ends with Zenobia a Roman Queen who upon her husbands death extended her city and fought for independence from Rome but was captured by Emperor Aurelianus who either let her live out her days in a villa or coulldn't cause she may have starved herself to death rather than face the disgrace of prison. So far I finished 33 pages covering the letter "A". If I'm discliplined I'll finished a letter regularly - either daily or weekly. The book is great because once you learn these obscure gods and heroes you learn how they were represented in great works of art and are able to identify them easily by key elements. This book kills 2 birds with one stone for me: my love of art and of mythology.
I didn't get anything done today - lazy warm summer Sunday....drank iced-tea, watched a lot of TV (E! True Hollywood Story's DIVAS special and VH1's Angelina Jolie A-Z special). Can't believe it's 9pm already.....the weekend just flew by......
I was feeling forlorn before....watching that DIVAS special made me realize once again how badly I want it....success in music. I want it so much it brings tears to my eyes everytime I think of it. I won't be happy until I've made good progress towards it. Until I finally have a cd in the hands of people who are listening to my songs like 'Story' and 'Moment' I won't be happy. It has to happen. It HAS to. If it doesn't, it'll be the most painful regret of my life and one I'll have difficulty living with unless I try 100% to make it. I don't know if anyone of you out there reading this understands it.....the feeling you get when you sing and someone hears your voice, hears your words and is powerfully moved. I sang for a friend from work 2 weeks ago - he was wowed even though I sang like crap and was all nervous and my voice was weak...the fact that he really was moved and enjoyed it made me so happy. I worry I'm not like those people out there - who get up, confident and ready and sing like Celine Dion from the get go....me....I'm shy at first....even when I've rehearsed the song perfectly...I'm scared I'll start out on the wrong note or pitch and it'll start off crappy......when I'm not ready my voice is weak at first.....like I'm feeling things out....then everything falls into place and my strength comes out.....that's when I shine. It takes such hard work for me to get where I want to be. I'm envious of those with amazing skill - who open their mouths and sound perfect. But God help me - one day, I'll become one of those people. I want to shine. Sing with all my strength, all my skill.....all of me....and shine. I want to move people....I want to be moved by my own words. I just have to make it happen. I have to. My songs, this music - they're such a part of me....of who I am....not doing it, not BEING it, living it - well I might as well not be living then. I just finished vocal exercises and rehearsing one of my songs - it still needs more work but I'm tired and I'll leave it to tomorrow. It's probably a good thing I'm not in a studio and recording right now.....I think everything happens in its own time......I'll use this time now to perfect my delivery of the songs I've worked so hard on - perfect my voice and technique. When I'm ready to record everything, I'll finally have it all....perfect. Forlorn? No....I had my time to feel forlorn - now I am going to take action.
Thank you Aishah! :) You must've seen this right away since you replied pretty soon after I put it up late last night :) Fairy-talish huh? Wow I didn't even think of that! :) Thank you *HUGS* Darlene thank you :) I love Selenity :) Your friend has great taste in hindi movies :) I love Devdas. Niovi awwww thank you!!!! You're so sweet! *HUGS* and yes i finally added you! :) Thanks for adding me too :) Stephanie thank you sweetie :) I just read about your wisdom teeth being pulled - ouch! X-Japan is AWESOME! I love their songs! I added your blog to my friends listing as well :) Memory ooooh a violet room? that's so gorgeous! I love this color - a lot of my layouts use a soft purpe/lavendar/violet look cause it's one of my favorite colors. I'd love to paint my room that color!
I'm gonna go wash my face and do my nightly beauty routine and settle in for bed early. Long day ahead of me tomorrow with work and kickboxing and following up on studios and modeling - I need to get a lot done. Have a wonderful night everyone.
- Nishi
Sunday, July 25, 2004
01:38 a.m.
a new layout & my performance
I thought it was time to change the Emeraude and dark black layout so made this. Took me hours and hours but I like how it turned out. Has a calm and peaceful feel to it which I strive for in all my designs. It is of course my favorite, Neo Queen Selenity from the manga, Sailor Moon. She is always my idol and the character I most love so almost all my personal layouts feature her.
I made this layout design to inspire me to keep to my dreams and goals. Nothing and no one shall stand in my way. I will make all my dreams come true. Selenity is the character I most identify with and through her character I draw a lot of strength and inspiration.
Today was my friend's engagement and I went all the way out to Queens for it because I was performing for it. :) I sang Sil Sila from DEVDAS and danced it in a red churidhar and it went PERFECTLY :) Well ok I messed up at one place but I don't think anyone noticed. I was nervous but it felt AMAZING to sing and dance in front of people again. Afterwards people told me what a nice job I did and asked if I did it regularly and I explained how I hadn't performed since I started law school and they were like 'you're an attorney???' LOL! I know I look like I'm 19 but I am really 27! ;) I had a lot of fun :) Wore that new black dress I bought from FOREVER 21.
Afterwards, came home and hung out with my sisters and just finished painting my nails this color called 'Cherry Truffle' - looks reallllly dark - very goth.
Friday after work, went with my friends Stephanie and Mark from work to see SPIDERMAN 2! It was....alright....it should've ended at the part where Spidey is looking at Kirsten as she runs to hug her fiance and she looks back at Spidey and at the point where that guy finds out his dad was that green masked villain in the last movie. That would've been a good cliffhanging ending. But all that wedding, bridal dress stuff? So cheesy and cliched I thought - the movie was good but could've been a LOT better. The acting was excellent all around!
I'm exhausted and am going to go talk to my Ricky now. Hope ya'll like the new layout. Micaila have fun at school babe! You'll do great! :) Kagome very nice to meet you Kim! I tried Inu Yasha - it was nice but I couldn't get 100% into it. I really loved the character of Kikyuu and felt she and Kagome should've been 100% united and that Kikyuu's soul shouldn't have been messed with and split from Kagome. Sailor Moon manga is still my most favorite all time manga :) Jessica I made the quizzes myself. All the quizzes are listed to the left here :) Aishah thank you! I like the modeling thing so far! I'm really just looking to do a few print and magazine ads but I wouldn't mind a commercial. Just whatever extra I can make to pay off credit cards ;) Lady :) *HUGS* oh god Jeanne...I really do want to make all my dreams come true....hopefully every step I make will add up to the whole.....
- Nishi
Since 1998, I have been designing websites. The following are almost every main site I have ever made.
A Dream I Dream
My personal page with pictures of me and everything I love!
TooyaandAya.com
Devoted to Touya/Tooya and Aya of Ayashi no Ceres!
UsagiandMamoru.com My favorite and best couple ever! Sailor Moon's Usagi and Mamoru (Serena and Darien)
MiakaandTamahome.com My tribute to Fushigi Yuugi's main couple who always have my heart, Miaka and Tamahome!
Kare Kano Love
A Miyazwa and Arima ML - discuss everything Kare Kano here!
Things I Support
Favorite Manga and Anime most everything in Ribon and Nakayoshi!
Alice 19th
Anatolia Story a.k.a. Red River
Ayashi no Ceres/Ceres Celestial Legend
Basara
B.B. Explosion
Call Me Princess
Catcher in the Horoscope or ZODIAC P.I.
Crescent Moon
Cyber Idol MINK
Delicious! (Yui Ayumi)
Dream Saga
Fruits Basket
Fushigi Yuugi
Gals / Super Gals!
Hana Kimi
Hot Gimmick
IMADOKI
Instant Teen (Otona Ni Nuts or Just Add Nuts)
Juvenile Orion
Kaikan Phrase or SENSUAL PHRASE
Kamikaze Kaito Jeanne
Kanata Kara a.k.a. From Far Away
Kare Kano
Kodomo no Omocha
Magic Knights Rayearth
Maria (Naoko Takeuchi)
Marmalade Boy
Max Lovely
Mint No Bokura
Miracle Girls
MODEL
More Starlight to Your Heart
Mouryou Kiden
Neck and Neck
One
Ororon
Othello
Otona Ni Nuts 0r INSTANT TEEN - JUST ADD NUTS
(the) Queen's Knight
Psychic Academy
Random Walk
SailorMoon
Saint Tail / St. Tail
Saiyuki
Sweet & Sensitive
Tokyo Mew Mew
Ultra Maniac
Vampire Game
Wild Act
Words I live by:
Man is never so tall as when he kneels before God - never so great as when he humbles himself before God. And the man who kneels to God can stand up to anything. -Louis H. Evans
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. - Eleanor Roosevelt
"All human wisdom is contained in these two words: wait and hope." - The Count of Monte Cristo
"The winds of God are always blowing but it is up to you to set the sails." - UNKNOWN
"The only dream worth having, I told her, is to dream that you will live while you're alive and die only when you're dead. [Which means:] To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget." - Arundhati Roy
Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).
