Nishi's A Dream I Dream's Pitas Page

Name: Nishi
Age: 28
Where: New York
Faith: Christian
Sign: Aquarius
CH-S: Fire Dragon
AIM: SelenityHime
ICQ: 21380169
Email: be83398@yahoo.com

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The Story Thus Far . . .
Currently, I am working full-time as an Attorney in midtown Manhattan, New York City, New York and learning kickboxing and Kung Fu and middle-eastern bellydance, and working on making a music career!

Jogging, Martial Arts Kickboxing, Dance - currently middle eastern dance & bellydance, Tennis, Singing (of course ;) and working on my songs, Reading & writing about all the things I am interested and passionate about, watching tv and movies, painting, drawing, astronomy, rollerblading (and trying to get better at it and ice skating!), obsessive anime and manga fan and professional web designing, ancient studies / ancient civilizations, history and archaeology, world mythology, politics and world affairs, international law, human rights, studying many languages (have studied and continue to study spanish, mandarin chinese, japanese and hindi).

1/1 - 2/21 | 3/5 - 3/30 | 3/31 - 4/18 | 4/19 - 5/10 | 5/13 - 6/22 | 6/22 - 7/29 | | 7/30 - 9/13 | 9/14 - 10/11 | 10/12 - 11/12 | 11/13 - 12/18 | 12/19 - 2/5 | 2/6 - 3/17 | 3/17 - 4/21 | 4/24 - 6/19 | 6/20 - 8/4 | 8/6 - 9/14 | 9/16 - 11/3 | 11/4 - 12/31 | 1/17 - 5/3 | 5/6 - 7/22 | 7/25 - 10/30 | 10/31 - 12/28

Lydia
Rence
SarahBeth
Natsuki
Diana
Ailinon
Eowyn
Seby
Manda
Bonnie
Stephanie
Jen-chan

Caroline
Rebecca
Kris-chan
Miyu-chan
MoonKlutz
Zbet
Adrianne
RameoG
Louise
Leanna
Niovi
Kayla
L.Macbeth

Laurelchan
Aisha
Janeen
Danielle
Jenna
Hemal
Callie
Reena
Crystal
Lady
Aishah
M_JADE

Personality Quizzes I Made
The Royalty Quiz
The Woman of Beauty Quiz
Woman of Legend Quiz

Fun Blogs
Barbie
Cheryl-Shops
ChicShopping
FugYourself
Manolo Shoes
MyCiCy.com
SheFinds.com
ShoppingBrains

Fashion Sites
DailyCandy
FashionWeekDaily
FinderGuy.com
NYMetro.com
Planet LuLu
Scoop Du Jour
StyleBakery
Trendwatching

Books / Stories
King Arthur and all things Arthurian, Merlin, light and dark; The Crystal Cave, The Dark is Rising series, most anything to do with magic, vampires, werewolves; anything fantasy and romance-like: EMMA, Jane Eyre, Phantom of the Opera, Count of Monte Cristo, The Cask of Amontillado; almost anything Shakespeare wrote; The Harry Potter series; my childhood stories - Sweet Valley High, Twins, Kids, Babysitters Club, Boxcar Children, Bobbsey Twins, RAMONA QUIMBY series; SHERLOCK HOLMES, NANCY DREW; all books dealing with things I love from art, mystery, religion, magic, mythical creatures such as "DA VINCI CODE" and "Interview with the Vampire"

Movies
Emma, Contact, Ever After, Farenheit 9/11, Bowling for Columbine, Legally Blonde 2, Princess Diaries, Sweet Home Alabama, Matrix: Reloaded, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Staw Wars: Episode II, TOMBRAIDER I & II

All-time TV Shows
Three's Company, The Nanny, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, FRIENDS, Relic Hunter, Buffy, Xena, Clarissa Explains it All, OUT OF THIS WORLD, Wings, Mad About You, Simpsons, Married with Children, Carol Burnette Show, Anamorphs, Punky Brewster, Smurfs, Rainbow Brite, and the list could go on forever ;)

Musicals
Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, WICKED

Favorite Drinks
In the summer: starbucks' iced caramel macchaito - decaf and nonfat; lychee, boba/bubble tea/pearl milk tea; thai iced tea; lipton lemon and raspberry iced tea

In the winter: hot chocolate and starbucks' white chocolate mocha non-fat

Fave Alcoholic Drinks
Margaritas, amaretto sours, singapore slings, rum & coke and white wine - pinot

Music to relax to: The slow version of the sailormoon theme song, the theme for Phantom of the Opera, the theme by Mono from Great Expectations and theme from Romeo and Juliet....so many more.....I can't live w/o music.....

A Fan Of:
I'm more a Democrat so I'm a fan of Bill & Hillary Clinton, Madeline Albright, Margaret Thatcher, Lee Iaccoca

Movie Actresses
Drew Barrymore
Kirsten Dunst
Kate Hudson
Nicole Kidman
Demi Moore
Gwyneth Paltrow
Julia Roberts
Reese Witherspoon
Renee Zellweger

Movie Actors
George Clooney
Johnny Depp
Matthew Goode
Tom Hanks
Ashton Kutcher
Brad Pitt
Keanu Reeves
Adam Sandler
Robin Williams

Magazines etc.:
Vogue
Cosmopolitan
Jane
Shape
Fitness
Allure
Elle
Marie Claire
Archaeology
Mysteries
Foreign Affairs Journals
The Economist
Discover
Astronomy
Sky & Telescope
National Geographic
New York Times
Commondreams.org
In Style
US Weekly
PEOPLE

My Adoptees
Shown are adoptees from Sailor Moon, Full Moon wo Sagashite, Star Wars Attack of the Clones, Lord of the Rings, and Emeraude from Magic Knights Rayearth, X-Files, the child-like empress from the Neverending Story, St. Tail!, The Labyrinth, Satine from Moulin Rouge, and HARRY POTTER!

Reminders:
Salons in NY to try:

Buff Spa at Bergdorf Goodman: 754 5th Ave $$$

Tiffany Nails: 903 Madison $$

Soho Sanctuary: 119 Mercer $$

Maximus Spa - Massage: 15 Mercer $$

Just Calm Down: 32 W. 22nd $$ - get grape gatsby with Essie Bordeaux polish

Ajune Spa: 1294 Third Ave $$

Frederic Fekkai: 15 E. 57th - Mandarin Supreme Pedicure $$

Salons in L.A. to try:

Kathy's Nails: 7967 Melrose $
Salons in Paris:

Mr. Ho: 3 Rue Washington $$

La Bulle Kenzo: 1 rue du Pont Neuf $

Stuff in NY

Nobu - Sushi

TrapezeSchool.com

Things to Buy

HairArt's T3 tourmaline blow-dryer

Skin Ceuticals C + E Antioxidant Treatment $115 or

Renee Rouleau Vitamin C & E Complex $60

Neutrogena Active Breathable Sunblock SPF 30 $10

Whipped Shea Butter Body Cream

Nippits

Boot Shapers

Hollywood Fashion Tape

White Pearl Bra

Bubble Maker

Lilac Round Rug

Voting Related
Vote-Smart.org

Rock The Vote.com

Welcome to Nishi's Pitas Page a blog part of A Dream I Dream. Nishi is a 28 year old Indian American who is working as an attorney in Manhattan. She is also a singer/songwriter who is working on her 1st album. She dreams of bringing her songs to the world and moving people with her music; she also dreams of pursuing international human rights and foreign policy one day.

Nishi is an avid Japanese anime and manga fan & is a web designer too. See her major anime/manga websites listed to the right. She also collects anime goodies, see her Treasures.

This journal is a place for me to vent, to share, and to catch up with friends. Undoubtedly friends and strangers whom I don't know are probably reading my words - for all whom I know and don't know, you may read but never, ever bring up with me what I write about on this journal unless I bring it up with you. This place is sacred and I'm allowing you to enter it, to know what I choose to show of myself through this page, but don't assume you really know me or what I'm about, and don't assume you can talk to me about what I write. Respect me, my wishes and my writings - or leave. :)

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Thursday, April 14, 2005
03:14 p.m.

I'm off to India!!!

This will be my last entry before I go to India! I'll be back on April 23rd! I have GREAT news! MY CD IS DONE!!!!! I mean my songs are all finished engineering and now when i come back from India, I'll be doing a photo shoot, then have the cd mastered and duplicated and voila - it'll be READY!!! YAAAAAAY :D I can't believe it's finally done!! My sister Mili called me up while I was on the train and said my song 'Hush' popped into her head and she had to call and tell me how beautiful it was and how awesome it was that MY song was so catchy that it came into her head :) hehehehe :) she's a sweetheart :)

I can't write much because I don't have a lot of time but I wanted to send hugs out to my friends here memory, jade, sarah beth, caroline, lydz, stephanie, lorie, Lady(jeanne), Ebe, Susan and everyone who I didn't list *BIG HUGS* :) I'll see if I can write from India (doubt it) but I'll be back with tons of stories and pictures!!

Before I leave, 2 funny comic strips this week I had to share:

From Garfield today - truer words have not been spoken all day! ;) I LOVE naps and they DOOOOO take u!

And from my fave Rose is Rose - rainy days ARE best spent curled up inside (in bed) with a good book or a good manga like Kodocha and watching the rain streak the window panes.

Ok my friends, see you when I come back from India :)

- Nishi

Have you 'Sloohed' yet? If you're an astronomy buff like I am, come check out LIVE telescope missions at Slooh.com with me! Sign up for a free trial and see nebulas & galaxies right on your computer *LIVE* - join the group missions or go on a solo mission. I'm there every evening and most Saturday and Sunday early eves - visit the mission chat room!

Monday, April 11, 2005
08:08 p.m.

picture time!

pics from my hike up the Santa Monica mountains!

This is at a stream a short way from where we started....I made this into a huge wallpaper for my computer :D

Here's my Ricky :D

Ricky and me waaayy up on the trail!

And here's what we saw when we reached the top - the beautiful coastal beaches and ocean and all the houses and mansions at the top of the mountains :)

Very tired...going to watch tv...and sleep - I have court tomorrow morning and engineering with the guys tomorrow night. See ya'll probably Wednesday! :)

- Nishi

Monday, April 11, 2005
07:58 a.m.

back from L.A. and early at work!

good morning everyone :) After an all night flight I'm back in NYC and at work! It's so empty and quiet here - it's eerie! I think the first steady steam of people don't arrive until 8:30 a.m.! I had a good flight back - as always I hugged Ricky extra long and gave him one last kiss and glance before I headed to security on Jet Blue....it always hits me hard that I'm leaving someone I love and he's not coming with me when I board the plane.....I managed to sleep almost the entire flight back thanks to my trusty brown leopard-print neck-flight-pillow! That thing helped me to REALLY sleep well! All I needed were eye shades and ear plugs and I would've slept like a baby! Got off the flight this morning and hopped onto the AirTrain and after figuring out how to get onto the right train to get to Jamaica station to take the train into Penn Station I arrived VERY fast and had breakfast at Starbucks (their fruit/bread/cheese breakfast thing) and my white chocolate mocha - non-fat, no-foam, no-whip and de-caf although today I got it with caffeine to keep me up at work) and picked up the morning's free newspapers (amNewYork and METRO - Tiger Woods won some golf game - woo hoo!) and here I am.

Yesterday was FABULOUS!!! We got up early and went HIKING!!! We went to the Santa Monica mountains (where I want to build my mansion one day I think!) and my GOD what a hike we had! We did over 4 miles in total I think and i thought my calves would give out - so much up-hill hiking! We saw waterfalls and climbed to this HIGH peak where we saw ALL of L.A., Westwood, and much of the beach coast line from the Santa Monica pier to Manhattan Beach and Marina Del Rey I think. I could see all the way out the Pacific Ocean. It was SO FREAKIN BEAUTIFUL!!! We took a LOT of pictures and I'll post them all as soon as Ricky sends me them!

After hiking, I changed into my new black bikini and slipped on white capris pants and a pink terry-cloth spaghetti-strap tube/tunic top (to which Ricky replied upon seeing me "You're way too good for me" ;) hahaha he's such a sweetheart) and we headed to the BEACH!! We spent a little over an hour there cause it was WINDY as heck and it got cold towards 3pm - but boy did the sun feel good! We then went for a late lunch/early dinner at this place called BUCA's in Pasadena where we had bruchetta, tomato and spinach salad with spiced pecans and topped with little pieces of some kind of cheese (it was SO delicious), white wine (the house wine Chablis which I LOVEEEEEEEEE because it's a fruity white wine - love fruity white wines) and a main entree of veal - which I didn't like when I remembered veal is baby cow and promptly stopped eating it! But overall everything was FABULOUS! We had the Bella Festa for dessert - 2 BIG chocolate cakes topped with vanilla and chocolate ice cream, caramel and chocolate sauce, and nuts! MY GOD it was delicious :)

We drove back and I showered and packed and we got ready and left for the return flight to Long Beach - hardly ANY traffic! Once I had to miss a day of work because I missed my return flight due to horrible freeway traffic we were stuck on but not tonight - everything was smooth sailing.

I had a wonderful and relaxing weekend - it's such a great feeling to hop on a flight and fly to the other end of the nation and be in another city just like that - I was in one of my favorite cities, seeing my favorite buildings, and sites and going to my fave places - just like that - I feel sorry for people who never get out of NYC and don't get to experience and live life elsewhere - they're missing out on so much. LOVE L.A. SOOOOO much...wish I could afford to go every other weekend....I miss it and Ricky now......I'm bleary-eyed but still look good I think. Well been writing for over 15 minutes - am going to read the morning newspapers and settle in for work now.

This week I have to pack and get ready for INDIA! I leave Thursday night!! Will be gone until the 23rd! I hope I get some kind of internet connection there cause my email is gonna run amuck. Dude they turned on the A.C. here....are they crazy? It's 50 degrees out there! Ok off to work - see ya guys from home tonight - hopefully with pics!

- Nishi

Saturday, April 9, 2005
11:29 p.m. PST

writing from Los Angeles

greetings from L.A. :) LOL! I am feeling a ton better tonight! After not listening to Oblivion since Wednesday I listened to it again tonight and I don't know why I was so down - the song is beautiful - there are 2 or 3 places where it needs to be changed but it wasn't the ordeal I thought it was. That's what lack of sleep will do to you! THANK YOU GOD. Whew. I'm so glad it was more a result of lack of sleep and nerves and my own anxiety I think. I'm SO HAPPY!! My song Oblivion is beautiful!!! YAAAHHOOOOOO! Although one thing I learned - and I have to accept - there are songs on this demo that I write and make which won't be as beautifully put together or sounding as others and, as a result, won't be AS loved as others but as long as I'm happy and love them, that's enough and if, God willing, someone at a record label likes me and the songs, something magical will happen to make the songs SO perfect! Right now, they're all so VERY VERY CLOSE - SO CLOSE :) And for that much I am SO greatful and SO VERY HAPPY :) I have been lucky to have found wonderful and talented musicians to work with who have given me the best with this demo - only HUSH left to perfect and that's it - my demo will be ready.....God please help me make this happen...please make it all happen and make this big dream of mine come true. Amen.

It's late and I need to sleep - got here at L.A. last night at 9pm....I met a cool guy on the flight over who's an investment banker and lives in Union Square in Manhattan - I've forgotten his name now...it might come to me later - but anywayz, Ricky picked me up and whisked me off to a little cafe/bakery/restaurant where I had hot chocolate and tomato and basil soup with bread and other stuff. We were so exhausted we fell straight aleep and woke up this morning and jogged a little over a mile and a half I think together around USC.....afterwards we went for breakfast at Grinder's and visited the Science Center Museum here in L.A.'s USC area....the Science Center had an awesome 'Forces of Nature' IMAX show we saw - I loved how scientists tracked earthquakes and figured out where the next earthquake in Turkey area will hit - 10 miles from Istanbul!! That's TRAGIC because Istanbul is GORGEOUS!!! I want to visit it! I hope NO earthquake EVER hits it! So beautiful a city. Afterwards, we came home and changed cause it was a blustery day in L.A. - so windy - and went for a late lunch/early dinner in Little Tokyo at this sushi place where 2 chefs make the sushi right in front of you and place the finished foods on plates which travel around on a kiosk around the large center table for customers to pick up. It was like dim-sum but for sushi! :) Afterwards, we got chocolate Mochi ice cream (a japanese sweet treat) from Mikawaya - this awesome japanese sweets bakery right next to the sushi place we went to in Little Tokyo.

After that, we came home and rested before heading back out to try and catch 'SIN CITY' but it was sold out so instead we went shopping at GAP and ricky bought me a pretty stomach-revealing cream-lace short-sleeve blouse....SO PRETTY but I have to get it tailored in the back so it's nice and tight and not so loose.....I actually have a decent stomach! Still needs to be worked out a LOT more but not bad! ;) Pretty proud of myself for that.

Now home and happy after deciding Oblivion sounds great and ready for BED!! Tomorrow, we're going hiking early morning in the Santa Monica mountains, and then hitting the beach and who knows what after that but my flight back to NY leaves at 9:30 so we don't have that much time! Can't wait to come back for Memorial Day weekend and over 4th of July! :) I love L.A. :) But don't worry New York City - you know I love you too - I have to have a home at both places....I can't live without either.

Jade, Sarah Beth and Memory *BIG HUGS* thanks guys :) I'm having a great time in L.A.! :) Kris fellow deepher? D Phi E? Awwwww!!! that brings back so many memories - such a long time ago - I was so young - just 19 when I pledged and crossed over to sister and then disaffiliated for good reasons which I can't go into here.....being a 'deepher' for a while I think helped me on the way to becoming the strong a woman I am today ;) so glad you liked usagiandmamoru.com!! Where did you go to school? Which class of D Phi E?

Time for sleep. G'night everyone.

- Nishi

Thursday, April 7, 2005
10:50 p.m.

Memory, Lorie and Jade-chan *big hugs* You guys are awesome :) thank you for your warm words.

I feel a lot better today :) I'm going to focus this weekend while I'm in L.A. - most likely on the flight down - on the song and figure out what I need to do to make it perfect because on Tuesday I'll meet with the engineers (who have been SO awesome and so patient and wonderful and they're exceptionally talented musicians and engineers too) and I'm going to make this work! Even if it means removing all the back ups - whatever I have to do, to get it to sound beautiful and pleasant to the ears! Anything that makes me go furrow my eyebrow I'm going to tuck waayyy low in the mix or get rid of it and let the song breathe and shine on its own.

I just finished packing for L.A. and am going to dive into bed - soooo exhausted.

Sarah Beth, Kris, Ebe I'll respond to you guys tomorrow or later this weekend. *HUGS* to you all.

- Nishi

Wednesday, April 6, 2005
02:39 p.m.

i am not happy. not happy.....I thought the song was perfect last night (OBlivion) but when I listened to it today things were too loud...too off.....it made me want to cry and it doesn't sound like it did originally....I am so frustrated and upset. We spent so many hours and it's costing me a lot and it still isn't right! This song is practically my FAVORITE out of all of them and it's not perfect! It's like only 70% perfect....why can't I get it right? I'm so...down....my friend Mark is going to listen to the original version and the engineered version and try to figure what exactly it is that seems to be missing in the new engineered version and why it doesn't sound like the same song and have that SAME essence. I WANT MY SONG BACK. *sob* I'm sitting at work and I'm mindlessly doing motions....meanwhile my heart is ACHING because I want this song to come out so well :( The stupid tears in my eyes won't help make it perfect - maybe the engineers are free tonight? Probably not but I'll call - my next session with them is next Tuesday and I don't wanna wait that long but I will probably have to. This is weighing on my heart and mind so horribly...so heavily....I want it to come out perfect. PLEASE GOD help me make this song perfect and everything I wish it to be. Please. Amen.

- Nishi

Monday, April 4, 2005
10:04 p.m.

what a work out I had tonight! The instructor for Monday nights at the karate & kickboxing gym I go to is this guy named Ian and his class was re-named 'Ian's Boot Camp' because honestly, that's what it IS! He gets you in shape and gives you an excellent workout. My abs and triceps are screaming right now but in 2 weeks they're going to look killer good :) Ian's cute too :) LOL! Anywayz, I thought I'd be totally out of shape not having gone regularly for MONTHS and MONTHS but I wound up doing pretty decently :) I can't wait to get back up to my peak fitness condition.

Bunch of things lately in the news I need to write about. First, the Pope - my parents and I were riveted all day Saturday to the news about the Pope. I think I read and watched every editorial and news special on him. What a remarkable man! He championed human rights and for that I am proud of him! He wasn't too keen on women's rights though within the church or on abortion but hey - that's his belief - to each man his own.

Terry Schiavo - I think it was so very wrong for her feeding tube to be removed. Bad decision on the part of the court. That woman - whether vegetative or whatever - had not put her wishes in writing nor told anyone about her wishes other than what she allegedly told her husband and are you REALLY gonna believe a guy who's already with another woman and has 2 kids by her? Terry's feeding tube should've remained and the will of her parents and brothers and sisters taken precedence! With no evidence of what her will was in her condition, you don't take the word of the husband over the family!

Further on Terry Schiavo - some people out there think (and I quote) "it's the liberals who wanted to let Terry die" and I'm like what the HECK?? I'm a BLAZING liberal and I DID NNNNOOOOTTTTT want Terry's feeding tube removed. I wish people wouldn't label things conservative or liberal whenever things are opposite of what they believe. Liberals didn't do this to Terry - her husband did and the Court system followed LAWS - they weren't 'liberal activist judges' - they were JUDGES following the laws of the nation and the state of Florida. There are conservatives and liberals alike who wanted her feeding tube removed - catholics TOO - it's not an ONLY liberals argued for this. I, as a liberal, argued against it.

That said, it's after 10 and I have a late night tomorrow in New Jersey with the engineers. Going to make Oblivion perfect :D

Night everyone and *BIGGER HUGS* to Sarah Beth and Jade and Miyu-chan and Caro-chan :)

- Nishi

Sunday, April 3, 2005
01:55 p.m.

technology - how do I love thee

thank technology for getting me to post twice within 3 hours. I just signed up to have AIMs sent to my cellphone when I sign off AIM at this computer and choose to send msgs to my cellphone. That way friends can IM me even when I'm not at my comp! Of course, they can also call me but IMing's easier when u don't have time for a long call. AND I added accuweather.com LIVE weather to the bottom of this blog! You can check your weather there too :D Just click 'change location' and type in ur zip code or city and state.

I'm goint to sunny L.A. next weekend - it'll be in the 70's (possibly 80's) next weekend! WOO HOO! :D My parents will be visiting Naples, Florida soon too - we have bought a new property/home there and folks'll be moving there soon. They've wanted a Florida home for a long time - I can't wait to sun down there :D My first love was from Tampa and I loved Florida and turns out Naples isn't that far from Miami! Double woo hoo! I LOVE MIAMI! We won't be moving there permanently or anything - just yet anyway - that'll be our summer home/vacation home for whenever we wanna get away from New York. But eventually, papa and mummy will move down there for good.

Speaking of hot weather, I bought a BUNCH of bikinis and swimsuits over the past couple months - the pink swimsuit though is actually black and is Calvin Klein - they're all from victoria's secret and venususa.com! :) 6 bikinis, one tankini with a swim skirt, and one full swimsuit. As lydia says, I definitely don't need ANYMORE bikinis :D But I might end up returning 2 or 3 of them which I haven't received yet. Hope they turn out good!

ok I'm out. SVINYOLAS Feb 6th and a lawyer too but from Spain? Very cool :) It's so nice to meet my fellow birthday brother :) What law do you practice? Where in Barcelona, Spain do you live? I've always wanted to visit Barcelona! A Princess from Austria was also born on our birthday and she's an artist? That's awesome :) Yeah I definitely thing being all born on the same day gave us similar qualities - I love to draw and paint! I'll email you shortly :) Jade-chan I love your blog! And what's the long story? You should've emailed me ;) *HUGS*

- Nishi

Sunday, April 3, 2005
12:18 p.m.

Hope ya'll put ur clocks 1 hour forward! :) I wound up sleeping in till 10am....I had every intention of jogging this morning but it was raining still......although now it's getting brighter....but now I don't wanna jog anymore :) hehehehehe :) oh wait it's getting back darker now - whew - don't feel guilty now.

I have 2 new favorite shows: "Hope and Faith" on ABC on Fridays at 9pm and "What I Like About You" on the WB Friday's at 8 (or 8:30). I was cracking UP watching Hope and Faith on Friday. I love Kelly Ripa. She's SUCH a good actress. I actually forGOT it was Kelly Ripa!

I wanna watch some new anime. I miss some good cute fun anime. I wanna get ahold of Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch. I think the manga ended in Nakayoshi.....

There are these 4 huge ducks sitting on the lawn outside my house......HUGE......maybe I should pretend to go duck hunting..... I took pictures of the lake outside the window here at my desk.....here's what it looks like:

The gold contraption you see in the bottom of the pic is a replica of an olden time's astronomer's tool. I have a lot of knick knacks and odds and ends.

I just went out to get the sunday newspaper and it's raining - YES! Don't have to jog! :D I'm so lazy today :) ok time to get moving. See ya'll later :) I'm gonna watch Desperate Housewives tonight at 9 on ABC and did you guys hear COLE's coming back to CHARMED next Sunday??? I have to set my vcr to record it! I LOVED Cole and thought Phoebe and he should've somehow stayed together and been a good true couple. Maybe there's still hope. Hmmmm.....

- Nishi

Saturday, April 2, 2005
10:45 p.m.

don't forget to set ur clocks forward 1 hour!

i'm sleepy....just had chamomile tea....talking to my friend Lydia online.....she's got a new boyfriend who's a total gentleman - he helps her put on her coat, opens doors for her, walks to her side of the car to open the door for her.......I have to go lecture Ricky now......saw the Kid's Choice Awards - green slime everywhere - I miss that show I used to watch as a kid: "You Can't Do that on Television" - that was fun stuff :)

time to sleep - it's 10:40pm but it's actually 11:40 with Day Light Savings time now! I need to get up early tomorrow and jog for an hour and do a very grueling bikini body workout! It involves 200 crunches - middle and each side, and 6 other ab workouts of 60 repetitions each all for the middle and both sides - I want toned obliques and mid-section and also involves a ton of hip, buttocks and thigh exercises as well as 200 push ups and 200 dips to tone my arms. My goal is to have my perfect body back by June 21! :D ok time to sleep. Night everyone and big hugs to JADE, SARAH BETH, MEMORY, MIYU-CHAN and I'll respond to any msgs tomorrow :)

- Nishi

Saturday, April 2, 2005
02:56 p.m.

good lord what is up with my site's servers! today is a very rainy and dark day - quite beautiful actually. I went to bed early last night and heard the rain when I woke up sometime around 3 a.m. - it was hurtling against the side of the house and on 3 of my windows....so spooky! It's now 3pm and it's so dark out! The lake outside is placid....the trees are still stark and barren-looking although hopefully in a couple days they'll show large buds! I feel like I'm back in 7th grade in my home in Patterson, NY when the woods and dark rainy days always looked like this at our house.....feels like one of those 'haunted house story' days ;)

Spent the morning and early afternoon cleaning the house - mopping, sweeping, waxing the wood floors and finally cleaning the bathrooms. WHEW! I'm so tuckered out! I don't want to do anything else except curl up in bed with my magazines and books and read until tonight's KID'S CHOICE AWARDS at 8pm on Nickelodeon.

Yesterday was April 1 - April Fool's Day and at work we had 'clash day' where employees could dress up in mis-matched completely clashing clothes. Ya guys KNOW I'm a fashion maven but I picked out every print, stripe and check pattern in my closet that clashed and wore it under a black tench and when I got to work changed into mis-matched boots (one pink and one white). For my trouble I got 2nd place and $20! The winners were my friend Denny and this other girl from the 10th floor - Denny came in dressed CRAZY - he had boxers on over his pants, pyjama pants under them, a chinese hat with a long hair braid falling from it, tissue hanging out from his boxers in back and an umbrella and a bag with "dog poop" in it. Yeah. He got $50. Don't worry - next year if I'm still there I'm wearing polka dotted pants on April Fool's Day ;)

It's 4:30 pm now.....we just learned the Pope died.....it's so sad :( am watching the memorial on CBS....

I'll write more later tonight.

- Nishi

Wednesday, March 30, 2005
05:44 p.m.

home sweet home! what a gorgeous day today was!! 60 degrees, birds chirping, the woman on the subway who eyed my black sandals I wore in my excitement over spring and who, because of, I changed back into boots once I got to work. :D Wore my pretty white pants, and my pretty black poncho and got lovely complients all day! A poncho - worn correctly and complimentarily can make anyone look great no matter short or tall! And I'm short! :)

I left work early today because of a doctor's appointment. Everything's fine :D I'm now home and ready to relax! I'm gonna watch Nick & Jessica on MTV for the next like 3 hours and can't miss SIMPLE LIFE :) I read something really great about Paris Hilton in this month's Cosmopolitan Magazine: Paris doesn't drink much when she goes out - she's known for nursing one drink all night or drinking nonalcoholic bebverages because she wants to look good all night. I think that's very smart of her! I only drink 1 or 2 amaretto sours (you guys who drink know amaretto sours are sweet and not likely to get you drunk at all) and that's because I love sweet drinks :) I'm not a fan of getting soooo drunk - it sucks, makes you feel so out of it, you act like an idiot and you feel sick to ur stomach after the buzz wears off. Better to just drink and enjoy it for just that - a drink - and get a light buzz - nothing major! Anywayz, cheers to Paris for showing people how to be smart about drinking when you go out! And I don't care who chuckles at that or rolls their eyes wondering how I can say it - it's true!

Anywayz, the show's almost one so I'm gonna go have a night of relaxation. See ya'll later tonight or tomorrow :) Oh and Lorie I *do* love my phone BUT it's not as multifunctional as the pp6600! I want the slide-out keyboard and the screen to browse the web and send emails which is bigger and more web-browser compatible. Plus I *think* that's the one which has blue tooth capability which means I can have a wireless ear piece/mic on and the phone anywhere down and jog or whatever wireless and hands free ;) I'm all about multi-tasking and multifunctional technology ;)

- Nishi

Tuesday, March 29, 2005
10:33 p.m.

I used to always start my entries like that on here - especially in law school when I stayed up and did all-nighters studying and posted on my blog at like 11pm or 2am or as late as 4am ;)

Not in the writing mood tonight so am posting some fun things for your eyes:

I thought it was funny. Especially when some signers of the treaty talk the talk but don't walk and walk.

Rose is so me :D That's how I greeted Spring the other day - I heard birds everywhere and I was like 'awww birds! welcome back!' So when I saw Rose do this in the comic strip I was like OH MY GOD THAT'S ME!!!

Last, but not least - feast your eyes on the phone I shall buy very very very soon from SPRINT! :)

Go check it out at sprint.com :)

Tired so going to sleep. *HUGS* to Jade, Miyu-chan, Sarah Beth, Memory, Susan, Stephanie and Caro-chan! see everyone tomorrow :)

- Nishi

Monday, March 28, 2005
10:05 p.m.

where to begin today's entry......I'm enjoying a 'Dove Chocolate Flowers' chocolate treat right now....bought them along with the easter baskets for my cousins yesterday. After yesterday's entry, Papa and mummy and I piled into the car after mum made me change out of what I was wearing into something "nicer" even though I knew that at these family gatherings kids always played with me and would pull on my clothes and inevitably anything really nice would come back home with me looking more worn than it should! But I dutifully changed into this new lipstick red cardigan sweater I got from Victoria's Secret (their sexy boyfriend cardigan - it's SOOO nice :)) and my Kenneth Cole jeans and a white belt and my red skechers sneakers. Mummy was happy. I saw my little cousins Kriba (Kripa?) and Kevin (only 1.5 and 2 or 3 months respectively) and they're SO FREAKIN CUTE! Although Kriba is a handful! I now know what moms mean when they say they get a lot of exercise running around after their 2 year olds! ;) I followed that girl up and down the stairs a million times, ran after her whenever she wandered near the basement door stairs, had to run to stop her from ripping off all the leaves on the plants (which she did anyway the naughty girl!) but she was SOOOOOOOO cute and precious! I have a picture of her wearing my red skechers which fit her VERY well!! My small size 5 feet look almost right on an almost 2 year old - that's so not good. Ah well.

Then we went to the party house and I played with all my cousins. Manisha and Michael - thought only like 2 and 4 years are VERY mature and actually understand things on a very adult level - they are just too cute for words. My uncles are all very sweet and funny and I love them. It was really good seeing everyone. Downstairs, Mahima, Melvin and Megan (3 of my other cousins) and a bunch of their friends and I wound up playing games and played truth or dare. No joke. Seriously. And ya know what? It was FUN! I got Mahima to call up a guy her friend knew and pretend to talk "sexy" to him and make up a fake name and she did SUCH a good job!!! That girl can act! She's awesome. All my cousins are so much fun - I have 15 cousins on my mom's side and 11 on my dad's so 26 cousins in all and counting my 3 sisters and I - that makes 30 of us in all - I've got a great family.

We wound up staying there till 1am because my uncles got out the karoke machine and they and my dad and everyone - soooooo drunk - were singing and dancing till that late. I had to keep coming up and remind them "11pm....it's midnight....10 more minutes and we leave....twice...." I recorded their shannanigans! Was tres funny.

I got dared to reveal one of my most embarrassing moments and to do 'the robot' - that robot dance thing? I thought I did a great job but they said I looked really funny. hmph.

Anywayz, so sleepy....only 5 hours of sleep.....going to bed early tonight.

Booked a flight to L.A. for the weekend of April 8th. Can't wait. Sunny beaches here I come! :D Can't wait to wear my new swimsuits and/or bikinis! :D

Hot showers before bed make you so sleepy.....I took a long hot shower just now....slathered on that Oil of Olay treatment and eye serum too! I haven't seen that line again! WHEW! Time for sleep and to call and talk to my Ricky.

Jade I'll look for your email! *HUG* and ur not mean! :) Sarah Beth you got PAT to watch Barbie?? OH MY GOD! I got Ricky to watch Marmalade Boy and Kodocha and he loves those but I think he'd spontaneously combust if I made him watch Barbie as Rapunzel ;) Kudos to you and Pat! :) Azure Kaze ahhhhhh that's cool! I knew the blue part - it was the Kaze part I wasn't so sure about! Feb 1st? I'm Feb 6th! YAAAYY :) *HUGS*

Ok night everyone :)

- Nishi

Sunday, March 27, 2005
04:40 p.m.

Happy Easter everyone :) went to church this morning and afterwards, we all helped mum cook an easter lunch at home! Well not me really ;) I stayed upstairs and looked through my newest US Weekly! :D hehehe :D But I helped set the table! :) My sisters all just left around 2pm and now I'm waiting to go with my folks to our relatives for easter celebration in upstate NY. I hope we don't come back too late because I have work tomorrow morning.

I wonder if I should pick up last minute easter baskets from CVS or the local supermarket for all of my cousins upstate.....I have I think 4 families to buy for so I think 4 big baskets for each set is good.

Last night I watched Barbie - Fairytopia and it was such a cute movie! Although I was a little disappointed in how they painted the "evil" character Laverna - not allowing any redemption and just writing her off - they showed how she was never made to feel like she fit in and as a result turned to bad ways but one could see she wanted to be loved and that was why she was doing the "evil" things she was....also I thought Barbie's character Elina should've been revealed to be the Enchantress' daughter! :D That would've made it an even better story. But overall, good movie. If any of you out there like children's movies like I do and like the Barbie ones - rent "Barbie as Rapunzel" <-- SOOO GOOD and "Barbie of Swan Lake" <-- a TAD tedious at some points but still good overall and "Barbie in the Nutcracker" and "Barbie in the Princess and the Pauper" - both good but the Rapunzel one is my favorite! :)

Ok I need to start getting ready now. Maybe make myself a cup of tea or hot chocolate before I go - this house is so COLD! It's a very cold Easter this year. Gosh I can't wait for warm spring days already! But before I go - msgs to friends: Azure Kaze hi :) aww thank you very much!! Casablancas has a broken link? UGH! Geez louise! I'll have to fix it next weekend - thank you for letting me know :) Where is your nick name from? Ya know in that 'Fairytopia' movie I saw - one of the main character's names was Azura :) LIZ I'm there! I'm SOOOOOOOO there :D thank you!!!! We should totally meet up! Miyu-chan they're gorgeous!!!! I wish I could get my dvd thing to work right with my paintshoppro so I could take a snap of the scene I like so much myself! For some reason when I try to do a screencapture, paintshoppro keeps playing the movie selection and I can't actually capture the image even if I pause it. *shrug* Memory unfortunately, I totally forgot to research Egypt for you :( I'm sorry :( I'll look into it more this week! I still think you will be fine if you go :) *HUG* Jade hi :) I still don't know where you blog and you should totally email me the url ya know! I won't link to it or post it anywhere. :) Josh Hoffman wow! thanks! :)

I'm off - I've been blogging for almost 20 minutes! Ciao all :)

- Nishi

Saturday, March 26, 2005
11:38 p.m.

Happy Easter everyone :)

what a weekend so far!! I've been so immersed in family life since Friday morning I've forgotten everything else! Friday morning we all got up early and went to church upstate and lord was it a long service with like a million kurielaisons! But it felt good to sing the old songs and because I've been singing so much lately and really stretching and using my vocal chords, they've become SO much stronger and I was really belting songs out nicely :D I was listening to my sisters too - Mekha has a very pretty voice and Nithi surprised me - she never really sings but for a moment there I caught her in an unguarded moment and she has such a strong beautiful voice! I wish I could get them all to really practice and use their voice - I bet they could sing amazingly! I can't be the only one of my sisters who can sing! I saw so many of my cousins and family friends there - service began at 9am and wasn't over until 4pm! After visiting with family for appam and pal (traditional Maundry Thursday meal) and watching a little of a coopy of 'Bride and Prejudice' one of my cousins had obtained (it's SOOOOOOOO corny and I think it'd have been better all in hindi instead of 'english-ized/americanized/westernized' but Aishwarya was awesome as always) well after all that we didn't get home till late at night.

Today - I took my family in the afternoon to see Ringling Bros & Barnum & Bailey Circus at Madison Sq. Garden! We had so much fun! I even got a large plush elephant, a whirlamajigger that lights up and spins, and a decorated horse mug that was filled to the top with a snow cone :) I acted just like a little kid - I said 'HEY' and 'JUMP' and sang along and everything - the best parts were with the horses, the elephants, the acrobats, and the comedian guy and the acrobat in the cylinders they spun around in the air and spun inside of - it was so scary when they climbed on top - we thought they'd fall! Everybody loved it and we all had a great time :)

Today's Review of a Nail Salon: ANGEL TIPS
The only bad part of today was getting the WORST manicure/pedicure of my LIFE! I went to ANGEL TIPS here in New Rochelle and I had the worst manicurist/pedicurist - she (1) didn't pumice my feet - in fact all she did was put them in water, file, trim cuticles, and then lotion - nothing else - no pumice, no actual cleaning of the feet - I saw the 2 other ladies there pumicing and after she lotioned my feet and I realized she hadn't pumiced I was like 'ummm you didn't pumice?' she looked all 'oh I forgot' and acted as if she'd go get a pumice stone but I told her it was ok now that she'd lotioned but "next time"..... I was willing to forgive her at that point but THEN (2) in my manicure she pulled the skin off my inner thumb and made it bleed and it still hurts (3) filed my nails all wrong and with various lengths, unmatching and (4) her polish job sucked in places where she didn't put enough polish and thought she'd 'fixed' it by placing some nail polish remover on the area and wiping it in such a way as that should be enough. At one point I told her, in a VERY nice way (but my sister said she heard me and thought I sounded like a biiiaaatch! I sooo wasn't! I thought I had used my kind but firm voice!) and told her that she was filing wrong and not checking to see nails were all matching in length. What was I supposed to do? Sit silent and endure a horrible manicure and meekly pay over $22 + the $6 tip she didn't deserve? I refused to be docile and instead spoke up! She was bordering on horrible. Unsanitary too. Her equipment wasn't sterlized and was all in one tray and when she took the cuticle clippers out she didn't spray alcohol on them, didn't clean them - nothing. I should've walked out then and there but I had also taken my sister Mekha there and she had a wonderful lady do her feet and hands. Maybe I got the worst lady in there. Maybe everyone else is GREAT and cleans their equipment and KNOWS how to do a proper pedicure and manicure. The girl I got really didn't.

Somehow, today was not my day with service people - even on line at MSG to buy a drink with a tiger cup on it this lady said 'next on line' and I told her my request - square in the eye - and she instead took the request of the person behind me. I was like 'WTF!' and moved over to the guy next to her (after giving her a semi-dirty look) and placed my order with him. My thumb is still all red and it hurts! Stupid salon.

But still - good Easter so far! Aside from a lousy salon and a lousy service woman.

I have to get up very early tomorrow morning for church service so must get to bed now. Will respond to all msgs tomorrow :) Night!!

- Nishi

Wednesday, March 23, 2005
11:32 p.m.

wrinkles, scented bowling balls, the universe & God - geez louise what DON'T I talk about in here!

I'm getting back into my beauty routine! All these late-late nights of recording and engineering for my cd and only 5 hours of sleep or less have taken a HUGE toll on my eyes and skin - I think I might actually have *sob* a wrinkle! This morning on the drive to the train station, I opened up the mirror thing in - what's that thing called in the car that you pull down when the sun is hitting you straight in the face to prevent the sun glare - well that and I saw a LINE under my right eye! A LINE! I was like what the hell IS THAT!? AGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I don't KNOW if it's a real wrinkle or not cause I just inspected my skin now with my magnifying mirror and couldn't spot a line anywhere but I swear it was there this morning! So I have a plan! Every night for the next 30 days I shall dutifully slather the skin around my eyes with Origins' Nightamins Eye Cream or Oil of Olay's Eye Serum and during the day I shall use Nivea Q10 Anti-Wrinkle eye cream thing with SPF 4! I'm 28 dude! I'm WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too young for wrinkles!! And I'm gonna keep it that way! I have perfect skin! I'm very proud of it! I work hard to keep my skin gorgeous even though I abuse it with late nights and I don't moisturize as much as I preach to others to. I was blessed with great genes from mummy and papa (they have like no wrinkles and they're 53!) and I refuse to have wrinkles! I hope it's not a wrinkle. I hope, I hope, I hope. Meanwhile I'm not, like, gonna move my eyes at ALL. Hard to do cause I'm quite expressive with my eyes - I tell STORIES with them - they travel all over the place when I'm excitedly talking. I can't help it. Why do I always use the word 'like' in my sentences? So anywayz, I slathered my eyes with Origins' eye cream and the rest of my face with Oil of Olay Total Effects Intensive Restoration Treatment with retinol. 8 weeks of using that baby and my skin will look as good as NEW. Yes sireee bob. I just looked again - no wrinkles. Good. If I wake up tomorrow and pull down the car mirror and see one again I swear I'll scream bloody murder.

So I heard on Live with Regis and Kelly that some folks have came out with scented bowling balls. They come in cinnamon, orange, amaretto and cherry and other flavors. Kelly said it best: who the heck sniffs their bowling balls anyway? Amen sister! (or Amen Sistah! I can talk black! *inside joke with my friend Kristen* She says I can't talk black and I said I so can! Isn't it obvious? I wonder if someone is going to get offended that I said 'black' and 'talking black' - I'm a colored minority too - I don't mean any disrespect - no disrespect yo! Agh who am I kidding, I seriously can't talk black.) Other interesting tid bits: unclaimed baggage from airplane flights at this place in Alabama - they found the following things - a 41 carat emerald, a replica of a full suit of armor and a mummified falcon and shrunken head. Yup. Uh huh. Ya wonder why these things went unclaimed although I'll take the 41 carat emerald :D Shrunken heads though? EWWWWWWWWWW!!! I saw this thing on Ripley's Believe it or Not on how they make shrunken heads - ugh! Let's just say it involved removing bones and a lot of boiling. EWW! EWW!! EWW! And last thing I found interesting: this 8-months pregnant russian woman went into labor during a parachite jump from an airplane. She jumped out of the pain, and wham - went into labor - thousands of feet above ground. WHAT WAS SHE THINKING even flying at 8 months??? Amazing the stuff I hear.

Speaking of amazing - I watched David Letterman last night and BRIAN GREENE was on it!!!! I saw him speak live at the Isaac Asimov debate last year at the Hayden Planetarium and I thought he was SOOOOOOOOO cute! I have his book 'The Elegant Universe' and am a strong advocate for the string theory the book is about - string theory is the theory proposed for what is the actual make up every atom, quark - every THING in this universe - it's this vibrating packet of energy. Too much to explain here but he has a new book 'Fabric of the Cosmos' I'm going to get. So last night on Letterman he talked a lot about the origins of the universe, and how the universe didn't begin with just the 'big bang' - the big bang happened a split second after whatever was the actual THING that started it all. I think the THING was God. I believe God exists and I believe He is a conscious entity that is in EVERYTHING - all over the universe. I believe he *is*, on some level, in everything - a consciousness that exists in everything on a minute level. Like - I'm not saying that this desk is alive or anything. I'm just saying its atoms, its particles are the same things that we're made of too - we're all made of the same protons, electrons, we all came from one original source and we're all interconnected and He is the interconnecting thing....with a consciousness that propels the exapansion of the universe, propels laws of physics etc. I believe HE is the source of our universe and as the source, is the material this whole universe and ourselves are made of - that is why he is everywhere and all around. I think when we're aware of the existence of God as a consciousness, a conscious entity that is out there, and we reach out to Him, to speak to Him, he DOES hear us and does work miracles to help us. I believe in Him - he has always answered my prayers and on the few times where I didn't get what I wanted, I knew deep down it wasn't His fault or that it wasn't because He didn't want me to have it but there are things He can't change and one of those things is human will and human choice.

Anyway, to ensure I don't get wrinkles tomorrow I'm going to go to sleep now. I'm already up later than I should be considering that I'll be back at the engineering studio in NJ tomorrow night. Time for sleep. G'night everyone and *HUGS* to all who left me msgs on the comment box - I responded to all msgs from yesterday in the entry below! Will respond to newer ones tomorrow or Friday :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, March 22, 2005
08:52 p.m.

evening folks :) I'm a very happy girl tonight - I ordered some stuff from bodyc.com and LOVE what I bought! The clothes were only $15 or $17 a piece and look SOOO gorgeous on! I have all the club and casual summer attire I need now. However, I also got my order from Victoria's Secret and was sorely disappointed. Am returning EVERYTHING from VC except a red cardigan sweater. I hope the bikinis I ordered for the summer are much better!

I'm getting ready for Easter Sunday - going to get baskets, green grass, egg coloring kits, creme-filled chocolate eggs - the works! :) We're going to family for the day so it should be a lot of fun! :)

I can't wait for this Saturday cause I have tickets to take my entire family to see the Ringling Bros Barnum & Bailey Circus at Madison Sq. Garden!!!! :D I haven't seen a real circus since I was a kid! Can't wait wait wait! :) ok time to respond to my friends' msgs:

Tanja thank you very much! *HUGS* Caro-chan awww thank you!! Story will be ready after this Thursday :D Pooza hi there :) checked out ur blog and love it :) Liz G. WAI!!! June??? I want to go!!! Where do I order online tickets? :D What was in the goodie bag they gave you? Diana Cho awww *HUGS* thank you very much! So glad you found my site and so happy you like UsagiandMamoru.com :D It's my favorite site ;) It's very nice to meet you! Susan turns out my cousin is marrying a guy who's pentecostal and so her engagement night/pre-wedding night party are the last times she'll wear jewelry!!! Malayalee Pentecostals don't believe in wearing jewelery - has to do with how the love of jewelry can lead to vanity or preoccupation with material things instead of complete dedication and service to the Lord. So can't get her jewelry! No idea what to get her now!

memory *HUGS* Egypt! I've always wanted to go!! Egypt is as safe as any place to travel provided you stay at reputable places and go with people you can trust. It's no more dangerous than any other popular foreign travel destination although I'd advise that you read up on local culture and customs before you go because some places might have rules on what women are supposed to be wearing while there. Where in Egypt are you going? Egypt has the same kind of reputation as NYC - people are more scared about the hype of murders and burglary etc etc and when they get here they wind up seeing it was all nothing and that majority of that stuff happened long, long ago. One word of caution - Americans aren't well-liked anywhere we travel these days so I wouldn't advertise you're American. If you're worried, I advise getting in touch with the U.S. Embassy in Egypt and get their advise on friendly/safe places to stay, visit and what areas to avoid. Try to keep a low profile and you should be fine :) That's everything I can think of. I'll do a little research this weekend for you and see what I can come up with :) *HUGS*

Miyu-chan YES YES YES :) PLEASE :D :D :D :D be83398@yahoo.com :D :D :D :D *HUGS* I adore you :) Sarah Beth sawahhhhhhhhhh *HUGS* I know how busy you are babe!! It's ok! But keep me aprised of the wedding details! And thank you for your prayers for my cd!! You are SO AWESOME! I can't wait to see you married!!!! *HUGS* Jade LL Cool J has a song called 'Hush' too? Doesn't surprise me - 'Hush' is a pretty popular song title - I think the Cranberries or Cardigans had that as a title to one of their songs and I remember another artist too. Doesn't matter - you can name your songs whatever you want but it sucks if a song with your title becomes very popular and then you try to promote YOUR song with the same title and everyone's like 'oh THAT one? No I meant THIS one.....' just confusing. I hope that doesn't happen with me! @_@ I mean if my songs ever get radio play....*prays very hard* Stephanie *HUGS* thank you :) How're you? What's new on your end? Jitendra right back at ya dude! :D

Tom why thank you very much! But I already do make someone happy - his name is Ricky :D Joanna Glasner I've sent you an email - would love to respond to your question on evite :) Gabrielle first off, *BIG HUGS* :) I applaud you for loving God and being so spiritual! And I also applaud you for trying to steer clear of trouble. Can you tell me how those people in school are bothering you exactly? If they're being mean to you, calling you names, there's not much you can do without looking like a tattle tale. The best way to deal with those things is to avoid the jerks and pray to God really hard for peace for yourself and that those jerks stop bothering you. However, if they're getting physical with you - hitting you or anything, alert a teacher you trust right away. I can't really advise you unless you tell me exactly how those girls are bothering you. You can email me at be83398@yahoo.com and I'll give you better advice there. There's no reason for you to write your whole story here and have the world read it. *HUGS* Be strong. I'll say a prayer for you too.

ok guys, I have to eat dinner and go to sleep soon. See ya'll tomorrow! :)

- Nishi

Monday, March 21, 2005
08:50 p.m.

spring is here :D yaaaayyy :) actually, I feel like I didn't get to enjoy the snow enough this year - not one snowman or snowball fight and not enough time spent indoors watching the snow fall and drinking cocoa. But I *have* had enough of the darn cold! I wish it could snow without being so freezing cold.

I didn't go to work today (family emergency - won't tell the details here but everything's fine now) and spent the day cleaning the house. Productive. My whole closet is totally organized now and my room is neat and tidy. But whatever you do, don't look under the bed or in my desk drawers cause that's where I stashed most of the mess :D hehehe :D I'll clean out under the bed and the drawers another day cause I'm tuckered out!

so tired and sleepy....gotta get a good night's sleep to be ready for work tomorrow. Heading down to eat dinner with the family. No time to respond to msgs tonight but I shall respond tomorrow *HUGS* to all! and good night :)

- Nishi

Sunday, March 20, 2005
07:28 p.m.

i was going through my list of songs - compiling what'd been finished and what still needed to be completed (I finished today the celtic ballad 'Vercingetorix' I started last summer) and came across a song I wrote about Ricky back in the fall of 2001 or spring of 2002 called 'Is There Hope for Us?' and it's this soulful song about how much ricky and I went through in the beginning of our relationship (a lot of fights) and it was very R&B and soul - I think it's more soul actually - but I'd scrapped it not finished it because I thought it was too depressing. But when I sing it, it shows an amazing range of my vocals - a lot of my songs I sing at a very comfortable, soft and pretty spot and only on the really painful songs do I belt stuff out - this is a painful song so I'm like yelling at the top of my lungs. I sang it now and it's amazing how much I've improved vocally in 3-4 years. I hit amazing notes that I hadn't before. Wonder if I can record an acapella of this for the demo. I'm going to. It'll give listeners a good feel for my range of vocals and range of material I'm capable of.

So now on the album I'll have a good range of material: rock, pop, alternative, indian, celtic/new age and soul. Very good I think and it's a good reflection of me and who I am - everything I love and am about.

I still haven't cleaned the bathroom or my room yet. Gotta get started now.

- Nishi

Sunday, March 20, 2005
12:18 p.m.

happy sunday everyone! I am SO HAPPY!!!! :D So remember on Friday I wrote I was worried about my vocals? Yesterday I went out to NJ to record the vocals for Oblivion and my GOD I did it :) I totally redeemed myself :) I hit every high note - and on the final chorus where I have to hit SO HIGH - it took I think 15 minutes of work or more and drinking hot water - but I finally nailed it! Harmonies, back ups, all of it recorded beautifully :D I love my voice :) I'm so happy with my vocal abilities :) EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D I'm just very proud of myself that I was able to hit that high vocally and hold it too! :) I go back to the studio Thursday night to work on engineering 3 of the songs, and we finish Oblivion one day after that. And that's it!! Mastering, cd design, make a bunch of copies (which is going to cost a small fortune), put it up on cdbaby.com and shop the cds around to labels and I'll start performing the material live sometime soon.

It's a dreary day outside but I'm a happy camper. Going to clean my room, clean the bathroom, work on my finances and work on some motions I need to finish.

Will respond to all msgs later tonight :) *HUGS* to all :)

- Nishi

Friday, March 18, 2005
11:47 p.m.

home at last.....worried about my songs...worried about my vocals...worried if I can really sing tomorrow's song beautifully - I just did a horrible test/scratch/reference at Ash's place for me to use to rehearse for tomorrow's session - I was so flat and it sounded so gross :( What's WRONG with my voice!? Why can't I make it do what I want it to do every time!? And yet when I was waiting for a taxi tonight at 11:30, I decided to give it a go and whadya know - I was able to sing so beautifully. I have to make sure I sing just like that tomorrow when we cut the vocals for Oblivion - that song is DYANMITE. GOLD! AMAZING.

Went to court today and was so tired because I came back from the engineer's studio very late last night and barely slept a wink all night. We cut harmonies on 'Hush' and it's beautiful but the song feels like it's got everything + the kitchen sink in it. I have to trim it down and make sure the lead vocals shine and that nothing overpowers or fights with them - there's heavy guitars and like a billion vocals I did that I want to have IN there. I might have to make the unwanted and very tough call of just not using some of the beautiful stuff I recorded. I hate that. I want to use everything. But I'll see.

I should cut my self slack - I haven't slept more than 5 hours each in the past 5 days so my body and vocals and everything are tired so I shouldn't expect myself to hit my normal tones and heights etc......but still.....I hardly think Christina Aguilera or Celine Dion have an off day! I think I should start taking voice lessons formally. I tried 2 one-hour sessions back in 2003......but I didn't have the time and money to really do it......I know for a fact that when you regularly take voice lessons your voice improves 10-fold because you actually learn how to sing BETTER and the warm ups and techniques to make your natural talent shine on demand. I want that - on demand.

Good news - I'm getting a program called PRO TOOLS - it's what Ashish and the engineers use to produce music. I'm going to use it, my trusty violin and my hopefully-soon-to-be-on-demand vocals (LOL! :)) to record references of exactly how my songs should sound to help future producers I may work with to do the rest of my songs.

It's midnight and I have an early-afternoon session to do the vocals so let me sleep so I can get up in 8 hours and start my own vocal exercises and rehearse so I'm ready. I'm going to do my BEST JOB. I want to redeem myself.

I'll respond to all msgs tomorrow night or Sunday.

- Nishi

Wednesday, March 16, 2005
12:09 p.m.

hi peeps :) this morning was a monstrosity. I had court again today in Kings County Brooklyn Supreme and the 4,5, and 6 trains weren't running so I wound up taking and transfering onto all these trains and wound up in Atlantic Avenue, Brooklyn and had to take a train back down to where the courts were. I still made it to court by 9:30 which is when calendar calls start. Whew. After court, my friend Ed took me to Hale & Hearty where i paid a very expensive amount of money for a soup and sandwich combo. Sheesh. After grabbing a white chocolate mocha from starbucks I headed on back to work and here I am. Thank God for Starbucks.

I'm wearing these amazing yellow/brown suede calf-length boots that I got at a 'Shoe Mania' on 34th Street for only $50 on sale - they're Viga Spiga (one of my favorites!) and even with 4.5" heels and walking around a LOT i'm not in as much pain as I *thought* I'd be ;)

Alex *HUG* hi :) I won't be putting the music on this journal - this journal isn't my site really ;) it's just a journal host. It'll be located off of miakaandtamahome.com or usagiandmamoru.com or I might just go and buy my own domain which is what I think I should do because I don't want my music to be found through my anime/manga websites. I've put the book aside for now - it was a 5 or 6 book series on the legend of Atlantis and the 1st book covered Aztec, Incan and Mayan mythology ;) Book 2 covers greece and then book 3 India ;) I need to focus right now on music 100% and the book after that. Jade *HUG* you'll hear it I promise :D Caro-chan what'd u think of Nightingale? :) Ebe I got ur emails again - sorry I haven't responded - I'm very bad about replying to emails so just be patient - I swear I'll get to it ;)

I gotta get back to work now. See ya'll later :)

- Nishi